Chapter Five
Wandering Figure
Weeks later after the Halloween Dance, Lisa and Malfoy grew steady as a couple. But Lisa felt something was wrong, which she couldn't pin point, and she hated the feeling. Draco already said he loved her since the Halloween Dance, but it felt weird when she'd replied. She couldn't get over seeing Terry from the dance, and felt worse than ever. Maybe she and Draco should split, but she wondered what would become of it. He hadn't threatened her since their time spent in the Astronomy Tower and besides, she wanted to keep him as a friend. So again began her time spent crying late as night trying to see what would become of her life. She was a mess these days but wouldn't admit it to herself. She knew Draco knew it, but wouldn't say anything of it. Before she knew it though, Draco had said his farewell, and she was alone again. But Lisa knew it was for the best and didn't object when he announced his decision.
"Lisa, can I talk to you?" Draco lingered at the door waiting for her head to look up. Lisa finally did and forced a smile.
"Yes Draco," she asked full of concern. She tugged at a loose straw of hair.
"I have something hard to say and please don't persist it." He looked away from her.
"Of course." Now Lisa was really worried. She dug her nails into her skin.
"Now I'll just get down to the point," Draco mumbled as he went and sat down next to Lisa. "I want to break up," he murmured. Lisa couldn't help but feel hot tears spring to her eyes but didn't say anything.
"I want you to know that I'll always love you no matter what. I just feel that it's the best thing to do." Lisa knew it too. She'd known it since some few weeks ago, but she hadn't spoken, and maybe she should have.
"I'm sorry Lisa," he began slowly. "Look, but it's hard for me too. I can't just-oh Lisa just say something. I swear to you that I won't kill you or anything. My intentions are good." Suddenly Lisa could hear the sudden urge to cry from his voice, but she kept her eyes away from his face.
"You're not making this any easy Lisa. I just can't keep living my life like this. I'm really and truly sorry. Please forgive me." But that only made Lisa keep more silent, she couldn't say anything, it hurt to say anything. And she didn't want to feel this hurt, it was just too much.
"Fine Lisa. Could you just look at me? Dammit, I'm out of here." His loud angry voice was so sad. But when he left Lisa didn't cry, couldn't. She just put her head down and closed her eyes tight. She wanted to just leave somewhere and just die. That's how bad it was. All that anger and sadness building up inside, it was just ready to come out and burst. And the thing was, she was ready for it, or was she?
After she and Draco were no longer a couple, Lisa couldn't decide what to do. She was a mess nowadays and was always sulking, although not visible to one's eye. She did her homework and already December began. Weeks were flying very quickly that Christmas approached fairly easy.
Lisa went outside and sat under a tree. The snow was falling lightly and some spilled onto her. She watched as people from school walked by, or ran over the white ground. She watched until very few people were out and then decided to close her eyes. She was very tired and not keen on staying awake any longer. But she couldn't sleep, not when she tried her very hardest. She couldn't image why it was so hard. Ever since she'd been a loner she couldn't understand why it was so hard to just sleep. It used to be so easy, with her head hitting the pillow, and she snoring gently. Now it wasn't like that, and Lisa hated it.
So Lisa didn't sleep out on the snow like she'd wished and instead opened her eyes to see a figure in the night. It was very difficult to see, and Lisa couldn't possibly image who it could be. She stared at the figure as it silently passed her and began heading into the forest. Lisa by now interested, followed it. She could not exactly hear herself think or breathe for a while now. They came across trees and snow of course. Lisa saw with difficulty that the figure was actually a girl, older than she, but shorter. Curiosity got the better of her, and she continued following. A little later, Lisa noticed the face of the girl and her hair. Her face was pretty with wavy dark brown hair. She had deep brown eyes and was crying softly. Now they were deeper in the forest many minutes later and everywhere trees could be seen.
Crunch, crunch, crunch. One after another they came and went. Their sound so normal now that she was used to it. Lisa wondered how long they've been walking. Maybe an hour, or possibly more than that? Suddenly the older girl stopped and sat upon a huge rock putting her face in her hands. Lisa stared at her for a moment and decided this was the best time to do something. She might as well since she'd been walking cold so long. Lisa came closer to the lady and took a deep breath. She now wished she had some of the bravery Gryffindors had. She wondered if this was at least a good choice to do as well. Here goes, she thought.
