Chapter 7
A/N: I'm really sorry this took me so long to get done. And it's still a short chapter, but I tried to get something out at least. The next chapter will be longer, but I'm suffering from writers block. So please forgive me for how long it took me to write this. I hope it goods. I was trying to get both their feelings across.
Tiger Tiger2: You just helped me accomplish my goal, which was to make someone cry (or at least want to) I'm so happy this makes you sad; that sounded weird. Don't worry Angel will try his best. =) I hope you like this chapter too, sorry for the delay.
SexySpike: I'm really sorry this took so long, I did try to write faster though due to your second review. Thanks for you reviews, and I'm glad you like this. And I'll try to write faster in the future. Blame it on writers block and my wondering ideas.
Jude: One of the better ones you've read huh? LoL, thank you. I'm glad you like it. Hope you like this chapter too.
Vy: Guess it is tough shit for Angel. He has his work cut out for him. Sorry it took me so long to update.
Sandi: I'm glad you love my story. Makes me happy, lol. You'll have to keep reading to see what happens.
Nyaru: I'm glad you're reading =) I hope you like this chapter and you continue reading.
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Spike's POV
I can't believe I just told him all that. I have to get out of here before he says anything. I don't think I can handle him saying he doesn't love me out loud. My broken heart already knows it to be true, but hearing those words from his mouth could kill me.
I want to run, as fast as I can, right into the burning rays of the sun. But all my energy has drained from me. I can't even hold myself up anymore at the moment. So I grabbed the wall for support, and I end up leaning against it as I slide down to the floor. My body is shaking with sobs now, I can't hold back any of my tears anymore. Maybe Angel will pity me and just leave me alone. Or maybe he'll use this against me to cause my heart even more pain.
I draw my knees up to my chest and lay my head on them. I don't want to see Angel and his hateful eyes on me. But even though I'm not looking at him, I can feel as he walks over and kneels next to me.
"I didn't know you thought all that," Angel whispered calmly. He is dragging this out, I know it. He wants to hurt me as much he can while still sounding like he cares. But I'm smarter then that, I know what he feels for me... nothing.
"Just leave me alone, please," I beg him without meeting his gaze.
"I can't leave you, not while you think I hate you," he said. His statement surprised me, but not too much... I know when he's lying to me. I don't even have to look into his eyes this time to know that the hate is there.
I shake my head slightly, a way of telling him that I don't believe his words. "Will you give me a chance to explain myself?" he asks gently, his hand now resting on my shoulder. But I still refuse to look up at him. Why can't he just leave me alone?
"I don't want to hear it," I hiss, with all the energy I have; which isn't a lot. "Just, please don't; don't say it," I beg him as I finally lift my pleading gaze to meet his.
"Say what?" he asks me, holding my gaze the entire time. And for once, I can't tell what I see there.
A shaky breathe falls from my lips as I open them to speak, "Don't tell that you hate me, I wouldn't be able to handle it. I don't want to hear it; please."
My pleading sounds pathetic to my own hears, but I can't help it. I don't care if I do sound like a child to him at the moment. My heart is broken, shattered, and crushed into pieces that can't be put back together again. There really is nothing more he can do to it; unless he says those words out loud.
"Hear me out William," he says, his voice still remains calm.
There isn't much to lose, I guess. Maybe he pities me and he won't say it. I hope that it's true, but probably not.
A sigh leaves my lips as I nod my head. I'll listen to him, and hear what he wants to say; even if it kills me.
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Angel's POV
I can't stand it; my William is upset and there is so little I can do about it. I've broken his heart without knowing. How could I hurt him like this? I can barely look at him now, as he slides to the floor. I don't know what to say; I don't know what to do. I can see the pain in his eyes before he lowers his head into his lap. My legs finally start to move closer to him; albeit slowly. I've made my decision with what I'm going to do. My William needs me and my love; and I have to give that to him. But I have to stay calm; for him.
It felt like time went by slowly as I made my way to my William and kneeled down next to him. He won't look at me, but I can feel his fear seeped off of him in waves. He is afraid of me, and I have to fight off the urge to take him in my arms to comfort him.
"I didn't know you thought all that," I whisper, trying to remain calm. He doesn't need me to break down too. What he needs to know right now, is that I'm here for him and I won't hurt him.
William begs me to leave him alone, but I can't do that. I have to be with him, to explain my feelings to him. I continue by telling him that I can't leave him thinking that I hate him; because I don't and I never could. Not my William; my heart.
He shakes his head, without even meeting my gaze. My next words are spoken gently as I rest my hand on his shoulder. The fact that he doesn't flinch away from my touch brings me the tiniest bit of joy.
"I don't want to hear it," he tells me weakly. He then raises a pleading gaze to me, and I can clearly see all of his pain and his fear. "Just, please don't; don't say it," he begs me. I don't understand though. What does he expect me to say?
"Say what?" I ask him as I fight to hold his gaze. I try to block out the fear that I know is in my own eyes. I'm afraid to lose him; I almost did tonight.
He lets out a shaky breathe before he admits what he is afraid of. He fears that I will tell him that I hate him. He tells me he won't be able to handle it. His words break my unbeating heart. My William is afraid of me and my words. My poor William; I love him so much. I wish I could go back and change the way I treated him, the way I left him. But I can't, so I better start making it up to him.
"Hear me out William," I say as calmly as I can, while my emotions start to bottle up due to his confession.
I'm so grateful as he nods his head. I can make it up to him; he has given me another chance. I have a chance to explain myself to my beautiful William, my Childe, my life, and my heart.
