Lchan: Okay, I added this epilogue because I realized that the chapter I
last posted wasn't 'epilogue' enough. So here it is! Bunches of ramblings
in POV's...this can actually pass for a one-shot, but I did make it for
Choices, so here it is posted with all the rest of the chapters as the
official epilogue! Please read and review, as always! This is the last
time, I promise! Coz I'm not sure about the sequel idea... Who know
though, right...?
Epilogue
So this is how it feels...
I was never able to tell how it happened with him. I never realized, never noticed that he felt that way. I used to think he was so far away from me-- too far for me to reach...too distant to BE reached...
But I was wrong.
The Chinese exchange student, who hated me from the beginning...the descendant of Clow Reed, who was after the same things I was...the future Li Clan master, who hardly ever gave up anything he set his heart into (and that included triumph over me and triumph over the Clow cards, which he later let go without me even realizing it)...
Hoe...
How had it happened to him? How had he learned to love someone like me?
He used to dislike me so much, and I thought he didn't know how much it hurt. It even crossed my mind that maybe he didn't care...
And yet...Syaoran-kun has always been there for me, despite all that. And he was always all too willing to risk everything just to help me...so I ceased to think that he didn't care at all...but then I wonder why I never asked him the reason why he DID care. Why did he even bother to fight with me if he wanted nothing more than the power of the Clow cards...?
Maybe...I never asked him because I was happy enough knowing that he didn't hate me.
It took me a while to realize my feelings for him...a very long while...I wonder when he realized his. I never noticed...I never dreamed he would return them, see. So I never looked close enough to search for it...
I didn't think of confession once. I never dreamed of telling him, like he did with me...and I suppose I was a coward for not doing so. A part of me wishes that I did--that I had just told him the moment I was sure it was real...and I would have known sooner that he loved me back...I wouldn't have wasted so much time.
But oh well.
Everything turned out for the best.
I'm happy it all happened this way. So happy...
Aishiteru, Syaoran-kun...
So this is how it feels...
Sakura...
I couldn't imagine that I ever hated you, or even disliked you--even in the beginning! Yeah, I was a fool then. I was a selfish little brat. Your brother and Kero put it pretty well...
Yet you still defended me against them, even though what they said was true.
You preferred to blind yourself to my shortcomings, though I was all but screaming them into your ears (I'd never do that of course. Like I even COULD). Sakura...I owe you so much...and I haven't paid for even half of it.
You turned me around, twisted me to be someone I never thought I could be-- and imagine, without even forcing me to anything. You were a person I never thought could exist--someone better than a dream...
You're more than a cherry blossom...so much more...
And I'll always be here, Sakura. Always...for you...
So this is how it feels...
I used to be so intent on Sakura-chan and Li-kun's relationship, I forgot my own. But I suppose that's alright, because ever since you left, it was hard not to get lonely.
I wish you'd stayed until the end of the year, Eriol-kun, or maybe even until high school...or until we graduate.
I liked you from the beginning--you with your English ethics and eternal mystery. You made me smile even though you weren't even talking directly to me. And I would have missed that so much if I hadn't found other people's lives to concentrate on.
I didn't want to miss you, Eriol-kun. I didn't want to think back on all our memories and end up remembering that you're nowhere near me at the moment.
But...I didn't want to forget you either. No way. And as if I ever could!
I never really admitted to myself that I love you. I just thought I liked you in a different, more fascinating way than I like all the others. And I didn't want to encourage the feeling.
There were so few moments that we spent together while you were still here, and you always seemed so much more interested in Sakura-chan. I didn't want to kindle too much hope and get hurt. Besides, I thought, what's a silly school-girl-type infatuation anyway? It would just dissolve the moment we part ways...
But you know what (which I suppose you did)? It didn't. And what was even weirder was that it didn't surprise me that it didn't. You stuck to my head and I was just like 'duh, Tomoyo, of course, you've been expecting that!'
But I never expected that the same happened to you. Basing on the way you spoke to me on the telephone, I guess I didn't escape your memories either...
