A/N: Don't own "Goodbye to You", LotR, or The Silmarillion.
Feanor and Nerdanel
Of all the things I've believed in
I just want to get it over with
Tears form behind my eyes
But I do not cry
Counting the days that pass me by
He doesn't speak to me anymore. He doesn't look at me anymore. He doesn't love me anymore. I know it. Seven sons I have born to him. I've committed my very being to him. And none of it matters. He used to seek my counsel. Now he will not so much as offer a kind word to me. They have consumed his mind. They are all he cares about anymore. I don't know him anymore. The work of his hands has changed him. He once paraded them proudly wherever he went. Now he hides them deep in Formenos. I love him still, but he does not love me. He only loves them. The Silmarils.
I've been searching deep down in my soul
Words that I'm hearing are starting to get old
It feels like I'm starting all over again
The last three years were just pretend
And I said,
They are mine. No one else's. I will not let any other, but I, their maker see them, touch them. I thought I loved Nerdanel. I thought she was more beautiful than anything I could create. I was wrong. I have created these, the Silmarils, which out shine her beauty and which are much more deserving of my love. Nerdanel served her purpose. That much I will admit. Seven sons I have because of her. And her counsel was fair at the time. But then she tried to control me. If I had let her my Silmarils never would have been forged. But she is gone now. No longer needed. She no longer matters. All that does matter is mine. My Silmarils.
Goodbye to you
Goodbye to everything I thought I knew
You were the one I loved
The one thing that I tried to hold on to
The world is falling down and he is only making it worse. Does he not know that everyone mourns for the Trees? That the light that is left is not his to keep, but his to give to the Valar so they may restore that which has been defiled? He does not remember that the Light within the Silmarils belongs to the Valar not him. He has driven the Noldor into a madness. He has gone to fight Morgoth. He has taken my sons. I have remained behind, but my heart has followed him. Even now I love him. Why? I do not know anymore. He has thrown away my love, taken my sons, taken my people, killed our kin, and destroyed their greatest works. I stare at the jewel that he gave me. The only one he gave me. I can use it to watch Feanor and my sons. It is similar to the Palantiri. Or perhaps the mercy of some Vala has permitted it to see those that I love.
I still get lost in your eyes
And it seems that I can't live a day without you
Closing my eyes and you chase my thoughts away
To a place where I am blinded by the light
But it's not right
I go to reclaim what is mine. What does it matter that my kin are dead? More of us will die before the end. But none will die in vain. With each death we will be closer to reclaiming what is mine. What is now completely bound to me by oath. And I go to avenge my father who was brutally slain by Morgoth. Only with the destruction of Morgoth can this be achieved. I will do it. Nerdanel was a fool. She could have come with us. If she had, she would have reclaimed a part of my love. But no. She chose to remain in Aman and be a coward. May her soul die with each death our people suffer.
Goodbye to you
Goodbye to everything I thought I knew
You were the one I loved
The one thing that I tried to hold on to
Mandos has declared that Feanor will soon come to him. Will Mandos take my sons as well? I watch in my stone. I see Feanor die. I watch Maedhros' torture on Thangorodrim. I hear Maglor's many songs of sorrow. Celegorm's lust for Luthien. Caranthir's anger at all the world had done to him. Curufin's suffering for his deeds with Celegorm. Amrod and Amras deaths at the Mouths of Sirion. I see all my sons die one by one. All whom I love die. And with them I die.
And it hurts to want everything and nothing at the same time
I want what's yours and I want what's mine
I want you
But I'm not giving in this time
In these Halls I am doomed to stay. My sins are too great for me to be redeemed. Only at the end will my salvation come. When I died I had hoped that the last image I would see would be of my Silmarils. But it wasn't. Instead I saw Nerdanel when she had held my first hand made gem to the stars. That was the first time I had realized that I loved her. My madness is gone now. I realize that I still love her. Only it is too late for her to know that. Perhaps at the end of days, we can be together again. Perhaps she will forgive me. Until then, I most wait here and hope for the sight of her beautiful face and sound of her sweet voice.
Goodbye to you
Goodbye to everything I thought I knew
You were the one I loved
The one thing that I tried to hold on to
The one thing that I tried to hold on to
He is gone. They are all gone. I want to be with them. They are all that has ever mattered to me. I go to the Halls of Mandos. They are there. I sit in front of its dark doors and beg for entrance. I care not for anything, only to be with those I love. And what does it matter? I died the moment Feanor did. Maybe before that. Finally Mandos comes forth. "What is it that you desire Nerdanel?" "To be permitted entry into your Halls," I reply. "Why," Mandos inquires. "Those I love are within your keeping. Please, let me be with them. I will give you this in exchange for entry." I hand Mandos the jewel that I have kept on my person since Feanor gave it to me. Mandos takes it than hands it back. "I will take you into my keeping Nerdanel. You need not pay me to." And so I entered Mandos' Halls to be reunited with them who I had lost so long ago.
And when the stars fall
I will lie awake
You're my shooting star
A/N: That was hard. Please don't shoot me if I've made any mistakes. I've tried to keep this canonical.
