Letters 5.

It was three weeks before Willow heard from Spike again, she had thought that she'd either annoyed him with her accusation or that she had been right and he was just using her for information. The thought saddened her, it had been nice to have such a confident but she didn't want to give away the Slayers weak spots. She could really have used someone to talk to right about now, what with everything that was going on.

Which is why a huge smile broke out when she opened the post to find a letter with a postmark from Colombia.

Red.

First off, I'm pissed and hurt that you'd think that I was using you for information. The demon grapevine works well love. I thought you'd want to chat. I don't care about the sodding Slayer except that she is obviously hurting you pet. I like you and dammit I miss you too, although if you ever tell anyone I said that I'll hunt you down and torture and turn you, and if anyone ever sees this letter- I'll just kill them and everyone you care about okay?

Secondly, your letter made me laugh like a crazy bloke; I never knew you had such a wicked sense of humour pet, I love it. It matches mine almost totally. I like the sound of the new Watcher and the way you describe him; he sounds a lot more fun than Giles. You haven't half been having a time of it, haven't you pet? What with the Hellmouth and then the nightmares and all. I wish I could be there for you or at least smack some sense into those friends of your to stop them being so damn oblivious. But you should tell the Slayer how you feel, you shouldn't let things fester. Tell her exactly what you told me.

Thirdly, I'll be staying in Columbia for a while travelling south, I looked for someplace to stay during the day and there were two real choices- The Dawn Avenida 19 hotel in Bogotá or the Sol Caribe Providencia, so "Reconciled Dawn" or "Caribbean Sun"? Either way I'm toast. I'll take the Dawn; give me a chance to get indoors. (insert evil grin)

By the way thanks for such a nice long letter, it gave me something to read. I've been hanging out with some Vampire's here but seriously I have no idea why they were turned, thick as pig shit. I tell ya and ugly as a bunch of baby cabbage dolls- no actually you remember those trolls that were around a while back? The ones that everyone went mad on? The ones with the neon hair, that's what they remind me of.

It's nice to have intelligent conversation, that doesn't involve issues that died out when they did.

Finally, I'm serious about taking care of you pet, as far as I'm concerned you are MY witch, I realised your power, and I wanted you and kidnapped you first. If it hadn't been for that daft boy you had a thing for I'd have taken you then and there and don't forget it, just because I've not claimed you yet doesn't mean that you're not mine. You are and I protect what's mine. I will show you the world and take you everywhere, all the places I love. In England in a little town called Leicester which has some great ruins on a hill and beautiful valley that was so dangerous to swimmers that it had to be cordoned off, and there's a place in Nottingham that has a truly spectacular fireworks fair with a carnival and all. France has the most beautiful castle's and there is one called the Chateau de Chambord which does this night show where they use laser lights to project images on the walls and turrets; you are really dancing among the stars and then standing in a paradise along with Adam and Eve and then Butterflies dance and Zodiac signs all swirl. It's magical and I realise that I sound like a ponce but I want to show you all these sights Willow.

Spike.

Willow let go of a breath she didn't realise she'd been holding and let a big smile cross her features. Spike liked her and missed her. She missed him so much and felt the same and wanted her to be his. It felt nice to be wanted by a guy, since Oz no one had really looked at her. Not that there was anyone she wanted to look but it would be nice. Well actually Devon had said hey a few times but that was because she used to be Oz's girlfriend- right?

The words Spike used to describe what he wanted to show her had literally taken her breath away, she could imagine being in all the places she read about and imagined being there with Spike by her side holding her hand showing her them, she ached to be with him.

As for Spike's advice about telling Buffy, maybe he was right. They needed to talk. She shouldn't let things go on like this. A tap at her window made her look up, it was Buffy. She looked kinda sad.

"Hey." Buffy said softly

"Hey." Willow replied nervously, she had to do what Spike said and make things right.

"I need to talk to you." Oh thank goodness, Buffy felt it too.

"Good." She moved as Buffy came in and closed the door "Cause I've been letting things fester." She noticed that she had left Spike's letter on the bed and moved to hide it from her friend "And I don't like it." She sat down hiding the letter from Buffy's view "I want to be fester-free."

