I Will Always Be the Same
By Anime Queen
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Hey all!! First of all, thank you for all the reviews ^_^ I love you all for them!!!
Disclaimer: I do not own YGO, but you all know that, right? It's just for the legal purposes that I have to... Newayz, enjoy the fic! And don't forget to review!!!
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Chapter 6 - Dark Water
=I thought that bunch would never leave=
I stood outside my cabin door and looked down at the water. It was dark already, and all I could see was blackness. Only the soft lapping sound of the waves against the hull told me that the water was really down there. Everything else was quiet.
Suddenly I had an urge to jump. How easy that would be! No contest to win, no dysfunctional family life to worry about. But then I really didn't care too much of those things. If I died, nothing would change. The contest would go on, and my mother would continue doing whatever she was doing. And I will still be alone. There's no difference, right? I would spend all eternity in solitary confinement with no worries, or cares, or other people that get on my nerves. How much that option looked like paradise! I guess I was too bored to put up with this. But like I said, there would be little difference, and whatever difference there'd be, I'm sure it will be for the best. Besides, a little cold water will do me good.
I came closer to the railing, and held on to it with both hands. I looked out below me, but all there was, was darkness. I figured I would just be falling and falling into the black forever. That's what I was doing all my seventeen years anyway. This will be no different, just a lot calmer. I leaned over, thinking about how I should do it. Just tumble over the rails? Or get to the other side first? Or maybe stand on the railing and dive? I wondered if there were sharks down below.
Would it really kill me if I jumped? I guess not, or at least not right away. This wasn't the best way to die, but the water looked so inviting! I would probably drift for a while and then, who knows? I laughed out loud. To be truthful, I had no idea what would happen to me.
"To jump, or not to jump, that is the question," I said aloud, and then laughed some more.
=I crack myself up=
Then I looked down at the water again.
FLASHBACK
"Honey, what's all this?"
My mother had to come pick me up after they called her from the school.
"They told me you started a fight!" she exclaimed, obviously demanding an explanation. I was in seventh grade then.
"I didn't start anything, just finished it."
"Mai, you hit some kid in the face! That's not something to be proud of!"
"I'm not."
"Come on, let's go home."
We rode in her truck when she started again.
"You should try to fit in and make some friends, Mai."
When I didn't say anything, she continued.
"It's tough, not having someone to fall back on. And why all this anger?"
"It's not anger."
"Then what is it? There are better ways to deal with it."
"He deserved it."
"Why, I'm shocked, no one deserves to be punched in the face! How would you feel if someone did that to you?"
"He did."
"Now there's another reason. If you had friends to stand up for you."
END FLASHBACK
What was it with Mom always trying to get me friends? Why is it supposed to be such a big deal anyway? So what if I didn't go around in the middle of a crowd like everyone else seemed to be doing? They only slow you down anyway, so what was the point of it being such a problem? It's not like I was missing out on something important.
I looked down, and jumped. It made me loose my balance a little. I had no idea I was sitting on the railing. I grabbed metal, and steadied myself. The sound of distant footsteps floated through the air, warning me of someone approaching. First I saw the long purple coat, then the ice blue eyes. He was coming my way, looking at nothing in particular. I stared straight ahead into the darkness, hearing his footsteps as he passed me without a word and then continued on down the deck. I looked at the water, and felt sick. I didn't want to jump anymore.
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There! I know this was a little shorter than usual, but I tried my best, I really did!!! I'd really appreciate some constructive criticism from yall, since I really do need to improve... and don't forget to review and make me happy ^_^!!
By Anime Queen
**********************************************************************
Hey all!! First of all, thank you for all the reviews ^_^ I love you all for them!!!
Disclaimer: I do not own YGO, but you all know that, right? It's just for the legal purposes that I have to... Newayz, enjoy the fic! And don't forget to review!!!
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Chapter 6 - Dark Water
=I thought that bunch would never leave=
I stood outside my cabin door and looked down at the water. It was dark already, and all I could see was blackness. Only the soft lapping sound of the waves against the hull told me that the water was really down there. Everything else was quiet.
Suddenly I had an urge to jump. How easy that would be! No contest to win, no dysfunctional family life to worry about. But then I really didn't care too much of those things. If I died, nothing would change. The contest would go on, and my mother would continue doing whatever she was doing. And I will still be alone. There's no difference, right? I would spend all eternity in solitary confinement with no worries, or cares, or other people that get on my nerves. How much that option looked like paradise! I guess I was too bored to put up with this. But like I said, there would be little difference, and whatever difference there'd be, I'm sure it will be for the best. Besides, a little cold water will do me good.
I came closer to the railing, and held on to it with both hands. I looked out below me, but all there was, was darkness. I figured I would just be falling and falling into the black forever. That's what I was doing all my seventeen years anyway. This will be no different, just a lot calmer. I leaned over, thinking about how I should do it. Just tumble over the rails? Or get to the other side first? Or maybe stand on the railing and dive? I wondered if there were sharks down below.
Would it really kill me if I jumped? I guess not, or at least not right away. This wasn't the best way to die, but the water looked so inviting! I would probably drift for a while and then, who knows? I laughed out loud. To be truthful, I had no idea what would happen to me.
"To jump, or not to jump, that is the question," I said aloud, and then laughed some more.
=I crack myself up=
Then I looked down at the water again.
FLASHBACK
"Honey, what's all this?"
My mother had to come pick me up after they called her from the school.
"They told me you started a fight!" she exclaimed, obviously demanding an explanation. I was in seventh grade then.
"I didn't start anything, just finished it."
"Mai, you hit some kid in the face! That's not something to be proud of!"
"I'm not."
"Come on, let's go home."
We rode in her truck when she started again.
"You should try to fit in and make some friends, Mai."
When I didn't say anything, she continued.
"It's tough, not having someone to fall back on. And why all this anger?"
"It's not anger."
"Then what is it? There are better ways to deal with it."
"He deserved it."
"Why, I'm shocked, no one deserves to be punched in the face! How would you feel if someone did that to you?"
"He did."
"Now there's another reason. If you had friends to stand up for you."
END FLASHBACK
What was it with Mom always trying to get me friends? Why is it supposed to be such a big deal anyway? So what if I didn't go around in the middle of a crowd like everyone else seemed to be doing? They only slow you down anyway, so what was the point of it being such a problem? It's not like I was missing out on something important.
I looked down, and jumped. It made me loose my balance a little. I had no idea I was sitting on the railing. I grabbed metal, and steadied myself. The sound of distant footsteps floated through the air, warning me of someone approaching. First I saw the long purple coat, then the ice blue eyes. He was coming my way, looking at nothing in particular. I stared straight ahead into the darkness, hearing his footsteps as he passed me without a word and then continued on down the deck. I looked at the water, and felt sick. I didn't want to jump anymore.
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There! I know this was a little shorter than usual, but I tried my best, I really did!!! I'd really appreciate some constructive criticism from yall, since I really do need to improve... and don't forget to review and make me happy ^_^!!