Wednesday, May 3rd:
I met Laine at Panera for lunch today. Surprisingly, she didn't look bad... a lot more put together than the last time I saw her. But emotionally...she's a mess. I'm not surprised, considering all that's been going on in her life lately, but I still feel really bad for her. She just found out a few weeks ago, but she's already three months along. She can't decide what she wants to do about it, but I told her if she wants an abortion she'd better hurry up and decide, because it gets a lot more dangerous and difficult to do after the third month. I think she's leaning toward having the baby, but I'm concerned because she doesn't have much money. Even worse though, she'd told me she's gotten drunk and high since she's been pregnant (before she knew), and she's worried the baby might have health problems. I just can't believe that all this is happening. I hate to say it, because she's my friend, but Laine is so stupid. Not for getting pregnant in the first place, but for waiting so long to find out, and to make a decision. And for now knowing who the father is. Mostly thought, I feel bad for the baby. No matter what Laine decides, this child is not going to have it easy. Then there's Samantha on the other hand, who is ecstatic about being pregnant again. The doctor says that everything is okay and that the scare she had was probably just one of those things. She's taking it extra careful and spends a lot of time resting, but she is also busy planning for the baby's arrival... and she's not even 5 months yet! She really wants a boy... she's already picking out boy names and looking for clothes for little boysThey had an ultrasound already, but the baby wasn't in a good position to see the gender. She's having another one later this month, so hopefully they'll know then. Sam wants to know the sex. Dad on the other hand, doesn't really think it matters. He says that while it would be nice to have a son, he'd like another girl. but He says he's used to raising girls and he likes daughters. Me, I just hope the baby is healthy. I love Rachael to death and I'm sure this baby will be just as wonderful. Well, this weekend I'm going back to Stoneybrook for mom's friend's wedding, so hopefully I'll get to see Kristy and some other people and catch up with Mom. I haven't told her about Laine yet, so it'll be interesting to see what she has to say about that. But for now, I G2G. Later!
Sunday, May 7th:
I'm on the train back to NYC. It was nice to be back in Stoneybrook for a few days, to get away from the hectic city life. Stoneybrook never changes. Sure, the people change and some of the buildings change but it always has the same friendly, small town feel to it. When my train got in on Friday Mom, Kristy and Jessi were all waiting to pick me up at the train station. Everyone else was still away at school, but it was nice to have some friends there. We all went back to my house for pizza and talked and caught up. Saturday was the wedding, which was absolutely gorgeous. I didn't really know many people besides mom and the other people who work at her store, but I adore weddings and this one was really elegant. The only bad part was that it made me thing about my own lack of romance... particularly with Sam. I tried not to let that get me down, but the thought kept popping up. ( I didn't get to tell mom about Laine until Saturday night. Mom agreed that she feels bad for Laine and her child, but Laine did get herself into this mess and no one can deal with it except for her, really. She said the best thing I can do is just be there for Laine and listen to her when she needs to talk. I agreed. Okay... I'm approaching Stoneybrook. I'll finish this later. Ta!
Tuesday, May 9th:
Saw Laine again. She met me at NYU during my lunch hour and told me she's decided to get an abortion. She saw the doctor and he said she needs to do it within the next week or two, otherwise the cost would triple as would the risks involved. Laine made an appointment to go in Friday and have it done. She wants me to go with her. Of course I agreed. Its weird, because to Laine, I'm her family. Her parents wont speak to her and she has no siblings. And of course, the baby's father is unknown... she said that me and my family are the closest thing she has to real relatives. It makes me sad for her. I have so many family members and friends I could count on if I needed to... and she has no one. It makes me glad I came back into her life though, for her sake. What would have happened if our fight back in middle school had been permanent? Where would Laine be now?
She confided in me that she's scared about the abortion... she wants to know if it will hurt... if it will hurt the baby...what will she feel like afterwards? OF course I couldn't answer those questions for her, so I just put my arm around her and told her it would be okay. But will it? I'm kind of nervous myself, I've never been with anyone who's had an abortion before... I don't even know anyone personally who has, at least, not known them well. I guess Friday will have to come for me to find out. I just hope everything ends up okay.
