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Steph walked into Shane's office promptly at noon. "Hey Shane, are you ready?"
Shane got up and grabbed his jacket, "Keys."
Steph grunted and handed Shane his keys back and then smiled.
They walked out to his car and climbed in. The instant they sat down, Steph started to laugh.
"What's so funny?" Shane said fixing the seat to accommodate him.
"I was just remembering something that struck me as odd." Steph replied.
"Which is what?"
"You and Becky drive the exact same car." Steph said with a big smile.
"Yeah right." Shane said pulling out.
"No serious, a 2003 silver BMW-5. She just got hers not too long ago." Steph replied.
"Holy shit! That's something." Shane exclaimed. "So did you girls have a good time?"
Steph smiled, "Yeah we did. It was just like old times. She still lives in the same apartment that she did a few years ago. Remember when we moved her into that apartment from the dorm?" Steph asked.
Shane chuckled, "How can I forget? Talk about the move from hell. It was storming, and then it started hailing. I was wrestling at the pay-per-view the next day and I slipped coming down the ramp from the moving truck and messed up my ankle. But I didn't let that stop me. We got her moved in enough to where her stuff wasn't getting wet anymore, and by the time we arrived in town for the pay-per-view my ankle was swollen to 3 times it's normal size. Dad was so pissed, but I still went out there and brought the house down."
"Yeah, that is one that I'll never forget. I still have a scrapbook of the move on my bookshelf." Steph replied laughing. "But everything still looks the same."
"Except for the fact that I'm not on her walls anymore." Shane added. He pulled into the parking lot of the restaurant.
They didn't say anything until they were seated at a table in the back, far corner of their favorite place to go for lunch. They both ordered a glass of white wine.
Steph leaned towards him, "There's one on her wall."
Shane's eyes lit up, "There is?"
"Remember the last time we all went to the cabin together? When you, me and Becky went and sat under the willow tree and the sun was setting behind us?"
Shane smiled, "Of course I do. That was one of my favorite pictures. There's one that is Becky and I kissing under the tree with the sun setting behind us, and then there was the one of the three of us."
"Well Becky has the one of the three of us up on her wall in a beautiful black frame." Steph said to Shane. "But I can't take it anymore, what happened? What made you two break up?"
Shane sighed and ran his hands through his hair. "Steph, I was a complete asshole and that's why we broke up."
"What do you mean?" Steph asked in a concerned tone.
"Alright, Becky and I had been together for 3 years, we were destined for marriage, but I knew that I wasn't ready yet. I was just starting to get heavily involved on tv, and I was getting prepped to take over the New Media department. I went over there to surprise her with a promise ring. I knew that I wanted to marry her, but I didn't want to be rushed into it. So I show up at the apartment and she was curled up on the couch crying. I went over to her and asked her what was wrong." Shane started to explain.
"What was wrong?"
"She told me that she hadn't been feeling well, so she went to the doctor and she found out that she was pregnant." Shane finished.
"What? She was pregnant?" Steph hissed. "But the doctor's had told her."
"That if she ever got pregnant it would be a miracle." Shane said finishing her sentence. "But I panicked. I knew that I wasn't ready for a baby. I didn't know how I would tell mom and dad that I had gotten her pregnant when we weren't even married. I wound up yelling at her for not being more careful. I paced back and forth ranting and raving like a lunatic while she sat on the couch and cried. She had stood up and tried to calm me down so we could talk like adults, but I blocked her from touching me and gently pushed her back down on the couch. Not hard, but enough to where she was sitting down again. But coming from her childhood, it scared her. Then I felt bad, but she yelled at me for pushing her down and that set me off. I threw the box with the promise ring towards her and told her that I couldn't take it and I needed some time and I walked out." Shane explained.
"What happened then? I went home and that's when I stormed upstairs. I decided that I couldn't have a baby. Nope, couldn't do it. Even though I loved her more than life, I couldn't have a baby tying me down. So I called her and told her that I wasn't ready to be a father. She told me that she understood that I was scared and that I should take sometime and she would leave me alone so I could let it sink in and then we could sit down and talk rationally about it, but I was frantic. I told her that I knew for sure that I didn't want to be a father yet, I was going to be on the road and I didn't want that. I told her that if she decided to keep it, I would give her money but she couldn't tell anyone that it was mine. She started crying even harder and asked how would we do that without making it look like she cheated on me. And the first thing that I said was "because we won't be together." She asked me what about the ring, and I told her to keep it as a souvenir." Shane said to Steph. He looked like he was going to cry. "And she snapped at me that she already had a souvenir and she couldn't believe that she had ever trusted me, let alone love me. God Steph, she was crying so hard, She told me that if I didn't want to own up to it, fine and she hung up."
