Chapter Four
Starr turned on her wind shield wipers as it began to rain. She didn't know what to do, where to go. She was going to just go back to Dorian's, but didn't want to face her mother. Not now. Not after all of this. She turned the car around, heading to the only place she ever felt safe any more.
She parked her car down the street and walked down the sidewalk to the house. She climbed up the white fence that was draped on the side of the house, as she sat on the window sill, knocking quietly.
Travis looks up from his headphones, taking them off. He looks out the window seeing Starr sitting there. He smiles at the irony. He was usually the one sneaking over to Dorian's to see her through her window. Not the other way around. He pushes the window open, holding out his hands to help her inside.
" Hey you." says Travis with a small laugh, seeing her all wet.
She takes his hands, lifting herself into the room.
" Hey. Sorry to come by so late." says Starr, sitting in his beanbag chair.
" I wasn't asleep. You know it's never too late for me." says Travis.
Starr gives him a small smile, looking down at one of the strings in the beanbag. She begins wrapping it around her finger, not even knowing where to start. Travis sits on the floor, inches away from the chair as he pushes a piece of her hair behind her ear.
" Did something happen?" says Travis.
Starr takes a deep breath.
" My dad..I..." says Starr stopping.
" Your dad.." says Travis.
Starr laughs a little.
" My life is so screwed up, Trav. I don't even know where to start." says Starr.
" The beggining usually works." says Travis.
" To make a very long story short, I heard my mom and aunt Dorian talking about something I thought wasn't true about my dad. I asked him about it, he didn't deny it. We got in a fight. I left with him chasing after me." says Starr, starting to cry a little.
" He didn't hurt you did he?" says Travis defensively.
" Yes..he..god I can't even say it." says Starr softly.
There is a long pause. Travis stares at Starr, waiting for an answer.
" My mom thinks that he raped her on New Year's Eve. Remember we went out that night and I told you everyone was acting really wierd after you brought me home?" says Starr.
Travis just nods, not believing all of this.
" And it turns out he's done it before. Not to her, some other girl when he was in college or something. He swears he didn't rape my mom, but I..I don't know Travis. I don't know who to believe." says Starr in tears.
" Shh..come here." says Travis, hugging Starr.
" I don't know what I'm gonna do Travis. I can't face them. I can't!" says Starr, when the hug ends.
" You said the same thing in New York. And you faced them then. You can do anything, Starr. You're the strongest person that I know." says Travis.
" No I'm not, I...I wasn't strong enough then.." says Starr, trailing off.
Travis looks at her, confused.
" What?" says Travis.
Starr felt like she was going to explode. She had to tell someone. She couldn't take it anymore. Everything she had been feeling for the past two months began pouring out of her like a rebel force.
" I..I can't.." sobs Starr, turning away from him.
Travis quickly jerks her around, making her face him.
" Can't what? Starr, tell me. You can trust me." says Travis.
Starr looks at Travis, her eyes burning into his. She did trust him. More than anyone in the entire world.
" When Lazer kidnapped me in New York, there was something I didn't tell you. Not just you, anyone." says Starr.
" What do you mean?" says Travis.
" We were in that cheesy motel room for days. But the last night, I made him just mad enough. It was all my fault. He was..he was just so angry." says Starr.
Travis dosen't say anything.
" I tried to leave while he was sleeping. He caught me and grabbed me by my hair. I hit him across the face. Maybe if I would have just apologized.." says Starr.
" You were trying to protect yourself, Starr.." says Travis quickly.
" I thought he was gonna kill me. I really did. I wish he would have.." sobs Starr.
" Don't say that." says Travis.
" Why not?! Huh? You tell me, why not? It would have been better than him forcing me to have sex with him!" blurts out Starr.
She puts her hands on her lips, not believing what had just come out of her mouth. This was the first time she had even admitted it to herself, let alone to anyone else out loud.
" Omigod-" says Travis, looking down.
Starr dosen't say anything, still in shock.
" Did you see a doctor?" says Travis, trying to stay strong for her and keep his cool.
" God no. I thought about going to one of those free clinics, but I couldn't go through with it. I just wanted to forget it ever happend. I just hate feeling like this." says Starr.
