February 1st:
Saturday
Okay, I've given Sam two days to cool off, and so I called him. He didn't sound mad at me, but he wasn't exactly all friendly either. So I asked him what was up. He got kind of crabby and said "nothing". Eventually he did apologize for kicking me out on Friday, but the whole conversation was very awkward. So I called Kristy, and asked her what was up with her brother. She said she didn't know either, but he's been acting weird around her family too. The whole situation is just. odd. I wish he'd tell me what's bugging him. Maybe it's me. I mean, we have been going out for almost three years, not counting the on/off thing we before that. I must admit sometimes I get a little bored in the relationship, and I wonder if there is someone else meant for me. But over all, I love Sam and would never want to end it out of boredom. But if that IS the case, why doesn't he just tell me. MEN. Oh well, I have a major paper to write, so I better get going. More later.
February 2nd: Sunday
Groundhog Day! Puxatonnie Phil did see his shadow. and he got scared and ran back in his hole. I think that means 6 more weeks of winter. Darn, I'm really sick of winter. I think the whole groundhog thing is stupid. I mean, if the damn thing is scared of his shadow, how reliable can he be? So I turned in a major psychology paper today. A research paper on clinical depression. Depression is actually pretty common in people with diabetes, but they aren't sure why. I guess I'm lucky I've made it this far without becoming majorly depressed. Now I have to do a power point presentation on it. I'm pretty good at power point, so that will help. The better the show, the better the grade, right? Oh yeah, I heard from Claudia today. She's doing really well in art school. she actually really loves her art history class. Imagine Claudia loving any kind of history! But she says that it makes sense to her, which is great. She's still seeing that guy, Brett. They're actually getting pretty close. Claud told me they had sex for the first time together a few weeks ago. Not that Claud's a virgin (not even close), but she said it was extra special with Brett. I think she's in L-U- V. Hee hee, I used to say that back in 8th grade. Oh my gosh, I gotta go! I'm supposed to meet my econ group at the library to work on a project!
February 5th: Wednesday
Yesterday sucked. It all started off bad, when I missed my bus after getting off the subway had to wait 20 minutes for the next one and was almost late for my first class. That wasn't the worst though. On my lunch break, I spotted Sam and two his friends, Lisa and Amanda. Not that I care if Sam has female friends, I'm not the jealous type. But one particular group of friends (the group that Lisa and Amanda are from) really gets on my nerves. They're loud and obnoxious, they drink a lot, and I know some of them smoke pot and stuff. I just don't like the effect they have on Sam when they're around. They turn them into someone he's not. Sam knows them from his freshman year (they're his age) and he used to be a lot more like them- smoking and drinking quite a lot. But he realized that wasn't his thing and he gave a lot of it up. But when he's with these friends, he sort of reverts back to that old Sam. Anyway, I saw the three of them out in the courtyard, and Lisa and Amanda where smoking, and next thing I knew, Lisa was giving him a light. I don't think Sam saw me from where he was standing, but he hasn't called me all day. I just really don't know what's going on with him. Last ,when I got home, there was a note saying my pm yoga class was cancelled. Great. and on the one day I could really use it. I guess everyone has those days, huh? Man do they suck.
February 10th:
Sunday
Heard from Laine today. She called me around 1pm. I was like, what is Laine calling me at 1pm on a Sunday for? And all the way from Chicago. But it turns out Laine wasn't calling from Chicago. She's right here in New York. Turns out, Laine didn't do so well at Northwestern last semester. She lost a few of her scholarships because, as she put it, "I sat around my dorm smoking pot every day," and so she had to leave the school. Her parents weren't all too happy with that, in fact, they kicked Laine out of the apartment. So now Laine is living with her boyfriend, "Bud", while she works at a beauty shop in SoHo giving Henna tattoos. She's like "Oh Stace, come down to the parlor. I'll tattoo you and we can chat." I wish I had the time! Laine says she's thinking about heading to school to become a masseuse, but she isn't sure. Well, Laine was never one to the follow the crowd. But I wish she did it in ways they weren't so harmful to herself. I mean, she's pretty heavy into drugs: pot, LSD, PCP, ecstacy. the whole bit. I actually feel kinda sorry for her.
February 14th (9:00 am)
Thursday
Valentine's Day. Normally, one of my favorite holidays. But with things being so weird with Sam, I'm not so sure. He called me this morning to say happy v-day and to confirm our plans for dinner tonight. I think I'll wear something simple- black dress, black heels, and pearls. I don't really feel like being to creative. I didn't even really know what to get Sam for v- day. So I got him a gift certificate to his favorite coffee house. Good enough. We'll see how things go tonight. I think things have really improved with us, although still not to the point of "normal". I never did mention that I saw him with Amanda and Lisa, but he apologized for acting so weirdly, and he has been paying a lot more attention to me. In fact, he had red roses (12 of em) delivered to my door at around 6 am with a card that said, "Happy Valentine's Day, baby". That's more like the old Sam I know. Hopefully, tonight will make everything right.
February 14th (11:30pm)
Thursday
Sam and I broke up.
