It was dark. She sat bolt upright, sweating and breathing hard. The
light from the hall under the door
crack was the only way she could tell she had opened her eyes. She gave a few shuddering sobs and lay
back down. Her eyes filled with tears as she squeezed her pillow for support. She had done alot of crying
lately. It was the nights that were the worst. There was nothing to distract her. All she had was thoughts
about him. As she struggled to control her sobs, the hall light clicked on and her mother appeared in the
doorway. With a look of understanding on her face she walked over to Kagome and sat on the edge of her
bed and put her arms around her daughter.
" Shhhh. It's okay. I know. I know. It's all going to be okay. Shhhhhh."
Kagome leaned on her mother for support and cried.
" I dreamed..... he was alive again... he was with me... we were happy..... why? why did it happen to him?
he shouldn't have died! He should have been okay..." Kagome's words were wracked with sobs.
Her mother understood. She had known for a long time that Kagome loved Inuyasha. She could see it in
her eyes when she spoke about him. But she had let Kagome tell her anyway, and confess the feelings that
she had already known about, because she seemed to need to say it, to tell someone. It had only been three
days since Inuyasha had died, and it was still very raw in her heart and mind. She had liked Inuyasha. She
had trusted him with her daughter's life every day, because she could tell that Inuyasha had very strong
feelings for Kagome too. He had proven that. Kagome's mom thought back to the day Kagome had told her.
It had taken nearly an hour, because she could barely talk.
She had been washing dishes. It was Tuesday. Grandpa had taken Sota out for the day and it was just
her in the house. Kagome was supposed to have come back two days ago. She was worried sick. But she
knew this had happened before and Kagome would come home any minute now, slamming the door and
fuming because of the latest Kagome-Inuyasha deathmatch, as she had liked to call it. She used to grin. She
could just imagine that it must be quite a sight watching two such strong wills go at it. Sure enough she
heard the screen door of the shrine slide open. But something was wrong. First of all instead of being
slammed it was opened very slowly, as if she was very weary. She could sense something wasn't right. She
rushed outside when she heard it. Kagome was lying with her back against the shrine wall and balling her
eyes out. She grabbed Kagome and hugged her tightly after checking her for injuries. Seeing that she had
none, she had led her inside and set her down on the couch, still balling uncontrollably, as she made them a
cup of tea and prepared herself for the story. At first she thought that they had had a bad fight, but she
knew that nothing Inuyasha could say could break her little girl this badly. Kagome was strong and she was
scared about what could do this to her.
It had taken a long time just to calm her down enough to be able to speak. Just when she started to get
something, Kagome would start balling hysterically again. She knew enough not to rush her, to let her speak
on her own terms. Finally, she started to stutter out sentences, horrible sobbing fragmenting her words into
pieces.
" It was him.... he hurt him... hurt bad... god, why.... no!!!!.... no not him please!!!...he was trying to protect
me... oh god....."
She was scared now.
" Who dear? Who got hurt?"
Her fears were confirmed.
" In..u...yasha..."
With this she started crying harder than before and she could not get a word out of her. She let her cry
herself out hugging her until she finally fell asleep. She waited there with her, only moving to refill her tea
and get a blanket, for three hours until she finally awoke and was calm enough to tell her the story. It was a
long one, and had taken a long time.
" We... we were at... the village. I.. detect... detected a..sh..shard and we went to get it. We had been....
fighting..."
With this her eyes filled with tears again but she only stopped for a short time.
" It was so stupid. . It was about Hojo or Koga or something. I don't love Koga, momma! I told him that...
he was so damned jealous! Why did he always have to be so goddamned stubborn? He didn't like that. It
seemed to hurt him. Why couldn't he see that I loved him?!? "
Her voice broke, but she continued.
" He stopped and sniffed all of a sudden. We knew who it was. He was running so hard we couldn't keep
up with him. But when we got there, there he was. Naraku."
