Shout outs from DarkJadedRose some added stuff from PoisonedCHAOS:
Krys Xanthina: Thanks man...lol we try.
Aglaranna-I'm sorry that you didn't enjoy the contents of the story. We purposely denied getting over indulgent in our characters because we didn't FEEL like making this completely about us, it would have taken too long. I believe (or know) that the brief overview was enough to give everyone an idea of the characters. Chaos was obviously mentioned as having a relationship with Pyro and Remy and having been dragged to the insitute after being ill and that's where she met Rogue. Strike one. Shelby knew Chaos when she gave her a lift from the grocery store. Regina knew Chaos from a bookstore and Hope is Shelby's friend. Strike two, three and four, we mentioned all this in our presentations. Their personalities and characteristics were developed as you read on in the story and got to know them. I feel the need to address what you said because i honestly don't see where you're coming from with our writing being Juvenile, it's merely four people having fun. Maybe if you took the time out to check out our stories individually, you'll see the differences in our writing 'serious' fics and 'fun' fics and we're enjoying ourselves in this one and not worrying about perfection and while we love reviews, flames suck and maybe you don't think it is but this is definetly one. So if we're annoying you so much what I'm basically saying is...DON'T READ. I see the reasons why you think we need to work harder in our writing but from the way you shared it, it seems that you don't enjoy the story at all. So if it's bugging you, maybe you should find another OC fic to critisize, I don't hope to hear from you soon. (by the way, i put my name on top so you'd know who it is, no one else mentioned anything but me, they'll tell you whatever they feel like themselves)
POISONEDCHAOS ADDS: well--you _were_ talking to me...and i know that becuase you only read 1 chap and didnt even try to read the rest of the 14 chapter fic. Thats the biggest problem I'm having with you right now. But since my good friend Jaded already said what pretty much needed to be said I'm just gonna sit back, smile and get to the point and ask you to take your 'acceptable' critism-ranting elsewhere and go fuck yourself. SO YOU CHECK IT YO!!
DarkJadedRose continues--
A-Rog: All right i'm going to read it now! Goodness, Hope you liked the MMM.
A Pyro's Rage: Sorry that it was e-mailed to you, i don't know who did it but we don't want to get annoying, so i wanted to apologize. Remy is bad! We don't even know what he's gonna do yet when we get there.
Bronwynne: I just wanted you to know that we all discussed your reviews and we love you! I'm so happy that you like it! *hugs*
POISONEDCHAOS ADDS: ...tru dat...
****okay anyway im done heres the chapter. Scitzy wrote the beginning-Jaded wrote the middle part-and Poisoned wrote the very end. Enjoy!!
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Regina smiled brightly at Warren. He moved a stand of pure ink-black colored hair out of her face. Then smiled back. And both of them started to laugh as they heard Chaos' demand of more "flaming porn".
"You know you're beautiful?" Warren said as he lightly traced his finger gracefully over her jaw in a loving way.
Then more laughter was heard from a very drunk Chaos and a slightly less drunk Remy.
"You know what...?" she giggled/said at the same time. "--YOUR REALLY HOT." and she bursted out laughing. What the hell was that.
**
Hope was up in the hotel taking a walk around to cool off. Her feet making a 'squeak' sound as they hit the floor solidly. Water was still falling from the ceiling in some places even in the outdoor hallway. To her left was a small indent in the hallway in the center of the strip of rooms with vending machines. She decided to go in for something to eat. Taking her change out of her pocket she observed the venders..."What the..HOW OLD ARE THESE?"
Crumbling candy bars and exploded soda cans graced ehr presence. She jammed her money back in her pocket and walked away mumbling angry thoughts. Not her night.
**
Chaos looked over at Shelby and then at Pietro, who were both blankly staring at the fire. Just not at the nice pictures Pyro took time and effort to create. She sat up more and whispered something into Remy's ear and then Pyro's. They both nodded back at her and Remy grinned. Pyro went back to controlling the fire and changed the figures to resemble Pietro and Shelby.
The one that looked like Shelby was on the ground . . . naked with the other figure ontop of her. He also naked. As the Pietro character moved his hips back and forth Chaos and Remy started to add voice effects. Both changing their voices to sound more like Pietro's and Shelby's.
"Oh Pietro...." Chaos moaned as Pyro continued to move the flames. Adding moans at the right time.