Saturday
Okay, I've given Sam two days to cool off, and so I called him. He didn't sound mad at me, but he wasn't exactly all friendly either. So I asked him what was up. He got kind of crabby and said "nothing". Eventually he did apologize for kicking me out on Friday, but the whole conversation was very awkward. So I called Kristy, and asked her what was up with her brother. She said she didn't know either, but he's been acting weird around her family too. The whole situation is just. odd. I wish he'd tell me what's bugging him. Maybe it's me. I mean, we have been going out for almost three years, not counting the on/off thing we before that. I must admit sometimes I get a little bored in the relationship, and I wonder if there is someone else meant for me. But over all, I love Sam and would never want to end it out of boredom. But if that IS the case, why doesn't he just tell me. MEN. Oh well, I have a major paper to write, so I better get going. More later.
February 2nd: Sunday
Groundhog Day! Puxatonnie Phil did see his shadow. and he got scared and ran back in his hole. I think that means 6 more weeks of winter. Darn, I'm really sick of winter. I think the whole groundhog thing is stupid. I mean, if the damn thing is scared of his shadow, how reliable can he be? So I turned in a major psychology paper today. A research paper on clinical depression. Depression is actually pretty common in people with diabetes, but they aren't sure why. I guess I'm lucky I've made it this far without becoming majorly depressed. Now I have to do a power point presentation on it. I'm pretty good at power point, so that will help. The better the show, the better the grade, right? Oh yeah, I heard from Claudia today. She's doing really well in art school. she actually really loves her art history class. Imagine Claudia loving any kind of history! But she says that it makes sense to her, which is great. She's still seeing that guy, Brett. They're actually getting pretty close. Claud told me they had sex for the first time together a few weeks ago. Not that Claud's a virgin (not even close), but she said it was extra special with Brett. I think she's in L-U- V. Hee hee, I used to say that back in 8th grade. Oh my gosh, I gotta go! I'm supposed to meet my econ group at the library to work on a project!
February 5th: Wednesday
Yesterday sucked. It all started off bad, when I missed my bus after getting off the subway had to wait 20 minutes for the next one and was almost late for my first class. That wasn't the worst though. On my lunch break, I spotted Sam and two his friends, Lisa and Amanda. Not that I care if Sam has female friends, I'm not the jealous type. But one particular group of friends (the group that Lisa and Amanda are from) really gets on my nerves. They're loud and obnoxious, they drink a lot, and I know some of them smoke pot and stuff. I just don't like the effect they have on Sam when they're around. They turn them into someone he's not. Sam knows them from his freshman year (they're his age) and he used to be a lot more like them- smoking and drinking quite a lot. But he realized that wasn't his thing and he gave a lot of it up. But when he's with these friends, he sort of reverts back to that old Sam. Anyway, I saw the three of them out in the courtyard, and Lisa and Amanda where smoking, and next thing I knew, Lisa was giving him a light. I don't think Sam saw me from where he was standing, but he hasn't called me all day. I just really don't know what's going on with him. Last ,when I got home, there was a note saying my pm yoga class was cancelled. Great. and on the one day I could really use it. I guess everyone has those days, huh? Man do they suck.
February 10th:
Sunday
Heard from Laine today. She called me around 1pm. I was like, what is Laine calling me at 1pm on a Sunday for? And all the way from Chicago. But it turns out Laine wasn't calling from Chicago. She's right here in New York. Turns out, Laine didn't do so well at Northwestern last semester. She lost a few of her scholarships because, as she put it, "I sat around my dorm smoking pot every day," and so she had to leave the school. Her parents weren't all too happy with that, in fact, they kicked Laine out of the apartment. So now Laine is living with her boyfriend, "Bud", while she works at a beauty shop in SoHo giving Henna tattoos. She's like "Oh Stace, come down to the parlor. I'll tattoo you and we can chat." I wish I had the time! Laine says she's thinking about heading to school to become a masseuse, but she isn't sure. Well, Laine was never one to the follow the crowd. But I wish she did it in ways they weren't so harmful to herself. I mean, she's pretty heavy into drugs: pot, LSD, PCP, ecstacy. the whole bit. I actually feel kinda sorry for her.
February 14th (9:00 am)
Thursday
Valentine's Day. Normally, one of my favorite holidays. But with things being so weird with Sam, I'm not so sure. He called me this morning to say happy v-day and to confirm our plans for dinner tonight. I think I'll wear something simple- black dress, black heels, and pearls. I don't really feel like being to creative. I didn't even really know what to get Sam for v- day. So I got him a gift certificate to his favorite coffee house. Good enough. We'll see how things go tonight. I think things have really improved with us, although still not to the point of "normal". I never did mention that I saw him with Amanda and Lisa, but he apologized for acting so weirdly, and he has been paying a lot more attention to me. In fact, he had red roses (12 of em) delivered to my door at around 6 am with a card that said, "Happy Valentine's Day, baby". That's more like the old Sam I know. Hopefully, tonight will make everything right.
February 14th (11:30pm)
Thursday
Sam and I broke up.