A/N Ok here's another chapter. This one is a little longer than the others. Enjoy.
Chapter Three. Communicating Angst.
Gil Grissom sat in his office going over the last few hours. What had he said to Sara to make her go off like that? He did mean what he said. She was terribly distant with everyone, cranky and moody. She would bite if you got on the wrong side of her. Nick had been utterly shocked when she had pushed him away like that. It wasn't like Sara to get violent...maybe things were changing.
How he wanted to walk over to her and wrap his powerful arms around her delicate body. Smooth her hair and whisper words of love. Every time he seen her, his heart skipped a beat, he would become breathless, and his brain wouldn't work. He'd go silent...and he always put his foot in it. He didn't understand why she had said he was distant. He conversed like the others. He didn't see a difference but either did the others.
There was one secret he wanted to keep secret and that was his hearing. He didn't want anyone to know that he was going deaf. He knew how they would react as if he were an invalid. Things would change. Why was this happening to him? All he wanted was happiness but it wouldn't happen. He couldn't have a relationship with her. He was her boss and it was unethical. He could feel a migraine coming on. He sighed and sat back in his chair rubbing his temples to try to relieve some of the pain he was beginning to feel.
As he sat there eyes closed mouth slightly parted, he was in his own world. He didn't notice Catherine standing in his doorway looking at him intently
There was just something off with Grissom just now. She had noticed it like the others. You could be there standing with him trying to have a conversation and it was as if he blanked you out, not noticing that you were speaking. It would take a few minutes for him to actually notice you were speaking to him...and Catherine was worried. She had known Gil for a lot of years now and she knew when he was feeling happy and she knew when he wasn't himself. And he WASN'T himself right now. She would ask him about it but she knew what the answer would be.
"Cath, it's really none of your business so why don't you go back to what you were doing and leave me in peace."
Distant or not she was worried for both Sara and Grissom. Anyone could see that when they were together sparks flew. When having a conversation you could see their eyes twinkle.
She decided to let him know her presence.
"Gil, you alright?"
He opened his eyes and looked at her blankly. Sitting up he put his glasses on and sorted his paper work out.
"I'm fine, I think I have a migraine coming on."
"You look tired Gil, you should go home and rest. There's not a lot needing doing now."
"Look I said I'm fine Cath...let's leave it at that alright. You don't look too perky yourself."
His mouth turned up into a ghost of a smile. He set about starting on some of the paper work that needed done. She knew when she had out stayed her welcome. She gave him a quick smile and left.
Nick, Warrick and Greg sat in the break room going over last nights episode. Whispering and conversing about what Grissom had actually said to Sara to piss her off big time.
"Hey...you know she has a bloody hard push for a girl man. I'm going to have a bruise on my chest."
Nick rubbed his chest and winced.
"Well Nicky if you hadn't stepped in front of that raging bull it wouldn't have happened. I have more sense than to stand in Sara's way when she's that angry. I was expecting her to give Griss a slap. She looked totally pissed off!"
"She's my friend man, how can I not see if she's alright? Ya know...that's not the first time Grissom's made her go off like that. He always seems to put his big foot in it!"
Greg looked back and forth while Warrick and Nick had their conversation. It was interesting to know that Grissom had upset Sara, he sat in his office as if nothing happened and let Sara cool off in her apartment.
"Theres maybe more to it than Grissom saying something wrong. You know what their like when there near each other...you think they could be...you know...seeing each other? Maybe it was a lovers tiff...did you actually hear what they were speaking about?"
"Nope man...me and Warrick were standing too far back to hear anything...but Sara was definitely agitated. Maybe I should call her and see if she's alright?"
"No way man...I think she needs time by herself right now Nicky. Let her calm down and think things over...you know...it's what women do.."
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Sara sat in her apartment, her face filled with dried tears. She couldn't stop the flow, she was upset, and Grissom had done it this time. She couldn't stand it anymore..she had to resign if she didn't she might say something to upset them both. How could he come out with something like that? That was the last straw. She knew herself she was a great CSI she loved her work and her friends.
He wasn't blind, he must be able to see the attraction...how many times had she flirted with him and he didn't notice it. He wasn't like any other man, he was Grissom. He was sexy, intelligent, caring...he was caring if there was real danger, he could get angry easily and he was very confusing. She just wanted to sit next to him, tell him how she felt and leave him to ponder on the idea of something actually happening with them.
Sara walked into the kitchen and made herself a cup of coffee, while sipping it slowly she let another tear fall down her red cheeks. She just wanted everything to go back to the way it was when she first got to Vegas. He had been so kind and friendly back then, they had gotten on like a house on fire. Now look at them. They would hardly say a dozen words to each other at night.
They had to work together on the case and she couldn't handle it. She couldn't look him in the eye again. It would tear her to pieces. As she sat down on the sofa, she wished everything would go back to normal. She wished that her life would be as simple as it used to be.