SO THE LAST CHAPTER WASN'T SUPPOSED TO HAVE A CLIFF-HANGER ENDING, BUFFY'S
JUST FRUSTRATED AND VOICING HER NEED TO KILL SPIKE BUT SHE WON'T GO THROUGH
WITH IT. (I mean who can kill someone that hot?) And oh my god James
Marsters was in my hometown last Tuesday. He was at a club and I am
soooooooo jealous a friend of a friend got to go.
VOILA ANOTHER CHAPTER.
'I love this song,' Buffy said happily to Dawn as she returned from the kitchen. Dawn was slumped on the sofa silently listening to the radio as Buffy tidied up. Dawn hadn't seen Spike in almost a week and had become more withdrawn every day.
'Where do you want this?' Buffy asked smiling showing Dawn her blue sweater. Dawn silently extended her arm to take the sweater before wrapping it around her. Buffy sighed as Dawn refused to speak. 'Come on Dawn, you have to talk to me sometime,' Buffy tried. Dawn hugged the jumper tighter looking away from Buffy. 'Dawn please,' Buffy tried one last time. 'Talk to me.'
As the chorus of the song started Dawn looked down bringing her legs up protectively willing herself not to cry.
'Dawnie what is it?' Buffy asked concerned.
'The song,' Dawn replied meekly so Buffy could barely hear.
'What about it? Buffy asked confused sitting next to Dawn on the sofa.
'Nothing,' Dawn said sadly wiping her eyes before she began to cry.
'No Dawn, what is it?' Buffy persisted concerned about her little sister. 'Is this a Spike thing?' Dawn nodded silently still not looking up. 'But I thought you hated this song.' Buffy tried to joke.
'I do,' Buffy looked at her confused. 'Our first argument was about this song,' Dawn admitted looking at her sister.
'You argued over a song?' Buffy questioned surprised.
'Actually it was about you,' Dawn whispered.
'Me,' Buffy said surprised. Dawn looked up not realising Buffy would have heard her. She nodded again not wanting to explain it all to Buffy.
'What do you mean first argument? How many fights did you have?' Buffy joked with surprise.
Dawn looked up angrily at Buffy. 'Oh,' Buffy said awkwardly before adding quietly, 'I'll shut up.' She was unable to withhold her confusion for long. 'But you guys weren't that serious,' Buffy assumed before Dawn threw her the same angry glance as before.
'How serious were you? Buffy asked concerned trying to hide her anger.
'Do you get any more serious than me being completely in love with him?' Dawn asked honestly watching her sister.
'But you didn't? Buffy enquired in disbelief unable to ask if her and Spike had slept together.
'That's none of your business,' Dawn said coldly feeling Buffy looking at her expectantly.
'Dawn tell me you didn't,' Buffy replied needing reassurance.
'Fine,' Dawn shouted standing up leaving the sweater strewn on the couch. 'I haven't had sex with Spike.' She began honestly. 'Would you rather I had then you could go and kill him?' Dawn asked sarcastically.
'Dawnie I'm just glad he didn't force you to do anything.' Buffy replied sincerely before Dawn scoffed at Buffy's answer.
'Don't worry Buffy he was the perfect gentleman,' Dawn replied angrily. 'You'd be proud of him.' She added sarcastically. 'I've fallen asleep in his arms, in his bed and he didn't even try to take advantage.' Dawn said smiling trying to shock Buffy. 'But me Buffy,' Dawn said shaking her head in mock dismay. 'I offered it to him on a plate,' Dawn revealed stepping towards her sister before continuing. 'And Buffy we nearly did.' Dawn paused waiting for a reaction.
'Twice!' She shouted at the top of her voice before running upstairs. Buffy ran after her grabbing her arm at the top of the stairs her face horrified, unable to say anything.
'What Buffy?' Dawn asked casually. 'Can't you handle your baby sister and your mortal enemy doing it?' Buffy continued to watch her sister silently not knowing how to answer.
'Buffy I'm not a little girl,' Dawn explained.
'Yes you are.' Buffy replied. 'You're a child Dawn.'
