:::Riku's POV:::
I can't really remember what happened that night... All I know is one minute Me, and Kairi are happily dancing, and then the next she falls out of my arms out cold. I hadn't slept a wink all night... Selphie, and Tidus took the twins home with them while Sora, and Umi drove Kairi, and I to the hospital. My heart was in so much pain ,and in a turmoil of worry. I knew I had to have vomited at least three times from worrying. My stomach was empty, my blood was cold, and I held an ice pack to my head from my bad headache as I waited for the dreaded news from the doctors. Umi sat in front of me and Sora right beside her his hand in hers in the waiting room at the hospital. This day had been locked away deep within my mind. It was just like this two years ago as me, and Sora both sat in this same room with dreaded unwanted emotion boiling in our veins as the doctor told us our Kairi had cancer. Suddenly my ears perked up as I heard the door knob turn, and suddenly a tall buff man in his mid forties enter the room carrying a brown clipboard with some files attached to it. Kairi's files...
"Is there a Mr. Riku here?" asked the doctor with a blank, but rather serious expression on his face as he looked through the files.
"Why yes that's me!" I replied quickly, and hesitantly every part of my heart, and soul dreading what I was about to hear, but still trying to grasp onto that little bit of hope still left in me.
The doctor sighed, and then I just knew what was coming as my last bit of hope faded away.
"I'm afraid to say this..., and I dread telling you this, but your wife's cancer has returned...We found another tumor growing on her heart I'm afraid... I'm so sorry..." replied the doctor as he adjusted his glasses, and held his clipboard with Kairi's files in it beside him.
Suddenly my whole world crashed down on top of me... The one thing I hadn't wanted to hear or happen had happened. Suddenly I couldn't take it anymore. My whole body went numb as my knees buckled, and I fell to the ground as unwanted tears filled my eyes. I sobbed so hard my body shook. I yanked at me hair as I gnashed my teeth so hard I thought I had broken them... I couldn't move, or feel anything... The only thing I could feel was my soul bleeding to death from sadness. I had never cried in front of anyone in my entire life... not even Kairi, but I just couldn't bear it anymore... The thing I loved, and couldn't live without was dying. Suddenly I felt Sora come up behind me, and pick me up, and embrace me tightly, and Umi as well.
"Riku please just hold on... Everything will be all right I'm sure..." suggested Sora as he tried to make me feel better, but it just wasn't working. The doctor just stood there awe struck not knowing what to do.
"I'll leave you all alone for now, and then I'll get back in touch with you later, and explain everything to you..." the doctor replied as he left the room.
" What do you mean everything will be all right!? If I lose her nothing will ever be the same..." I wailed as my emotions caught up with me.
All of a sudden Umi jerked me up.
"Look Riku I know you're upset, but if Kairi sees you like this you'll put even more stress on her, and besides you didn't even let the doctor finish what he was saying... She might be all right after-all." Replied Umi with her mesmerizing blue eyes that I always got lost... They were so serious, and suddenly I was filled with hope...
"I'll try... I promise I'll try for her..." I said in a bit of a daze.
A few moments later the doctor returned.
"If it's all right I would like to get down to the bottom of all of this." He explained as took out his clipboard, and took a seat beside us. I was ready for this no matter how bad it was... I sat there twiddling my thumbs as the doctor cleared his throat, and started to speak, and telling us everything we needed to know.
"Kairi's has a tumor on her heart... It's not very big, and not very small either, but we can't surgically remove it, because we did that the first time, and a second time would just be taking to big of a risk... and our only other suggestion would be chemotherapy, and it's not always a given it will even work. It may extend that persons life, but sooner or later their going to die." Finished the doctor replying.
" That's clearly not my decision though... That's you all's decision... You, and Kairi..." explained the doctor. The news wasn't great, but it might mean I wouldn't lose Kairi for a long time.
"Why don't you talk to Kairi about it now... The sooner you start it the better the chance." Explained the doctor.
"I think I will..." I quickly replied as I was escorted to her room.
When I walked in Kairi looked the same except for the fact she was in a hospital gown with breathing tubes up her nostrils, and wires connected to her to help circulate her blood flow.
I got down on her level ,and gently touched her hand , and she gently opened her eyes ,and gave me one of her kairish smiles. I just smiled back.
"Hey..." she said in a tired tone.
"Hey how are you?" I asked.
"I'm ok I guess..." she answered back as she yawned.
" Hey Kai we need to talk about something..." I replied back hesitantly.
"Sure what might that be?" she asked as she adjusted herself, and hit a button that moved the bed up.
"They want to put you on chemotherapy..." I announced boldly.