Just then Pietro and Shelby noticed what was going on. Both of them blushed soemthing close to the color of tomatoes. Pietro jumped up and started screaming at everyone--not that anyone knew what he was even tlaknig about they were too busy cracking up. Shelby imedeatly stopped the 'entertainment' and quickly changed the flames back to the way it was before. Then she saw Pietro stomp away. She got up and unintentionally followed him to the only motel room they had.
The door unwillingly opened with a stuck sound. She went inside and over to her things, avoiding Pietro, who was just on his way out again. And grabbed her notebook and CD player. After she placed her headset on and sat on the floor. She moved her finger gently over the volume nob, turned it up to a defening amount and pressed play. It was Good Charlotte's Young and the Hopeless. Notebook on her lap, Shelby took a pencil out of the rings and opened it up to a blank page.
**
Chaos and Remy were nowhere near something too close to sober yet and laughed on still. Pietro had run off before they could make any more figures.
"Merde, Speedy needs ta l'ght'n up mor." Remy slurred out just loud enough to hear.
Chaos nodded mockingly in agreement. Pyro went on making people out of the fire. This time it wasn't porn though. First it looked like a girl with short, slightly spikey hair. As he fixed it more it turned out to be the one and only Scarlet Witch. He also added in another firey figure.
Soon it turned into a scene of Wanda and Pyro sitting in a restaurant. Eating through a plate of spagetti. They were both slurping one of the noodles up when the scene that happened was like Lady and the Tramp. They kissed through a noodle. (lol)
Remy's hearty laugh brought him back to Earth. Literally. It had startled him and that made him make theflames change so that the one of Pyro fell face first into the suacy spagetti , and thus ending the kiss. Then the flames burst out and went back down while Pyro ate dirt.
He sat back up and spit out the grass and whatever else that had ended up in his mouth. Remy sat up as well trying his best at holding up a passed out Chaos in his arms. Appearently he had been more tolerant of the alcohol then her, although she should have passed a long time before.
Warren who was too busy with his attention on Regina...looked over for just a second, and ended up jumping up at the sight of Remy holding Chaos in way he probably would have been electricuted. "Whoa pal I'll take her." he said quickly as Regina began to pout.
He moved her to his arms carefully so he didn't get zapped out anything. While Regina and Warren with Chaos walked back to the room, Remy followed..turned around almost fell and managed to get out, "Will y'turn owwww de carrr an' lock de fire?" Okay so maybe he hadn't been to much better.
Pyro nodded absentmindely and then thought about it more but decided not to open his mouth. He turned the musci off and then the car. Then, was going to put out the fire...but only laid down next to it...feeling its heat and staring at the sky.
Everyone made it into the extreme amounts of small motel room (with a little help from the sober people). Regina smugly helped Chaos into bed, who was talking in her sleep about her love for porn her face alighted with a grin. Warren followed quietly behind with Remy singing something about 'She bangs'. When everyone was comfortable, Regina asked where Pyro was, no answered probably because it didn't concern them where he was.
Remy and Chaos were zonked out on one bed, while Pietro was sleeping on the floor in a sleeping bag. Hope (with a growlign stomache)and Shelby where in the other bed and Warren and Lance where lying on an extra mattress on the floor. Rogue and Regina where asleep on the sofa bed and Alex was curled up in an armchair. Every single inch of space on the floor was used up.
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Pyro had remained out in the clearing as the fire slowly died. Just thinking. He'd known Wanda for a while, since that day they fought the xmen for the first time. He had tried talking to her on several occasions, but she "didnt mingle with anyone working for a poor excuse for a father" to her. He had almost just walked out on Magneto just so Wanda would talk to him. He couldnt blame her for being angry...he himself had been institutionalized for his pyromania...and it didn't work too well obviously. But he knew what it was like thinking everyone hates you and only getting some meals some days and never any talk with anyone on the outside world. She had been having breakdowns.
He'd have a breakdown thinking about her.
After the thinking session, he wandered back into room, and into the bathroom and sat on the closed toilet seat, his mind going back to Bayville. He sighed as he thought of how everyone was coming together, even the most impossible loves, and wondered when it would happen for him. He remembered that song that had been playing on the c.d. and wondered if maybe there was hope for him.
All the girls minus Chaos had flirted with him and showed him at least some kind of interest but regardless of it all he couldn't find anything in them that would attract his attention like her. Not even Shelby, with the same love of fire, could top the girl that constantly roamed in his dreams. He slipped out of the bathroom and picked up the notepad and pen from under the sleeping Shelby's arms, making his way to the van where he popped in a c.d.