'I took Spike's hand,' Dawn continued ignoring Buffy. 'And led him up the stairs and I unbuttoned his shirt. I've seen Spike topless, I've stood in front of Spike wanting to make love to him, and do you know the only reason we didn't do it in Spike's crypt.' Dawn paused gaining satisfaction from Buffy's expression.
'Because you showed up,' she added desperately before concluding, 'you!'
'So be happy,' Dawn continued to shout walking down the landing. 'You won because if we have it your way I'm never going to see him again. So you saved your precious little sister.' Dawn added sarcastically before slamming the door in her sister's face.
'Dawn,' Buffy screamed from the other side of the door. When she didn't hear a reply she shouted again. 'Dawn get out here.' Buffy waited patiently tapping her boot on the floor. Suddenly music began to blast from the room. Buffy sighed angrily before leaving.
Dawn cautiously walked down the stairs knowing Buffy was in the kitchen. She opened the front door quietly hoping the music blasting from her room would mask any noises she was making. Dawn closed her eyes in prayer as she quietly shut the front door behind her. She ran quickly down the path and towards Spike's crypt. She wanted to hurt Buffy and knew seeing Spike was the best way. Ignoring any fear of demons she rushed through the graveyard focusing on her destination.
Reaching Spike's crypt she didn't pause to catch her breath or knock. She pushed open the door smiling immediately seeing Spike.
'Hey,' she whispered breathlessly the relief on Dawn's face obvious. Spike jumped out his chair smiling rushing over to Dawn.
'What are you doing here?' He asked brushing some hair out of her eyes. Dawn looked at him silently staring into his eyes her smile widening. Spike smiled back stroking her arms.
'Hey,' she repeated her grin plastered to her face. She lent in towards him until their lips met in a slow kiss. The kiss became more intense as Spike gripped Dawn's arm. She pulled him closer forcefully. When they finally parted Spike smiled at Dawn's still grinning face. 'I missed you,' she stated before kissing him again gluing her lips to his. She moved her hands pulling at his coat allowing it fall to the floor. Spike looked at her surprised as she quickly led him downstairs.
'Are you ok?' Spike asked suspiciously following Dawn, he couldn't tell why but she seemed different. Dawn turned back to him by the bed replying suddenly.
'Sleep with me.' Dawn waited as Spike stared at her surprised, motionless. 'Spike?' She questioned waiting for a reaction. Spike opened his mouth not knowing what to say. Dawn's face fell at his reaction. 'Don't you want to?'
'Of course,' Spike replied still confused by how Dawn was acting. Dawn smiled back pleased quickly pulling her t-shirt over her head. She frowned at Spike standing motionless, kissing him again to invoke a reaction. She pulled him towards her until they fell back onto his bed. Dawn collapsed in a fit of giggles in-between kisses.
'Dawn what's going on?' Spike asked leaning on his knees in front of Dawn.
'What do you mean?' She asked innocently nibbling his ear as she pulled his top from his jeans.
'This isn't you,' Spike said pushing her away. Dawn's face fell at his words.
'If you don't want to...' Dawn began hurt as she swung her leg over the bed trying to get up. Spike grabbed her arm stopping her. She turned back to him expectantly. 'What?' She asked impatiently.
'I do,' Spike admitted pulling her back onto the bed. Dawn smiled kissing him again.
'Good,' she replied wrapping her arms around the back of his head and pulling up his t-shirt off his back. As she tossed the shirt onto the floor she lent back onto the bed before Spike copied leaning down towards her.
'So how's your week been?' Spike joked before kissing her neck.
'Awful,' Dawn replied breathlessly running her fingers up Spike's back. 'I just had a huge row with Buffy,' Dawn said falling silent as Spike kissed her collarbone. 'Shutting up,' she whispered breathlessly.
'Good,' Spike whispered in her ear. She smiled pulling his face towards hers in a kiss. 'Unless you want to talk about it?' Spike asked pulling away. Dawn shook her head smiling pulling him towards her in another kiss.
'Let's just prove her wrong,' Dawn said kissing him again. Spike froze pulling out of the kiss. He tipped his head to the side in confusion. Dawn sat up surprised by his reluctance. 'What?'
'Why are you here Dawn?' Spike asked sadly.
'To see you,' Dawn replied smiling happily.