I met Laine at Panera for lunch today. Surprisingly, she didn't look bad... a lot more put together than the last time I saw her. But emotionally...she's a mess. I'm not surprised, considering all that's been going on in her life lately, but I still feel really bad for her. She just found out a few weeks ago, but she's already three months along. She can't decide what she wants to do about it, but I told her if she wants an abortion she'd better hurry up and decide, because it gets a lot more dangerous and difficult to do after the third month. I think she's leaning toward having the baby, but I'm concerned because she doesn't have much money. Even worse though, she'd told me she's gotten drunk and high since she's been pregnant (before she knew), and she's worried the baby might have health problems. I just can't believe that all this is happening. I hate to say it, because she's my friend, but Laine is so stupid. Not for getting pregnant in the first place, but for waiting so long to find out, and to make a decision. And for now knowing who the father is. Mostly thought, I feel bad for the baby. No matter what Laine decides, this child is not going to have it easy. Then there's Samantha on the other hand, who is ecstatic about being pregnant again. The doctor says that everything is okay and that the scare she had was probably just one of those things. She's taking it extra careful and spends a lot of time resting, but she is also busy planning for the baby's arrival... and she's not even 5 months yet! She really wants a boy... she's already picking out boy names and looking for clothes for little boysThey had an ultrasound already, but the baby wasn't in a good position to see the gender. She's having another one later this month, so hopefully they'll know then. Sam wants to know the sex. Dad on the other hand, doesn't really think it matters. He says that while it would be nice to have a son, he'd like another girl. but He says he's used to raising girls and he likes daughters. Me, I just hope the baby is healthy. I love Rachael to death and I'm sure this baby will be just as wonderful. Well, this weekend I'm going back to Stoneybrook for mom's friend's wedding, so hopefully I'll get to see Kristy and some other people and catch up with Mom. I haven't told her about Laine yet, so it'll be interesting to see what she has to say about that. But for now, I G2G. Later!
Sunday, May 7th:
I'm on the train back to NYC. It was nice to be back in Stoneybrook for a few days, to get away from the hectic city life. Stoneybrook never changes. Sure, the people change and some of the buildings change but it always has the same friendly, small town feel to it. When my train got in on Friday Mom, Kristy and Jessi were all waiting to pick me up at the train station. Everyone else was still away at school, but it was nice to have some friends there. We all went back to my house for pizza and talked and caught up. Saturday was the wedding, which was absolutely gorgeous. I didn't really know many people besides mom and the other people who work at her store, but I adore weddings and this one was really elegant. The only bad part was that it made me thing about my own lack of romance... particularly with Sam. I tried not to let that get me down, but the thought kept popping up. ( I didn't get to tell mom about Laine until Saturday night. Mom agreed that she feels bad for Laine and her child, but Laine did get herself into this mess and no one can deal with it except for her, really. She said the best thing I can do is just be there for Laine and listen to her when she needs to talk. I agreed. Okay... I'm approaching Stoneybrook. I'll finish this later. Ta!
Tuesday, May 9th:
Saw Laine again. She met me at NYU during my lunch hour and told me she's decided to get an abortion. She saw the doctor and he said she needs to do it within the next week or two, otherwise the cost would triple as would the risks involved. Laine made an appointment to go in Friday and have it done. She wants me to go with her. Of course I agreed. Its weird, because to Laine, I'm her family. Her parents wont speak to her and she has no siblings. And of course, the baby's father is unknown... she said that me and my family are the closest thing she has to real relatives. It makes me sad for her. I have so many family members and friends I could count on if I needed to... and she has no one. It makes me glad I came back into her life though, for her sake. What would have happened if our fight back in middle school had been permanent? Where would Laine be now?
She confided in me that she's scared about the abortion... she wants to know if it will hurt... if it will hurt the baby...what will she feel like afterwards? OF course I couldn't answer those questions for her, so I just put my arm around her and told her it would be okay. But will it? I'm kind of nervous myself, I've never been with anyone who's had an abortion before... I don't even know anyone personally who has, at least, not known them well. I guess Friday will have to come for me to find out. I just hope everything ends up okay.