Disclaimers: I do not own these characters except for Jessica Weaver and
Other characters that you do not recognize. The others belong to J.K.R.
RWH
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Eighteen
Monday 4/28
Severus sat in his empty classroom hunched over his desk, going over some papers before him. The papers that needed to be graded from the last class sat off to the side, forgotten. Something else held his strict attention, something of more importance to him than marking grades. That something, he hoped, would help in his search for Jessica.
There was nothing was more important than finding her.
He was knee deep in remorse for neglecting her. Neglecting to notice that she was in financial trouble, to see that she was obviously forced to sing in a dark and dreary nightclub for her money. If he were as shallow as that, some would think that all he thought she had to offer him was what lay between her legs.
If that were true, then the world was right, he was indeed a bastard. He knew some would see it that way if they knew about her, but no one did, not even Albus Dumbledore knew she existed. She was his greatest secret. Not that he was embarrassed that she was a muggle. He was scared for her health if she was ever found out. His love for her could be the cause of her death and if that ever happened, he would follow her into the great beyond because then, nothing would be worth living for. It wasn't just the weekly physical thing with her. Sure the physicality of their relationship was satisfying but that was only the tip of the iceberg. Their relationship was far more than just a weekly shagfest.
But if he thought about it, what really bothered him wasn't what the others would think of him. What he was most worried about was the thought that she, of all people, thought that was all he sought in her, as just a weekly release of sexual frustration. Which it wasn't at all. True that he never wanted to leave her bed when they were together, but they did talk, a great deal. They did do other things than make love. Other physical things, walks, movies even a cute picnic once by the lake. It was very nice.
And he did love her, more than he ever thought he could or would. His life had never been a walk in the park and he had almost given up on ever finding someone like her to want to spend the rest of his life with. The fact that she was a muggle didn't bother him anymore. In his view, the wizarding world will have to learn to accept the muggles. He had heard of some distant rumors of Muggles coming to live in various wizarding communities and he had hoped that he and Jessica would become a part of that New World order.
He and Jessica, living happily ever after in Hogsmeade or perhaps Legerdemain, two of the wizarding world's main communities in England. That would be his heart's desire. To be able to come home to her every evening and not have to trust the floo system to see her once a week. It was never a trustworthy form of transportation.
He sighed as his fingers traced the words and symbols on the page before him. He did have one major concern however, when it came to her. He worried about her reaction when he finally did tell her just what he was. Hopefully she didn't go running away, screaming.
He shook his head to rid himself of that thought and glanced to the pile of objects next to the desk. He had many of her things present and he had hoped that with this particular location spell he could narrow down the places she could be.
Her objects tingled with her identity, her personality and he could feel her steady heartbeat within them. Surely, one of these objects would eventually lead him to her.
Where ever she is he hoped that she was safe.
An hour later he had his head bent back over the papers looking for the mistake that blocked the location charm, when his attention was drawn to a rustling in the fireplace. He lifted his head and snarled as a man emerged from the flames.
"Lucius." He spat standing to his feet.
"Ah, Severus, I'm glad I caught you. I thought you would be with a class this morning, did you cancel?"
"If it was any of your concern I would answer, but it isn't. What are you doing here, Lucius? I'm sure Draco's last letter to you were all informative."
Lucius laughed and came over to look over his shoulder at the parchment.
"A location spell? Just whom are you trying to find my friend? Certainly not that muggle girlfriend of yours." He spoke the word 'muggle' as if it bit his tongue coming out. "I'm sure she is long gone by now. You deserve so much better than a muggle whore."
Severus's hands clenched into a fist and with a yell flung it with all his might right across the blond man's chin sending the blond to the ground with a crash.
"What do you know of her? What did you do with her?" Severus bellowed looming over him in a glorious rage.
Lucius grinned up into the furious man's eyes rubbing his chin. "There's the old Severus I know.. the vile and angry demon that hates all."
"TELL ME!" He roared and pulled his wand placing it directly in front of the man's face where he couldn't ignore the glowing tip.
Lucius raised an elegant eyebrow at the wand that now was stuck direct in his face. "I did nothing with her. I don't know where she is."
"LIAR!"
"I don't KNOW! I just destroyed her place of work, where she is or went after that I have no idea, nor do I care."
"Why?" Severus leaned over and lowered the wand to his throat pushing the tip into his Adam's apple.
"What?"
"Why did you do that? Destroy her work?"
Lucius grinned despite the threatening wand. "You were getting to lax, Severus. You were starting to go soft. It was way too easy to drug you at the revel. It was easy to get the information all about her. Where she worked, where she lived, what she.. liked.. in bed."
Severus growled and pressed his wand into the man's throat harder remembering the Super's words about strangely dressed visitors looking for her.