Travis could feel himself clinching his fists. He wanted to kill Lazer for what he had done to her. He wanted to make him feel more pain than he had ever felt in his entire, pathetic life.
" I shouldn't have left you." says Travis.
" What?" says Starr.
" On the bridge the day the cops found me. I shouldn't have left you. This is my fault." says Travis, angerly.
" No, Travis. Don't do that. This isn't your fault at all." says Starr.
" Yes it is, Starr! I shouldn't have let you out of my sight. I should have protected you from that rapist bastard." says Travis.
Starr puts her hand on her forehead.
" You know what, Travis? I didn't come here for this. I don't need another father, alright? I have one and trust me, he's enough for me. I need someone who will just listen to me, not threaten to kill him." says Starr.
" Starr, you know how I feel about you." says Travis.
Starr looks at him, as she gives him a small smile.
" I know. You know how I feel about you too. But I just..I can't give you that.." says Starr.
Travis puts his index fingers on her lips.
" Shh. Don't even think about that. I would never pressure you into anything. That isn't what love's about. Just tell me what you need..right now." says Travis.
" I need you to hold me." says Starr.
Travis strokes the back of her hair.
" That I can do. You need to get some sleep. You look exausted." says Travis.
" I don't remember the last time I slept through the night since-" says Starr, stopping.
" Come on." says Travis, leading her to the bed.
She takes his hand, laying on her side on the bed. Travis lays next to her, draping his arm around her waist.
" I feel so safe with you." says Starr, putting her arm on his, lacing her hand with his.
" You are safe, Starr. I'm not gonna let anything happen to you ever again. Everything's gonna be ok." says Travis, kissing the side of her head.
For the first time in months, Starr believed that. She leaned her head closer to him as she slowly drifted off to sleep. Travis looked out the window, still holding onto Starr. He knew all of this was only going to get worse before it got any better. There was definately trouble ahead, and there was no way in hell he was letting her get caught in the crossfire...
THE END
(There will be a sequel to this story and I will be starting on it very soon. Please leave reviews!)
Starr turned on her wind shield wipers as it began to rain. She didn't know what to do, where to go. She was going to just go back to Dorian's, but didn't want to face her mother. Not now. Not after all of this. She turned the car around, heading to the only place she ever felt safe any more.
She parked her car down the street and walked down the sidewalk to the house. She climbed up the white fence that was draped on the side of the house, as she sat on the window sill, knocking quietly.
Travis looks up from his headphones, taking them off. He looks out the window seeing Starr sitting there. He smiles at the irony. He was usually the one sneaking over to Dorian's to see her through her window. Not the other way around. He pushes the window open, holding out his hands to help her inside.
" Hey you." says Travis with a small laugh, seeing her all wet.
She takes his hands, lifting herself into the room.
" Hey. Sorry to come by so late." says Starr, sitting in his beanbag chair.
" I wasn't asleep. You know it's never too late for me." says Travis.
Starr gives him a small smile, looking down at one of the strings in the beanbag. She begins wrapping it around her finger, not even knowing where to start. Travis sits on the floor, inches away from the chair as he pushes a piece of her hair behind her ear.
" Did something happen?" says Travis.
Starr takes a deep breath.
" My dad..I..." says Starr stopping.
" Your dad.." says Travis.
Starr laughs a little.
" My life is so screwed up, Trav. I don't even know where to start." says Starr.
" The beggining usually works." says Travis.
" To make a very long story short, I heard my mom and aunt Dorian talking about something I thought wasn't true about my dad. I asked him about it, he didn't deny it. We got in a fight. I left with him chasing after me." says Starr, starting to cry a little.
" He didn't hurt you did he?" says Travis defensively.
" Yes..he..god I can't even say it." says Starr softly.
There is a long pause. Travis stares at Starr, waiting for an answer.
" My mom thinks that he raped her on New Year's Eve. Remember we went out that night and I told you everyone was acting really wierd after you brought me home?" says Starr.
Travis just nods, not believing all of this.
" And it turns out he's done it before. Not to her, some other girl when he was in college or something. He swears he didn't rape my mom, but I..I don't know Travis. I don't know who to believe." says Starr in tears.