Buffy gave a weak smile "Yeah. Me, too."

Willow stood up making sure the letter was nowhere to be seen "I mean, don't get me wrong. I-I completely understand why you and Faith have been doing the bonding thing. You guys work together. You…you should get along."

Buffy frowned "It's a little more complicate than that."

Willow was hurt "But, see, it's that exact thing that-that's just ticking me off! It's this whole "Slayers only" attitude. I mean, since when wouldn't I understand? You, you talk to me about everything. I-it's like all of a sudden I'm not cool enough for you because I can't kill things with my bare hands."

To Willow's abject horror Buffy burst into tears- no that wasn't right, was Spike wrong? Was she bad?

"Oh! Oh, Buffy don't cry." She grabbed her friend and hugged her "I'm sorry. I –I was too hard on you. Sometimes I unleash. I- I don't know my own strength. I-it's bad, I –I-I'm bad. I'm a bad, bad, bad person."

She peered at Buffy who gulped and then answered tearfully

"Will, I'm in trouble."

Spike

Life keeps getting weirder here. The new Slayer- Faith? Well she was out on Patrol with Buffy and she staked a guy only he turned out to be a human. So Faith is a murderer and then she tried to pin it on Buffy by lying to Giles. Xander went to talk to her but she tried to kill him, until Angel caught her ad chained her up at his place. Wesley ordered the Council's operatives to catch Faith and take her back to England for a disciplinary hearing so they abducted her from Angels place and beat him up but she escaped and then Buffy found her trying to leave. They fought some Vampires but Buffy got trapped and Faith stayed to help. She's returned to us but something is off about her. I mean she lied to Giles, beat Wesley and Buffy and tried to kill Xander. Oh I don't know why I'm trying to be all brave about this, do you remember me telling you about the opening of the Hellmouth? Well when that happened we told Xander to stay out of the way, he did and ended up sleeping with Faith. It hurts Spike and I don't know why it hurts. I mean I broke up with him and I don't love him anymore so why do I want to cry every time I think about it? I feel so bad, and I …hate Faith. I hate her and I've never hated anyone before in my life- not even Cordelia. Oh she's so hurt by this, Xander cheated on her with Faith and she's a mess. I don't think anyone else knows but I feel bad for her. But Spike I really think that if Faith died I would be happy. Does that make me evil? Oh God I wish you were here to talk to. I'm going to stop obsessing about this right now.

I can't believe I'm nearly out of high school I graduate soon! My parents won't be there to see it but they were never there anyway, so no big. Plus I get a big check from them so that's a bonus. But Prom before that, no date but then I wont be the only one… I hope. Oz is going but not with Amy because she's still a rat, I think he asked Aura to go with him, he's big on the groupies now- did I say thank you for making me break up with him? If not then THANK YOU. Buffy is hoping Angel will take her. Xander is trying to make it up with Cordelia but I think she has the hots for the new Watcher and let me tell you how many ways that is wrong! Besides if Xander doesn't make up with Cordelia, that new girl Anya likes him, you know the one that gave me the creeps? And oh then there's Faith. Yeah let's not go there.

Thanks for your letter, it made me feel so good to know that there is someone out there who cares about me and wants me with them, I would love to see all the sights that you described but only if you're there with me, I wouldn't feel the Magic unless you were there. You don't sound like a ponce because well, for one I don't know what that is and for two it sounds great. I'm glad that we share the same sense of humour, it's important for friends to share some things. Buffy and Xander don't get my sense of humour; they think I'm being serious. They always expect me to be the sweet one when occasionally I can be callous and strange, like I like to take marshmallows on patrol so we can toast them over the demon's when we burn their corpses. They look at me horrified. I was actually flattered that you called my YOUR witch, but for the sake of feminism I felt I must protest, token protest over so thank you- I just hope Ms Pankhurst isn't too mad at me. I like how you keep finding "themed" hotels, what are you going to do now you are in Brazil, do you have any idea on how to find Drusilla? I know that this is long but you did say you liked that, plus yours was a great long letter.

Talk to you soon

Willow.