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~*A Normal Life*~
Shalimar couldn't sleep. Too much had happened in the last few days. First the mysterious caller who turned out to be Adam, alive and well and only God knows where but not home where he belongs. Then meeting Keith; he did all the Dominion asked of him and they still wanted him dead. All he wanted was to get out. He only wanted to live a normal life.
She paced around Sanctuary like a caged lioness. Her feral side was screaming to be released and run wild in the streets but she was really too hurt to even give in. She knew what she needed. She needed to talk to Brennan. He had offered and he always seemed to calm her and help her to think more clearly.
Not being allowed to tell him about Adam and what was really going on was killing her. She hated keeping this from everyone but especially from Brennan. He meant too much to her to hide anything from him. But her instincts told her that Adam meant it when he said that his life was in danger and she was the only one who could know he was alive... yet. She prayed that she would be allowed to tell Brennan soon but for now she knew she had to keep quiet.
None of that helped her. She still needed him. She needed to be close to him. "I'm going" she whispered to herself as she turned and headed toward his room. She knew by now he would be asleep. Stopping in front of his door she put her ear to it and listened. Yes, he was sleeping. Thanks to her feral senses she could hear his shallow breathing which told her he was actually very asleep.
Slowly and quietly she opened the door and stole in. As she closed the door silently behind her, she was engulfed in the blackness of his room. She didn't need to see him to know where his bed was and exactly what position he was in on it.
Turning her eyes golden and approaching his bed she could see that he was sleeping in the middle turned on his side. She carefully sat beside him and just watched him sleep. Being this close to him was enough to help her frayed nerves and confused mind to relax. Closing her eyes, she took a cleaning breath and just enjoyed his presence.
"Shal?" Brennan groggily sat up and rubbed the sleep from his eyes.
Being lost in her relaxation, she jumped when she unexpectedly heard him speak. "Yeah, I'm right here."
He reached out in the dark and gently stroked her arm. "What's the matter? Are you ok?"
"I don't know," she answered in a truthful whisper as she began to cry. As she put her face down into her hands, she felt the bed move beneath her.
Brennan took her shoulders and turned her to face him. "Shal, what's wrong? What's going on, I know it's more than just Keith."
She sobbed and wiped her tears away before looking at him. "I donno, Brenn. I don't know anything anymore." She leaned into his arms, loving it when he brought his arms around her body. "I had the chance to talk to Keith for a while, while he was trying to find the counter procedure. He told me he just wanted to get out. He wanted to leave the Dominion and just live a normal life." She looked up hesitantly and continued. "He asked me if I wanted to 'disappear' with him." She felt Brennan's arm tense around her and saw something reflect in the way he was looking at her.
Brennan's first reaction was to get angry. Strong feelings began to brew against this man who would try to take Shalimar away from him. Catching himself, he quickly hid those feelings and tried to focus on comforting her. He let his hand rub her back lightly, as he looked down at her. "Is that what you want?"
"I don't know. Brennan, everything is so complicated and right now leaving and never coming back sounds so good. I'd give anything to be away from all this. Ever since Naxcon, I've been unsettled, on edge. I really hate being the Dominion's puppet. I don't feel like my life is my own anymore. I don't feel like I can be who I want to be." Desperation was clear in her voice.
"Shalimar, you're starting to scare me." He said as he took her shoulders and gently pushed her back. After meeting her eyes he said, "Promise me you'll never just 'disappear' on me. It would kill me if you did that."
"Why? What importance do I have here, Brennan?"
"Shal, If it weren't for you I probably wouldn't be alive right now and nor would those other Dominion counsel members. You play a very important role here. We need you Shalimar...and I need you." He lowered his eyes and his voice dropped, to a softer tone as he spoke the last words.
"Brennan..."
"I love you," He said suddenly, looking back up at her
She paused and creased her brow slightly not quite sure she had heard right. "What?"
