I'm turning into a monster and I can't stop it. I know it's not my
fault I know I shouldn't be overreacting but god how can I just accept it?
They don't understand not even Squall understands. After watching what
happened to Ultemecia and Adel I'm afraid....afraid that I'll lose control
and hurt someone. Esthar is just waiting for a reason to suppress my
powers Laguna couldn't stop them if I did something...terrible. Maybe it
would be for the best I could never hurt someone that way. Who am I
kidding? I would never really be ready to just be shot off into space and
left there...does that make me selfish? Maybe I need to get away from
Garden for awhile just to clear my thoughts. I wonder what the others
would think?
"Rinoa? Are you in there?"
There was a soft knock on the door and Rinoa shut her journal hiding it quickly under her bed.
"Yes I'm here come in."
Squall walked in he looked at her his eyes full of worry.
"Rinoa is there something you want to talk about?"
She didn't say anything for a moment her head was down avoiding his glance.
"Squall I....I think I need a break....not from you...from Garden I think I want to go back to Timber maybe I haven't seen Zone and Watts in forever."
"Is that what you want? We are headed that way I'm sure Cid would stop there for you."
Rinoa nodded and smiled. She gave him a kiss to show her thanks he smiled back.
"I'm sure I will be fine afterwards...Squall you keep looking at my eyes is there- oh right....I'm starting to show the traits of a sorceress who knows when I'll start acting like them. Kurse all SeeDs..."
She laughed nervously he grabbed her arm and looked at her his eyes showing his seriousness.
"No matter what your friends will never leave your side. I-your knight will never leave your side."
She couldn't help but smile a little more showing her gratitude she hugged him tightley.
"Thanks Squall I think I get that now..."
Rinoa stared at the ceiling her back pressing tightley against the hard wall behind her. The constant humming sound of the Garden making it's way to Timber throbbed in her head making her rub her temples to ease the uncoming headache. She sat on the ground on the second floor running through her thoughts one last time.
I wonder if it was a good idea to come back to Timber...I'm different now. I'm no longer that childish princess anymore anyone could see that. Will Zone and Watts not want to have anything to do with me? This is all to complicated I hate this. Why did I have to become this? Maybe it was for the better....I have matured a lot and finally realized that what I used to think was just some way to get back at daddy was really something that could have effected everyone I knew and loved. Oh well what use is it to dwell on the past? What's done is done and now I'm heading back for Timber I hope it hasn't changed as much as I have.
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"Rinoa? Are you in there?"
There was a soft knock on the door and Rinoa shut her journal hiding it quickly under her bed.
"Yes I'm here come in."
Squall walked in he looked at her his eyes full of worry.
"Rinoa is there something you want to talk about?"
She didn't say anything for a moment her head was down avoiding his glance.
"Squall I....I think I need a break....not from you...from Garden I think I want to go back to Timber maybe I haven't seen Zone and Watts in forever."
"Is that what you want? We are headed that way I'm sure Cid would stop there for you."
Rinoa nodded and smiled. She gave him a kiss to show her thanks he smiled back.
"I'm sure I will be fine afterwards...Squall you keep looking at my eyes is there- oh right....I'm starting to show the traits of a sorceress who knows when I'll start acting like them. Kurse all SeeDs..."
She laughed nervously he grabbed her arm and looked at her his eyes showing his seriousness.
"No matter what your friends will never leave your side. I-your knight will never leave your side."
She couldn't help but smile a little more showing her gratitude she hugged him tightley.
"Thanks Squall I think I get that now..."
Rinoa stared at the ceiling her back pressing tightley against the hard wall behind her. The constant humming sound of the Garden making it's way to Timber throbbed in her head making her rub her temples to ease the uncoming headache. She sat on the ground on the second floor running through her thoughts one last time.
I wonder if it was a good idea to come back to Timber...I'm different now. I'm no longer that childish princess anymore anyone could see that. Will Zone and Watts not want to have anything to do with me? This is all to complicated I hate this. Why did I have to become this? Maybe it was for the better....I have matured a lot and finally realized that what I used to think was just some way to get back at daddy was really something that could have effected everyone I knew and loved. Oh well what use is it to dwell on the past? What's done is done and now I'm heading back for Timber I hope it hasn't changed as much as I have.
----------------------------------------------------------------------- ----------------- Okay I am going to try to make longer chapters I've finally got an idea of where I want this fan fiction to go so....yeah hope you enjoy this chapter I know it wasn't that long