'No you're not,' Spike explained solemnly climbing off the bed.
'Where are you going?' Dawn asked getting off the bed in surprise. 'Spike,' she asked again grabbing his arm.
'Dawn you shouldn't be here,' Spike said avoiding looking at her.
'Why?' Dawn said confused watching him put his t-shirt back on. 'Spike I don't understand. Don't you want to?' Dawn said hurt. Spike turned back to her resting his forehead against hers and closing his eyes.
'More than anything,' he whispered sadly, 'but I don't want you to regret it.' Dawn pulled away her eyes showing her confusion.
'I wouldn't,' she said shaking her head.
'You're here because of Buffy,' Spike explained. 'You came here to annoy Buffy, because Buffy doesn't want you here.'
'What are you saying Spike?' Dawn replied angrily picking up her shirt. 'So you think this has nothing to do with you?' Dawn questioned pointing at the bed.
'Dawn,' Spike tried touching her arm. She flinched away from him turning her back to put her t-shirt back on.
'Of course I don't understand,' Dawn said angrily turning back to him pulling her hair out from her t-shirt. 'I'm just a kid, I'm too young to know anything.' Dawn shouted pushing him back.
'That's not what I'm saying,' Spike tried.
'Of course it is,' Dawn shot back. 'I'm only sixteen, what would I know about what I do.' She added sarcastically. 'I'm just a child, irrational, stupid, no idea what I want.'
'No,' Spike said angrily. 'Dawn you're not here because of me. You're here to get back at Buffy.' Spike shouted kicking the wall.
'Do you think I'd...?' Dawn asked before Spike cut her off.
'You just don't realise what your doing.' Spike said shaking his head.
'I guess I'm just too immature,' Dawn replied sadly. When Spike didn't reply Dawn continued. 'God you're just like Buffy.' Dawn paused for a moment looking at him sadly. 'Look Spike when you decide I'm old enough let me know ok,' Dawn shouted before going upstairs.
'If you could see yourself Dawn,' Spike said following her upstairs. Dawn turned back to him trying to hide how hurt she was.
'Just a kid right?' Dawn asked. 'Look in a mirror yourself Spike.' Dawn shot back. 'Oh no wait you can't,' she added cruelly. 'You're the one who needs to grow up. Just, when you have I might have moved on.' Dawn turned walking to the door of the crypt. 'Don't bother me walking home.' Spike sighed before following anyway.
'I'm not going to let you get hurt Dawn.' Spike shouted running to catch up with her.
'Too late Spike,' Dawn replied refusing to look at him.
'Dawn what is the matter with you?' Spike said grabbing her arm and spinning her to face him. His face fell when he saw the tears on her cheeks.
'I thought my age didn't matter to you.'
'It doesn't,' Spike insisted quickly. 'Why do you keep going on about your age?'
'I'm sick of people treating me like an idiot just because I'm younger.'
'This is about Buffy, you had an argument with Buffy before you came.' Spike said realising. 'Would you still have come if you two were still talking?'
'Spike we've done nothing but argue and sit in silence for a week now. Everyone tiptoeing around me trying to act normal while still punishing me for something they don't even want to think about. I'm bored of eating in silence, being ignored and crying myself to sleep. I thought with you it would be different but you're just the same.'
'Dawn,' Spike tried desperately embracing her in a hug. Dawn closed her eyes hugging him back.
'No,' Dawn said suddenly pushing away. 'That isn't going to fix us. We can't hug and make everything ok again.'
'Why not?' Spike shouted making Dawn jump.
'Because it won't solve anything,' she shouted back desperately surprised by the volume of her own voice. 'I'll still be younger, it'll still be the same at home and we'll still be apart.' Dawn finished sadly.
'I can't help it if I can't see you.' Spike replied angrily.
'I've spent a whole week blaming Buffy Spike. I need to blame you.' Dawn said sadly. 'You kissed me, you kept coming over and you made me fall in love with you.'
'It wasn't supposed to be like this,' Dawn whispered. 'I spent a whole week planning how perfect everything was going to be when I saw you again. But we screwed it up.' Dawn said turning away.
'Do you think I didn't think about you once in this last week?'