"I love you. I need you with me. Shalimar, just having you around and knowing you're safe is one of my greatest joys. Part of the reason I'm still here, is for you, because I can't be without you."
Shalimar was left speechless.
Brennan sighed and put his head down. "I'm sorry,"
"Brenn..."
"Shal, it's ok, you don't have to feel the same way. Just promise me you won't leave without telling me. I need to at least know you're safe. Ferals aren't the only ones who feel that they need to protect their family. I nee..." Brennan was cut off by a pair of soft warm lips against his. He was stunned at first. This was the last thing he expected, though he had been hoping for it for some time now. He shut his eyes and wrapped his arms behind Shalimar's back, pulling her closer.
"I promise," She whispered, after they separated.
Brennan smiled and lay back down on his bed, before taking Shalimar's hand and lightly tugging her down. Shalimar didn't bother to resist. She wanted him to hold her and she was tired of opposing her feelings. Lying beside him, she draped her arm over his stomach as she rested her head on his shoulder. "Brennan?"
"Yeah?"
"Do you trust me? Even after what I did today?"
"I trust you with everything, Shalimar, but I wish I knew where you were getting all your information. How did you know Keith was innocent?"
Shalimar was silent for a moment. "Brennan, could you trust me and not ask that question, right now."
"I can Shal, but now I feel like you don't trust me. Why can't you tell me?"
She could hear the hurt in his voice, as she raised her head from his shoulder, to look at him. "I do trust you, Brennan, but it's this informant. He said that it'd put him in danger if I spoke about it too much. He knows that you know about the calls and he promised to reveal himself soon."
Brennan nodded his head slightly, "Ok."
She smiled, He really did trust her with everything. "I love you," She whispered as she leaned down to kiss him.
"I love you, too," He smiled as she relaxed in his arms again. It felt good to have her so close, and finally having their feelings out in the open and being reciprocated felt even better.
~*~*Okay, that's it for this chapter. Hope you liked it. Thank you for all the reviews so far and please continue to let me know what you think!*~*~
~*A Normal Life*~
Shalimar couldn't sleep. Too much had happened in the last few days. First the mysterious caller who turned out to be Adam, alive and well and only God knows where but not home where he belongs. Then meeting Keith; he did all the Dominion asked of him and they still wanted him dead. All he wanted was to get out. He only wanted to live a normal life.
She paced around Sanctuary like a caged lioness. Her feral side was screaming to be released and run wild in the streets but she was really too hurt to even give in. She knew what she needed. She needed to talk to Brennan. He had offered and he always seemed to calm her and help her to think more clearly.
Not being allowed to tell him about Adam and what was really going on was killing her. She hated keeping this from everyone but especially from Brennan. He meant too much to her to hide anything from him. But her instincts told her that Adam meant it when he said that his life was in danger and she was the only one who could know he was alive... yet. She prayed that she would be allowed to tell Brennan soon but for now she knew she had to keep quiet.
None of that helped her. She still needed him. She needed to be close to him. "I'm going" she whispered to herself as she turned and headed toward his room. She knew by now he would be asleep. Stopping in front of his door she put her ear to it and listened. Yes, he was sleeping. Thanks to her feral senses she could hear his shallow breathing which told her he was actually very asleep.
Slowly and quietly she opened the door and stole in. As she closed the door silently behind her, she was engulfed in the blackness of his room. She didn't need to see him to know where his bed was and exactly what position he was in on it.
Turning her eyes golden and approaching his bed she could see that he was sleeping in the middle turned on his side. She carefully sat beside him and just watched him sleep. Being this close to him was enough to help her frayed nerves and confused mind to relax. Closing her eyes, she took a cleaning breath and just enjoyed his presence.
"Shal?" Brennan groggily sat up and rubbed the sleep from his eyes.
Being lost in her relaxation, she jumped when she unexpectedly heard him speak. "Yeah, I'm right here."
He reached out in the dark and gently stroked her arm. "What's the matter? Are you ok?"
