I can hear the guards coming through the passage way. I see then drag Dana by the arms. I notice that her cheeks are tears stained and her eyes are red and puffy.
Leave us. I order, they let her go, she instantly sinks to her knees as she sheds silent tears. The guards leave the room.
No need to cry, Mulder is alive and unhurt. I tell her.
I'm not crying for him. I'm crying for John you heartless bitch.
I'm a little taken back, by the fact she just called me a heartless bitch and the fact she told me she was crying over John.
And why are you crying over John?
Because he's dead! She practically yells as she looks at me viciously.
You lie. I state.
No I don't, I saw him die with my own two eyes. We were running away from your guards, he slipped and fell down a steep cliff, he crashed into the rocks, I saw the blood seeping out of his head. He's dead because of you! Now she is yelling at me.
The guards instantly come in. Lock her up with Mulder. I order and they do as I say.
Mulder hears footsteps coming to his cell and he instantly stands up. Dana is thrown into the cell with him. The door locked behind her. He instantly hugs her tightly.
Where's John? Mulder asked as he pulled back and took in her tear stained cheeks and red puffy eyes. Has something happened to him? Mulder asked worriedly. He's a little confused when she smiles and laughs slightly.
He's fine.
Why are you crying them? Her grin became bigger. Now he was really confused.
Part of a plan to return Monica back to normal. I was always told I had a talent in acting.
Was Dana lying to me? She wouldn't do that. I saw her eyes, she had been crying uncontrollably. But that would mean John was dead. Was it my fault? Oh my God, John's dead. I collapsed to the floor as tears escaped my eyes uncontrollably.
I looked up at the sound of his voice.
John? But Dana said you were dead?
It was for your own good.
How could you do that?! Now I was becoming angry. I pushed him up against the wall, my hands wrapped around his neck.
Tell me something Monica, when she told you I was dead. How did you feel? He asked me. I let go of his neck and take a few steps back.
The moment when Dana told me my whole world had crashed. I wouldn't be able to live without him. He was everything to me. The thought of never seeing John again. Never looking into his bright blues eyes. Never hearing his laugh or seeing his smile. Never being able to be around him ever again. Never feeling his presence. Now that I thought about it, he was my whole world. Everything I was now was because of him. Without John, I would be nothing. Tears welled up in my eyes as these thoughts went through my head.
Remember the first New Year after we found Luke? The bar, playing pool. Me ending up having to carry you home and then me looking after you the night while you felt like shit because of all the drinks you had. As he said this the events flashed through my mind, he had taken care of me that night, knowing that my judgement was messed up and that I would have done something I would have regret. He had stopped me from going home with someone from that bar, he knew I would regret it.
WHAT'S GOING ON HERE?' Alex yelled as he re-entered the room. He walked up to me and attempted to take my hand in his, but I pulled it away and stepped away from him. What's the matter? Kill him if he's bothering you. Alex told me. I looked at John with confusion. I could kill him. I wanted to. But a part of me didn't. I couldn't kill him. Alex placed a gun in my hand, I looked at it and raised it to John, aiming at his head.
Monica you don't want to do this. Remember the day on the beach when I let Luke's ashes go. Remember Audrey. Our conversation in the car about cat and dog people.
Memories came back to me, good memories. My hand that held the gun shook furiously. I couldn't take it. John telling me about the past. Alex telling me to kill John. I quickly turned the gun around and aimed it at Alex's head. He looked at me in shock. I looked at him in anger.
I'm not your god damn queen! I told him just before I pulled the trigger. The second he hit the floor, my eyes started to burn. I dropped the gun and covered my eyes with my hands. The stinging stopped after a few seconds and I opened my eyes. But I couldn't see anything. Everything was black. I called out.
Monica, are you okay? Is it really you? He was standing right next to me, I looked in the direction of his voice.
It's me, but I cant see, I cant see you. I reached out to feel for him and felt his hand find mine.
Your eyes are still black. He told me. That reminded me of what I almost did.
I'm sorry, I'm so sorry John, I couldn't help it. I tried to fight it but I couldn't and it took control. I repeated, letting tears come out of my eyes.
Hey it's okay He whispered as he pulled me towards him and held me in his arms as I cried. After what seemed like hours the tears subsided. We need to find Mulder and Dana.
I had them locked up, I don't know where though. I tell him. He places and arm around my waist and take my hand as he leads me somewhere.
It's okay, we'll find them. He told me as he continued to lead me. Mulder! Dana! I heard him yell.
In here John! I heard Mulder yell back.
I felt John remove his arm from around my waist and him taking his hand away from mine.
I yelled. His hand instantly came back into mine. I pulled myself to him, not wanting to let go.
It's okay, I'm still here, I need to let Mulder and Dana out. I'm no more than a few feet away from you. He tells me, he places kiss on my temple and then once again lets go. I nod and can do nothing but stand where I am. Scared as hell, all I can see is black and it scares me. I hear some metal scraping and the creaking of a door being opened.
What's the matter with Monica? I heard Dana ask.
She cant see. Just as he said that I felt someone open my eyelids, I instantly pulled back and looked around frightened. Someone tales a hold of my upper arm and I instinctively pulled back.
It's okay, it's John. Dana is just going to look into your eyes. So relax. He tells me. I nod and take a deep breath to calm my nerves. I feel delicate fingers pull my eye-lids slightly wider. A second later the fingers are gone.
I cant actually tell anything. The eyes are just totally black.
What are we going to do? I asked with a shaky voice as I moved closer to John, he instantly wrapped his arms around me.
First things first we need to get out of here. Mulder said.
What about the cult members? I asked as John started walking me somewhere.
I don't think we need to worry about them. Dana stated as I heard her take in a deep breath.
Why? What's happened? John continues to walk me.
They're dead.
I gasp out.
I don't know, but we better just get out of here. John said. He suddenly stopped walking. Monica put your arms around my neck. He instructed me, when I hesitated he explained. The ground outside is a jungle, you'll trip and hurt yourself. Now arms around my neck.