And THAT surprised me. And that surprise felt fantastic--so incredibly fantastic that I never even saw it coming.
Now I know how it feels...to like someone this much...because of you...
I'll always be waiting for your return, Eriol-kun. So come back soon.
So this is how it feels...
It's the first time I have ever fallen for someone, and I don't regret that it's with you.
I wish I could have spent more time with you and that wonderful voice of yours during my stay in Tomoeda, but centuries-old plans couldn't be easily postponed. If it were all completely up to me, I would have stayed longer, but I do have Nakuru and Spinel...and also Mizuki-san waiting...
Speaking of Mizuki-san...she was a friend--always been--and has never been anything else but.
But you...you were. You ARE...
Tomoyo-san, you were always so brave to stand by the card mistress even in times of worse troubles, despite the dangers. You presented to all of us that you just wanted to record her battles into your camera, but I could see how deep it actually ran. You wanted to be there for Sakura, for my descendant...for the people you've learned to love as your friends...
And that was what I liked most about you, not to mention your serenity and stubbornness, only too well hidden by your smiles and laughter and video recorder. You're a beautiful girl, Tomoyo.
Stay that way, always.
I don't exactly remember how it happened to me, or when. Falling for you, I mean. I used to think it was just the onrush of boyhood overtaking me because I am in this body, but then...even though I'd finally and firmly decided to focus on my purposes with my descendant and Sakura...you stayed there and lingered, smiling and singing at the back of my mind...
And you know, I didn't mind. I didn't try to deny it.
You're such an easy girl to fall in love with, Daidouji-san...especially for a guy like me.
So please...wait for me, okay? I'll come back for you soon...
So this is how it feels...
To like someone...
To fall in love...
owari
Lchan: I know, I know, my writing style has changed quite a bit. When did I write this fic anyway? Last summer?? Ah well...anyway, so there you go! The ending!! The final ending!! I hope you liked it! I tried to keep all the POV's short and simple. Please review this epilogue! I'd really appreciate it! Oh, and if you want, you can check out my latest CCS fic, Opposites Attract--just an offer to people who MIGHT be a bit interested in yet another slightly AU fic on high school life...a'ight? Thanks, people! Luv y'all!
Epilogue
So this is how it feels...
I was never able to tell how it happened with him. I never realized, never noticed that he felt that way. I used to think he was so far away from me-- too far for me to reach...too distant to BE reached...
But I was wrong.
The Chinese exchange student, who hated me from the beginning...the descendant of Clow Reed, who was after the same things I was...the future Li Clan master, who hardly ever gave up anything he set his heart into (and that included triumph over me and triumph over the Clow cards, which he later let go without me even realizing it)...
Hoe...
How had it happened to him? How had he learned to love someone like me?
He used to dislike me so much, and I thought he didn't know how much it hurt. It even crossed my mind that maybe he didn't care...
And yet...Syaoran-kun has always been there for me, despite all that. And he was always all too willing to risk everything just to help me...so I ceased to think that he didn't care at all...but then I wonder why I never asked him the reason why he DID care. Why did he even bother to fight with me if he wanted nothing more than the power of the Clow cards...?
Maybe...I never asked him because I was happy enough knowing that he didn't hate me.
It took me a while to realize my feelings for him...a very long while...I wonder when he realized his. I never noticed...I never dreamed he would return them, see. So I never looked close enough to search for it...
I didn't think of confession once. I never dreamed of telling him, like he did with me...and I suppose I was a coward for not doing so. A part of me wishes that I did--that I had just told him the moment I was sure it was real...and I would have known sooner that he loved me back...I wouldn't have wasted so much time.
But oh well.
Everything turned out for the best.
I'm happy it all happened this way. So happy...
Aishiteru, Syaoran-kun...
So this is how it feels...
Sakura...
I couldn't imagine that I ever hated you, or even disliked you--even in the beginning! Yeah, I was a fool then. I was a selfish little brat. Your brother and Kero put it pretty well...
Yet you still defended me against them, even though what they said was true.
