Chapter 5
A/N: Thanks to the two people who reviewed. Which was Tiger Tiger2 and RougeSpike. Thanks.
Here is my next chapter, Spike and Angel finally talk. You'll see; enjoy.
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Spike's POV
I finally wake up and realize two things. First, that I'm in a nice comfortable bed. Which is not mine, because mine is lumpy. And second, the fact that I'm surrounded by a body and the scent of my Sire. As I turn over I can actually see him. I guess I really didn't wake up, I'm having my dreams again. Because Angel would never actually hold me like this. So I snuggle even deeper into his embrace. Damn, I wish this was real. I'd do anything for just a crumb of affection from this man.
There's something odd about this dream though. Usually he is awake and telling me how much he loves me, but he is sleeping now. Also, everything feels too real to be a dream. And I still don't know who dragged me from the darkness.
And that's when my mind put the pieces together. This isn't a dream, it's real. And Angel was the one who pulled me out. But why? Was it his soul? Would he have felt bad to just let me fall? Or does he hate me so much that he wants to finish the job himself? Still doesn't explain why he is holding me. Unless, he just wants to make me feel safe and cared for so he can take it all away. Yeah, that would hurt more tan him just killing me. I don't think I'll be able to handle that.
I take one more look at his peaceful face before I roll away. The longer I stay in his arms, the more he can hurt me. So, without looking back, I get up to look for my duster. I still feel a little lightheaded from not feeding, but I don't care. I think I could even go outside and face the sun. Hell is nothing compared to the pain Angel is putting me through.
Now I can't even leave. Angel just woke up.
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Angel POV
I'm awoken by a slight movement in the bed. I look down to see William moving closer to me. I know he is awake, but I want to see how he reacts first. He just kind of lays here for a while. He seems to just be thinking about something until he rolls away. I watch as he stays there. Then he gets up and starts looking for something. I suppose he is looking his prized duster. When he stops, I realize that he knows that I'm not sleeping. Now I have to figure out what to say to him.
"You planning on going back to Sunnydale to starve again. Because you can stay here; I have extra blood," I tell him. And I really hope he stays.
But he shakes his head and says without facing me, "Nah, thought I'd try the sun this time. Or maybe you wanted to do the honors."
I'm so surprised by this. I didn't know it was a suicide attempt. Now my goal is to make sure that he doesn't succeed in killing himself. I'm gonna find out why he wanted to just fade away in the first place.
I sit up and walk next to him, but he doesn't look at me, "So you were planning on killing yourself?"
When he doesn't look towards me I already know the answer. "Do you mind telling me why?"
"Yes, I do mind," he replied distantly. So this is how it's going to be? Fine.
"Why do you mind?"
"Because it's none of your business. It stopped being your business the moment you left," he responds angrily.
It didn't take a genius to figure out what he was talking about. I can't but wonder if that has anything to do with this. I wish he'd just tell me.
"How can I make it up to you?" I asked. I know that it won't be easy, but I'm willing to try. It'll also be hard to live with him and not be able to touch him, but I'll do it for my William.
He turns to me with an expression which is unreadable and says, "What are you playing at?"
I stare for a second, "Wha..."
"You come to my crypt and save me from starving myself. Then when I wake up your holding me. But I know you hate me, so what are you trying to prove? Was it your soul that made you feel bad for me? Or did you just want to torture me more? Maybe you just wanted to see me die yourself. You know, to make sure that your embarrassing Childe was gone for good? What is it?! What do you want from me?!" he ranted.
I had no idea he thought all this. I really care about him, but how can I tell him without getting each other hurt again.
What's a vampire to do?
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TBC
A/N: Hope you liked. Please review.
A/N: Thanks to the two people who reviewed. Which was Tiger Tiger2 and RougeSpike. Thanks.
Here is my next chapter, Spike and Angel finally talk. You'll see; enjoy.
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Spike's POV
I finally wake up and realize two things. First, that I'm in a nice comfortable bed. Which is not mine, because mine is lumpy. And second, the fact that I'm surrounded by a body and the scent of my Sire. As I turn over I can actually see him. I guess I really didn't wake up, I'm having my dreams again. Because Angel would never actually hold me like this. So I snuggle even deeper into his embrace. Damn, I wish this was real. I'd do anything for just a crumb of affection from this man.
There's something odd about this dream though. Usually he is awake and telling me how much he loves me, but he is sleeping now. Also, everything feels too real to be a dream. And I still don't know who dragged me from the darkness.
And that's when my mind put the pieces together. This isn't a dream, it's real. And Angel was the one who pulled me out. But why? Was it his soul? Would he have felt bad to just let me fall? Or does he hate me so much that he wants to finish the job himself? Still doesn't explain why he is holding me. Unless, he just wants to make me feel safe and cared for so he can take it all away. Yeah, that would hurt more tan him just killing me. I don't think I'll be able to handle that.
I take one more look at his peaceful face before I roll away. The longer I stay in his arms, the more he can hurt me. So, without looking back, I get up to look for my duster. I still feel a little lightheaded from not feeding, but I don't care. I think I could even go outside and face the sun. Hell is nothing compared to the pain Angel is putting me through.
Now I can't even leave. Angel just woke up.
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Angel POV
I'm awoken by a slight movement in the bed. I look down to see William moving closer to me. I know he is awake, but I want to see how he reacts first. He just kind of lays here for a while. He seems to just be thinking about something until he rolls away. I watch as he stays there. Then he gets up and starts looking for something. I suppose he is looking his prized duster. When he stops, I realize that he knows that I'm not sleeping. Now I have to figure out what to say to him.
"You planning on going back to Sunnydale to starve again. Because you can stay here; I have extra blood," I tell him. And I really hope he stays.
But he shakes his head and says without facing me, "Nah, thought I'd try the sun this time. Or maybe you wanted to do the honors."
I'm so surprised by this. I didn't know it was a suicide attempt. Now my goal is to make sure that he doesn't succeed in killing himself. I'm gonna find out why he wanted to just fade away in the first place.
I sit up and walk next to him, but he doesn't look at me, "So you were planning on killing yourself?"
When he doesn't look towards me I already know the answer. "Do you mind telling me why?"
"Yes, I do mind," he replied distantly. So this is how it's going to be? Fine.
"Why do you mind?"
"Because it's none of your business. It stopped being your business the moment you left," he responds angrily.
It didn't take a genius to figure out what he was talking about. I can't but wonder if that has anything to do with this. I wish he'd just tell me.
"How can I make it up to you?" I asked. I know that it won't be easy, but I'm willing to try. It'll also be hard to live with him and not be able to touch him, but I'll do it for my William.
He turns to me with an expression which is unreadable and says, "What are you playing at?"
I stare for a second, "Wha..."
"You come to my crypt and save me from starving myself. Then when I wake up your holding me. But I know you hate me, so what are you trying to prove? Was it your soul that made you feel bad for me? Or did you just want to torture me more? Maybe you just wanted to see me die yourself. You know, to make sure that your embarrassing Childe was gone for good? What is it?! What do you want from me?!" he ranted.
I had no idea he thought all this. I really care about him, but how can I tell him without getting each other hurt again.
What's a vampire to do?
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TBC
A/N: Hope you liked. Please review.