Me: Welcome back to my lair of twisted thoughts.
Hiei: That's not all that twisted.
Me: Be nice or suffer the wrath of my computer
Kurama: You better listen to her.
Me: Thank you, now on to the disclaimer
Hiei: This wretch of a human doesn't own Yu Yu Hakshuo
Kurama: She's really to poor to own anything.
Me: Thanks alot guys (sarcasim) You can really make a girl feel special.
Kurama: Well are you gonna start the story.
Me: Okay here we go people.
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Hiei's POV
"Okay let me get this straight your his lover." I said looking at Kurama
"Life partner actually." It said. To me he is an it not a person, demon, or anything. I looked back at Kurama, who just nodded his head.
"You know what I'm sick and tired of all of this shit. First I have to deal with Karasu, and now this. How many people have you fucked in your past life! I knew your past was dark but this is just ridculous." I yelled at the fox. He just looked at me with tears in his eyes. I wanted to soften my tone, but I was so angry at him. "Don't you fuckin cry, you brought this shit on yourself." I turned my ateetion to it. It just looked at the floor. I walked into kitchen, I needed to get away from this sistuation. I walked to the re frig tor and took out the bottle of vodak,I wen't to the cabinet and got me a tall glass. My plan was to get drunk and pass out , and then come to, hoping that this was a dream. I filled my glass up to the rim and downed it in one gulp. I saw colors and spots everywhere. I poured another glass and threw it straight back. Now I was getting dizzy. As I was pouring my thrid cup Kurama walked in. "What the fuck do you want?"
"I wanted to tell you that Kuronue is gone." Kurama said.
"Why did you throw your life partner out of your house?" I asked, knowing that I'm being harsh, but I really don't give a fuck.
"Hiei I don't want him." Kurama said while crying.
"Stop fuckin crying, your getting on my nevres with that.
"Hiei your drunk and not your not thinking clearly." I knew that the fox was proabaly right, but I just didn't care. The fox walked over to me and put his arm on my shoulder, I pushed him off of me. I went back to pouring my cup of vodak, just as I was about to drink it Kurama grabbed it. "You don't need anymore Hiei." Drunk or not this fox lost his forever fuckin mind. I jumped up and just as I was going to strike him I sat down, and grabbed the bottle. I just started to drink it from the 64oz bottle, I downed about half of what was left. I was dizzy now my head was spinning, and I knew that I couldn't stand up. I looked at the fox and just shook my head, and then I saw darkness.
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Kurama's POV
I carried Hiei upstairs, even though I knew that he would be mad at me for touching him. I layed him the bed and went back downstairs. I layed on the couch and looked at the ceiling, after all of these years he is still alive. I figured that he would've gotten himself killed by now. I would've never thought of him being alive, and now my ugly past has comeback to bit me in the rear. I got up and walked into the kitchen to clean up the mess that was left. It wasn't much to clean,just a glass. I needed to keep myself busy. After I washed the glass and swept, and mopped the floor I was finish. I walked upstairs to check on Hiei. He was just laying in the bed and looking at the wall. I sat on the bed next to him.
"Hiei, I want to talk to you." I was hesitant, but when Hiei didn't do anything I figured that it was safe for me to go on. "I think that it's time for me to tell you about my past." Hiei looked at me but said nothing. "In my past life I did things that i regret now, things that___."
"Shut the hell up!" He yelled at me, "Look there only three things that I want to know and I want the truth. One how many people and or demons did you sleep with?" That was a big question for me. I wasn't quite sure.
"Can I round the number?" I asked, Hiei eyes got big but he nodded a yes. "About six or seven hundred people and or demons including you." Hiei narrowed his eyes at me, and looked at the wall. I knew that my answer wasn't what he wanted to hear. I was surprised when he spoke.
"How many of them did you love?" Hiei asked. Why was Hiei doing this to himself? It didn't make sense, but I said that I would answer.