"You went to her apartment, didn't you?"
Lucius's eyes narrowed. "Yes, we did, but unfortunately she wasn't home."
"Why?"
"We just wanted a taste of her. See what had enraptured you so much."
Severus leaned down and snarled angrily. "I will kill you if anything happens to her or if I find out that you DID visit her and have her somewhere."
Lucius chuckled and sat up pushing against the threatening wand. "If I did then we wouldn't be in this position, now would we my friend. YOU would be the one begging for mercy at the end of MY wand."
"You are lucky I'm in a generous mood to let you live." He spat removing his wand from the man's throat. "LEAVE, and bother me no more. I will never come to another revel so don't ask, ever again."
Lucius rose to his feet rubbing at his neck glaring at his friend.
"You amaze me, Severus, choosing a muggle whore over your own brethren. What are you going to do in the future? Does she know who and what you are? Do you think she will be able to accept you? Or do you plan on going and living with her in her world? I don't think you can handle it old man. And I seriously don't think a muggle can handle ours. Think about it, Severus, old friend. Think carefully about how this will effect both of you. End it now, while you still can."
"Or what?"
Lucius moved over to the fireplace and pulled a tin of Floo powder from his cloak
"Life can get much worse for her.. and for you.. if you don't."
Severus snarled and raised his wand to attack but Lucius calmly climbed into the fireplace and called out.
"Malfoy Manor." And he was gone.
Severus dropped his wand and sank to the floor.
"Fuck!"
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Author's notes and Acknowledgements:
Someone28: She will, but it will take some time.
Canadian Honey Girl: Hope this part works for you
J.S. Sumner: Oh my goodness, honey.What can I say but.Sorry? I will try to do better in future, Promise. Just don't yell anymore. I'm gonna cry.sniff. Well, anyway.here's my defense. LOL.Severus has never been in love and has no idea what to do or how to go about it. So, needless to say, he's winging it. But.hopefully after you read this chapter you will see that he has realized his shortcoming and will be trying to work through them. So don't count him out just yet. Give him a chance to prove himself to himself, and to her. And you are lucky you get four pages from me at all. LOL.between working and real life I don't get much time for writing. But I did manage to get a few more extra pages here, JUST FOR YOU! Love ya anyway, even if you write angry!
Cathryne: It will be some time before they meet up. But I swear it will be good.
Szelij: Ah, Thanks Hon.I'm glad you think so!
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Please don't forget to review!
Blessed Be!
RWH
RWH
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Eighteen
Monday 4/28
Severus sat in his empty classroom hunched over his desk, going over some papers before him. The papers that needed to be graded from the last class sat off to the side, forgotten. Something else held his strict attention, something of more importance to him than marking grades. That something, he hoped, would help in his search for Jessica.
There was nothing was more important than finding her.
He was knee deep in remorse for neglecting her. Neglecting to notice that she was in financial trouble, to see that she was obviously forced to sing in a dark and dreary nightclub for her money. If he were as shallow as that, some would think that all he thought she had to offer him was what lay between her legs.
If that were true, then the world was right, he was indeed a bastard. He knew some would see it that way if they knew about her, but no one did, not even Albus Dumbledore knew she existed. She was his greatest secret. Not that he was embarrassed that she was a muggle. He was scared for her health if she was ever found out. His love for her could be the cause of her death and if that ever happened, he would follow her into the great beyond because then, nothing would be worth living for. It wasn't just the weekly physical thing with her. Sure the physicality of their relationship was satisfying but that was only the tip of the iceberg. Their relationship was far more than just a weekly shagfest.
But if he thought about it, what really bothered him wasn't what the others would think of him. What he was most worried about was the thought that she, of all people, thought that was all he sought in her, as just a weekly release of sexual frustration. Which it wasn't at all. True that he never wanted to leave her bed when they were together, but they did talk, a great deal. They did do other things than make love. Other physical things, walks, movies even a cute picnic once by the lake. It was very nice.
And he did love her, more than he ever thought he could or would. His life had never been a walk in the park and he had almost given up on ever finding someone like her to want to spend the rest of his life with. The fact that she was a muggle didn't bother him anymore. In his view, the wizarding world will have to learn to accept the muggles. He had heard of some distant rumors of Muggles coming to live in various wizarding communities and he had hoped that he and Jessica would become a part of that New World order.
He and Jessica, living happily ever after in Hogsmeade or perhaps Legerdemain, two of the wizarding world's main communities in England. That would be his heart's desire. To be able to come home to her every evening and not have to trust the floo system to see her once a week. It was never a trustworthy form of transportation.
He sighed as his fingers traced the words and symbols on the page before him. He did have one major concern however, when it came to her. He worried about her reaction when he finally did tell her just what he was. Hopefully she didn't go running away, screaming.