"Oh they do? That's nice..." she answered back not quiet interested in that topic for a moment as she looked out the window at the sunrise with a rather serious look on her face."
"Riku... do you remember the sunsets we used to watch together? Just you, Sora, and me?" she asked quietly with pursed lips.
"Yes I do... What does that have to do with what we were talking about?" I added quiet confused at what she was getting at.
" Riku last night I seen an angel... She showed me everything that had happened to me this past two years... She showed me the reason why I had lived this long... She told me it was because of you... You helped me to hold on to life... You gave me two beautiful children..." she explained.
" What about the chemotherapy?" I asked quiet frustrated with Kairi's nonsense.
"Don't you get it Riku? The chemo won't help me... It may help me physically, but I won't be able to enjoy my life... It won't be the same..." she replied quietly.
"You can't die though!" I yelled out while tears streamed down my face.
"I'll never die Riku... I'll always be right here..." she replied as she placed her hand over my heart.
I stepped back.
"Please Riku you must let go of me... Let me go..." she said with pleading eyes.
"I can never let you go... I love you so much..." I cried out as I cupped her face in my hands, and tenderly kissed her lips.
"Yes you can... It won't be long though until we meet again... Time won't last forever... You'll see me again soon my love... Tell Umi I love her ,and Sora to ,and tell Kame ,and Layla I'll always love them... That will never change Riku... Tell them about me someday... Tell them I loved them so much... Tell Selphie I love her to ,and Tidus as well." She replied as she stroked my cheek tenderly with her soft hand. Her feather like touch sent chills up my spine.
"Riku I will always love you forever, and always because she always were my angel of hope... Never forget that... Live life with joy, and laughter... Please for me my love... When you see that sunset I'll be there... When you look into my daughter's eyes I'll be there... When you feel the sun warm your cheeks, and see our son playing in the ocean I'll be there...I'll never leave you... For the lord giveth life, and the lord taketh away life... Death is an inheritance to his children... "She replied as she stroked my hand, and looked up at the ceiling. She took in one last gulp of air before she faded away peacefully, and slowly closed her eyes as her hand gently slipped away from mine... Then she was gone.
" I love you Kai... I really do..." I replied as I kissed her hand, and tears streamed down my face.
Kairi slipped into a coma for two long days, and then she slipped away peacefully, because when they found her she was smiling.... Sweet raptured light this is my last night...
I can't really remember what happened that night... All I know is one minute Me, and Kairi are happily dancing, and then the next she falls out of my arms out cold. I hadn't slept a wink all night... Selphie, and Tidus took the twins home with them while Sora, and Umi drove Kairi, and I to the hospital. My heart was in so much pain ,and in a turmoil of worry. I knew I had to have vomited at least three times from worrying. My stomach was empty, my blood was cold, and I held an ice pack to my head from my bad headache as I waited for the dreaded news from the doctors. Umi sat in front of me and Sora right beside her his hand in hers in the waiting room at the hospital. This day had been locked away deep within my mind. It was just like this two years ago as me, and Sora both sat in this same room with dreaded unwanted emotion boiling in our veins as the doctor told us our Kairi had cancer. Suddenly my ears perked up as I heard the door knob turn, and suddenly a tall buff man in his mid forties enter the room carrying a brown clipboard with some files attached to it. Kairi's files...
"Is there a Mr. Riku here?" asked the doctor with a blank, but rather serious expression on his face as he looked through the files.
"Why yes that's me!" I replied quickly, and hesitantly every part of my heart, and soul dreading what I was about to hear, but still trying to grasp onto that little bit of hope still left in me.
The doctor sighed, and then I just knew what was coming as my last bit of hope faded away.
"I'm afraid to say this..., and I dread telling you this, but your wife's cancer has returned...We found another tumor growing on her heart I'm afraid... I'm so sorry..." replied the doctor as he adjusted his glasses, and held his clipboard with Kairi's files in it beside him.
Suddenly my whole world crashed down on top of me... The one thing I hadn't wanted to hear or happen had happened. Suddenly I couldn't take it anymore. My whole body went numb as my knees buckled, and I fell to the ground as unwanted tears filled my eyes. I sobbed so hard my body shook. I yanked at me hair as I gnashed my teeth so hard I thought I had broken them... I couldn't move, or feel anything... The only thing I could feel was my soul bleeding to death from sadness. I had never cried in front of anyone in my entire life... not even Kairi, but I just couldn't bear it anymore... The thing I loved, and couldn't live without was dying. Suddenly I felt Sora come up behind me, and pick me up, and embrace me tightly, and Umi as well.
