[A/N STUPID MEEEEEEE!!! How could I forget that Quistis has blue eyes??? GRRR! I changed it now and anyway thanks to: Intel Inside Pentium 4 for telling me. slaps forehead]

Undiscovered Light

Seifer

I stared at the glistening sea in front of me, waiting hopefully for a fish to bite. I needed to know at least that I could do something right.

I kept staring until in the mixed sounds of the sea, waves crashing, and seagulls, I heard someone cheering, "Yeah!!! Check it out, Fu! My 3rd fish!" Raijin yelled and waved his fish in the air.

"Shut up!" I felt like yelling. Instead, the feelings of regret, anger and the pain of being a failure at life got to me and I slammed the fishing rod onto the deck as hard as I could. I saw a crack beginning to form.
Fu saw me all angry and in an attempt to calm me down, she kicked Raijin into the sea, his newly caught fish taken with him.

In spite of myself, I laughed. I laughed to hard that my shoulders shook. Laughing in the past few days had been unknown to me unless it was a laugh of mockery. This time it wasn't.

"You're all washed up, Raijin." I said under my breath as he tried to get back up.

A shadow came above me and I looked up abruptly.

I saw the Garden. Balamb Garden. My home. Or at least it used to be. Hell, I'll miss that place, I thought.

I smiled, all my thoughts, all my sorrows, all the incidents that had happened in Balamb Garden slowly passed over me in the form of a shadow. I wanted to see those at least one more time.

"Fu, Raijin... I think I'll take a trip back to Balamb Garden. Just for a visit."

"So here I am..." I sighed, defeated. "For maybe the last time."

That's it. It's over. I've got no where else to go except Balamb. Balamb Garden was my home and now it's officially free of that burden.

All those people... All my 'friends'... If I had any. Raijin and Fujin are with me.

Well, there was Zell... I don't know if he passes, there was Leonheart... If he'd actually consider me as a friend... and there was Rinoa.

I paused at that thought.

Rinoa was a true friend. Maybe more... She listened, she smiled, she helped. She was great. And now she's a memory. A memory... Just a memory. No longer there with me in the present.

There was Quistis.

Another thought I paused at.

Quistis was okay. Well, she was more than that. She wanted to help me, didn't she? All those classes, tutorials, lessons...

That day of the SeeD exam... when Cid and Xu told me I wouldn't be one after my actions...

Leonheart walked away without anything, anger, even a little laugh on my expense. He just didn't care.

Quistis though...

"Seifer...? Why aren't you upstairs yet?" She said, her voice showed at least the tiniest bit of sympathy for me. "Didn't you hear the announcement?"

"We both know there wouldn't be any point, don't we, Instructor?" I asked. My voice lacked confidence, I felt defeated. I felt like a child. A boy.

"Oh, come on, Seifer." This time she showed frustration instead of pity. "Why are you doing this to yourself? You could've been a SeeD. Even I can admit that. That thing stopping you is the fact that you didn't try. You let your... your... your pride, your ego get in the way." She glared at me with determined and somehow comforting blue eyes. Her eyes were amazing. They always showed real emotion. I've always noticed that about her.

"You're doing this for the glory." She glared at me once more. "Well, if you want to do this, for just the glory even, then instead of stopping yourself and making yourself look like a fool because of your pride, why don't you try giving it your all. You've got the potential, you just don't have the heart."

After a moment, I grinned. I actually grinned at her words. They were true. And besides, it scored a surprised look from Trepe.

"Why don't you just give up on me, Instructor?"

She stared at me again with those eyes. "Because I am an Instructor. And I believe in my students."

With that, she walked away, her words forever leaving a mark on my mind.

She believed in her students. I was her student, right? But I was no longer.
I stared at my old home once more and turned around to leave.

No one would want me there... No one would even go near me... Not one person cared. Not one believed.

Before I even took a step, I heard sounds behind.

I moved closer, only to see familiar blue eyes staring at me just like before.