"Three." I knew that from Hiei expression that he didn't like this answer, but he wouldn't waste his last question on this, so I willily told him, "My first love was Yomi, but he cheated on me and well I had to get my revenge and that was that. Then....well you know the other two." Hiei seemed to ponder this for a minute.
"Why did you and Kuronue breakup?" He asked looking at the wall. I took a few minutes to answer this, or at least I thought it was a few minutes, until Hiei spoke. "Well." It was more of a statement then an answer.
"I sorta died." I said
"You what!" Okay Hiei was mad again, very mad. "So your saying that you two never really broke up! You just died and never made contact with him! Okay then, geez no wonder he looked so dumbfounded."
"Listen Hiei let me__" Hiei sat up and looked at me, with wide eyes.
"So it's like those soap oprae, except I'm the other man." Now I know that Hiei watches too much television. "I'm right aren't I Kurama."
"In a way__."
"In a way nothing, what were you thinking?"
"I thought that he would be dead by now."
"Don't you have like a spirtual bond with your partner and can't you sense when he dies, or doesn't he die when you do?" Well now I knew that Hiei did know more on relationships then I thought.
"Well I guess in a way we did, I never really died, and since he didn't die then in a way we are connected." Hiei looked at me and then he laid back down and put the pillow over his face, as he spoke.
"What would've happen if you never got shot by that hunter?" Once again I wondered why Hiei was torching himself.
"We may have been together still or maybe apart I'm not sure." Hiei pressed the pillow harder to his face.
"Do you ever wonder what would've happen between you too?"
"Truthfully?" I asked, Hiei muffled something so I went on. "I didn't wonder about it until I started to have these dreams, and then I would wake up." I said. Hiei muffled into the pillow again.
"So do you have feelings for him?" I could tell that Hiei was holding his breath. "Be honest Kurama."
"Then I don't know Hiei." I said, then I felt a katana pressed against my throat.
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Hiei's POV
Once I heard Kurama say that he didn't know I threw the pillow off of my face and pressed my katana against his throat. I looked at him and saw all the fear in his eyes. I liked it, any other time I wouldn't want to hurt him, but right now I was feeling angry. Again and again Kurama hurt me, and for once I wanted to hurt him back so that he could feel some of this pain that I felt. I looked at him and then I lowered my blade.
"Kurama why do you make me do these things?"
"I don't know what to say." He said, I don't know what happen next, but I did hit him. I knocked him on the floor and just started beating the shit out of him. There was blood all over Kurama and all over me. I didn't reconize the blood until I heard crying, then I reconized that it was Kurama crying. I stopped. I looked at my hands and saw that they were covered in blood, Kurama's blood. Kurama was under me shaking and crying. I stood up and picked him up and laid him in the bed. I couldn't believe what I had just did. I looked at him, and he was afraid to look back at me. I cupped his chin and turned his head to look at me. when he did I saw his now swollen eye and all the cuts on his face. My heart stopped beating for a moment. I just looked at him and he looked back.
"Kurama I'm sorry." I said "I had no right to this." Kurama just stared at me. "Kurama please say something." Just a blank stare. I was crying now and then I just looked at him. Finally he spoke.
"Hiei, I can understand why you did what you did, and I know that a part of me deserves it, but now I need to know if you can forgive me for keeping secrets? I know that I'm not perfect but__" I couldn't believe my ears here I was dead fuckin wrong and Kurama wanted forgivness.
"Baka Kitsune I need to ask you for forgivness."
"Then you are forgiven, and what about me?" I kissed him, it was a kiss full of love and forgivness, I felt his arms wrap around me and I felt his hands moving all over my back. I stopped him and pulled back.
"I can't, even though you forgive me I can't forgive myself." I said.
"Hiei why are you so hard on yourself?" Kurama asked, I just looked at ground. "Answer me Hiei."