Steph was shocked. "Oh my god Shane, why didn't you ever tell me?"
"I was so confused and ashamed of myself. I was trying to figure things out. Then one day I got a call on my cell phone and it was Becky. I didn't pick it up. When I checked my voice mail, there was a message from her, she was crying and she told me that she lost the baby and she was sorry for bothering me. But not to bother calling her because she was going to stay with her mom for awhile and she wasn't sure when she was going to be home. I lost it. I was crying and all I wanted to do was go to her and tell her how sorry I was, but she didn't tell me where she was. So instead of doing the right thing, I did the wrong thing and went out drinking. I ran into Marissa and we drank together, then wound up spending the night together and we've been together ever since." Shane said with tears in his eyes. "I haven't seen or heard from Becky since."
Steph couldn't believe what she heard. Shane was not that type of person, and the whole things sent chills through her. "Now I know why she gets so emotional if we talk about you too much." Steph said quietly.
"I bet she never wants to see me again. Frankly I don't deserve to see her again." Shane said with sadness in his eyes.
Steph was still in shock from everything that Shane had confessed to her. She knew that it was something bad, but she didn't think that it was anything like that. "Well, I asked her a little bit about you. She told me that she thinks about you from time to time."
"Really? You know, I wish that I could at least see her once, and apologize for causing her so much pain. That's the one thing that I wish that I could do. She deserves much more than that, but that's all that I can do." Shane said to her.
The waiter came over and asked if they were ready to order. They placed their orders and he left. Steph giggled as he walked away from their table.
"What's so funny?" Shane asked.
"Everytime he went to come over here, he would look and you and I were in such a deep conversation, he purposely waited to come over. That was very courteous of him." Steph replied. "But, why don't you call her and ask her if you guys could talk? I mean, at least make the effort. It has been 4 years."
"What if she hangs up on me?" Shane asked.
"Shane, she used to tell me that the two of you were soul mates. You guys had so much in common yet you were both different. I'm sure that she would talk to you." Steph wrote her number down and gave it to him. "When you're ready I think you should call her."
Shane nodded and put the number in his wallet. "Now for business. You know that we are having a meeting with Jeff right?"
Steph sighed, "Yes I know we're having a meeting with Jeff. No I haven't told Matt about it, and Matt hasn't brought it up. For all I know, Jeff hasn't told Matt about it."
"You know, I 'm at Raw a lot, and I'm really worried about him." Shane said to Steph in a concerned tone. "He's a great asset, but there's something going on."
"Do you think it's drugs?" Steph asked nervously.
"No, Jeff's a good kid. I think it's just being burned out." Shane reassured her.
"That is going to be an interesting meeting, I just hope it goes ok." Steph said in an apprehensive tone.
"I just hope that Matt handles this ok. We go back on the road the day after tomorrow for the New Year's Eve show." Shane said to Steph.
"I'm sure Matt will handle this fine." Steph said in a stressed tone. "He's very laid back and he knows what my job responsibilities are."
"True, but what if we have to let Jeff go? Since you're J.R.'s back up, you have to be present." Shane reminded her.
Steph sighed, "I know that. I'm not going to let a relationship stand in the way of my work. You know me better than that. All I know is that I hope that Jeff is an adult about the whole thing and he doesn't put Matt in the middle of anything. I just don't want him to be like, "Hey Matt, she's your girl, tell her to give me another chance and not tell Vince that I was late." Or anything like that. I guess that's my biggest concern because I don't know Jeff all that well."
"I know what you mean. I think that everything will be fine, but I just want to make sure that you've thought of those things." Shane said.
The waiter brought their lunches out to them and they ate and headed back to the office. Shane pulled into his parking spot and as they were getting out of the car Steph grabbed his hand.
"We're only in town until the day after tomorrow. And you and I both know that we will be working virtually all day and night tomorrow. I suggest that you call Becky if you're going to and shoot for tonight."
Shane nodded, "Thank you secretary. No I'm just playing, I will."
And the two headed off in their own directions.
**Ok, I know that I said that the next chapter was going to be Jeff's meeting, but I just thought of doing the next chapter as Shane and Becky's meeting, and then it'll be Jeff's chapter. I will try to get them both up today, promise! I hope no one is too angry!!! If so, just let me know. Please read and review!! Thanks!!**
Steph walked into Shane's office promptly at noon. "Hey Shane, are you ready?"