He shook his head to rid himself of that thought and glanced to the pile of objects next to the desk. He had many of her things present and he had hoped that with this particular location spell he could narrow down the places she could be.
Her objects tingled with her identity, her personality and he could feel her steady heartbeat within them. Surely, one of these objects would eventually lead him to her.
Where ever she is he hoped that she was safe.
An hour later he had his head bent back over the papers looking for the mistake that blocked the location charm, when his attention was drawn to a rustling in the fireplace. He lifted his head and snarled as a man emerged from the flames.
"Lucius." He spat standing to his feet.
"Ah, Severus, I'm glad I caught you. I thought you would be with a class this morning, did you cancel?"
"If it was any of your concern I would answer, but it isn't. What are you doing here, Lucius? I'm sure Draco's last letter to you were all informative."
Lucius laughed and came over to look over his shoulder at the parchment.
"A location spell? Just whom are you trying to find my friend? Certainly not that muggle girlfriend of yours." He spoke the word 'muggle' as if it bit his tongue coming out. "I'm sure she is long gone by now. You deserve so much better than a muggle whore."
Severus's hands clenched into a fist and with a yell flung it with all his might right across the blond man's chin sending the blond to the ground with a crash.
"What do you know of her? What did you do with her?" Severus bellowed looming over him in a glorious rage.
Lucius grinned up into the furious man's eyes rubbing his chin. "There's the old Severus I know.. the vile and angry demon that hates all."
"TELL ME!" He roared and pulled his wand placing it directly in front of the man's face where he couldn't ignore the glowing tip.
Lucius raised an elegant eyebrow at the wand that now was stuck direct in his face. "I did nothing with her. I don't know where she is."
"LIAR!"
"I don't KNOW! I just destroyed her place of work, where she is or went after that I have no idea, nor do I care."
"Why?" Severus leaned over and lowered the wand to his throat pushing the tip into his Adam's apple.
"What?"
"Why did you do that? Destroy her work?"
Lucius grinned despite the threatening wand. "You were getting to lax, Severus. You were starting to go soft. It was way too easy to drug you at the revel. It was easy to get the information all about her. Where she worked, where she lived, what she.. liked.. in bed."
Severus growled and pressed his wand into the man's throat harder remembering the Super's words about strangely dressed visitors looking for her.
"You went to her apartment, didn't you?"
Lucius's eyes narrowed. "Yes, we did, but unfortunately she wasn't home."
"Why?"
"We just wanted a taste of her. See what had enraptured you so much."
Severus leaned down and snarled angrily. "I will kill you if anything happens to her or if I find out that you DID visit her and have her somewhere."
Lucius chuckled and sat up pushing against the threatening wand. "If I did then we wouldn't be in this position, now would we my friend. YOU would be the one begging for mercy at the end of MY wand."
"You are lucky I'm in a generous mood to let you live." He spat removing his wand from the man's throat. "LEAVE, and bother me no more. I will never come to another revel so don't ask, ever again."
Lucius rose to his feet rubbing at his neck glaring at his friend.
"You amaze me, Severus, choosing a muggle whore over your own brethren. What are you going to do in the future? Does she know who and what you are? Do you think she will be able to accept you? Or do you plan on going and living with her in her world? I don't think you can handle it old man. And I seriously don't think a muggle can handle ours. Think about it, Severus, old friend. Think carefully about how this will effect both of you. End it now, while you still can."
"Or what?"
Lucius moved over to the fireplace and pulled a tin of Floo powder from his cloak
"Life can get much worse for her.. and for you.. if you don't."
Severus snarled and raised his wand to attack but Lucius calmly climbed into the fireplace and called out.
"Malfoy Manor." And he was gone.
Severus dropped his wand and sank to the floor.
"Fuck!"
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Author's notes and Acknowledgements:
Someone28: She will, but it will take some time.
Canadian Honey Girl: Hope this part works for you
J.S. Sumner: Oh my goodness, honey.What can I say but.Sorry? I will try to do better in future, Promise. Just don't yell anymore. I'm gonna cry.sniff. Well, anyway.here's my defense. LOL.Severus has never been in love and has no idea what to do or how to go about it. So, needless to say, he's winging it. But.hopefully after you read this chapter you will see that he has realized his shortcoming and will be trying to work through them. So don't count him out just yet. Give him a chance to prove himself to himself, and to her. And you are lucky you get four pages from me at all. LOL.between working and real life I don't get much time for writing. But I did manage to get a few more extra pages here, JUST FOR YOU! Love ya anyway, even if you write angry!
Cathryne: It will be some time before they meet up. But I swear it will be good.
Szelij: Ah, Thanks Hon.I'm glad you think so!
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Please don't forget to review!
Blessed Be!
RWH