"Excuse me, miss?" Lisa said trying to keep out her nerves.
The girl instantly looked up at her and said harshly, "Who are you? Just leave me alone."
"Well you see, I can't," said Lisa with strength returning. "I followed you here and its pretty hard to just leave like that."
"So? Just go away." The girl signaled a hand motion heading out of the forest.
"You know, it's just no good as well to come here when its what, ten? And cry as well," added Lisa.
"Oh, my, God! Could you like, leave! I came here for a reason and I want to be alone. Can't you tell?"
"Well, I would if I were in Ravenclaw," Lisa slowly said in sarcasm.
"What are you talking about? You know damn well you're from Ravenclaw. You used to date that kid Malfoy." She turned away so Lisa couldn't see her face and stayed like that. Obviously she didn't know that Lisa was just saying that with sarcasm.
After the girl's talk Lisa couldn't help but think differently then. Her brain went pa-too, pa-too, pa-too again and again. Immediately Lisa couldn't help but feel ashamed of what happened. She had just been acting like a real grouch and for God's sake, the girl was crying. Lisa turned bright red and said softly," I'm sorry whoever you are. I've been acting like a real jackass. Please forgive me." Lisa smiled hopefully and looked at the girl.
"You know," said the girl turning to face her. Her tears were wiped clear and a hint of a smiled played at her lips. "You know," said the girl again," I don't much care. I mean it's stupid right. Imagine me coming here, well you could anyways, I am like here and all. Never mind I'm speaking foolishly. So who are you anyways, you're like Lisa something. Aren't you," the girl peered at Lisa.
"Uh-yeah. It's Lisa Turpin. And you are?"
The dark haired girl and smiled. "You don't recognize me? I'm Cho Chang, Seeker of the Ravenclaw Quidditch Team. Like duh, I'm just like the most popular girl in this whole damn school." A smile played at her lips.
Now Lisa remembered her, she had been one of those people who made her life here hell. Of course, she wouldn't remember. She had stopped since Cedric died. Lisa decided after all to be a bit nice and stopped herself from being mean to this person. Instead she fought her tongue and changed the words that began forming away.
"So...uh...yeesh. Anyways, don't mind me, it's just tha-"
"Excuse me if I'm wrong, but aren't you the girl who has like no parents. Not to be rude or anything," she added quickly.
"Yeah," said Lisa slowly.
"So you don't have any choice but to be mean to me. I swear, I did pick on you some way or another. It's just life seems so complicated right now. I'm even almost done with school. I don't even have to go to school in my opinion, I already have loads of O.W.L.'s and stuff. I'm so smart anyhow. But I'm definitely not the smartest here," Cho said her face growing grave.
"Uh...sure." Lisa didn't know what else to say.
"So, how many O.W.L.'s did you get?" Cho said feeling better.
"Uh...eight or nine I think."
"That's okay. I scored an eleven. So what's going on between you and Malfoy. I know you aren't dating anymore, said Marriseta. But still..." Her voice lingered off.
"So anyways," said Lisa. "We're not dating, and we haven't spoke since." Her cheeks flushed bright red.
"No contact what-so-ever," asked Cho.
"That's right."
"Whoa, so you're like not friends or anything like that? And he might even hate you? What happened anyways? You two seemed so happy. Everyone was talking about it."
"Nothing really." She was starting to get really uncomfortable, not that she wasn't before.
"Yikes, if it'd been me, I'd try to be friends. You don't know how handy it is. You get new boyfriends, keep old, all the same you win."
"Sure. But right now I need to be going. I'm awfully tired."
"Yeah, but if you want to know, Malfoy's dating Pansy Parkinson. I heard they may even be in love. They have been awfully cozy together. But really who knows, they've always been dating on and off. Well, bye. See ya if I can."
"Bye," I said heading out. "Aren't you coming," I called over my shoulders.
"Nah, maybe later. I need some time to think to myself. Maybe I would if someone hadn't been bothering me," she adding trying to sound mad.
"Kay, bye," I said barely audible. I hurried away as quick as I could from Cho and hurried into Hogwarts and up the stairs until I found my bed.
