Dear Diary, December 25th
Hey, it's Christmas and I have to spend my second favorite holiday in
Southport Hospital Psyciatric Ward, sounds pretty fun, huh? I'm getting
back to being my old self, everybody in the band has come to visit me
at least four times a peice, except Freddy's who's first visit was
today. He was really...well, uncomfortable around me, didn't say
anything at first, so I had to start the talking:
Me: Freddy, you finally came to see me
Freddy: Yeah, sorry it took me so long
Me: It's ok, I'd be afraid to be around a person who could bring death
at any moment, too.
Freddy: I'm not afriad to be around you
Me: I was just kidding, a little psyciatric humor
Freddy:Oh, umh...well, Merry Christmas, oh.. I have a gift for you.
He gave me my diary.
Me: Thanks, It looks..so, familier
Freddy: (laughs)Yeah, I read it, like you wrote.. The nurse at the
front desk said, you could have it tonight, then they take it away
till you get outta here.
Me: Oh,...So, how's everybody doing?
Freddy: Everybody's good. Oh, god, I totally forgot! Guess what?
Me: Umh...Someone tried to commit suicide
Freddy:...No, we got a record deal
Me: Are you serious?
Freddy: Totally. The day you get out were gonna start recording, then
go on tour.
Me: Awesome!..Oh, but what if my doctors all like "She might suddenly
become suicidal"?
Freddy: Ah, we already figured that out. Your mom talked to that
doctor of you's and he'll let you go if someone's alway's with you.
Me: I can do that. So is this my Christmas present?
Freddy: Yeah
Me: How are you and Katie doing?
Freddy: Good
Me: Spazzy, Spazzy, Spazzy..I'm over that, I'm over you, all I see you
as now is one of my best friend, probablyyou are my best friend next
to Summer, but I shouldn't compare.
Freddy: Maybe you'll get out of here soon. You aren't gonna get held
back a grade are you?
Me: No, I have a tutor
Freddy: Oh, I have to go, need to get back and have dinner with my
parents. Seeya.
Me: Ok, bye..."Loverboy"
Freddy's visit made me feel better and stronger than I've felt since
my attempt.
When I tried to kill myself, they said I had temporary insanity or
something. The thing I remember the clearest, is jumping. It was like
I was flying, and when I hit the ground like falling in a pile of
pillows. But, that impact with the yard in front of Dewey's apartment,
broke two of my fingers and my right leg. My leg is still healing, even
though my fingers are fully mended. Writing about the suicide attempt,
is like having a bag of bricks being lifted off my shoulders. I'm done
writing right now, I'm tierd. But at least I get my diary back, when
I'm outta this hellhole.
Hey, it's Christmas and I have to spend my second favorite holiday in
Southport Hospital Psyciatric Ward, sounds pretty fun, huh? I'm getting
back to being my old self, everybody in the band has come to visit me
at least four times a peice, except Freddy's who's first visit was
today. He was really...well, uncomfortable around me, didn't say
anything at first, so I had to start the talking:
Me: Freddy, you finally came to see me
Freddy: Yeah, sorry it took me so long
Me: It's ok, I'd be afraid to be around a person who could bring death
at any moment, too.
Freddy: I'm not afriad to be around you
Me: I was just kidding, a little psyciatric humor
Freddy:Oh, umh...well, Merry Christmas, oh.. I have a gift for you.
He gave me my diary.
Me: Thanks, It looks..so, familier
Freddy: (laughs)Yeah, I read it, like you wrote.. The nurse at the
front desk said, you could have it tonight, then they take it away
till you get outta here.
Me: Oh,...So, how's everybody doing?
Freddy: Everybody's good. Oh, god, I totally forgot! Guess what?
Me: Umh...Someone tried to commit suicide
Freddy:...No, we got a record deal
Me: Are you serious?
Freddy: Totally. The day you get out were gonna start recording, then
go on tour.
Me: Awesome!..Oh, but what if my doctors all like "She might suddenly
become suicidal"?
Freddy: Ah, we already figured that out. Your mom talked to that
doctor of you's and he'll let you go if someone's alway's with you.
Me: I can do that. So is this my Christmas present?
Freddy: Yeah
Me: How are you and Katie doing?
Freddy: Good
Me: Spazzy, Spazzy, Spazzy..I'm over that, I'm over you, all I see you
as now is one of my best friend, probablyyou are my best friend next
to Summer, but I shouldn't compare.
Freddy: Maybe you'll get out of here soon. You aren't gonna get held
back a grade are you?
Me: No, I have a tutor
Freddy: Oh, I have to go, need to get back and have dinner with my
parents. Seeya.
Me: Ok, bye..."Loverboy"
Freddy's visit made me feel better and stronger than I've felt since
my attempt.
When I tried to kill myself, they said I had temporary insanity or
something. The thing I remember the clearest, is jumping. It was like
I was flying, and when I hit the ground like falling in a pile of
pillows. But, that impact with the yard in front of Dewey's apartment,
broke two of my fingers and my right leg. My leg is still healing, even
though my fingers are fully mended. Writing about the suicide attempt,
is like having a bag of bricks being lifted off my shoulders. I'm done
writing right now, I'm tierd. But at least I get my diary back, when
I'm outta this hellhole.