You preferred to blind yourself to my shortcomings, though I was all but screaming them into your ears (I'd never do that of course. Like I even COULD). Sakura...I owe you so much...and I haven't paid for even half of it.
You turned me around, twisted me to be someone I never thought I could be-- and imagine, without even forcing me to anything. You were a person I never thought could exist--someone better than a dream...
You're more than a cherry blossom...so much more...
And I'll always be here, Sakura. Always...for you...
So this is how it feels...
I used to be so intent on Sakura-chan and Li-kun's relationship, I forgot my own. But I suppose that's alright, because ever since you left, it was hard not to get lonely.
I wish you'd stayed until the end of the year, Eriol-kun, or maybe even until high school...or until we graduate.
I liked you from the beginning--you with your English ethics and eternal mystery. You made me smile even though you weren't even talking directly to me. And I would have missed that so much if I hadn't found other people's lives to concentrate on.
I didn't want to miss you, Eriol-kun. I didn't want to think back on all our memories and end up remembering that you're nowhere near me at the moment.
But...I didn't want to forget you either. No way. And as if I ever could!
I never really admitted to myself that I love you. I just thought I liked you in a different, more fascinating way than I like all the others. And I didn't want to encourage the feeling.
There were so few moments that we spent together while you were still here, and you always seemed so much more interested in Sakura-chan. I didn't want to kindle too much hope and get hurt. Besides, I thought, what's a silly school-girl-type infatuation anyway? It would just dissolve the moment we part ways...
But you know what (which I suppose you did)? It didn't. And what was even weirder was that it didn't surprise me that it didn't. You stuck to my head and I was just like 'duh, Tomoyo, of course, you've been expecting that!'
But I never expected that the same happened to you. Basing on the way you spoke to me on the telephone, I guess I didn't escape your memories either...
And THAT surprised me. And that surprise felt fantastic--so incredibly fantastic that I never even saw it coming.
Now I know how it feels...to like someone this much...because of you...
I'll always be waiting for your return, Eriol-kun. So come back soon.
So this is how it feels...
It's the first time I have ever fallen for someone, and I don't regret that it's with you.
I wish I could have spent more time with you and that wonderful voice of yours during my stay in Tomoeda, but centuries-old plans couldn't be easily postponed. If it were all completely up to me, I would have stayed longer, but I do have Nakuru and Spinel...and also Mizuki-san waiting...
Speaking of Mizuki-san...she was a friend--always been--and has never been anything else but.
But you...you were. You ARE...
Tomoyo-san, you were always so brave to stand by the card mistress even in times of worse troubles, despite the dangers. You presented to all of us that you just wanted to record her battles into your camera, but I could see how deep it actually ran. You wanted to be there for Sakura, for my descendant...for the people you've learned to love as your friends...
And that was what I liked most about you, not to mention your serenity and stubbornness, only too well hidden by your smiles and laughter and video recorder. You're a beautiful girl, Tomoyo.
Stay that way, always.
I don't exactly remember how it happened to me, or when. Falling for you, I mean. I used to think it was just the onrush of boyhood overtaking me because I am in this body, but then...even though I'd finally and firmly decided to focus on my purposes with my descendant and Sakura...you stayed there and lingered, smiling and singing at the back of my mind...
And you know, I didn't mind. I didn't try to deny it.
You're such an easy girl to fall in love with, Daidouji-san...especially for a guy like me.
So please...wait for me, okay? I'll come back for you soon...
So this is how it feels...
To like someone...
To fall in love...
owari
Lchan: I know, I know, my writing style has changed quite a bit. When did I write this fic anyway? Last summer?? Ah well...anyway, so there you go! The ending!! The final ending!! I hope you liked it! I tried to keep all the POV's short and simple. Please review this epilogue! I'd really appreciate it! Oh, and if you want, you can check out my latest CCS fic, Opposites Attract--just an offer to people who MIGHT be a bit interested in yet another slightly AU fic on high school life...a'ight? Thanks, people! Luv y'all!