Shane got up and grabbed his jacket, "Keys."
Steph grunted and handed Shane his keys back and then smiled.
They walked out to his car and climbed in. The instant they sat down, Steph started to laugh.
"What's so funny?" Shane said fixing the seat to accommodate him.
"I was just remembering something that struck me as odd." Steph replied.
"Which is what?"
"You and Becky drive the exact same car." Steph said with a big smile.
"Yeah right." Shane said pulling out.
"No serious, a 2003 silver BMW-5. She just got hers not too long ago." Steph replied.
"Holy shit! That's something." Shane exclaimed. "So did you girls have a good time?"
Steph smiled, "Yeah we did. It was just like old times. She still lives in the same apartment that she did a few years ago. Remember when we moved her into that apartment from the dorm?" Steph asked.
Shane chuckled, "How can I forget? Talk about the move from hell. It was storming, and then it started hailing. I was wrestling at the pay-per-view the next day and I slipped coming down the ramp from the moving truck and messed up my ankle. But I didn't let that stop me. We got her moved in enough to where her stuff wasn't getting wet anymore, and by the time we arrived in town for the pay-per-view my ankle was swollen to 3 times it's normal size. Dad was so pissed, but I still went out there and brought the house down."
"Yeah, that is one that I'll never forget. I still have a scrapbook of the move on my bookshelf." Steph replied laughing. "But everything still looks the same."
"Except for the fact that I'm not on her walls anymore." Shane added. He pulled into the parking lot of the restaurant.
They didn't say anything until they were seated at a table in the back, far corner of their favorite place to go for lunch. They both ordered a glass of white wine.
Steph leaned towards him, "There's one on her wall."
Shane's eyes lit up, "There is?"
"Remember the last time we all went to the cabin together? When you, me and Becky went and sat under the willow tree and the sun was setting behind us?"
Shane smiled, "Of course I do. That was one of my favorite pictures. There's one that is Becky and I kissing under the tree with the sun setting behind us, and then there was the one of the three of us."
"Well Becky has the one of the three of us up on her wall in a beautiful black frame." Steph said to Shane. "But I can't take it anymore, what happened? What made you two break up?"
Shane sighed and ran his hands through his hair. "Steph, I was a complete asshole and that's why we broke up."
"What do you mean?" Steph asked in a concerned tone.
"Alright, Becky and I had been together for 3 years, we were destined for marriage, but I knew that I wasn't ready yet. I was just starting to get heavily involved on tv, and I was getting prepped to take over the New Media department. I went over there to surprise her with a promise ring. I knew that I wanted to marry her, but I didn't want to be rushed into it. So I show up at the apartment and she was curled up on the couch crying. I went over to her and asked her what was wrong." Shane started to explain.
"What was wrong?"
"She told me that she hadn't been feeling well, so she went to the doctor and she found out that she was pregnant." Shane finished.
"What? She was pregnant?" Steph hissed. "But the doctor's had told her."
"That if she ever got pregnant it would be a miracle." Shane said finishing her sentence. "But I panicked. I knew that I wasn't ready for a baby. I didn't know how I would tell mom and dad that I had gotten her pregnant when we weren't even married. I wound up yelling at her for not being more careful. I paced back and forth ranting and raving like a lunatic while she sat on the couch and cried. She had stood up and tried to calm me down so we could talk like adults, but I blocked her from touching me and gently pushed her back down on the couch. Not hard, but enough to where she was sitting down again. But coming from her childhood, it scared her. Then I felt bad, but she yelled at me for pushing her down and that set me off. I threw the box with the promise ring towards her and told her that I couldn't take it and I needed some time and I walked out." Shane explained.
"What happened then? I went home and that's when I stormed upstairs. I decided that I couldn't have a baby. Nope, couldn't do it. Even though I loved her more than life, I couldn't have a baby tying me down. So I called her and told her that I wasn't ready to be a father. She told me that she understood that I was scared and that I should take sometime and she would leave me alone so I could let it sink in and then we could sit down and talk rationally about it, but I was frantic. I told her that I knew for sure that I didn't want to be a father yet, I was going to be on the road and I didn't want that. I told her that if she decided to keep it, I would give her money but she couldn't tell anyone that it was mine. She started crying even harder and asked how would we do that without making it look like she cheated on me. And the first thing that I said was "because we won't be together." She asked me what about the ring, and I told her to keep it as a souvenir." Shane said to Steph. He looked like he was going to cry. "And she snapped at me that she already had a souvenir and she couldn't believe that she had ever trusted me, let alone love me. God Steph, she was crying so hard, She told me that if I didn't want to own up to it, fine and she hung up."