"I don't know," she answered in a truthful whisper as she began to cry. As she put her face down into her hands, she felt the bed move beneath her.
Brennan took her shoulders and turned her to face him. "Shal, what's wrong? What's going on, I know it's more than just Keith."
She sobbed and wiped her tears away before looking at him. "I donno, Brenn. I don't know anything anymore." She leaned into his arms, loving it when he brought his arms around her body. "I had the chance to talk to Keith for a while, while he was trying to find the counter procedure. He told me he just wanted to get out. He wanted to leave the Dominion and just live a normal life." She looked up hesitantly and continued. "He asked me if I wanted to 'disappear' with him." She felt Brennan's arm tense around her and saw something reflect in the way he was looking at her.
Brennan's first reaction was to get angry. Strong feelings began to brew against this man who would try to take Shalimar away from him. Catching himself, he quickly hid those feelings and tried to focus on comforting her. He let his hand rub her back lightly, as he looked down at her. "Is that what you want?"
"I don't know. Brennan, everything is so complicated and right now leaving and never coming back sounds so good. I'd give anything to be away from all this. Ever since Naxcon, I've been unsettled, on edge. I really hate being the Dominion's puppet. I don't feel like my life is my own anymore. I don't feel like I can be who I want to be." Desperation was clear in her voice.
"Shalimar, you're starting to scare me." He said as he took her shoulders and gently pushed her back. After meeting her eyes he said, "Promise me you'll never just 'disappear' on me. It would kill me if you did that."
"Why? What importance do I have here, Brennan?"
"Shal, If it weren't for you I probably wouldn't be alive right now and nor would those other Dominion counsel members. You play a very important role here. We need you Shalimar...and I need you." He lowered his eyes and his voice dropped, to a softer tone as he spoke the last words.
"Brennan..."
"I love you," He said suddenly, looking back up at her
She paused and creased her brow slightly not quite sure she had heard right. "What?"
"I love you. I need you with me. Shalimar, just having you around and knowing you're safe is one of my greatest joys. Part of the reason I'm still here, is for you, because I can't be without you."
Shalimar was left speechless.
Brennan sighed and put his head down. "I'm sorry,"
"Brenn..."
"Shal, it's ok, you don't have to feel the same way. Just promise me you won't leave without telling me. I need to at least know you're safe. Ferals aren't the only ones who feel that they need to protect their family. I nee..." Brennan was cut off by a pair of soft warm lips against his. He was stunned at first. This was the last thing he expected, though he had been hoping for it for some time now. He shut his eyes and wrapped his arms behind Shalimar's back, pulling her closer.
"I promise," She whispered, after they separated.
Brennan smiled and lay back down on his bed, before taking Shalimar's hand and lightly tugging her down. Shalimar didn't bother to resist. She wanted him to hold her and she was tired of opposing her feelings. Lying beside him, she draped her arm over his stomach as she rested her head on his shoulder. "Brennan?"
"Yeah?"
"Do you trust me? Even after what I did today?"
"I trust you with everything, Shalimar, but I wish I knew where you were getting all your information. How did you know Keith was innocent?"
Shalimar was silent for a moment. "Brennan, could you trust me and not ask that question, right now."
"I can Shal, but now I feel like you don't trust me. Why can't you tell me?"
She could hear the hurt in his voice, as she raised her head from his shoulder, to look at him. "I do trust you, Brennan, but it's this informant. He said that it'd put him in danger if I spoke about it too much. He knows that you know about the calls and he promised to reveal himself soon."
Brennan nodded his head slightly, "Ok."
She smiled, He really did trust her with everything. "I love you," She whispered as she leaned down to kiss him.
"I love you, too," He smiled as she relaxed in his arms again. It felt good to have her so close, and finally having their feelings out in the open and being reciprocated felt even better.
~*~*Okay, that's it for this chapter. Hope you liked it. Thank you for all the reviews so far and please continue to let me know what you think!*~*~