Feanor and Nerdanel
Of all the things I've believed in
I just want to get it over with
Tears form behind my eyes
But I do not cry
Counting the days that pass me by
He doesn't speak to me anymore. He doesn't look at me anymore. He doesn't love me anymore. I know it. Seven sons I have born to him. I've committed my very being to him. And none of it matters. He used to seek my counsel. Now he will not so much as offer a kind word to me. They have consumed his mind. They are all he cares about anymore. I don't know him anymore. The work of his hands has changed him. He once paraded them proudly wherever he went. Now he hides them deep in Formenos. I love him still, but he does not love me. He only loves them. The Silmarils.
I've been searching deep down in my soul
Words that I'm hearing are starting to get old
It feels like I'm starting all over again
The last three years were just pretend
And I said,
They are mine. No one else's. I will not let any other, but I, their maker see them, touch them. I thought I loved Nerdanel. I thought she was more beautiful than anything I could create. I was wrong. I have created these, the Silmarils, which out shine her beauty and which are much more deserving of my love. Nerdanel served her purpose. That much I will admit. Seven sons I have because of her. And her counsel was fair at the time. But then she tried to control me. If I had let her my Silmarils never would have been forged. But she is gone now. No longer needed. She no longer matters. All that does matter is mine. My Silmarils.
Goodbye to you
Goodbye to everything I thought I knew
You were the one I loved
The one thing that I tried to hold on to
The world is falling down and he is only making it worse. Does he not know that everyone mourns for the Trees? That the light that is left is not his to keep, but his to give to the Valar so they may restore that which has been defiled? He does not remember that the Light within the Silmarils belongs to the Valar not him. He has driven the Noldor into a madness. He has gone to fight Morgoth. He has taken my sons. I have remained behind, but my heart has followed him. Even now I love him. Why? I do not know anymore. He has thrown away my love, taken my sons, taken my people, killed our kin, and destroyed their greatest works. I stare at the jewel that he gave me. The only one he gave me. I can use it to watch Feanor and my sons. It is similar to the Palantiri. Or perhaps the mercy of some Vala has permitted it to see those that I love.
I still get lost in your eyes
And it seems that I can't live a day without you
Closing my eyes and you chase my thoughts away
To a place where I am blinded by the light
But it's not right
I go to reclaim what is mine. What does it matter that my kin are dead? More of us will die before the end. But none will die in vain. With each death we will be closer to reclaiming what is mine. What is now completely bound to me by oath. And I go to avenge my father who was brutally slain by Morgoth. Only with the destruction of Morgoth can this be achieved. I will do it. Nerdanel was a fool. She could have come with us. If she had, she would have reclaimed a part of my love. But no. She chose to remain in Aman and be a coward. May her soul die with each death our people suffer.
Goodbye to you
Goodbye to everything I thought I knew
You were the one I loved
The one thing that I tried to hold on to
Mandos has declared that Feanor will soon come to him. Will Mandos take my sons as well? I watch in my stone. I see Feanor die. I watch Maedhros' torture on Thangorodrim. I hear Maglor's many songs of sorrow. Celegorm's lust for Luthien. Caranthir's anger at all the world had done to him. Curufin's suffering for his deeds with Celegorm. Amrod and Amras deaths at the Mouths of Sirion. I see all my sons die one by one. All whom I love die. And with them I die.
And it hurts to want everything and nothing at the same time
I want what's yours and I want what's mine
I want you
But I'm not giving in this time
In these Halls I am doomed to stay. My sins are too great for me to be redeemed. Only at the end will my salvation come. When I died I had hoped that the last image I would see would be of my Silmarils. But it wasn't. Instead I saw Nerdanel when she had held my first hand made gem to the stars. That was the first time I had realized that I loved her. My madness is gone now. I realize that I still love her. Only it is too late for her to know that. Perhaps at the end of days, we can be together again. Perhaps she will forgive me. Until then, I most wait here and hope for the sight of her beautiful face and sound of her sweet voice.
Goodbye to you
Goodbye to everything I thought I knew
You were the one I loved
The one thing that I tried to hold on to
The one thing that I tried to hold on to
He is gone. They are all gone. I want to be with them. They are all that has ever mattered to me. I go to the Halls of Mandos. They are there. I sit in front of its dark doors and beg for entrance. I care not for anything, only to be with those I love. And what does it matter? I died the moment Feanor did. Maybe before that. Finally Mandos comes forth. "What is it that you desire Nerdanel?" "To be permitted entry into your Halls," I reply. "Why," Mandos inquires. "Those I love are within your keeping. Please, let me be with them. I will give you this in exchange for entry." I hand Mandos the jewel that I have kept on my person since Feanor gave it to me. Mandos takes it than hands it back. "I will take you into my keeping Nerdanel. You need not pay me to." And so I entered Mandos' Halls to be reunited with them who I had lost so long ago.
And when the stars fall
I will lie awake
You're my shooting star
A/N: That was hard. Please don't shoot me if I've made any mistakes. I've tried to keep this canonical.