Steph was shocked. "Oh my god Shane, why didn't you ever tell me?"
"I was so confused and ashamed of myself. I was trying to figure things out. Then one day I got a call on my cell phone and it was Becky. I didn't pick it up. When I checked my voice mail, there was a message from her, she was crying and she told me that she lost the baby and she was sorry for bothering me. But not to bother calling her because she was going to stay with her mom for awhile and she wasn't sure when she was going to be home. I lost it. I was crying and all I wanted to do was go to her and tell her how sorry I was, but she didn't tell me where she was. So instead of doing the right thing, I did the wrong thing and went out drinking. I ran into Marissa and we drank together, then wound up spending the night together and we've been together ever since." Shane said with tears in his eyes. "I haven't seen or heard from Becky since."
Steph couldn't believe what she heard. Shane was not that type of person, and the whole things sent chills through her. "Now I know why she gets so emotional if we talk about you too much." Steph said quietly.
"I bet she never wants to see me again. Frankly I don't deserve to see her again." Shane said with sadness in his eyes.
Steph was still in shock from everything that Shane had confessed to her. She knew that it was something bad, but she didn't think that it was anything like that. "Well, I asked her a little bit about you. She told me that she thinks about you from time to time."
"Really? You know, I wish that I could at least see her once, and apologize for causing her so much pain. That's the one thing that I wish that I could do. She deserves much more than that, but that's all that I can do." Shane said to her.
The waiter came over and asked if they were ready to order. They placed their orders and he left. Steph giggled as he walked away from their table.
"What's so funny?" Shane asked.
"Everytime he went to come over here, he would look and you and I were in such a deep conversation, he purposely waited to come over. That was very courteous of him." Steph replied. "But, why don't you call her and ask her if you guys could talk? I mean, at least make the effort. It has been 4 years."
"What if she hangs up on me?" Shane asked.
"Shane, she used to tell me that the two of you were soul mates. You guys had so much in common yet you were both different. I'm sure that she would talk to you." Steph wrote her number down and gave it to him. "When you're ready I think you should call her."
Shane nodded and put the number in his wallet. "Now for business. You know that we are having a meeting with Jeff right?"
Steph sighed, "Yes I know we're having a meeting with Jeff. No I haven't told Matt about it, and Matt hasn't brought it up. For all I know, Jeff hasn't told Matt about it."
"You know, I 'm at Raw a lot, and I'm really worried about him." Shane said to Steph in a concerned tone. "He's a great asset, but there's something going on."
"Do you think it's drugs?" Steph asked nervously.
"No, Jeff's a good kid. I think it's just being burned out." Shane reassured her.
"That is going to be an interesting meeting, I just hope it goes ok." Steph said in an apprehensive tone.
"I just hope that Matt handles this ok. We go back on the road the day after tomorrow for the New Year's Eve show." Shane said to Steph.
"I'm sure Matt will handle this fine." Steph said in a stressed tone. "He's very laid back and he knows what my job responsibilities are."
"True, but what if we have to let Jeff go? Since you're J.R.'s back up, you have to be present." Shane reminded her.
Steph sighed, "I know that. I'm not going to let a relationship stand in the way of my work. You know me better than that. All I know is that I hope that Jeff is an adult about the whole thing and he doesn't put Matt in the middle of anything. I just don't want him to be like, "Hey Matt, she's your girl, tell her to give me another chance and not tell Vince that I was late." Or anything like that. I guess that's my biggest concern because I don't know Jeff all that well."
"I know what you mean. I think that everything will be fine, but I just want to make sure that you've thought of those things." Shane said.
The waiter brought their lunches out to them and they ate and headed back to the office. Shane pulled into his parking spot and as they were getting out of the car Steph grabbed his hand.
"We're only in town until the day after tomorrow. And you and I both know that we will be working virtually all day and night tomorrow. I suggest that you call Becky if you're going to and shoot for tonight."
Shane nodded, "Thank you secretary. No I'm just playing, I will."
And the two headed off in their own directions.
**Ok, I know that I said that the next chapter was going to be Jeff's meeting, but I just thought of doing the next chapter as Shane and Becky's meeting, and then it'll be Jeff's chapter. I will try to get them both up today, promise! I hope no one is too angry!!! If so, just let me know. Please read and review!! Thanks!!**