'It's been easy for you,' Dawn said beginning to walk again. 'You've just sat alone all week. I've had Buffy going on at me all the time. I had to sit while Buffy told all the others and I pleaded with them not to kill you. I've had to go to school like everything's normal. You've made me hate my sister Spike.' Dawn finished breathlessly stopping suddenly looking down at the floor.
'Niblet,' Spike tried.
'Don't,' Dawn said holding up her hand to stop him moving closer towards him. 'What if we're not worth it?' Dawn whispered not wanting to voice her concern.
'We are,' Spike whispered resting his head on the side of her face. 'I love you,' he whispered trying to reassure her.
'I've got to go,' Dawn said distantly pulling away. Spike noticed she didn't look at him. 'Good bye Spike,' she said quietly walking back needing time to think.
I REMEMBER SOMEONE WANTING DAWN TO DIE, NOW EVERYONE WANTS BUFFY TO DIE. THE RAGE OUT THERE IS FRANKLY A LITTLE (I want to say scary but) FUNNY. SO I'M VOICING EVERYONE'S ANGER THROUGH ARGUMENTS WITH THE CHARACTERS AS I'M THE ONLY ONE WHO CAN CONTROL THEM, the power! Cackles
I know it's been a while but my phone line cut out on Thursday and only reconnected today (Monday) 4 whole days without the Internet has been hell! But now I'm back with another chapter.
Lexinator: you can threat all you want, rant even if you wish. I actually had a friend who threw a desk once. He was pissed with the teacher, I think he'd been given a detention (but at that age we gave a damn about being in trouble) and he stood in front of the teacher's desk lifting up one side and slamming it against the floor repeatedly. It was one of the funniest things I have ever seen! So throw away but be careful you don't strain your arm.
Lilylioness: embrace the rage, go with it, and throw a desk if you wish but right now Buffy is going nowhere.
Stargurl727: of course Dawn was going to sneak out and see Spike; Buffy can't stop them, she can try but she won't.
Spearsister: thanks for your continued reviews. I hope I'm keeping the personalities of the character right and thanks for your reassurance. I've said before, I relate to Dawn better so find her easier to write her. Or I'm a really good writer you guys choose. Ok I don't completely relate to Dawn as my sister isn't a slayer, she's younger and more annoying than me and I'm not dating a vampire.
VOILA ANOTHER CHAPTER.
'I love this song,' Buffy said happily to Dawn as she returned from the kitchen. Dawn was slumped on the sofa silently listening to the radio as Buffy tidied up. Dawn hadn't seen Spike in almost a week and had become more withdrawn every day.
'Where do you want this?' Buffy asked smiling showing Dawn her blue sweater. Dawn silently extended her arm to take the sweater before wrapping it around her. Buffy sighed as Dawn refused to speak. 'Come on Dawn, you have to talk to me sometime,' Buffy tried. Dawn hugged the jumper tighter looking away from Buffy. 'Dawn please,' Buffy tried one last time. 'Talk to me.'
As the chorus of the song started Dawn looked down bringing her legs up protectively willing herself not to cry.
'Dawnie what is it?' Buffy asked concerned.
'The song,' Dawn replied meekly so Buffy could barely hear.
'What about it? Buffy asked confused sitting next to Dawn on the sofa.
'Nothing,' Dawn said sadly wiping her eyes before she began to cry.
'No Dawn, what is it?' Buffy persisted concerned about her little sister. 'Is this a Spike thing?' Dawn nodded silently still not looking up. 'But I thought you hated this song.' Buffy tried to joke.
'I do,' Buffy looked at her confused. 'Our first argument was about this song,' Dawn admitted looking at her sister.
'You argued over a song?' Buffy questioned surprised.
'Actually it was about you,' Dawn whispered.
'Me,' Buffy said surprised. Dawn looked up not realising Buffy would have heard her. She nodded again not wanting to explain it all to Buffy.
'What do you mean first argument? How many fights did you have?' Buffy joked with surprise.
Dawn looked up angrily at Buffy. 'Oh,' Buffy said awkwardly before adding quietly, 'I'll shut up.' She was unable to withhold her confusion for long. 'But you guys weren't that serious,' Buffy assumed before Dawn threw her the same angry glance as before.
