Chapter 2
A/N: Hey, thanks for the reviews. This is my new chapter, be kind and review please. It makes me feel happy. Hope you like.
Spike's POV
Silence... That's all I hear now. That's what happens after being alone for so long. And I've been alone ever since Angelus left so long ago. I spent over a century watching the door, waiting for him to return to me. He won't come back though. I'm not worth it, not to him.
But now I've given up. I've finally given up watching the door. I'm done with waiting for him to run in and tell him how he's sorry and how he loves me. It's always been just a dream. Now I've actually given up on everything, including fighting the good fight. What's the point anyway, when you don't have anything to fight for?
I've even stopped feeding and leaving my crypt all together. I'm slowly fading away into the darkness. And I have officially given up on Angel. I always knew he wouldn't come back, just didn't want to admit it. So, no more trying to get his attention by being what I thought he wanted. When he first turned me I tried to be a good Childe to him. I listened to what he said and followed what he did. But he really didn't pay any attention to me. And I'm not looking for it anymore, his attention that is.
But I didn't just wake up and decide to give up, nope. My Sire was back in Sunnyhell this week and he didn't bother to let me know. I was walking around my cemetery looking for a fight when I saw them. My Sire was holding Buffy like she was the most precious thing in the world. It was just a hug, but it was more affection then he ever showed me. Just when I thought the pain in my unbeating heart couldn't get any worse.
So I walked back to my crypt and I've been here for about a week now, unmoving. Just lying in my bed thinking about everything I've done for him, what else I could have done. No more trying to get his approval, no more acting, and no more pain. Soon the darkness will enclose around me, and I will never have to open my eyes again. See, because I've starved myself this whole week. I didn't have the guts to burn in the sun or stake myself to dust, I was too afraid. So I decided to just let myself fall into the darkness. It's easier this way. I won't have to think about anything anymore. That means no more thoughts about Angel and his hatred. Just black.
It's already getting blurry. And I can feel the darkness starting to close in on me. And I let myself go once and for all. No more annoying vampire to bother anybody anymore. Everybody will be happier once I'm gone.
And now I leave this unlife the way I came in; unwanted and alone.
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TBC
A/N: Please review. In the next chapter it's Angel.
A/N: Hey, thanks for the reviews. This is my new chapter, be kind and review please. It makes me feel happy. Hope you like.
Spike's POV
Silence... That's all I hear now. That's what happens after being alone for so long. And I've been alone ever since Angelus left so long ago. I spent over a century watching the door, waiting for him to return to me. He won't come back though. I'm not worth it, not to him.
But now I've given up. I've finally given up watching the door. I'm done with waiting for him to run in and tell him how he's sorry and how he loves me. It's always been just a dream. Now I've actually given up on everything, including fighting the good fight. What's the point anyway, when you don't have anything to fight for?
I've even stopped feeding and leaving my crypt all together. I'm slowly fading away into the darkness. And I have officially given up on Angel. I always knew he wouldn't come back, just didn't want to admit it. So, no more trying to get his attention by being what I thought he wanted. When he first turned me I tried to be a good Childe to him. I listened to what he said and followed what he did. But he really didn't pay any attention to me. And I'm not looking for it anymore, his attention that is.
But I didn't just wake up and decide to give up, nope. My Sire was back in Sunnyhell this week and he didn't bother to let me know. I was walking around my cemetery looking for a fight when I saw them. My Sire was holding Buffy like she was the most precious thing in the world. It was just a hug, but it was more affection then he ever showed me. Just when I thought the pain in my unbeating heart couldn't get any worse.
So I walked back to my crypt and I've been here for about a week now, unmoving. Just lying in my bed thinking about everything I've done for him, what else I could have done. No more trying to get his approval, no more acting, and no more pain. Soon the darkness will enclose around me, and I will never have to open my eyes again. See, because I've starved myself this whole week. I didn't have the guts to burn in the sun or stake myself to dust, I was too afraid. So I decided to just let myself fall into the darkness. It's easier this way. I won't have to think about anything anymore. That means no more thoughts about Angel and his hatred. Just black.
It's already getting blurry. And I can feel the darkness starting to close in on me. And I let myself go once and for all. No more annoying vampire to bother anybody anymore. Everybody will be happier once I'm gone.
And now I leave this unlife the way I came in; unwanted and alone.
~~~~~~~~~~
TBC
A/N: Please review. In the next chapter it's Angel.