She gasped. In Kagome's eyes were a look of pure hate. Anger such as she had never seen out of her
sweet daughter, who was always kind and forgiving. It scared her.
" It was him. He killed him. He murdered Inuyasha and laughed about it."
Kagome was no longer stumbling over her words. She spoke with resolution now. Her eyes filled with tears,
she continued reliving the nightmare in her mind.
"Inuyasha rushed him. I screamed, but he didn't, or wouldn't hear me. Naraku was smiling. Something
wasn't right, I knew it. He just kept going. He was just trying to make Inuyasha angry. I knew he was. He
just kept dodging him easily, just to get his temper going. But Inuyasha wasn't listening to me. I knew
something was wrong. I could sense it. Naraku wasn't fighting back, just dodging. And there was no one
else there. He always had an army of demons to help him, but not now. Miroku and Sango hadn't been
doing anything so far. They ran forward to help Inuyasha. Naraku didn't even glance at them as he dodged
thier attacks. I told Shippo to hide, and I ran forward to notch an arrow to my bow. But then Naraku looked
at me, and I knew what he was going to do. "
Now Kagome began to lose her stability as she once again began cry.
" That coward could never have hurt Inuyasha face to face! No. He chose instead to hit him where he
thought it woud hurt. Naraku raised his hand, and fired. I couldn't move. Why couldn't I move? I shouldn't
have been so helpless. I should have been able to defend myself! Inuyasha should never had needed to
help me. But he just ran forward.... it... hit him.... I knew what it was. I had seen it before. A rare type of
miasma that I knew he wouldn't be able to survive. It would kill him. He knew it too, I think. But he just ran
forward and stood in front of me... "
Now her sentences were all running together.
"He grabbed my arms to try to move me but then it hit him......................."
" He was just looking at me, and he seemed surprised but ....relieved also..... and..... he... whispered
something... and then... he...fell...."
Kagome's mother just let her cry as a fresh wave of pain broke.
Jolted back to the present, all she could do was hold her. Even though she knew hugs wouldn't help with
the pain she was feeling now. She remembered a quote she had heard once. " It is better to have loved and
lost than to never have loved at all." But now, watching her daughter cry over the hanyou she couldn't
have, she very much doubted that.
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What do you think? any decent at all? Thank all of you for reviewing. My audience is now up to 11! And may I also mention that I have gotten my first official flame ever! shaanu101 holds the honor of giving it to me. Okay, I really deserved it. I wrote her a flame and it was a sucky thing to do, but if she's reading this know I would like to say I'm sorry.
Inu Youkai-Hime: Thank you for reviewing. I will try to write fast enough to satiate my hungry crowd ^_^.
Mustard Yellow Sunshine: Really? You liked my hell? sniff. That's so sweet. Wouldn't you know it, I'm actually also a fan of angsty stuff. But I hate sad endings. Never fear! This was actually going to be a one shot. But then I got all these great ideas.... and now it's looking to be maybe 15-20 chapters or more. And yes! I got your e-mail! notice the less sporadic spacing? It's all because of you, my friend. thank you so much! ^_^
Anime Writer2: Okay! I'll continue it! please don't hurt me! ^_^ What's Inuyasha going to do? Actually, Inuyasha isn't going to do one heck of a lot right now, considering he's rather busy in hell. But thanks for your sweet review. I love getting reviews from nice people like you!! ^_^
shaanu101: (munching on toasted marshmellow) mmm. thank you for your comments. well, I guess I deserved that one. May I now take the opportunity to publicly apologize for the not-so-nice flame I sent mister ( or mistress) shaanu here. (bows) I must have been P.M.S ing. oh well. (pins 'world's biggest jackass' button onto shirt) Flames suck no matter what the circumstances and I apologize fully for my despicable review. No, you are not a sucky authoress. Please excuse my jackass-iness. (bows again)
esrellas88star: cheesy? that's ok. some people just don't like such mellow- dramatic stuff. I respect your opinions on my cheesy works. (bows) (mmm cheddar)
crack was the only way she could tell she had opened her eyes. She gave a few shuddering sobs and lay
back down. Her eyes filled with tears as she squeezed her pillow for support. She had done alot of crying
lately. It was the nights that were the worst. There was nothing to distract her. All she had was thoughts
about him. As she struggled to control her sobs, the hall light clicked on and her mother appeared in the
doorway. With a look of understanding on her face she walked over to Kagome and sat on the edge of her
bed and put her arms around her daughter.