'How serious were you? Buffy asked concerned trying to hide her anger.
'Do you get any more serious than me being completely in love with him?' Dawn asked honestly watching her sister.
'But you didn't? Buffy enquired in disbelief unable to ask if her and Spike had slept together.
'That's none of your business,' Dawn said coldly feeling Buffy looking at her expectantly.
'Dawn tell me you didn't,' Buffy replied needing reassurance.
'Fine,' Dawn shouted standing up leaving the sweater strewn on the couch. 'I haven't had sex with Spike.' She began honestly. 'Would you rather I had then you could go and kill him?' Dawn asked sarcastically.
'Dawnie I'm just glad he didn't force you to do anything.' Buffy replied sincerely before Dawn scoffed at Buffy's answer.
'Don't worry Buffy he was the perfect gentleman,' Dawn replied angrily. 'You'd be proud of him.' She added sarcastically. 'I've fallen asleep in his arms, in his bed and he didn't even try to take advantage.' Dawn said smiling trying to shock Buffy. 'But me Buffy,' Dawn said shaking her head in mock dismay. 'I offered it to him on a plate,' Dawn revealed stepping towards her sister before continuing. 'And Buffy we nearly did.' Dawn paused waiting for a reaction.
'Twice!' She shouted at the top of her voice before running upstairs. Buffy ran after her grabbing her arm at the top of the stairs her face horrified, unable to say anything.
'What Buffy?' Dawn asked casually. 'Can't you handle your baby sister and your mortal enemy doing it?' Buffy continued to watch her sister silently not knowing how to answer.
'Buffy I'm not a little girl,' Dawn explained.
'Yes you are.' Buffy replied. 'You're a child Dawn.'
'I took Spike's hand,' Dawn continued ignoring Buffy. 'And led him up the stairs and I unbuttoned his shirt. I've seen Spike topless, I've stood in front of Spike wanting to make love to him, and do you know the only reason we didn't do it in Spike's crypt.' Dawn paused gaining satisfaction from Buffy's expression.
'Because you showed up,' she added desperately before concluding, 'you!'
'So be happy,' Dawn continued to shout walking down the landing. 'You won because if we have it your way I'm never going to see him again. So you saved your precious little sister.' Dawn added sarcastically before slamming the door in her sister's face.
'Dawn,' Buffy screamed from the other side of the door. When she didn't hear a reply she shouted again. 'Dawn get out here.' Buffy waited patiently tapping her boot on the floor. Suddenly music began to blast from the room. Buffy sighed angrily before leaving.
Dawn cautiously walked down the stairs knowing Buffy was in the kitchen. She opened the front door quietly hoping the music blasting from her room would mask any noises she was making. Dawn closed her eyes in prayer as she quietly shut the front door behind her. She ran quickly down the path and towards Spike's crypt. She wanted to hurt Buffy and knew seeing Spike was the best way. Ignoring any fear of demons she rushed through the graveyard focusing on her destination.
Reaching Spike's crypt she didn't pause to catch her breath or knock. She pushed open the door smiling immediately seeing Spike.
'Hey,' she whispered breathlessly the relief on Dawn's face obvious. Spike jumped out his chair smiling rushing over to Dawn.
'What are you doing here?' He asked brushing some hair out of her eyes. Dawn looked at him silently staring into his eyes her smile widening. Spike smiled back stroking her arms.
'Hey,' she repeated her grin plastered to her face. She lent in towards him until their lips met in a slow kiss. The kiss became more intense as Spike gripped Dawn's arm. She pulled him closer forcefully. When they finally parted Spike smiled at Dawn's still grinning face. 'I missed you,' she stated before kissing him again gluing her lips to his. She moved her hands pulling at his coat allowing it fall to the floor. Spike looked at her surprised as she quickly led him downstairs.
'Are you ok?' Spike asked suspiciously following Dawn, he couldn't tell why but she seemed different. Dawn turned back to him by the bed replying suddenly.
'Sleep with me.' Dawn waited as Spike stared at her surprised, motionless. 'Spike?' She questioned waiting for a reaction. Spike opened his mouth not knowing what to say. Dawn's face fell at his reaction. 'Don't you want to?'