Wandering Figure
Weeks later after the Halloween Dance, Lisa and Malfoy grew steady as a couple. But Lisa felt something was wrong, which she couldn't pin point, and she hated the feeling. Draco already said he loved her since the Halloween Dance, but it felt weird when she'd replied. She couldn't get over seeing Terry from the dance, and felt worse than ever. Maybe she and Draco should split, but she wondered what would become of it. He hadn't threatened her since their time spent in the Astronomy Tower and besides, she wanted to keep him as a friend. So again began her time spent crying late as night trying to see what would become of her life. She was a mess these days but wouldn't admit it to herself. She knew Draco knew it, but wouldn't say anything of it. Before she knew it though, Draco had said his farewell, and she was alone again. But Lisa knew it was for the best and didn't object when he announced his decision.
"Lisa, can I talk to you?" Draco lingered at the door waiting for her head to look up. Lisa finally did and forced a smile.
"Yes Draco," she asked full of concern. She tugged at a loose straw of hair.
"I have something hard to say and please don't persist it." He looked away from her.
"Of course." Now Lisa was really worried. She dug her nails into her skin.
"Now I'll just get down to the point," Draco mumbled as he went and sat down next to Lisa. "I want to break up," he murmured. Lisa couldn't help but feel hot tears spring to her eyes but didn't say anything.
"I want you to know that I'll always love you no matter what. I just feel that it's the best thing to do." Lisa knew it too. She'd known it since some few weeks ago, but she hadn't spoken, and maybe she should have.
"I'm sorry Lisa," he began slowly. "Look, but it's hard for me too. I can't just-oh Lisa just say something. I swear to you that I won't kill you or anything. My intentions are good." Suddenly Lisa could hear the sudden urge to cry from his voice, but she kept her eyes away from his face.
"You're not making this any easy Lisa. I just can't keep living my life like this. I'm really and truly sorry. Please forgive me." But that only made Lisa keep more silent, she couldn't say anything, it hurt to say anything. And she didn't want to feel this hurt, it was just too much.
"Fine Lisa. Could you just look at me? Dammit, I'm out of here." His loud angry voice was so sad. But when he left Lisa didn't cry, couldn't. She just put her head down and closed her eyes tight. She wanted to just leave somewhere and just die. That's how bad it was. All that anger and sadness building up inside, it was just ready to come out and burst. And the thing was, she was ready for it, or was she?
After she and Draco were no longer a couple, Lisa couldn't decide what to do. She was a mess nowadays and was always sulking, although not visible to one's eye. She did her homework and already December began. Weeks were flying very quickly that Christmas approached fairly easy.
Lisa went outside and sat under a tree. The snow was falling lightly and some spilled onto her. She watched as people from school walked by, or ran over the white ground. She watched until very few people were out and then decided to close her eyes. She was very tired and not keen on staying awake any longer. But she couldn't sleep, not when she tried her very hardest. She couldn't image why it was so hard. Ever since she'd been a loner she couldn't understand why it was so hard to just sleep. It used to be so easy, with her head hitting the pillow, and she snoring gently. Now it wasn't like that, and Lisa hated it.
So Lisa didn't sleep out on the snow like she'd wished and instead opened her eyes to see a figure in the night. It was very difficult to see, and Lisa couldn't possibly image who it could be. She stared at the figure as it silently passed her and began heading into the forest. Lisa by now interested, followed it. She could not exactly hear herself think or breathe for a while now. They came across trees and snow of course. Lisa saw with difficulty that the figure was actually a girl, older than she, but shorter. Curiosity got the better of her, and she continued following. A little later, Lisa noticed the face of the girl and her hair. Her face was pretty with wavy dark brown hair. She had deep brown eyes and was crying softly. Now they were deeper in the forest many minutes later and everywhere trees could be seen.
Crunch, crunch, crunch. One after another they came and went. Their sound so normal now that she was used to it. Lisa wondered how long they've been walking. Maybe an hour, or possibly more than that? Suddenly the older girl stopped and sat upon a huge rock putting her face in her hands. Lisa stared at her for a moment and decided this was the best time to do something. She might as well since she'd been walking cold so long. Lisa came closer to the lady and took a deep breath. She now wished she had some of the bravery Gryffindors had. She wondered if this was at least a good choice to do as well. Here goes, she thought.