"Because...." I said and then I kissed him again, I didn't want this conversation to start so I figured that sex would distract him. I ripped the buttons off of his shirt with my teeth and started kissing him on his chest, and nibbling on his nipples. Next I took off his pants and threw them somewhere. I was thankful that he didn't have on any unda wear. I kissed him on his stomach and slowly kissed him down to his between his thighs. I could smell the sweetness arousal that was coming from him, and could hear the soft moans that came from his throat. I took the kitsune's manhood and put it in my mouth. I started to lick it and blow on it. It gave him a chill. Then I took it in my mouth and started to work it. The kitsune grabbed my head and started to massge my hair, saying " Oh GOD, Hiei!" Each time I heard my name, I took it in even harder, deeper, and even swallowed the nectar that was coming from him. When I heard the pacing of the kitsune's breath, and him crying out on me, I slowly took the" man" out of my mouth. I looked at my koi and smiled, I kissed him and enjoyed the taste until he pulled away.
"What?" I asked
"I know that you thought that I would forget, but I didn't." I looked at him, damn fox. "Your going to see a therapist."
"A there a piss." I asked
"No Hiei a therapist, that's a doctor that listens to your problems and tries to help you."
"No I will not go see this there a piss."
"It's therapist and you will either go or we will never have sex again." I looked at my fox and smirked. "I mean never Hiei."
"Hn." I said.
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Me: Ha ha your going to therapy koi.
Hiei: Hn, and I'm not your koi
Kurama: Yes he is mine
Me: Not until our divorce is final Kurama
Hiei:(sweatdrops) divorce?
Me: Yes
Kurama: You know if you too get a divorce then Hiei has to do jail
Me: (smiles) I know, but he does have a choice
Kurama: What is that?
Me: He pleases me whenever I want him to.
Hiei:(sweatdrops)
Kurama: Well it is an option.
Me: Yes and you don't have to decied now.
Kurama: Oh yes before Mistress kills me please review.
Me: Oh yeah thanxs Kurama, Please Review. Hey where's Kuronue?
Kuronue: Just watching all of you.
Hiei: I should kill you...
Me: Please Review before Hiei killes Kuroune. (Looks at Kuronue and Hiei) Hurry!!
Hiei: That's not all that twisted.
Me: Be nice or suffer the wrath of my computer
Kurama: You better listen to her.
Me: Thank you, now on to the disclaimer
Hiei: This wretch of a human doesn't own Yu Yu Hakshuo
Kurama: She's really to poor to own anything.
Me: Thanks alot guys (sarcasim) You can really make a girl feel special.
Kurama: Well are you gonna start the story.
Me: Okay here we go people.
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Hiei's POV
"Okay let me get this straight your his lover." I said looking at Kurama
"Life partner actually." It said. To me he is an it not a person, demon, or anything. I looked back at Kurama, who just nodded his head.
"You know what I'm sick and tired of all of this shit. First I have to deal with Karasu, and now this. How many people have you fucked in your past life! I knew your past was dark but this is just ridculous." I yelled at the fox. He just looked at me with tears in his eyes. I wanted to soften my tone, but I was so angry at him. "Don't you fuckin cry, you brought this shit on yourself." I turned my ateetion to it. It just looked at the floor. I walked into kitchen, I needed to get away from this sistuation. I walked to the re frig tor and took out the bottle of vodak,I wen't to the cabinet and got me a tall glass. My plan was to get drunk and pass out , and then come to, hoping that this was a dream. I filled my glass up to the rim and downed it in one gulp. I saw colors and spots everywhere. I poured another glass and threw it straight back. Now I was getting dizzy. As I was pouring my thrid cup Kurama walked in. "What the fuck do you want?"
"I wanted to tell you that Kuronue is gone." Kurama said.
"Why did you throw your life partner out of your house?" I asked, knowing that I'm being harsh, but I really don't give a fuck.
"Hiei I don't want him." Kurama said while crying.
"Stop fuckin crying, your getting on my nevres with that.