(BANNGGG) the volume wasnt turned down last time used. "SONOFABITCH!" he screamed and struggled to turn it down. When it finally was at a good level, he sighed and kicked his feet up to the dashboard.
An hour or two passed by, and Pyro was still staring at his notepad. Nothing had been written. He got fed up and just threw the damn thing and turned the music to Chaos' angry music just so he could scream along to something.
He put in what he thought was Crises...but was actually Specimen, and the song was titled "Hex". Just for one moment he wanted something not reminding of his problems but that fucking song had to be played. SO what does Pyro do? He sets the cd on fire, watching it melt...and then realizing that--Chaos was going to kill him.
Knock on the window. Pyro, frustrated, kicked the door open.
"Pahro..(yawn)...whatr ya doin up this late. its lahk 4 in tha morning ya woke everyone up...well..mostly evahryone." Rogue looked back towards the open door. "Remy an' Chaos ah still dead passed out."
"Rogue. Can I ask ya a question." he asked thoughtfully, actually being serious which is not Pyro-like at all. Rogue, still tired was taken aback by the sound of his voice. She hopped in and shut the door, also stretching her legs onto the dashboard.
"Whats wrong.?" she asked smoothing out her white locks. He sighed and answered, "well...I have this, friend."
::oh jeez. why didnt ah stay wit tha othas....ahh I hate these typa stories:: she took her feet off the dashboard and hugged her knees getting ready for a long ramble about whats been on his mind.
"An' he s got this problem--" Pyro fidgeted with his pencil and bit his lip. He turned to Rogue who was obviously too tired for this and sighed, "Nevamind luv, you get so' a'that rest."
(mental sigh of relief) "...Alraght Pyro." she opened the door and jumped out, turning back to him. "Ah'm sorry Pyro, Ah'm jes not one of them talkin types when it comes to--love." she turned away again grinning. Pyro, looking shocked dropped his stuff and leaned out of the car.
"What ya tlakin bout?!" he pointed wondering where she knew that from. She simply turned around and smiled. "Well, I did absorb you, and it is probably an outdated peice of evidence..."
Pyro just stared at her blankly not looking like he was comprehending.
"..When ah was mesmerised an' all that...?"
Still not comprehending.
"WHEN AH RAN AROUND STEALIN EVAHRYONES MEMORIES AN' POWERS?!" she raised an eyebrow and took her glove off as if to demonstrate.
"...."
"...go ta sleep Allerdyce. Ya worry meh." she shook her head and stalked off. He watched her go inside and then shut the door. Leaning back with his hands behind his head, he listened to silence. The silence was deafening. Reaching over, he picked the notebook up and sighed.
------- Hi. Its me..John..Pyro...the guy with the fire--the one you pushed over the bridge? Just incase you didn't remember me or anything. So--yeah, how are you getting along? I'm doing fine. Hanging here with Lance and Pietro. You remember Chaos..right? I dont know if you ever met her...well she planned all of this...I guess I thought it would be fun, but its not really when you realize there isnt much here for you like there is for everyone else.
I don't want to bore you or anything...I'm suprised if you even read this far. Its funny, I can write these hit romance novels--but I'm so inept when it comes to the real thing. But heres to me trying.
I don't know where to start, with you. I dont know who I am when I'm around any of these suddenly lovesick strangers, or when I realize I just might be lovesick myself. But now that I think so, I'm feelign more alone, than I ever have before. Christ I sometimes don't know when to blame you or just admit its the truth and god help me, I wish it wasnt. Why are you so perfect for me and I can't bring myself to beleive maybe thats just me hallucinating. But why do I do so much of it..? This empty feelings makign me feel like drowning slowly. I'm scared. I'm scared you'll hurt yourself from all this turmoil, I'm afraid I'll hurt myself by sending this letter to you. And I feel like crying becuase I know you wont read it. I'm sorry Wanda. I shouldn't be so...I dont even have the word for it... I'm sorry for never making sense and I know I'm wrong for feeling this way, I'm always so wrong.
Your too beautiful for this world. I hope you feel more alone right now. I hope you feel more alone than you ever have before. And I'd say something mroe to you, but its four o'clock in the morning...would you beleive me if i did...?
...John.-------
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ok well haha, sorry this was late, and thanks for the reviews. I do like criticism, honesty is good...since im, so honest all the tiem (haha..yeah). But only flame or whatever if you read the whole fucking fic...only then are you in a position to do so. Thanks guys.