"Riku please just hold on... Everything will be all right I'm sure..." suggested Sora as he tried to make me feel better, but it just wasn't working. The doctor just stood there awe struck not knowing what to do.
"I'll leave you all alone for now, and then I'll get back in touch with you later, and explain everything to you..." the doctor replied as he left the room.
" What do you mean everything will be all right!? If I lose her nothing will ever be the same..." I wailed as my emotions caught up with me.
All of a sudden Umi jerked me up.
"Look Riku I know you're upset, but if Kairi sees you like this you'll put even more stress on her, and besides you didn't even let the doctor finish what he was saying... She might be all right after-all." Replied Umi with her mesmerizing blue eyes that I always got lost... They were so serious, and suddenly I was filled with hope...
"I'll try... I promise I'll try for her..." I said in a bit of a daze.
A few moments later the doctor returned.
"If it's all right I would like to get down to the bottom of all of this." He explained as took out his clipboard, and took a seat beside us. I was ready for this no matter how bad it was... I sat there twiddling my thumbs as the doctor cleared his throat, and started to speak, and telling us everything we needed to know.
"Kairi's has a tumor on her heart... It's not very big, and not very small either, but we can't surgically remove it, because we did that the first time, and a second time would just be taking to big of a risk... and our only other suggestion would be chemotherapy, and it's not always a given it will even work. It may extend that persons life, but sooner or later their going to die." Finished the doctor replying.
" That's clearly not my decision though... That's you all's decision... You, and Kairi..." explained the doctor. The news wasn't great, but it might mean I wouldn't lose Kairi for a long time.
"Why don't you talk to Kairi about it now... The sooner you start it the better the chance." Explained the doctor.
"I think I will..." I quickly replied as I was escorted to her room.
When I walked in Kairi looked the same except for the fact she was in a hospital gown with breathing tubes up her nostrils, and wires connected to her to help circulate her blood flow.
I got down on her level ,and gently touched her hand , and she gently opened her eyes ,and gave me one of her kairish smiles. I just smiled back.
"Hey..." she said in a tired tone.
"Hey how are you?" I asked.
"I'm ok I guess..." she answered back as she yawned.
" Hey Kai we need to talk about something..." I replied back hesitantly.
"Sure what might that be?" she asked as she adjusted herself, and hit a button that moved the bed up.
"They want to put you on chemotherapy..." I announced boldly.
"Oh they do? That's nice..." she answered back not quiet interested in that topic for a moment as she looked out the window at the sunrise with a rather serious look on her face."
"Riku... do you remember the sunsets we used to watch together? Just you, Sora, and me?" she asked quietly with pursed lips.
"Yes I do... What does that have to do with what we were talking about?" I added quiet confused at what she was getting at.
" Riku last night I seen an angel... She showed me everything that had happened to me this past two years... She showed me the reason why I had lived this long... She told me it was because of you... You helped me to hold on to life... You gave me two beautiful children..." she explained.
" What about the chemotherapy?" I asked quiet frustrated with Kairi's nonsense.
"Don't you get it Riku? The chemo won't help me... It may help me physically, but I won't be able to enjoy my life... It won't be the same..." she replied quietly.
"You can't die though!" I yelled out while tears streamed down my face.
"I'll never die Riku... I'll always be right here..." she replied as she placed her hand over my heart.
I stepped back.
"Please Riku you must let go of me... Let me go..." she said with pleading eyes.
"I can never let you go... I love you so much..." I cried out as I cupped her face in my hands, and tenderly kissed her lips.
"Yes you can... It won't be long though until we meet again... Time won't last forever... You'll see me again soon my love... Tell Umi I love her ,and Sora to ,and tell Kame ,and Layla I'll always love them... That will never change Riku... Tell them about me someday... Tell them I loved them so much... Tell Selphie I love her to ,and Tidus as well." She replied as she stroked my cheek tenderly with her soft hand. Her feather like touch sent chills up my spine.
"Riku I will always love you forever, and always because she always were my angel of hope... Never forget that... Live life with joy, and laughter... Please for me my love... When you see that sunset I'll be there... When you look into my daughter's eyes I'll be there... When you feel the sun warm your cheeks, and see our son playing in the ocean I'll be there...I'll never leave you... For the lord giveth life, and the lord taketh away life... Death is an inheritance to his children... "She replied as she stroked my hand, and looked up at the ceiling. She took in one last gulp of air before she faded away peacefully, and slowly closed her eyes as her hand gently slipped away from mine... Then she was gone.
" I love you Kai... I really do..." I replied as I kissed her hand, and tears streamed down my face.
Kairi slipped into a coma for two long days, and then she slipped away peacefully, because when they found her she was smiling.... Sweet raptured light this is my last night...