" Shh..come here." says Travis, hugging Starr.
" I don't know what I'm gonna do Travis. I can't face them. I can't!" says Starr, when the hug ends.
" You said the same thing in New York. And you faced them then. You can do anything, Starr. You're the strongest person that I know." says Travis.
" No I'm not, I...I wasn't strong enough then.." says Starr, trailing off.
Travis looks at her, confused.
" What?" says Travis.
Starr felt like she was going to explode. She had to tell someone. She couldn't take it anymore. Everything she had been feeling for the past two months began pouring out of her like a rebel force.
" I..I can't.." sobs Starr, turning away from him.
Travis quickly jerks her around, making her face him.
" Can't what? Starr, tell me. You can trust me." says Travis.
Starr looks at Travis, her eyes burning into his. She did trust him. More than anyone in the entire world.
" When Lazer kidnapped me in New York, there was something I didn't tell you. Not just you, anyone." says Starr.
" What do you mean?" says Travis.
" We were in that cheesy motel room for days. But the last night, I made him just mad enough. It was all my fault. He was..he was just so angry." says Starr.
Travis dosen't say anything.
" I tried to leave while he was sleeping. He caught me and grabbed me by my hair. I hit him across the face. Maybe if I would have just apologized.." says Starr.
" You were trying to protect yourself, Starr.." says Travis quickly.
" I thought he was gonna kill me. I really did. I wish he would have.." sobs Starr.
" Don't say that." says Travis.
" Why not?! Huh? You tell me, why not? It would have been better than him forcing me to have sex with him!" blurts out Starr.
She puts her hands on her lips, not believing what had just come out of her mouth. This was the first time she had even admitted it to herself, let alone to anyone else out loud.
" Omigod-" says Travis, looking down.
Starr dosen't say anything, still in shock.
" Did you see a doctor?" says Travis, trying to stay strong for her and keep his cool.
" God no. I thought about going to one of those free clinics, but I couldn't go through with it. I just wanted to forget it ever happend. I just hate feeling like this." says Starr.
Travis could feel himself clinching his fists. He wanted to kill Lazer for what he had done to her. He wanted to make him feel more pain than he had ever felt in his entire, pathetic life.
" I shouldn't have left you." says Travis.
" What?" says Starr.
" On the bridge the day the cops found me. I shouldn't have left you. This is my fault." says Travis, angerly.
" No, Travis. Don't do that. This isn't your fault at all." says Starr.
" Yes it is, Starr! I shouldn't have let you out of my sight. I should have protected you from that rapist bastard." says Travis.
Starr puts her hand on her forehead.
" You know what, Travis? I didn't come here for this. I don't need another father, alright? I have one and trust me, he's enough for me. I need someone who will just listen to me, not threaten to kill him." says Starr.
" Starr, you know how I feel about you." says Travis.
Starr looks at him, as she gives him a small smile.
" I know. You know how I feel about you too. But I just..I can't give you that.." says Starr.
Travis puts his index fingers on her lips.
" Shh. Don't even think about that. I would never pressure you into anything. That isn't what love's about. Just tell me what you need..right now." says Travis.
" I need you to hold me." says Starr.
Travis strokes the back of her hair.
" That I can do. You need to get some sleep. You look exausted." says Travis.
" I don't remember the last time I slept through the night since-" says Starr, stopping.
" Come on." says Travis, leading her to the bed.
She takes his hand, laying on her side on the bed. Travis lays next to her, draping his arm around her waist.
" I feel so safe with you." says Starr, putting her arm on his, lacing her hand with his.
" You are safe, Starr. I'm not gonna let anything happen to you ever again. Everything's gonna be ok." says Travis, kissing the side of her head.
For the first time in months, Starr believed that. She leaned her head closer to him as she slowly drifted off to sleep. Travis looked out the window, still holding onto Starr. He knew all of this was only going to get worse before it got any better. There was definately trouble ahead, and there was no way in hell he was letting her get caught in the crossfire...
THE END
(There will be a sequel to this story and I will be starting on it very soon. Please leave reviews!)