Krys Xanthina: Thanks man...lol we try.
Aglaranna-I'm sorry that you didn't enjoy the contents of the story. We purposely denied getting over indulgent in our characters because we didn't FEEL like making this completely about us, it would have taken too long. I believe (or know) that the brief overview was enough to give everyone an idea of the characters. Chaos was obviously mentioned as having a relationship with Pyro and Remy and having been dragged to the insitute after being ill and that's where she met Rogue. Strike one. Shelby knew Chaos when she gave her a lift from the grocery store. Regina knew Chaos from a bookstore and Hope is Shelby's friend. Strike two, three and four, we mentioned all this in our presentations. Their personalities and characteristics were developed as you read on in the story and got to know them. I feel the need to address what you said because i honestly don't see where you're coming from with our writing being Juvenile, it's merely four people having fun. Maybe if you took the time out to check out our stories individually, you'll see the differences in our writing 'serious' fics and 'fun' fics and we're enjoying ourselves in this one and not worrying about perfection and while we love reviews, flames suck and maybe you don't think it is but this is definetly one. So if we're annoying you so much what I'm basically saying is...DON'T READ. I see the reasons why you think we need to work harder in our writing but from the way you shared it, it seems that you don't enjoy the story at all. So if it's bugging you, maybe you should find another OC fic to critisize, I don't hope to hear from you soon. (by the way, i put my name on top so you'd know who it is, no one else mentioned anything but me, they'll tell you whatever they feel like themselves)
POISONEDCHAOS ADDS: well--you _were_ talking to me...and i know that becuase you only read 1 chap and didnt even try to read the rest of the 14 chapter fic. Thats the biggest problem I'm having with you right now. But since my good friend Jaded already said what pretty much needed to be said I'm just gonna sit back, smile and get to the point and ask you to take your 'acceptable' critism-ranting elsewhere and go fuck yourself. SO YOU CHECK IT YO!!
DarkJadedRose continues--
A-Rog: All right i'm going to read it now! Goodness, Hope you liked the MMM.
A Pyro's Rage: Sorry that it was e-mailed to you, i don't know who did it but we don't want to get annoying, so i wanted to apologize. Remy is bad! We don't even know what he's gonna do yet when we get there.
Bronwynne: I just wanted you to know that we all discussed your reviews and we love you! I'm so happy that you like it! *hugs*
POISONEDCHAOS ADDS: ...tru dat...
****okay anyway im done heres the chapter. Scitzy wrote the beginning-Jaded wrote the middle part-and Poisoned wrote the very end. Enjoy!!
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Regina smiled brightly at Warren. He moved a stand of pure ink-black colored hair out of her face. Then smiled back. And both of them started to laugh as they heard Chaos' demand of more "flaming porn".
"You know you're beautiful?" Warren said as he lightly traced his finger gracefully over her jaw in a loving way.
Then more laughter was heard from a very drunk Chaos and a slightly less drunk Remy.
"You know what...?" she giggled/said at the same time. "--YOUR REALLY HOT." and she bursted out laughing. What the hell was that.
**
Hope was up in the hotel taking a walk around to cool off. Her feet making a 'squeak' sound as they hit the floor solidly. Water was still falling from the ceiling in some places even in the outdoor hallway. To her left was a small indent in the hallway in the center of the strip of rooms with vending machines. She decided to go in for something to eat. Taking her change out of her pocket she observed the venders..."What the..HOW OLD ARE THESE?"
Crumbling candy bars and exploded soda cans graced ehr presence. She jammed her money back in her pocket and walked away mumbling angry thoughts. Not her night.
**
Chaos looked over at Shelby and then at Pietro, who were both blankly staring at the fire. Just not at the nice pictures Pyro took time and effort to create. She sat up more and whispered something into Remy's ear and then Pyro's. They both nodded back at her and Remy grinned. Pyro went back to controlling the fire and changed the figures to resemble Pietro and Shelby.
The one that looked like Shelby was on the ground . . . naked with the other figure ontop of her. He also naked. As the Pietro character moved his hips back and forth Chaos and Remy started to add voice effects. Both changing their voices to sound more like Pietro's and Shelby's.
"Oh Pietro...." Chaos moaned as Pyro continued to move the flames. Adding moans at the right time.
