The time it takes
Hermione Granger slowly walked through the gardens that surrounded
Hogwarts. Breathing in the air she smiled. She was serene, and she
ravished in it because she knew that with the state the world was in
at the moment, it wouldn't last for long.
A few weeks ago thoughts like this would have disturbed her, but now
she found that it didn't matter; only he mattered. If anyone had
witnessed what had taken place between her and Severus yesterday they
would wonder why she was so serene, but it was easy. Granted she had
barely slept yesterday, wondering if he would hate her. Yet that
morning she had seen him, but she hadn't yet spoken to him, just saw
him and he gave her a smile. Although admittedly it was short, barely
lasting a second, but she had seen it. She was forgiven.
At times, it disturbed her that she would do anything for Severus
Snape. She wondered briefly if this was what worshipping someone was
like, but she banished the thought. She didn't care if she worshipped
him. Her life was laughable to some, pathetic to others and prefect
for her. She lived for this man, he was her life, he was her strength
and he was her will.
Abruptly she stopped. The sereneness had blown away in the wind. She
had realized last night that for Severus to have her and to need her,
she already knew he wanted her, so that didn't count because he was a
man after all, she needed to be completely his; and this crush, or
whatever that Harry Potter was savoring for her needed to be gone.
Now.
She looked at the man. 'No,' she corrected herself, the boy standing
in front of her, staring out into the lake, into its depths. Harry
Potter was but a boy who pretended to be a man, he had one more step
to grow before reaching manhood. Of course if Harry Potter knew this
he would think it physical, but no, the boy had yet to change fully
into a man emotionally. Of course if he heard those thoughts from her
he would laugh, and she could see him telling her, 'I've been through
so much emotional pain, and suffering that it's making me a 150 year
old man.'
She would answer him, 'Yes, pain, suffering you have grown to know,
but love...'
"Harry?" she questioned her friend softly, bringing him out of his
thoughts. He looked at her and smiled then her hand and pulled her to
the ground to sit with him. Once they were sitting, Hermione expected
Harry to let go of her hand but he didn't.
"Mione I've missed you and I realized that I couldn't stay away from
you, so I broke up with Ginny..."
"Harry, stop!" Hermione warned, pulling her hand from his. "Don't tell
me you want me! Merlin, don't even think of telling me you love me!"
His expression froze.
"Harry, I love you, as a friend. You must of realized that Severus and
I are..." She trailed off. What were they?
"Hermione, you do not like Snape okay? The greasy git must have put a
spell on you!" Harry was getting angry.
"Harry" Hermione voice was soothing, calming and slowly Harry's
breathing returned to normal and he relaxed again, but only slightly.
"Harry, listen to me; no interruptions okay?" Harry's only answer was
a nod. "You're right, Harry. I don't like Severus, I love him. No
interruptions! I know why I love him as well; he's brave and kind...at
times. But more than that, he's intelligent interesting and he's
himself. He doesn't always say the right words, but when he does, they
make you happy. He isn't always happy but that's him. In the end I
love Severus Snape from freewill simply because he is him."
She cupped Harry's face. "You don't love me, at least in any other way
than as a friend. You might think you do but you don't. You just do
this with everyone, that's your way; with Ginny, with me. I know
you're hiding something Harry, I know that maybe you like someone you
think no one will like, that we won't understand, but I love Severus.
I understand," Hermione said and gave Harry a knowing smile.
Harry pulled her into him. "Thank you 'Mione," he whispered into her
ear as they hugged.
"It's alright Harry," she replied and stood up, dusting the dirt off
her skirt. "I will always be your friend," she told him and reached
down and gave his hand a squeeze, then turned and headed off to find
Solana. She always knew what the password to Severus' room was."Sevvvvvvv"
"Don't whine, Solana it doesn't become you," Severus commented to his
sister who was kneeling before him, "Begging won't work either."
"Sev, come on I want details!" Hands clasped together, Solana really
did make a pathetic sight.
"Merlin, Solana you're starting to act like a Gryffindor," he
exclaimed and looked down at her in disgust.
"Speaking of Gryffindors," Solana said slyly looking at Severus out of
the corner of her eye, "What happened with you and Granger...Hermione?"
"None of your business."
"Sevvvvvvv..." Solana pleaded again, but her eyes widen in fright a few
seconds later when she saw Severus grimace in pain. "Sev!! Severus!
Severus! Are you okay?!" Severus crutched his forearm in pain. "He's
calling you already?!"
"Really...you're not going to try to stop me going are you?"
"No, that's Hermione's job"
"Shit. If she comes don't tell her where I've gone."
"I can't do that Sev. It'll be like asking her not to care."
He growled at her in frustration and glared, then flinched in pain.
"Goodbye," he snarled at her and flew out the room go to Voldemort.
