Dear Diary, October 31st

I hate my life, everytime something bad happens something even worse

comes along, toady I can't make a exception to what I just said. Ok,

so Freddy broke up with me today, as you alrady know, but that's just

the damn tip of the iceberg. After I finished writing my last entry,

my Mom came in wih the worst news of my life: Daddy and Matthew had

been in a car accident and we needed to get to the hospital. We rushed

there, and waited till a doctor came out and said "We're sorry there

was nothing we could do...we lost the man and the boy" I just stared

and looked at the wall, I ran off to the nearest bathroom where I

still am right now.

I don't have anything to live for, nobody cares about me, everybody

hates me, why do you think Freddy broke up with me? I'm a total loser

and nobody needs me. Nobody could posibally know how I feel right now;

sitting on the cold, white floor of a hospital bathroom, I hear the

screaming of a woman probably finding out her husband or child has

died, All I smell is death, death is everywhere right now for me, it's

all I have. My 13 and a half year old heart is breaking into four big

peices right now, and I have no one to help me puzzle it back together.

I'm am just going to leave this last entry, page stained by my tears,

words smearing. I am going to go out of this world with a bang, a

public suicide would be good, so everybody will get a chance to say

one last goodbye, watch me shatter into a thousand peices in front of

their curious eyes, hearing my scream from a million feet above them,

praying to God I won't fall near them, so they aren't tramatized for

life, hoping I survive the fall, even though I hope I don't, they can

watch me take my one last breath, wondering how I could of been when

I was older, what person I could and would of been, wondering where I

would of ended up, I guess they'll just never find out, now will they?

Goodbye Forever, Marta Lynne Levingston

PS. Freddy: I care about you, read this whole diary to find out how

long I've cared for you.

Summer: You are my best friend, never forget me.

Zack: Wonderful, Wonderful Zack. Alway remember you are the one who

helped my through with you're smiles and words of hope.

Dewey: You made my life more exciting

The Band: You guys helped my make memories, I will cherish in my

afterlife.

Mom, and Adam: I love you, I hope I'll see Dady in Matthew in heaven.

I'll always watch over you and evrybosy else, I just said my final

goodbye too.

Author's Note: This isn't the end of the story so, stay put.