'Of course,' Spike replied still confused by how Dawn was acting. Dawn smiled back pleased quickly pulling her t-shirt over her head. She frowned at Spike standing motionless, kissing him again to invoke a reaction. She pulled him towards her until they fell back onto his bed. Dawn collapsed in a fit of giggles in-between kisses.
'Dawn what's going on?' Spike asked leaning on his knees in front of Dawn.
'What do you mean?' She asked innocently nibbling his ear as she pulled his top from his jeans.
'This isn't you,' Spike said pushing her away. Dawn's face fell at his words.
'If you don't want to...' Dawn began hurt as she swung her leg over the bed trying to get up. Spike grabbed her arm stopping her. She turned back to him expectantly. 'What?' She asked impatiently.
'I do,' Spike admitted pulling her back onto the bed. Dawn smiled kissing him again.
'Good,' she replied wrapping her arms around the back of his head and pulling up his t-shirt off his back. As she tossed the shirt onto the floor she lent back onto the bed before Spike copied leaning down towards her.
'So how's your week been?' Spike joked before kissing her neck.
'Awful,' Dawn replied breathlessly running her fingers up Spike's back. 'I just had a huge row with Buffy,' Dawn said falling silent as Spike kissed her collarbone. 'Shutting up,' she whispered breathlessly.
'Good,' Spike whispered in her ear. She smiled pulling his face towards hers in a kiss. 'Unless you want to talk about it?' Spike asked pulling away. Dawn shook her head smiling pulling him towards her in another kiss.
'Let's just prove her wrong,' Dawn said kissing him again. Spike froze pulling out of the kiss. He tipped his head to the side in confusion. Dawn sat up surprised by his reluctance. 'What?'
'Why are you here Dawn?' Spike asked sadly.
'To see you,' Dawn replied smiling happily.
'No you're not,' Spike explained solemnly climbing off the bed.
'Where are you going?' Dawn asked getting off the bed in surprise. 'Spike,' she asked again grabbing his arm.
'Dawn you shouldn't be here,' Spike said avoiding looking at her.
'Why?' Dawn said confused watching him put his t-shirt back on. 'Spike I don't understand. Don't you want to?' Dawn said hurt. Spike turned back to her resting his forehead against hers and closing his eyes.
'More than anything,' he whispered sadly, 'but I don't want you to regret it.' Dawn pulled away her eyes showing her confusion.
'I wouldn't,' she said shaking her head.
'You're here because of Buffy,' Spike explained. 'You came here to annoy Buffy, because Buffy doesn't want you here.'
'What are you saying Spike?' Dawn replied angrily picking up her shirt. 'So you think this has nothing to do with you?' Dawn questioned pointing at the bed.
'Dawn,' Spike tried touching her arm. She flinched away from him turning her back to put her t-shirt back on.
'Of course I don't understand,' Dawn said angrily turning back to him pulling her hair out from her t-shirt. 'I'm just a kid, I'm too young to know anything.' Dawn shouted pushing him back.
'That's not what I'm saying,' Spike tried.
'Of course it is,' Dawn shot back. 'I'm only sixteen, what would I know about what I do.' She added sarcastically. 'I'm just a child, irrational, stupid, no idea what I want.'
'No,' Spike said angrily. 'Dawn you're not here because of me. You're here to get back at Buffy.' Spike shouted kicking the wall.
'Do you think I'd...?' Dawn asked before Spike cut her off.
'You just don't realise what your doing.' Spike said shaking his head.
'I guess I'm just too immature,' Dawn replied sadly. When Spike didn't reply Dawn continued. 'God you're just like Buffy.' Dawn paused for a moment looking at him sadly. 'Look Spike when you decide I'm old enough let me know ok,' Dawn shouted before going upstairs.
'If you could see yourself Dawn,' Spike said following her upstairs. Dawn turned back to him trying to hide how hurt she was.
'Just a kid right?' Dawn asked. 'Look in a mirror yourself Spike.' Dawn shot back. 'Oh no wait you can't,' she added cruelly. 'You're the one who needs to grow up. Just, when you have I might have moved on.' Dawn turned walking to the door of the crypt. 'Don't bother me walking home.' Spike sighed before following anyway.
