He Hates Me, But I Don't Care... Really
Summary: Spike reflects about Angel's feelings towards him and gives up. And Angel happens to be in Sunnydale to check up on him. Angel/Spike
A/N: All you need to know is that Spike doesn't have any feelings towards Buffy. This is probaly around Season 5 some where, but no big trouble. This fic is just based on Spike and Angel. First two chapters are Spike's thoughts.
a/n- this is my first fic I'm putting up so you all better enjoy and send lots and lots of pretty reviews. Hope you like it. ~~~~~~~~~~
Chapter1
He hates me, I know he does. And it hurts more then any amount of torture. No matter how hard I try to get his approval, he always turns away from. So, I've become quite the actor. Every day I act like it doesn't matter he left so long ago, that I don't care about being so lonely. And I pretend I don't that care that he never wondered if I was okay or not. So he thinks I hate hum in return. This way he can't hurt me, anymore then he already has. And it's fine I swear. I really don't care that the person I love most hates me with everything he is.
I swear it doesn't break my heart to see the coldness in his eyes directed towards me, and knowing that he loves another isn't slowly killing me.
I think I should get a grammy for my performences actually. Everyone knows me as the Big Bad, the bleached vampire who feels nothing for "Peaches". One big lie, it is.
What probaly hurts the most is that he broke our Sire/Childe bond. He hates me so much that he didn't want any connection to me at all. He wouldn't even care if I suddenly just disappeared into dust one day. So I told all his human "friends" that Dru was my Sire, what a laugh. But I didn't want Angel to be embarrissed that he created something so disgusting.
And this is the story of my unlife. He stays far away from me and everyday I sit alone in this cold, dark crypt. And everynight I cry myself to sleep, but no one has to know that.
My name is Spike, and I'm in love with someone who hates. Any suggestions?
TBC ~~~~~~~~~~
Summary: Spike reflects about Angel's feelings towards him and gives up. And Angel happens to be in Sunnydale to check up on him. Angel/Spike
A/N: All you need to know is that Spike doesn't have any feelings towards Buffy. This is probaly around Season 5 some where, but no big trouble. This fic is just based on Spike and Angel. First two chapters are Spike's thoughts.
a/n- this is my first fic I'm putting up so you all better enjoy and send lots and lots of pretty reviews. Hope you like it. ~~~~~~~~~~
Chapter1
He hates me, I know he does. And it hurts more then any amount of torture. No matter how hard I try to get his approval, he always turns away from. So, I've become quite the actor. Every day I act like it doesn't matter he left so long ago, that I don't care about being so lonely. And I pretend I don't that care that he never wondered if I was okay or not. So he thinks I hate hum in return. This way he can't hurt me, anymore then he already has. And it's fine I swear. I really don't care that the person I love most hates me with everything he is.
I swear it doesn't break my heart to see the coldness in his eyes directed towards me, and knowing that he loves another isn't slowly killing me.
I think I should get a grammy for my performences actually. Everyone knows me as the Big Bad, the bleached vampire who feels nothing for "Peaches". One big lie, it is.
What probaly hurts the most is that he broke our Sire/Childe bond. He hates me so much that he didn't want any connection to me at all. He wouldn't even care if I suddenly just disappeared into dust one day. So I told all his human "friends" that Dru was my Sire, what a laugh. But I didn't want Angel to be embarrissed that he created something so disgusting.
And this is the story of my unlife. He stays far away from me and everyday I sit alone in this cold, dark crypt. And everynight I cry myself to sleep, but no one has to know that.
My name is Spike, and I'm in love with someone who hates. Any suggestions?
TBC ~~~~~~~~~~