"Hiei your drunk and not your not thinking clearly." I knew that the fox was proabaly right, but I just didn't care. The fox walked over to me and put his arm on my shoulder, I pushed him off of me. I went back to pouring my cup of vodak, just as I was about to drink it Kurama grabbed it. "You don't need anymore Hiei." Drunk or not this fox lost his forever fuckin mind. I jumped up and just as I was going to strike him I sat down, and grabbed the bottle. I just started to drink it from the 64oz bottle, I downed about half of what was left. I was dizzy now my head was spinning, and I knew that I couldn't stand up. I looked at the fox and just shook my head, and then I saw darkness.
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Kurama's POV
I carried Hiei upstairs, even though I knew that he would be mad at me for touching him. I layed him the bed and went back downstairs. I layed on the couch and looked at the ceiling, after all of these years he is still alive. I figured that he would've gotten himself killed by now. I would've never thought of him being alive, and now my ugly past has comeback to bit me in the rear. I got up and walked into the kitchen to clean up the mess that was left. It wasn't much to clean,just a glass. I needed to keep myself busy. After I washed the glass and swept, and mopped the floor I was finish. I walked upstairs to check on Hiei. He was just laying in the bed and looking at the wall. I sat on the bed next to him.
"Hiei, I want to talk to you." I was hesitant, but when Hiei didn't do anything I figured that it was safe for me to go on. "I think that it's time for me to tell you about my past." Hiei looked at me but said nothing. "In my past life I did things that i regret now, things that___."
"Shut the hell up!" He yelled at me, "Look there only three things that I want to know and I want the truth. One how many people and or demons did you sleep with?" That was a big question for me. I wasn't quite sure.
"Can I round the number?" I asked, Hiei eyes got big but he nodded a yes. "About six or seven hundred people and or demons including you." Hiei narrowed his eyes at me, and looked at the wall. I knew that my answer wasn't what he wanted to hear. I was surprised when he spoke.
"How many of them did you love?" Hiei asked. Why was Hiei doing this to himself? It didn't make sense, but I said that I would answer.
"Three." I knew that from Hiei expression that he didn't like this answer, but he wouldn't waste his last question on this, so I willily told him, "My first love was Yomi, but he cheated on me and well I had to get my revenge and that was that. Then....well you know the other two." Hiei seemed to ponder this for a minute.
"Why did you and Kuronue breakup?" He asked looking at the wall. I took a few minutes to answer this, or at least I thought it was a few minutes, until Hiei spoke. "Well." It was more of a statement then an answer.
"I sorta died." I said
"You what!" Okay Hiei was mad again, very mad. "So your saying that you two never really broke up! You just died and never made contact with him! Okay then, geez no wonder he looked so dumbfounded."
"Listen Hiei let me__" Hiei sat up and looked at me, with wide eyes.
"So it's like those soap oprae, except I'm the other man." Now I know that Hiei watches too much television. "I'm right aren't I Kurama."
"In a way__."
"In a way nothing, what were you thinking?"
"I thought that he would be dead by now."
"Don't you have like a spirtual bond with your partner and can't you sense when he dies, or doesn't he die when you do?" Well now I knew that Hiei did know more on relationships then I thought.
"Well I guess in a way we did, I never really died, and since he didn't die then in a way we are connected." Hiei looked at me and then he laid back down and put the pillow over his face, as he spoke.
"What would've happen if you never got shot by that hunter?" Once again I wondered why Hiei was torching himself.
"We may have been together still or maybe apart I'm not sure." Hiei pressed the pillow harder to his face.
"Do you ever wonder what would've happen between you too?"
"Truthfully?" I asked, Hiei muffled something so I went on. "I didn't wonder about it until I started to have these dreams, and then I would wake up." I said. Hiei muffled into the pillow again.
"So do you have feelings for him?" I could tell that Hiei was holding his breath. "Be honest Kurama."
"Then I don't know Hiei." I said, then I felt a katana pressed against my throat.