Just then Pietro and Shelby noticed what was going on. Both of them blushed soemthing close to the color of tomatoes. Pietro jumped up and started screaming at everyone--not that anyone knew what he was even tlaknig about they were too busy cracking up. Shelby imedeatly stopped the 'entertainment' and quickly changed the flames back to the way it was before. Then she saw Pietro stomp away. She got up and unintentionally followed him to the only motel room they had.
The door unwillingly opened with a stuck sound. She went inside and over to her things, avoiding Pietro, who was just on his way out again. And grabbed her notebook and CD player. After she placed her headset on and sat on the floor. She moved her finger gently over the volume nob, turned it up to a defening amount and pressed play. It was Good Charlotte's Young and the Hopeless. Notebook on her lap, Shelby took a pencil out of the rings and opened it up to a blank page.
**
Chaos and Remy were nowhere near something too close to sober yet and laughed on still. Pietro had run off before they could make any more figures.
"Merde, Speedy needs ta l'ght'n up mor." Remy slurred out just loud enough to hear.
Chaos nodded mockingly in agreement. Pyro went on making people out of the fire. This time it wasn't porn though. First it looked like a girl with short, slightly spikey hair. As he fixed it more it turned out to be the one and only Scarlet Witch. He also added in another firey figure.
Soon it turned into a scene of Wanda and Pyro sitting in a restaurant. Eating through a plate of spagetti. They were both slurping one of the noodles up when the scene that happened was like Lady and the Tramp. They kissed through a noodle. (lol)
Remy's hearty laugh brought him back to Earth. Literally. It had startled him and that made him make theflames change so that the one of Pyro fell face first into the suacy spagetti , and thus ending the kiss. Then the flames burst out and went back down while Pyro ate dirt.
He sat back up and spit out the grass and whatever else that had ended up in his mouth. Remy sat up as well trying his best at holding up a passed out Chaos in his arms. Appearently he had been more tolerant of the alcohol then her, although she should have passed a long time before.
Warren who was too busy with his attention on Regina...looked over for just a second, and ended up jumping up at the sight of Remy holding Chaos in way he probably would have been electricuted. "Whoa pal I'll take her." he said quickly as Regina began to pout.
He moved her to his arms carefully so he didn't get zapped out anything. While Regina and Warren with Chaos walked back to the room, Remy followed..turned around almost fell and managed to get out, "Will y'turn owwww de carrr an' lock de fire?" Okay so maybe he hadn't been to much better.
Pyro nodded absentmindely and then thought about it more but decided not to open his mouth. He turned the musci off and then the car. Then, was going to put out the fire...but only laid down next to it...feeling its heat and staring at the sky.
Everyone made it into the extreme amounts of small motel room (with a little help from the sober people). Regina smugly helped Chaos into bed, who was talking in her sleep about her love for porn her face alighted with a grin. Warren followed quietly behind with Remy singing something about 'She bangs'. When everyone was comfortable, Regina asked where Pyro was, no answered probably because it didn't concern them where he was.
Remy and Chaos were zonked out on one bed, while Pietro was sleeping on the floor in a sleeping bag. Hope (with a growlign stomache)and Shelby where in the other bed and Warren and Lance where lying on an extra mattress on the floor. Rogue and Regina where asleep on the sofa bed and Alex was curled up in an armchair. Every single inch of space on the floor was used up.
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Pyro had remained out in the clearing as the fire slowly died. Just thinking. He'd known Wanda for a while, since that day they fought the xmen for the first time. He had tried talking to her on several occasions, but she "didnt mingle with anyone working for a poor excuse for a father" to her. He had almost just walked out on Magneto just so Wanda would talk to him. He couldnt blame her for being angry...he himself had been institutionalized for his pyromania...and it didn't work too well obviously. But he knew what it was like thinking everyone hates you and only getting some meals some days and never any talk with anyone on the outside world. She had been having breakdowns.
He'd have a breakdown thinking about her.
After the thinking session, he wandered back into room, and into the bathroom and sat on the closed toilet seat, his mind going back to Bayville. He sighed as he thought of how everyone was coming together, even the most impossible loves, and wondered when it would happen for him. He remembered that song that had been playing on the c.d. and wondered if maybe there was hope for him.
All the girls minus Chaos had flirted with him and showed him at least some kind of interest but regardless of it all he couldn't find anything in them that would attract his attention like her. Not even Shelby, with the same love of fire, could top the girl that constantly roamed in his dreams. He slipped out of the bathroom and picked up the notepad and pen from under the sleeping Shelby's arms, making his way to the van where he popped in a c.d.
