October 18th:
Here I am, back in NYC. I really enjoyed my visit to Stoneybrook, but I am glad to be back. Except for schoolwork-yuck. Today I don't mind though because I have my sociology class and there is the CUTEST guy in that class. His name is Chris. I know, I know- I have a boyfriend. And I love Sam, I really do, I just need to have some eye-candy, that's all. I've only talked to him a few times, mostly about school assignments, but he seems really sweet. What the hell am I saying? I HAVE A BOYFRIEND! I can't have any eye candy!!! Well anyway, checked my email- one from mom. As much as I miss mom, I think my being away makes me appreciate her mom and keeps our relationship fresh. Oh well, it's late and I have nothing good to say, so I'm going to sleep.
October 21st:
PEOPLE. Sigh. It really sucks that you can't trust them. Now growing up here in the city, I was taught early on not to trust strangers- don't talk to them, don't look at them funny and definitely don't leave anything of value in public sight…but today I learned another lesson in the degree of how untrustworthy the general population is. No- I take that back, it's not even just the general population. Right here at NYU you can't even trust people. Today I was at a meeting of a service club I've recently joined, one where we do things to help the community. Well, I leave the room to get a drink, and I left my backpack sitting on the table. Well after I leave I open my wallet to get some coffee and ALL MY MONEY IS GONE! I mean, hell, you think you'd be able to trust the members of a community service club, right? WRONG! So much for good, upstanding citizens. So now I have a small teeny purse with my keys, my wallet and my insulin shots (whenever I carry them) and I don't let take this purse off of my body until I get home. You know, it really sucks that people constantly have to live in fear and be this careful, but what else can we do?
October 23rd:
Food. Have I mentioned that I hate food? As a diabetic, I must say that one thing I can live without (figuratively, of course), is food. I can't even enjoy my meals, because I always have to worry about how much sugar, how much fat they have in them. Nor can I eat at whatever time I find convinent for me- I have to eat at regular times. Really takes away the fun of enjoying a meal. How can anyone blame me for sneaking a Hershey bar here, and a Little Debbie snack cake there? Carrot sticks and Triscuts for snacks certainly get old. Losing weight as a diabetic is another problem. In fact, since I've started at NYU I've already GAINED five pounds. Forget trying to lose those five, because whenever I try and cut back on my meals, or excersize more vigorously, I end up having an insulin reaction which I must treat with- you guessed it- more food. SIGH. I suppose everyone must havesome shitty parts to their life, but being Diabetic in a country that's obessed with (sugary, fatty, greasy) food certainly does not make the situation any easier.
October 27th:
Wow. I just had the most amazing day! You know, one of the coolest parts about college, regardless of where you go, is the people you meet. I have met some really diverse, fun, interesting people here at NYU, in the few months that I've been here. I've meet people from so many different walks of life, and each one of them has taught me something special. Well today I met Phil. Phil is originally from Long Island. His family obviously has money. Well Phil is a sophomore who transferred here from another university because, get this, he was in rehab for a drug addiction. That was two years ago. Now he's here, and he is my math class and WHOA IS HE SMART!! He says he graduated second in his high school class. He also is an accomplished musician, and he was a competitive runner and swimmer. Phil is also very religious- he works actively with a Christian church in the area. I really admire that. I wasn't raised religious (my mom was Catholic and my dad was Protestant), however I think it's really cool the way that Phil has turned his life around. Phil also used to suffer from depression (part of what caused him to start using drugs), but with a combination of medication and therapy, he know has such a great outlook on life. I just really admire Phil and all that he has done. He makes me question my character, but in a good way- like how I can improve what I am doing, and help myself to have a better outlook on life.
October 31st:
Halloween. Must I say that this is not my favorite holiday??? I guess I'm lucky that I was older when I got sick, because I know a girl who was diagnosed at the age of seven, and she really missed out on her childhood. At least her in NYC we only get kids from our building, and it's fun seeing them in their cute costumes because I know them. But all the candy floating around really stinks. Not much else to say. Dad and Samantha dressed Rachael up as a little bee… she looks so cute!!! I'm going to go take her trick or treating down the hall now. More later.