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TBC
A/N: Hope you guys liked this chapter. Hopefully you guys will forgive me for the delay with this update and the fact that it's short. Next chapter will be longer and updated ASAP. Please review =)
A/N: I'm really sorry this took me so long to get done. And it's still a short chapter, but I tried to get something out at least. The next chapter will be longer, but I'm suffering from writers block. So please forgive me for how long it took me to write this. I hope it goods. I was trying to get both their feelings across.
Tiger Tiger2: You just helped me accomplish my goal, which was to make someone cry (or at least want to) I'm so happy this makes you sad; that sounded weird. Don't worry Angel will try his best. =) I hope you like this chapter too, sorry for the delay.
SexySpike: I'm really sorry this took so long, I did try to write faster though due to your second review. Thanks for you reviews, and I'm glad you like this. And I'll try to write faster in the future. Blame it on writers block and my wondering ideas.
Jude: One of the better ones you've read huh? LoL, thank you. I'm glad you like it. Hope you like this chapter too.
Vy: Guess it is tough shit for Angel. He has his work cut out for him. Sorry it took me so long to update.
Sandi: I'm glad you love my story. Makes me happy, lol. You'll have to keep reading to see what happens.
Nyaru: I'm glad you're reading =) I hope you like this chapter and you continue reading.
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Spike's POV
I can't believe I just told him all that. I have to get out of here before he says anything. I don't think I can handle him saying he doesn't love me out loud. My broken heart already knows it to be true, but hearing those words from his mouth could kill me.
I want to run, as fast as I can, right into the burning rays of the sun. But all my energy has drained from me. I can't even hold myself up anymore at the moment. So I grabbed the wall for support, and I end up leaning against it as I slide down to the floor. My body is shaking with sobs now, I can't hold back any of my tears anymore. Maybe Angel will pity me and just leave me alone. Or maybe he'll use this against me to cause my heart even more pain.
I draw my knees up to my chest and lay my head on them. I don't want to see Angel and his hateful eyes on me. But even though I'm not looking at him, I can feel as he walks over and kneels next to me.
"I didn't know you thought all that," Angel whispered calmly. He is dragging this out, I know it. He wants to hurt me as much he can while still sounding like he cares. But I'm smarter then that, I know what he feels for me... nothing.
"Just leave me alone, please," I beg him without meeting his gaze.
"I can't leave you, not while you think I hate you," he said. His statement surprised me, but not too much... I know when he's lying to me. I don't even have to look into his eyes this time to know that the hate is there.
I shake my head slightly, a way of telling him that I don't believe his words. "Will you give me a chance to explain myself?" he asks gently, his hand now resting on my shoulder. But I still refuse to look up at him. Why can't he just leave me alone?
"I don't want to hear it," I hiss, with all the energy I have; which isn't a lot. "Just, please don't; don't say it," I beg him as I finally lift my pleading gaze to meet his.
"Say what?" he asks me, holding my gaze the entire time. And for once, I can't tell what I see there.
A shaky breathe falls from my lips as I open them to speak, "Don't tell that you hate me, I wouldn't be able to handle it. I don't want to hear it; please."
My pleading sounds pathetic to my own hears, but I can't help it. I don't care if I do sound like a child to him at the moment. My heart is broken, shattered, and crushed into pieces that can't be put back together again. There really is nothing more he can do to it; unless he says those words out loud.
"Hear me out William," he says, his voice still remains calm.
There isn't much to lose, I guess. Maybe he pities me and he won't say it. I hope that it's true, but probably not.
A sigh leaves my lips as I nod my head. I'll listen to him, and hear what he wants to say; even if it kills me.
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Angel's POV
I can't stand it; my William is upset and there is so little I can do about it. I've broken his heart without knowing. How could I hurt him like this? I can barely look at him now, as he slides to the floor. I don't know what to say; I don't know what to do. I can see the pain in his eyes before he lowers his head into his lap. My legs finally start to move closer to him; albeit slowly. I've made my decision with what I'm going to do. My William needs me and my love; and I have to give that to him. But I have to stay calm; for him.
It felt like time went by slowly as I made my way to my William and kneeled down next to him. He won't look at me, but I can feel his fear seeped off of him in waves. He is afraid of me, and I have to fight off the urge to take him in my arms to comfort him.
"I didn't know you thought all that," I whisper, trying to remain calm. He doesn't need me to break down too. What he needs to know right now, is that I'm here for him and I won't hurt him.
William begs me to leave him alone, but I can't do that. I have to be with him, to explain my feelings to him. I continue by telling him that I can't leave him thinking that I hate him; because I don't and I never could. Not my William; my heart.
He shakes his head, without even meeting my gaze. My next words are spoken gently as I rest my hand on his shoulder. The fact that he doesn't flinch away from my touch brings me the tiniest bit of joy.
"I don't want to hear it," he tells me weakly. He then raises a pleading gaze to me, and I can clearly see all of his pain and his fear. "Just, please don't; don't say it," he begs me. I don't understand though. What does he expect me to say?
"Say what?" I ask him as I fight to hold his gaze. I try to block out the fear that I know is in my own eyes. I'm afraid to lose him; I almost did tonight.
He lets out a shaky breathe before he admits what he is afraid of. He fears that I will tell him that I hate him. He tells me he won't be able to handle it. His words break my unbeating heart. My William is afraid of me and my words. My poor William; I love him so much. I wish I could go back and change the way I treated him, the way I left him. But I can't, so I better start making it up to him.
"Hear me out William," I say as calmly as I can, while my emotions start to bottle up due to his confession.
I'm so grateful as he nods his head. I can make it up to him; he has given me another chance. I have a chance to explain myself to my beautiful William, my Childe, my life, and my heart.
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TBC
A/N: Hope you guys liked this chapter. Hopefully you guys will forgive me for the delay with this update and the fact that it's short. Next chapter will be longer and updated ASAP. Please review =)