" Shhhh. It's okay. I know. I know. It's all going to be okay. Shhhhhh."
Kagome leaned on her mother for support and cried.
" I dreamed..... he was alive again... he was with me... we were happy..... why? why did it happen to him?
he shouldn't have died! He should have been okay..." Kagome's words were wracked with sobs.
Her mother understood. She had known for a long time that Kagome loved Inuyasha. She could see it in
her eyes when she spoke about him. But she had let Kagome tell her anyway, and confess the feelings that
she had already known about, because she seemed to need to say it, to tell someone. It had only been three
days since Inuyasha had died, and it was still very raw in her heart and mind. She had liked Inuyasha. She
had trusted him with her daughter's life every day, because she could tell that Inuyasha had very strong
feelings for Kagome too. He had proven that. Kagome's mom thought back to the day Kagome had told her.
It had taken nearly an hour, because she could barely talk.
She had been washing dishes. It was Tuesday. Grandpa had taken Sota out for the day and it was just
her in the house. Kagome was supposed to have come back two days ago. She was worried sick. But she
knew this had happened before and Kagome would come home any minute now, slamming the door and
fuming because of the latest Kagome-Inuyasha deathmatch, as she had liked to call it. She used to grin. She
could just imagine that it must be quite a sight watching two such strong wills go at it. Sure enough she
heard the screen door of the shrine slide open. But something was wrong. First of all instead of being
slammed it was opened very slowly, as if she was very weary. She could sense something wasn't right. She
rushed outside when she heard it. Kagome was lying with her back against the shrine wall and balling her
eyes out. She grabbed Kagome and hugged her tightly after checking her for injuries. Seeing that she had
none, she had led her inside and set her down on the couch, still balling uncontrollably, as she made them a
cup of tea and prepared herself for the story. At first she thought that they had had a bad fight, but she
knew that nothing Inuyasha could say could break her little girl this badly. Kagome was strong and she was
scared about what could do this to her.
It had taken a long time just to calm her down enough to be able to speak. Just when she started to get
something, Kagome would start balling hysterically again. She knew enough not to rush her, to let her speak
on her own terms. Finally, she started to stutter out sentences, horrible sobbing fragmenting her words into
pieces.
" It was him.... he hurt him... hurt bad... god, why.... no!!!!.... no not him please!!!...he was trying to protect
me... oh god....."
She was scared now.
" Who dear? Who got hurt?"
Her fears were confirmed.
" In..u...yasha..."
With this she started crying harder than before and she could not get a word out of her. She let her cry
herself out hugging her until she finally fell asleep. She waited there with her, only moving to refill her tea
and get a blanket, for three hours until she finally awoke and was calm enough to tell her the story. It was a
long one, and had taken a long time.
" We... we were at... the village. I.. detect... detected a..sh..shard and we went to get it. We had been....
fighting..."
With this her eyes filled with tears again but she only stopped for a short time.
" It was so stupid. . It was about Hojo or Koga or something. I don't love Koga, momma! I told him that...
he was so damned jealous! Why did he always have to be so goddamned stubborn? He didn't like that. It
seemed to hurt him. Why couldn't he see that I loved him?!? "
Her voice broke, but she continued.
" He stopped and sniffed all of a sudden. We knew who it was. He was running so hard we couldn't keep
up with him. But when we got there, there he was. Naraku."
She gasped. In Kagome's eyes were a look of pure hate. Anger such as she had never seen out of her
sweet daughter, who was always kind and forgiving. It scared her.