'I'm not going to let you get hurt Dawn.' Spike shouted running to catch up with her.
'Too late Spike,' Dawn replied refusing to look at him.
'Dawn what is the matter with you?' Spike said grabbing her arm and spinning her to face him. His face fell when he saw the tears on her cheeks.
'I thought my age didn't matter to you.'
'It doesn't,' Spike insisted quickly. 'Why do you keep going on about your age?'
'I'm sick of people treating me like an idiot just because I'm younger.'
'This is about Buffy, you had an argument with Buffy before you came.' Spike said realising. 'Would you still have come if you two were still talking?'
'Spike we've done nothing but argue and sit in silence for a week now. Everyone tiptoeing around me trying to act normal while still punishing me for something they don't even want to think about. I'm bored of eating in silence, being ignored and crying myself to sleep. I thought with you it would be different but you're just the same.'
'Dawn,' Spike tried desperately embracing her in a hug. Dawn closed her eyes hugging him back.
'No,' Dawn said suddenly pushing away. 'That isn't going to fix us. We can't hug and make everything ok again.'
'Why not?' Spike shouted making Dawn jump.
'Because it won't solve anything,' she shouted back desperately surprised by the volume of her own voice. 'I'll still be younger, it'll still be the same at home and we'll still be apart.' Dawn finished sadly.
'I can't help it if I can't see you.' Spike replied angrily.
'I've spent a whole week blaming Buffy Spike. I need to blame you.' Dawn said sadly. 'You kissed me, you kept coming over and you made me fall in love with you.'
'It wasn't supposed to be like this,' Dawn whispered. 'I spent a whole week planning how perfect everything was going to be when I saw you again. But we screwed it up.' Dawn said turning away.
'Do you think I didn't think about you once in this last week?'
'It's been easy for you,' Dawn said beginning to walk again. 'You've just sat alone all week. I've had Buffy going on at me all the time. I had to sit while Buffy told all the others and I pleaded with them not to kill you. I've had to go to school like everything's normal. You've made me hate my sister Spike.' Dawn finished breathlessly stopping suddenly looking down at the floor.
'Niblet,' Spike tried.
'Don't,' Dawn said holding up her hand to stop him moving closer towards him. 'What if we're not worth it?' Dawn whispered not wanting to voice her concern.
'We are,' Spike whispered resting his head on the side of her face. 'I love you,' he whispered trying to reassure her.
'I've got to go,' Dawn said distantly pulling away. Spike noticed she didn't look at him. 'Good bye Spike,' she said quietly walking back needing time to think.
I REMEMBER SOMEONE WANTING DAWN TO DIE, NOW EVERYONE WANTS BUFFY TO DIE. THE RAGE OUT THERE IS FRANKLY A LITTLE (I want to say scary but) FUNNY. SO I'M VOICING EVERYONE'S ANGER THROUGH ARGUMENTS WITH THE CHARACTERS AS I'M THE ONLY ONE WHO CAN CONTROL THEM, the power! Cackles
I know it's been a while but my phone line cut out on Thursday and only reconnected today (Monday) 4 whole days without the Internet has been hell! But now I'm back with another chapter.
Lexinator: you can threat all you want, rant even if you wish. I actually had a friend who threw a desk once. He was pissed with the teacher, I think he'd been given a detention (but at that age we gave a damn about being in trouble) and he stood in front of the teacher's desk lifting up one side and slamming it against the floor repeatedly. It was one of the funniest things I have ever seen! So throw away but be careful you don't strain your arm.
Lilylioness: embrace the rage, go with it, and throw a desk if you wish but right now Buffy is going nowhere.
Stargurl727: of course Dawn was going to sneak out and see Spike; Buffy can't stop them, she can try but she won't.
Spearsister: thanks for your continued reviews. I hope I'm keeping the personalities of the character right and thanks for your reassurance. I've said before, I relate to Dawn better so find her easier to write her. Or I'm a really good writer you guys choose. Ok I don't completely relate to Dawn as my sister isn't a slayer, she's younger and more annoying than me and I'm not dating a vampire.