Solana sat down, Sev was angry with her, nothing new there.
"Solana?"
Startled, she jumped up. "Hermione?"
"Hi."
"Oh, good afternoon."
"Where's Severus?"
"Out."
"Out? Okay I'll go wait for him in his room. Has the password
changed?"
"No."
"Okay see you later then," Hermione replied, beginning to turn around.
"Bye," Solana smiled sweetly.
Hermione stopped dead, "Did you just smile sweetly?"
"Er... no?" Solana shifted nervously.
"Where is he?!" Hermione demanded roughly.
"With Voldemort. He was called," Solana quickly replied, not wanted to
be on the receiving end of Hermione's anger.
"I'll wait for him in his room."
"Is that such a good idea? I mean, he's kind of moody when he gets
back."
"I love all of Severus, even the death eater."
"Okay," Solana quietly said and smiled at her. A sad one, but it was
still a smile.
"I do this too often," Hermione muttered to herself as she sat on
Severus' bed waiting for him to return. "It seems only yesterday I was
waiting here as well...oh wait I was," she added wryly. She looked out
at the incoming storm "Come back safe...please," and she waited."Severussss, what issss happening with Dumbledore? Any new
developmentsssssss?" Voldemort asked, staring straight into the eyes
of Severus Snape.
"Master, the old fool has not told me anything interesting. Sadly it
seems that he doesn't trust me 100% anymore, but I am glad to say that
it seems he is starting to trust me more. Not enough yet for any
useful information but in time..." he was interrupted by Voldemort
before he could finish.
"Good," Voldemort said. Severus thought it looked like he was rubbing
his chin under the huge cape that hid his body from view, if he had a
chin. Severus had to stop himself from shuddering in disgust.
"You are doing well Severusss. Take this as an award," A bundle was
thrown at his feet. Slowly and carefully he picked it up. "Go into the
Green room with 'it' and do with 'it' what you would like," Voldemort
then waved his hand in a dismissing gesture, and Severus bowed and
hastily turned around and made his way to the Green room, bundle held
carefully in his arms. God knows what it was.
Carefully he unwrapped what lay before him. It didn't shock him it was
a women, broken down and weak. He didn't want to do anything with her.
The woman was no older than thirty no younger than twenty-five and
already destroyed. But he had no choice, he wasn't alone in the green
room. There were other death eaters around, already fucking their
prizes. His lip curled in disgust. If he didn't do anything and he
just let her go or killed her, his actions would not go unnoticed and
that was something he didn't need.
Slightly thankful that she was already naked, he unzipped his pants
fast. Even when he had been loyal, all the death eaters knew that he
fucked the whores fast. They saw it like he didn't want to be dirtied
from them. They were all muggles or mudbloods. That was something he
didn't want to think about. It brought memories of Hermione, and he
didn't need to think about her right then. He willed her face to leave
his mind and it did; she always did what she was told.
He brought himself around so he was ready to enter her and he looked
at her closed eyes, just like all the others. With that he thrust
himself into her, and was deaf to her screams to stop.
He lost himself in the darkness as he always did when having to do
this...duty. It was times like this that it was impossible to work for
the good, yet he always came back to the light. But although he would
never tell anyone about these few minutes, he welcomed the darkness.
It was part of him forever more, but that didn't mean that he couldn't
lock it away like always, when he wanted.
Another thought of Hermione rose forbiddingly in his mind, but he got
rid of it, like pouring water over the flame. But it had been there
for a second.
'I'm glad the whore doesn't have brown hair,' he silently thought in
his mind.
Severus tumbled into his bedroom. "Hermione?" he asked looking at the
person lying on his bed.
"Severus?" She closed her eyes and sighed in relief, "Your back."
Standing, she ran to him. "Are you okay?"
"Don't worry about me!" he growled, pushing her away.
"I do worry, I can't help it," she looked into his eyes sincerely,
"I'm sorry."
"Hermione," he quietly said and cupped her cheek with one of his
hands. "Will you do anything for me?"
"Yes," Hermione said without hesitation.
"You shouldn't," he warned her.
"I know," she resorted back. Smirking slightly he took her by her hand
and moved her onto the bed. They lay down together, wrapped in an
embrace. "You can tell me what happened you know,' Hermione said
against his chest, breaking the silence. He stiffened, but then
relaxed.
"I raped a girl," he answered wearily and Hermione shot up straight.
"You what?!" she growled at him.
"Hermione, I'm sorry but I do-" he started but was cut off by
Hermione's lips on his, her tongue claiming his mouth. Pulling back
slightly he asked her.
"Why?" he looked at her confused.
She shrugged, "I'm not angry, Severus, just jealous."
"Jealous?" he choked out.
