(A/N: Hey everyone! This is my longest chapter yet! I am excited. I finally got to my twist. Oh and I read the preview for Twilight! So AWESOME! If you haven't read it go read it! Oh and I was in Spanish and we were writing letters and we started out with Querido and Querida. It reminded me of this and so I had to update. I blabber on and on, now here is the chapter!)

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Chapter 13: "Connection"

I was still crying into his shirt. I couldn't look into his eyes knowing I failed him again and he would be stuck in this world. Why do I always mess everything up? Jesse tilted my head up to meet his eyes.

"Susannah, why did you come to the past and with Paul? He said the last word with disgust. Wait, past Jesse didn't know all the things Paul had done yet.

"Jesse how did you know that?"

"Of course I knew. I followed you to his house. I went into the room and tried to pull you away, because I desperately needed to speak with you, but we were all pulled into that light. I was thrown to the ground next to Paul. I saw you down the road and you were pushed off by, well, me. I tried to follow, but Paul took control of me. I cannot explain how. He told me what you two were planning to do, stop my death. Why, Susannah? I would also like to know about what happened between us?"

Ok that was a lot to take in. This was my Jesse. Then that shot I heard did not kill him. There was still time, but I wasn't sure if I could go through with it. His embrace was very comforting and I didn't want to let go, ever. But I did. I backed away and answered his question.

"Jesse. You are making this harder for me. You weren't supposed to know about any of this. I do not deserve you," at this point I was a blubbering mess. "You deserve to be with your family and have a chance to find someone to love, other than me. We are from different worlds. You belong here and I belong back in my own time. Please try to understand it is for the best." It was so hard to actually say this to his face. He gave me an unreadable look and was silent.

"Jesse please say something." The tears burnt my face as they fell. He was starring the ground.

"Do you love me?" His dark eyes were still focused on the dirt floor beneath us.

"What?" I was a little shocked at what he had said.

"Do you love me?" He raised his head and met my eyes, "How can you say I don't deserve you Susannah? I love you, more than anything. I have made that clear to you. You obviously share my same feelings, I do recall. You shared that information with the priest." His voice had anger and hurt laced within each word.

"How did you know? Were you spying one me?"

"Of course not. I happened to materialize in his office while you were in there. I was on my way to ask the priest to exorcise me, seeing as I had no reason to be in this world any longer." That hurt the worst. I was his reason for staying and I rejected him, I betrayed him. I couldn't take this any longer. I turned around to walk away, but he grabbed me by the arm. He pulled me toward him. "Susannah I just need to know if what you said is the truth. If it is true, I need to hear it and then you are free to choose what your heart tells you." He was right. I couldn't lie to myself anymore. I couldn't lie to Jesse any longer.

"I love you, Jesse. I always have and I know I always will. But you must understand this is your chance to live and it is your only chance. You must take it, regardless of what we feel." I couldn't say anymore. My throat had swollen up and my tears blurred my eyes. What happened next took my breath away.

Jesse brought his lips to mine. It was a kiss that disgraced all others before it. I felt right then that we were meant for each other, like nothing else mattered. After what felt like hours I pulled away for air. I had to tell him the truth, about Paul. All of a sudden, Jesse started to choke. His knees gave in and he collapsed on the ground. What was happening?

"Jesse what's wrong? What is happening to you? Don't leave me, now. You can't, please!" Jesse started to fade.

"Susannah, I, I.." And after that he was gone. Just like that. He was in my arms and now they were empty. Dawn was approaching and my time would soon be up too. I buried my head in my hands. My eyes were almost out of tears to cry. I heard a thud and footsteps coming closer to me. I looked at the black boots. Then a face two inches away from mine.

"What's with the water works?" Well I don't have to tell you who it was.

Past Jesse's P.O.V.

I was left alone with the dead robbers. They were sitting around a fire talking about who was better at what during their life. I found a knife near by and cut myself lose. I started reading the book I borrowed from Paul. I came across a marked page. Time Travel. I looked across the page and there I noticed something interesting. Soul Transference. I read it in a whispered tone. It wasn't like they noticed me anyway.

"To switch a life for another,

To alter the state of being

The thought of the soul to replace

Through your eyes will be seeing."

As I was reading this the thought of seeing my ghost crept into my mind. Don't ask me why. All of a sudden I felt as though my breathing stopped and I was choking. I fell over lying on my side, and I blacked out.

Jesse's P.O.V.

I opened my eyes and sat up. Nombre de Dios. I gasped for air. Wait, air? My lungs were filled with air. I am alive! I am alive! I couldn't believe it. After 150 years of being dead I never knew how much I missed being alive. I looked over searching for Susannah. Where did she go? When I stood up I noticed three rather grungy looking ghosts arguing with each other. A book fell from my lap. I took it with me and slipped away unnoticed. I grabbed a horse and headed into the forest. Before I got to far I notice someone materialize right next to me. It was my ghost.

"I don't have much time, but I must tell you about Paul. He is out to get Susannah. They are departing from here at sunrise. You must hurry to her; he is not to be trusted. That book you have is very important. That was how we were switched. Soul Transference. I remember Aunt Rosa speak of it. Things were meant to be this way. Now go!"

The sun started to rise and my ghost disappeared as if he was never there. It was odd conversing with myself, but my life has always been complicated. I pulled at the reins and sped into the forest to where I left Susannah.

Suze's P.O.V.

I looked at Paul and fell backwards. I was shocked to see him.

"What happened? Where is Jesse? What happened with the robbers?"

"Oh, they were taken care of and Jesse is safe. I promise no harm will come to him, but we must leave now." He looked up over the trees. I saw the sun rising. I knew he was right. He stood up and offered me one of his hands. I took it and stood up. He went over to his horse and searched the saddlebag. He started to look a little worried.

"Where is my..."

"Looking for this?"

I stood there with my mouth hanging wide open.

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(A/N: Was that long enough for everyone? Wow this took me a long time. I hope you all enjoyed it! I will update soon! (Hopefully) It was my whole take on the soul transference. And no souls were harmed in the making of the fanfic.(hehe) cause technically, it isn't murder if it is the same person. School is almost over. Yeah! Cool, now you all know what to do push the little purple button you know you want to!)