(BANNGGG) the volume wasnt turned down last time used. "SONOFABITCH!" he screamed and struggled to turn it down. When it finally was at a good level, he sighed and kicked his feet up to the dashboard.
An hour or two passed by, and Pyro was still staring at his notepad. Nothing had been written. He got fed up and just threw the damn thing and turned the music to Chaos' angry music just so he could scream along to something.
He put in what he thought was Crises...but was actually Specimen, and the song was titled "Hex". Just for one moment he wanted something not reminding of his problems but that fucking song had to be played. SO what does Pyro do? He sets the cd on fire, watching it melt...and then realizing that--Chaos was going to kill him.
Knock on the window. Pyro, frustrated, kicked the door open.
"Pahro..(yawn)...whatr ya doin up this late. its lahk 4 in tha morning ya woke everyone up...well..mostly evahryone." Rogue looked back towards the open door. "Remy an' Chaos ah still dead passed out."
"Rogue. Can I ask ya a question." he asked thoughtfully, actually being serious which is not Pyro-like at all. Rogue, still tired was taken aback by the sound of his voice. She hopped in and shut the door, also stretching her legs onto the dashboard.
"Whats wrong.?" she asked smoothing out her white locks. He sighed and answered, "well...I have this, friend."
::oh jeez. why didnt ah stay wit tha othas....ahh I hate these typa stories:: she took her feet off the dashboard and hugged her knees getting ready for a long ramble about whats been on his mind.
"An' he s got this problem--" Pyro fidgeted with his pencil and bit his lip. He turned to Rogue who was obviously too tired for this and sighed, "Nevamind luv, you get so' a'that rest."
(mental sigh of relief) "...Alraght Pyro." she opened the door and jumped out, turning back to him. "Ah'm sorry Pyro, Ah'm jes not one of them talkin types when it comes to--love." she turned away again grinning. Pyro, looking shocked dropped his stuff and leaned out of the car.
"What ya tlakin bout?!" he pointed wondering where she knew that from. She simply turned around and smiled. "Well, I did absorb you, and it is probably an outdated peice of evidence..."
Pyro just stared at her blankly not looking like he was comprehending.
"..When ah was mesmerised an' all that...?"
Still not comprehending.
"WHEN AH RAN AROUND STEALIN EVAHRYONES MEMORIES AN' POWERS?!" she raised an eyebrow and took her glove off as if to demonstrate.
"...."
"...go ta sleep Allerdyce. Ya worry meh." she shook her head and stalked off. He watched her go inside and then shut the door. Leaning back with his hands behind his head, he listened to silence. The silence was deafening. Reaching over, he picked the notebook up and sighed.
------- Hi. Its me..John..Pyro...the guy with the fire--the one you pushed over the bridge? Just incase you didn't remember me or anything. So--yeah, how are you getting along? I'm doing fine. Hanging here with Lance and Pietro. You remember Chaos..right? I dont know if you ever met her...well she planned all of this...I guess I thought it would be fun, but its not really when you realize there isnt much here for you like there is for everyone else.
I don't want to bore you or anything...I'm suprised if you even read this far. Its funny, I can write these hit romance novels--but I'm so inept when it comes to the real thing. But heres to me trying.
I don't know where to start, with you. I dont know who I am when I'm around any of these suddenly lovesick strangers, or when I realize I just might be lovesick myself. But now that I think so, I'm feelign more alone, than I ever have before. Christ I sometimes don't know when to blame you or just admit its the truth and god help me, I wish it wasnt. Why are you so perfect for me and I can't bring myself to beleive maybe thats just me hallucinating. But why do I do so much of it..? This empty feelings makign me feel like drowning slowly. I'm scared. I'm scared you'll hurt yourself from all this turmoil, I'm afraid I'll hurt myself by sending this letter to you. And I feel like crying becuase I know you wont read it. I'm sorry Wanda. I shouldn't be so...I dont even have the word for it... I'm sorry for never making sense and I know I'm wrong for feeling this way, I'm always so wrong.
Your too beautiful for this world. I hope you feel more alone right now. I hope you feel more alone than you ever have before. And I'd say something mroe to you, but its four o'clock in the morning...would you beleive me if i did...?
...John.-------
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ok well haha, sorry this was late, and thanks for the reviews. I do like criticism, honesty is good...since im, so honest all the tiem (haha..yeah). But only flame or whatever if you read the whole fucking fic...only then are you in a position to do so. Thanks guys.