"Yes," she said and looked at him again. Licking her lips she was upon
him again, "Very jealous."
He took a deep breath. Hermione Granger could deny it all she wanted
but to him, she was an angel. He took a deep breath thinking, 'I might
regret this in the morning but oh well...'
"Hermione, I want you to know that no matter what he makes me do, no
matter how many girls I must...rape, I am yours," he confessed, looking
into her eyes. Awaiting her answer he pleaded, "Please don't push me
away."
"It wasn't an, 'I love you'," she said then smiled "But it was close
enough," she replied and snuggled up to his chest. He sighed relieved
he didn't have the strength to do anything else, at least not tonight.
His arms curled around her body and he whispered in her ear just
before they both entered the realm of sleep, "You belong only to me."
"Yes," she then entwined their fingers; no more words were really
needed."We're the best," Solana smiled, clinking her glass against
Dumbledore's
"Yes, I do say we are," he smiled at the girl in front of him. "I must
congratulate you on your performance with Miss Granger tonight."
"Yes well I'm surprised she didn't realize how un-Slytherin I was
being. She might of thought because Severus was gone, I was out of it.
But if Severus had gone I would have acted more Slytherin probably."
"But really I almost thought you were a Gryffindor," he said, eyes
twinkling.
"That's plain mean, and insulting," She looked disgusted at the
thought as she placed her cup on his desk and leaned back in her arm
opposite him, crossing her arms.
Ignoring her stance, Dumbledore moved onto another topic.
"What about Harry my dear? What do you think?"
Solana pinned her lips together not unlike Prof. McGonagall. Then
after a few seconds after she answered, "He is confused, like many
boys his age. He'll grow out of it."
"Are you so sure my dear?" he asked her in a fatherly manner.
She looked him in the eye before responding, "No," she then stood and
placed a kiss on his cheek. "Good night."
"Solana," he called just before she exited the room.
She swirled around and inquired, "What?"
"I found out who did it to you," He looked at her now tense figure and
asked, "Do you want to know their name?"
"No," she turned around and headed out the door again. "Not tonight,
not tomorrow, maybe never," With these last words, his door shut with
a creek.
"Even when the students are away," he mumbled to himself before
drowning a shot of fire whiskey, "people still play."
End chapter.A/N: Well the chapters out! And I'm about to finish writing the next
one in a second, through it still has to go through my Beta. I've got
a live journal account posted in my profile, and I've got a Yahoo
group so check that out, through it's for all pairings.
Hermione's reaction to the rape will be looked into next chapter.
Now promotion my friend has posted a Draco/Harry story under the usernameAveril so if that's a pairing you enjoy please check it out.And I've started going through the chapters trying to make them
better.Oh who else finds it ironic that the first person Sev has sex with in
this story isn't Hermione?
Responses:
Lubmoi4moi – The time it takes me to update this story is eitherbecause of how long I take to write it, or how long it takes my BETA
to give it back to me. It can can't a short time or days, depending on
what we have going on in our life. Deb - Thanks. I know I know Sev and 'Mione are certainly taking
there time and even with chapters endings I see for a bit at least,
Sev lets her get close, then runs away. Yeah with Draco/Harry I
really like that pairing so I figured I'd add it to this story as well
so I'd enjoy it more, but it will pretty much only be implied.
Sapphire Butterfly: Well there was some smut, not much, or detailed but still some.
Jessie maddison: You don't like them but you still enjoy the story, that's good.
Lil' Annie: Er right Ginny, well whom do you think Ginny should go out with? Other wise nothing really gonna happen regarding her, I honestly don't really like Ginny and I broke her and Harry up before I even decided Harry and Draco would get together, I really was getting tired of having her in the story. Maybe I'll make her a bit angry with 'Mione seeing she wants someone to blame for her and Harry being over? You really put up with the slash for the story? Thanks! I feel so loved. But no really that's great and really it'll only be implied.
Ana Morales: Honestly I hate Harry/Ginny as much as I hate Hermione/Ron. But I'm sorry about the slash, but I'll warn you when it's coming if you want, and it'll only really be implied.
Anarane Anwamane: You're right adding Harry probably going to make things more confusing, but then again next chapter we get the Malfoys as well...
Jean Jelly bean: God I'm thankful, for my BETA to. I'm so happy you like the story, hope this chapter was to your liking?
Thank you everybody who reviewed.
Sneak preview for next chapter Unedited
"Hermione do you know why the Malfoys are here...?"
"Do I look like I know!" she snapped at him, a few of the teachers turned their heads to look at them, "Sorry Harry I'm just..." she shrugged helplessly.
"No I'm sorry it's just you spend so much time with him I was sure he told you everything" Harry haft apologized, haft asked.
"Harry this is Severus Snape we're talking about" she gave him a look that clearly was telling him obviously.