Here I am, back in NYC. I really enjoyed my visit to Stoneybrook, but I am glad to be back. Except for schoolwork-yuck. Today I don't mind though because I have my sociology class and there is the CUTEST guy in that class. His name is Chris. I know, I know- I have a boyfriend. And I love Sam, I really do, I just need to have some eye-candy, that's all. I've only talked to him a few times, mostly about school assignments, but he seems really sweet. What the hell am I saying? I HAVE A BOYFRIEND! I can't have any eye candy!!! Well anyway, checked my email- one from mom. As much as I miss mom, I think my being away makes me appreciate her mom and keeps our relationship fresh. Oh well, it's late and I have nothing good to say, so I'm going to sleep.
October 21st:
PEOPLE. Sigh. It really sucks that you can't trust them. Now growing up here in the city, I was taught early on not to trust strangers- don't talk to them, don't look at them funny and definitely don't leave anything of value in public sight…but today I learned another lesson in the degree of how untrustworthy the general population is. No- I take that back, it's not even just the general population. Right here at NYU you can't even trust people. Today I was at a meeting of a service club I've recently joined, one where we do things to help the community. Well, I leave the room to get a drink, and I left my backpack sitting on the table. Well after I leave I open my wallet to get some coffee and ALL MY MONEY IS GONE! I mean, hell, you think you'd be able to trust the members of a community service club, right? WRONG! So much for good, upstanding citizens. So now I have a small teeny purse with my keys, my wallet and my insulin shots (whenever I carry them) and I don't let take this purse off of my body until I get home. You know, it really sucks that people constantly have to live in fear and be this careful, but what else can we do?
October 23rd:
Food. Have I mentioned that I hate food? As a diabetic, I must say that one thing I can live without (figuratively, of course), is food. I can't even enjoy my meals, because I always have to worry about how much sugar, how much fat they have in them. Nor can I eat at whatever time I find convinent for me- I have to eat at regular times. Really takes away the fun of enjoying a meal. How can anyone blame me for sneaking a Hershey bar here, and a Little Debbie snack cake there? Carrot sticks and Triscuts for snacks certainly get old. Losing weight as a diabetic is another problem. In fact, since I've started at NYU I've already GAINED five pounds. Forget trying to lose those five, because whenever I try and cut back on my meals, or excersize more vigorously, I end up having an insulin reaction which I must treat with- you guessed it- more food. SIGH. I suppose everyone must havesome shitty parts to their life, but being Diabetic in a country that's obessed with (sugary, fatty, greasy) food certainly does not make the situation any easier.
October 27th:
Wow. I just had the most amazing day! You know, one of the coolest parts about college, regardless of where you go, is the people you meet. I have met some really diverse, fun, interesting people here at NYU, in the few months that I've been here. I've meet people from so many different walks of life, and each one of them has taught me something special. Well today I met Phil. Phil is originally from Long Island. His family obviously has money. Well Phil is a sophomore who transferred here from another university because, get this, he was in rehab for a drug addiction. That was two years ago. Now he's here, and he is my math class and WHOA IS HE SMART!! He says he graduated second in his high school class. He also is an accomplished musician, and he was a competitive runner and swimmer. Phil is also very religious- he works actively with a Christian church in the area. I really admire that. I wasn't raised religious (my mom was Catholic and my dad was Protestant), however I think it's really cool the way that Phil has turned his life around. Phil also used to suffer from depression (part of what caused him to start using drugs), but with a combination of medication and therapy, he know has such a great outlook on life. I just really admire Phil and all that he has done. He makes me question my character, but in a good way- like how I can improve what I am doing, and help myself to have a better outlook on life.
October 31st:
Halloween. Must I say that this is not my favorite holiday??? I guess I'm lucky that I was older when I got sick, because I know a girl who was diagnosed at the age of seven, and she really missed out on her childhood. At least her in NYC we only get kids from our building, and it's fun seeing them in their cute costumes because I know them. But all the candy floating around really stinks. Not much else to say. Dad and Samantha dressed Rachael up as a little bee… she looks so cute!!! I'm going to go take her trick or treating down the hall now. More later.