" It was him. He killed him. He murdered Inuyasha and laughed about it."
Kagome was no longer stumbling over her words. She spoke with resolution now. Her eyes filled with tears,
she continued reliving the nightmare in her mind.
"Inuyasha rushed him. I screamed, but he didn't, or wouldn't hear me. Naraku was smiling. Something
wasn't right, I knew it. He just kept going. He was just trying to make Inuyasha angry. I knew he was. He
just kept dodging him easily, just to get his temper going. But Inuyasha wasn't listening to me. I knew
something was wrong. I could sense it. Naraku wasn't fighting back, just dodging. And there was no one
else there. He always had an army of demons to help him, but not now. Miroku and Sango hadn't been
doing anything so far. They ran forward to help Inuyasha. Naraku didn't even glance at them as he dodged
thier attacks. I told Shippo to hide, and I ran forward to notch an arrow to my bow. But then Naraku looked
at me, and I knew what he was going to do. "
Now Kagome began to lose her stability as she once again began cry.
" That coward could never have hurt Inuyasha face to face! No. He chose instead to hit him where he
thought it woud hurt. Naraku raised his hand, and fired. I couldn't move. Why couldn't I move? I shouldn't
have been so helpless. I should have been able to defend myself! Inuyasha should never had needed to
help me. But he just ran forward.... it... hit him.... I knew what it was. I had seen it before. A rare type of
miasma that I knew he wouldn't be able to survive. It would kill him. He knew it too, I think. But he just ran
forward and stood in front of me... "
Now her sentences were all running together.
"He grabbed my arms to try to move me but then it hit him......................."
" He was just looking at me, and he seemed surprised but ....relieved also..... and..... he... whispered
something... and then... he...fell...."
Kagome's mother just let her cry as a fresh wave of pain broke.
Jolted back to the present, all she could do was hold her. Even though she knew hugs wouldn't help with
the pain she was feeling now. She remembered a quote she had heard once. " It is better to have loved and
lost than to never have loved at all." But now, watching her daughter cry over the hanyou she couldn't
have, she very much doubted that.
. . . . . .___________________________________________________________________________ ______ . . .
What do you think? any decent at all? Thank all of you for reviewing. My audience is now up to 11! And may I also mention that I have gotten my first official flame ever! shaanu101 holds the honor of giving it to me. Okay, I really deserved it. I wrote her a flame and it was a sucky thing to do, but if she's reading this know I would like to say I'm sorry.
Inu Youkai-Hime: Thank you for reviewing. I will try to write fast enough to satiate my hungry crowd ^_^.
Mustard Yellow Sunshine: Really? You liked my hell? sniff. That's so sweet. Wouldn't you know it, I'm actually also a fan of angsty stuff. But I hate sad endings. Never fear! This was actually going to be a one shot. But then I got all these great ideas.... and now it's looking to be maybe 15-20 chapters or more. And yes! I got your e-mail! notice the less sporadic spacing? It's all because of you, my friend. thank you so much! ^_^
Anime Writer2: Okay! I'll continue it! please don't hurt me! ^_^ What's Inuyasha going to do? Actually, Inuyasha isn't going to do one heck of a lot right now, considering he's rather busy in hell. But thanks for your sweet review. I love getting reviews from nice people like you!! ^_^
shaanu101: (munching on toasted marshmellow) mmm. thank you for your comments. well, I guess I deserved that one. May I now take the opportunity to publicly apologize for the not-so-nice flame I sent mister ( or mistress) shaanu here. (bows) I must have been P.M.S ing. oh well. (pins 'world's biggest jackass' button onto shirt) Flames suck no matter what the circumstances and I apologize fully for my despicable review. No, you are not a sucky authoress. Please excuse my jackass-iness. (bows again)
esrellas88star: cheesy? that's ok. some people just don't like such mellow- dramatic stuff. I respect your opinions on my cheesy works. (bows) (mmm cheddar)