:::Kairi's POV:::



How long had I slept? Had it all been a dream? Then I heard it... The continuous beeping noise. Oh how I wish it would stop! I pressed my head into the pillow more hoping that might drown out the sound a bit but it didn't do a thing... I sighed and I let myself open my eyes slightly. I felt so weak... I could barely move. It felt like there was a heavy weight there holding me down... A little bit of sunlight had peeped through the closed shades of my window then I finally found out what that beeping was... It was my heart monitor. It must've been early because I slightly glanced over to see Riku asleep in an armchair. He had stayed there all night... for me... He looked so tired though but he looked beautiful to... If you had known Riku all your life as I have you would've never have guessed that sweet innocent boy would've given his heart to darkness... When he returned though. He was very different. He never uttered a thing of his past. It was like it was just a figment of your imagination. It never happened... He never tried to kill Sora, never conjoined souls with Ansem and he never tried to save me... We were the same. I didn't have cancer. I was in my own bed right now dreaming this all up and I would close my eyes and this would all be over. I'd wake up and the first thing I'd see would be my own ceiling and then I'd have to free myself from a mess of tangled sheets. Then I'd be warming myself a bath and making my own breakfast. I wouldn't faint anymore... My legs would be strong again and I'd be racing with Riku and Sora on the beach and I'd win... Yes I'd win... I closed my eyes then opened them... I then fell back into reality... I wasn't in my nice warm bed... I was here in a skimpy hospital gown in that awful stiff bed I hated so much ,and I was hooked up to tubes and wires that were pumping fluid into my body and one was even helping me breathe... I couldn't even breathe on my own! This stupid machine had to do it for me! I was more helpless than a newborn infant... I did have cancer. The thought of all these malice things made me want to cry... So I did... I let out every pain and emotion I had left in me... I rocked myself back and forth and before I knew it I was crying tears of blood and my body was so weak that I collapsed. I had to get out of here... So I did the unthinkable. I got up and ripped the tubes from my arms. Fluid went every were. My arms were bleeding and I was in pain but what did I care? I was going to die anyway... I even was foolish enough to rip the two tubes from my nostrils that were keeping me alive... I then got up and then I felt a sudden sickness feel my stomach. One so bad that I had to vomit... I couldn't breathe either... My blood bleached the floor. I then began to shake violently and then a continuos vile liquid began to stream from my mouth... I was vomiting all over the floor... I then realized I was helpless... I couldn't breathe either. I coughed up the last bit of fluid and I fell to the floor. I had become so weak I couldn't move anything... I then realized I was weak... Without those machines I couldn't even move or breathe. The only things that were keeping me alive were those machines. My body had become a useless disposable nothing that would probably one day be laid in the ground for the worms to devour...



:::Riku's POV:::



I had soon awakened and when I seen Kairi's empty bed then the floor... My stomach turned upside down. She was so pale and weak and I seen a trail of blood leading from the bed to the floor and she then gave me a pleading look like "help me". I ran to her as fast as I could and lifting her in my arms ignoring the fact she was bathed in her own blood and vomit. I quickly laid her own her bed and called the nurse. Once Kairi had been cleaned up I then sat with her. She looked awful even though she was clean. Her hair was in a mess. She had grown very pale and her eyes were bloodshot. She was so weak. I couldn't stand to see Kairi looking like this and now I knew why Sora had left... He didn't want to see Kairi in any pain. I softly kissed her cheeks. I spoke sweet gentle comforting words to her that would calm her body down and maybe even relieve the stress. It then hit me again like a ton of bricks... Kairi was sick and dying... As soon as I had thought that the doctor came in the door holding the brown clipboard.



"Sir we need to talk to you."he replied. I gently let go of Kairi's hand. I didn't want to leave her but I had to talk to the doctors.



I gently stepped out of the room letting the door close softly behind me.



The doctor sighed.



"Kairi's tumor is growing fast and to a very dangerous size..."replied the doctor. Then I thought my heart had crashed to the floor.



"If we don't operate now she won't even have a chance of living."he replied.



"She has already put herself in much danger as it is by doing that to herself... That's what cancer does it can control your mind and make you do stupid things..."replied the doctor.



"Tomorrow we will operate."he replied.



"Please don't tell Kairi of this now or she might have a nervous break down and it might put more stress on her." he replied.



I nodded. Kairi didn't need to know of her current situation right now. She was already under enough pain and stress as it was.



I then remembered Sora. I needed to tell Sora though. I mean at least he should know about Kairi's situation. I moved back for the door. I then went back in the room to speak with her.



I walked towards her and sat beside her bed and gripped her hand in mine.



"Hey Kai I'll be back in a little bit. Ok?" I asked.



She gave a sad understanding nod. Oh how I hated to leave her! I walked towards the door and walked out. As soon as I had a nurse walked through the door probably to give Kairi her daily blood check. I hated the thought of that... I hated the fact that our Kairi was going through all this pain... I'm the one who deserved this not her... I believed she was paying for my sin... My sin. This would be my curse. I'd lose the thing I loved most to me... My kairi... Then I'd lose my sunset...



OOC: Short I know but the next chapter will make up for it all. Thank you so much for all your reviews. God bless!