"Excuse me, miss?" Lisa said trying to keep out her nerves.
The girl instantly looked up at her and said harshly, "Who are you? Just leave me alone."
"Well you see, I can't," said Lisa with strength returning. "I followed you here and its pretty hard to just leave like that."
"So? Just go away." The girl signaled a hand motion heading out of the forest.
"You know, it's just no good as well to come here when its what, ten? And cry as well," added Lisa.
"Oh, my, God! Could you like, leave! I came here for a reason and I want to be alone. Can't you tell?"
"Well, I would if I were in Ravenclaw," Lisa slowly said in sarcasm.
"What are you talking about? You know damn well you're from Ravenclaw. You used to date that kid Malfoy." She turned away so Lisa couldn't see her face and stayed like that. Obviously she didn't know that Lisa was just saying that with sarcasm.
After the girl's talk Lisa couldn't help but think differently then. Her brain went pa-too, pa-too, pa-too again and again. Immediately Lisa couldn't help but feel ashamed of what happened. She had just been acting like a real grouch and for God's sake, the girl was crying. Lisa turned bright red and said softly," I'm sorry whoever you are. I've been acting like a real jackass. Please forgive me." Lisa smiled hopefully and looked at the girl.
"You know," said the girl turning to face her. Her tears were wiped clear and a hint of a smiled played at her lips. "You know," said the girl again," I don't much care. I mean it's stupid right. Imagine me coming here, well you could anyways, I am like here and all. Never mind I'm speaking foolishly. So who are you anyways, you're like Lisa something. Aren't you," the girl peered at Lisa.
"Uh-yeah. It's Lisa Turpin. And you are?"
The dark haired girl and smiled. "You don't recognize me? I'm Cho Chang, Seeker of the Ravenclaw Quidditch Team. Like duh, I'm just like the most popular girl in this whole damn school." A smile played at her lips.
Now Lisa remembered her, she had been one of those people who made her life here hell. Of course, she wouldn't remember. She had stopped since Cedric died. Lisa decided after all to be a bit nice and stopped herself from being mean to this person. Instead she fought her tongue and changed the words that began forming away.
"So...uh...yeesh. Anyways, don't mind me, it's just tha-"
"Excuse me if I'm wrong, but aren't you the girl who has like no parents. Not to be rude or anything," she added quickly.
"Yeah," said Lisa slowly.
"So you don't have any choice but to be mean to me. I swear, I did pick on you some way or another. It's just life seems so complicated right now. I'm even almost done with school. I don't even have to go to school in my opinion, I already have loads of O.W.L.'s and stuff. I'm so smart anyhow. But I'm definitely not the smartest here," Cho said her face growing grave.
"Uh...sure." Lisa didn't know what else to say.
"So, how many O.W.L.'s did you get?" Cho said feeling better.
"Uh...eight or nine I think."
"That's okay. I scored an eleven. So what's going on between you and Malfoy. I know you aren't dating anymore, said Marriseta. But still..." Her voice lingered off.
"So anyways," said Lisa. "We're not dating, and we haven't spoke since." Her cheeks flushed bright red.
"No contact what-so-ever," asked Cho.
"That's right."
"Whoa, so you're like not friends or anything like that? And he might even hate you? What happened anyways? You two seemed so happy. Everyone was talking about it."
"Nothing really." She was starting to get really uncomfortable, not that she wasn't before.
"Yikes, if it'd been me, I'd try to be friends. You don't know how handy it is. You get new boyfriends, keep old, all the same you win."
"Sure. But right now I need to be going. I'm awfully tired."
"Yeah, but if you want to know, Malfoy's dating Pansy Parkinson. I heard they may even be in love. They have been awfully cozy together. But really who knows, they've always been dating on and off. Well, bye. See ya if I can."
"Bye," I said heading out. "Aren't you coming," I called over my shoulders.
"Nah, maybe later. I need some time to think to myself. Maybe I would if someone hadn't been bothering me," she adding trying to sound mad.
"Kay, bye," I said barely audible. I hurried away as quick as I could from Cho and hurried into Hogwarts and up the stairs until I found my bed.