Dear Diary, September 15th
I hate my life. No, I don't hate my life, OH! I can't say that...
sucicidal tendencies..remember? Something went terribly wrong, bringing
back my dark memories: Summer was in a car accident.
It happened on the way back from band practice..her brother, Tyler was
driving her home, when a pick-up truck, the guy in the pick-up was
majorly drunk, which is the whole reason it happened. The two vehicles
just...slammed into each other.
The guy in he truck is dead, he was throw out of his pick-up. Tyler
is ok, he only broke his leg. But, Summer...my best friend, Summer
.....she's in a coma....
Nurse: She can't see or hear you
Me: Are you sure?
Nurse: Yes
She looked so small, and fragile in the hospital bed. I walked over
and touched her hand...it was kinda cold, I knew that mean't death..
maybe. I leaned dow and kissed her on the forehead, before running out
of the room, crying really really hard. I ran into Freddy's open arms
he hugged me, I was crying so hard, I could barely breathe:
Freddy: Don't cry
Me: Summer..She's looks so weak, she's always been strong.
Freddy: I know. She's gonna be ok.
Me: I don't know, Freddy. I really don't know...
Freddy: You know she won't die
Tears started welling up in Freddy's eyes. We hugged even tighter. Just
then Katie and Zack came walking out of the room: Katie was crying as
hard as I had been and Zack looked like he had just seen a ghost.
Eleni, Tomika, Alicia and Michelle were all hugging in a group, crying.
Most of the other guys in the band we're just staring and maybe crying,
but trying to hide their tear streaked faces from the other members of
the band. Zack walked over to us, Freddy and I stopped hugging. I
hugged Zack.
Zack: Summer...
Me: Oh, Zack. I'm so sorry.
Zack: She's just..so cold.
Freddy: Dude, She's gonna be ok, I know it. She had to be, she's the
backbone of the band, she's strong enough to make it through even this.
Zack: Maybe. I'm gonna go see if Katie's ok.
Zack walked away. Freddy and I hugged again. I kissed him. He wiped
the tears off my face.
Me: I love you, so much
Freddy: I love you, too
I finally said it. But, what's gonna happen after this? They said
Summer might not live past tommorrow, if her pulse and heartbeat
doesn't become regular, and if their don't find more brian activity.
She can't die..I'd probably have another mental break-down. My doctor
told me if I felt really stressed or sad, or depressed or if I felt
anything which is waht they were probably trying ot say, I had to think
of happy things. How the hell am I gonna think of happy things, when
Summer is lying in that hospital almost dead, no I can't say that, in
a deep sleep?(that's much better)I don't know, I guess I'll have to
figure that out later. All I do know is that I hate this diary, and I
am hiding it till..well, forever. I know I've said that before, but I
mean it this time.
Yours Truly, Marta L.
I hate my life. No, I don't hate my life, OH! I can't say that...
sucicidal tendencies..remember? Something went terribly wrong, bringing
back my dark memories: Summer was in a car accident.
It happened on the way back from band practice..her brother, Tyler was
driving her home, when a pick-up truck, the guy in the pick-up was
majorly drunk, which is the whole reason it happened. The two vehicles
just...slammed into each other.
The guy in he truck is dead, he was throw out of his pick-up. Tyler
is ok, he only broke his leg. But, Summer...my best friend, Summer
.....she's in a coma....
Nurse: She can't see or hear you
Me: Are you sure?
Nurse: Yes
She looked so small, and fragile in the hospital bed. I walked over
and touched her hand...it was kinda cold, I knew that mean't death..
maybe. I leaned dow and kissed her on the forehead, before running out
of the room, crying really really hard. I ran into Freddy's open arms
he hugged me, I was crying so hard, I could barely breathe:
Freddy: Don't cry
Me: Summer..She's looks so weak, she's always been strong.
Freddy: I know. She's gonna be ok.
Me: I don't know, Freddy. I really don't know...
Freddy: You know she won't die
Tears started welling up in Freddy's eyes. We hugged even tighter. Just
then Katie and Zack came walking out of the room: Katie was crying as
hard as I had been and Zack looked like he had just seen a ghost.
Eleni, Tomika, Alicia and Michelle were all hugging in a group, crying.
Most of the other guys in the band we're just staring and maybe crying,
but trying to hide their tear streaked faces from the other members of
the band. Zack walked over to us, Freddy and I stopped hugging. I
hugged Zack.
Zack: Summer...
Me: Oh, Zack. I'm so sorry.
Zack: She's just..so cold.
Freddy: Dude, She's gonna be ok, I know it. She had to be, she's the
backbone of the band, she's strong enough to make it through even this.
Zack: Maybe. I'm gonna go see if Katie's ok.
Zack walked away. Freddy and I hugged again. I kissed him. He wiped
the tears off my face.
Me: I love you, so much
Freddy: I love you, too
I finally said it. But, what's gonna happen after this? They said
Summer might not live past tommorrow, if her pulse and heartbeat
doesn't become regular, and if their don't find more brian activity.
She can't die..I'd probably have another mental break-down. My doctor
told me if I felt really stressed or sad, or depressed or if I felt
anything which is waht they were probably trying ot say, I had to think
of happy things. How the hell am I gonna think of happy things, when
Summer is lying in that hospital almost dead, no I can't say that, in
a deep sleep?(that's much better)I don't know, I guess I'll have to
figure that out later. All I do know is that I hate this diary, and I
am hiding it till..well, forever. I know I've said that before, but I
mean it this time.
Yours Truly, Marta L.