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Hiei's POV
Once I heard Kurama say that he didn't know I threw the pillow off of my face and pressed my katana against his throat. I looked at him and saw all the fear in his eyes. I liked it, any other time I wouldn't want to hurt him, but right now I was feeling angry. Again and again Kurama hurt me, and for once I wanted to hurt him back so that he could feel some of this pain that I felt. I looked at him and then I lowered my blade.
"Kurama why do you make me do these things?"
"I don't know what to say." He said, I don't know what happen next, but I did hit him. I knocked him on the floor and just started beating the shit out of him. There was blood all over Kurama and all over me. I didn't reconize the blood until I heard crying, then I reconized that it was Kurama crying. I stopped. I looked at my hands and saw that they were covered in blood, Kurama's blood. Kurama was under me shaking and crying. I stood up and picked him up and laid him in the bed. I couldn't believe what I had just did. I looked at him, and he was afraid to look back at me. I cupped his chin and turned his head to look at me. when he did I saw his now swollen eye and all the cuts on his face. My heart stopped beating for a moment. I just looked at him and he looked back.
"Kurama I'm sorry." I said "I had no right to this." Kurama just stared at me. "Kurama please say something." Just a blank stare. I was crying now and then I just looked at him. Finally he spoke.
"Hiei, I can understand why you did what you did, and I know that a part of me deserves it, but now I need to know if you can forgive me for keeping secrets? I know that I'm not perfect but__" I couldn't believe my ears here I was dead fuckin wrong and Kurama wanted forgivness.
"Baka Kitsune I need to ask you for forgivness."
"Then you are forgiven, and what about me?" I kissed him, it was a kiss full of love and forgivness, I felt his arms wrap around me and I felt his hands moving all over my back. I stopped him and pulled back.
"I can't, even though you forgive me I can't forgive myself." I said.
"Hiei why are you so hard on yourself?" Kurama asked, I just looked at ground. "Answer me Hiei."
"Because...." I said and then I kissed him again, I didn't want this conversation to start so I figured that sex would distract him. I ripped the buttons off of his shirt with my teeth and started kissing him on his chest, and nibbling on his nipples. Next I took off his pants and threw them somewhere. I was thankful that he didn't have on any unda wear. I kissed him on his stomach and slowly kissed him down to his between his thighs. I could smell the sweetness arousal that was coming from him, and could hear the soft moans that came from his throat. I took the kitsune's manhood and put it in my mouth. I started to lick it and blow on it. It gave him a chill. Then I took it in my mouth and started to work it. The kitsune grabbed my head and started to massge my hair, saying " Oh GOD, Hiei!" Each time I heard my name, I took it in even harder, deeper, and even swallowed the nectar that was coming from him. When I heard the pacing of the kitsune's breath, and him crying out on me, I slowly took the" man" out of my mouth. I looked at my koi and smiled, I kissed him and enjoyed the taste until he pulled away.
"What?" I asked
"I know that you thought that I would forget, but I didn't." I looked at him, damn fox. "Your going to see a therapist."
"A there a piss." I asked
"No Hiei a therapist, that's a doctor that listens to your problems and tries to help you."
"No I will not go see this there a piss."
"It's therapist and you will either go or we will never have sex again." I looked at my fox and smirked. "I mean never Hiei."
"Hn." I said.
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Me: Ha ha your going to therapy koi.
Hiei: Hn, and I'm not your koi
Kurama: Yes he is mine
Me: Not until our divorce is final Kurama
Hiei:(sweatdrops) divorce?
Me: Yes
Kurama: You know if you too get a divorce then Hiei has to do jail
Me: (smiles) I know, but he does have a choice
Kurama: What is that?
Me: He pleases me whenever I want him to.
Hiei:(sweatdrops)
Kurama: Well it is an option.
Me: Yes and you don't have to decied now.
Kurama: Oh yes before Mistress kills me please review.
Me: Oh yeah thanxs Kurama, Please Review. Hey where's Kuronue?
Kuronue: Just watching all of you.
Hiei: I should kill you...
Me: Please Review before Hiei killes Kuroune. (Looks at Kuronue and Hiei) Hurry!!