~*~GREEN EYES~*~
Chapter 33- Three Strikes You're Out
"What the hell was that?" asked Sirius, turning Lily around forcefully as she exited the common room. He was not in the 'comfort best friend' mood anymore. Now he was just mad.
"It was stupid, that's what it was!" exclaimed Lily, tears still streaming down her face. Sirius still didn't understand what was going on.
"I got the stupid part. I just want to know why," yelled Sirius.
"I turned around and I saw....I saw..." started Lily, not wanted to say the words because she didn't want to believe that it had happened.
"You saw what, come on Lily spit it out I don't have all day!" said Sirius, his tone angry.
"I saw James and Jeanine kissing," said Lily, sinking down to the floor. She curled up, pulling her knees to her chest, and then started sobbing. Sirius suddenly felt bad for being so mean to her.
"I'm sorry Lily, I didn't mean to yell at you. But really that was stupid," he said as she sat down next to her. She laughed.
"I've always been glad that you're the brutally honest one. Really, it was stupid, I know, but the first thing I thought was 'two can play at that game.' I wasn't thinking," she explained.
"I could tell that you weren't thinking. But really you and James need to talk. I can't just sit out here trying to help you, you need to help yourself out a little bit, ok?" he asked. Lily looked up at him and he could see the hurt in her eyes.
"Can't I just sit out here with you for a little while?" she asked. Sirius gave her a quick kiss on the forehead and pulled her into a friendly hug.
"I guess you can stay out here for awhile, but you need to talk to him tonight," he said.
"I will," said Lily. "I will."
***
"Oh my God. Oh my God," said James, his head in his hand. "Oh my God."
"James, I'm sorry. I'm really sorry really I am," said Jeanine. James looked up at her, trying to figure out if he should hate her or accept her appology. He decided on the latter, since the former wasn't really going to help anyone.
"I understand Jeanine, you tripped. I just screwed up majorly. This is all my fault. I just can't believe this has happened," he said. He was blinking back tears; big, strong, tough James Potter was too strong to cry.
"Thank you for understanding. But this is my fault too. I mean, I come here thinking that I will just appologize to Lily and clear things up and I end up blurting out that you tried to kiss me that night. It's going to make it so hard for you to make up and it's all my fault," she said. James didn't know if she deserved an added guilt trip for what she had done, but he figured since she had screwed so much up that would be okay.
"Lily and I got back together this morning. I don't think that's going to last long," he explained in a monotone. Jeanine looked horror-stricken.
"Oh my God I feel so horrible," she said, giving him a hug. He pushed her away.
"Maybe it would be better if you didn't touch me," said James. Jeanine started to cry.
"Fine. I guess I might as well leave you alone," she said, and then ran out of the common room. James sunk down onto the couch and then realized the predicament he was in. He had alienated himself from all the people he loved; Lily would break up with him, Sirius was disgusted with him, Remus and Peter probably were too, and he had been an ass to Jeanine. He really was screwed.
***
Lily looked up as Jeanine burst out of the common room. Sirius gave her the look that said now is not the time to start a fight but right now she was too hurt and mad to care.
"Who the hell do you think you are bitch?" she asked. Jeanine turned and looked over at the Lily, whose disgruntled scarlet curls were in her face.
"For your information, I came here to appoligize to you for being so mean," Jeanine explained matter-of-factly. Lily laughed.
"Well you sure did a good job!" she explained sarcastically.
"What you think I came here to kiss him or something?" asked Jeanine.
"I thought it was the other way around," replied Lily. Jeanine looked sick, but was still able to argue back.
"Wait, I don't think you saw the look on Lauren's face when you kissed her boyfriend right in front of her afterwords," said Jeanine. Lily grew pale.
"She's not my girlfriend," explained Sirius, speaking for the first time all day.
"Well the way you were making out by the forbidden forest the other day it sure seemed like it," said Jeanine. Sirius blushed.
"I need to talk to her," he said. Lily nodded.
"And I need to talk to James," said Lily.
"And when you decide not to hate me, I'd like to talk to you," said Jeanine. Then all three of them got up and went their seperate ways.
***
Lauren was sitting on her bed, calmly going through her notes for History of Magic, when the door opened. She looked over and saw Sirius walk in, running a hand through his black hair and wearing an innocent expression.
"I don't really want to hear what you have to say," said Lauren, her voice completly void of expression.
"But I really want to say it, and it would be easier if you would listen," replied Sirius.
"Fine, just make it quick," said Lauren, putting her notebook down. Sirius sat down beside her and almost put his arm around her before deciding not to.
"I swear I didn't mean for any of that to happen. I didn't even know what was going on, all of a sudden Lily kissed me. Both Lily and I know that was stupid. But to get down to the point, I'm sorry and I don't want you to be mad at me," he explained. Lauren looked long and deep into his eyes, and Sirius saw something that he hadn't seen there before. Pain, hurt, he had seen that but this was something different. It was listlesness, hopelessness, and regret that he was seeing in her eyes.
"What am I working for Sirius? What am I fixing? A relationship? We don't have one of those. You and I are just friends that act like more than friends when the oppurtunity arises. I thought we had something, but maybe I was wrong. I have no right to be mad, single people can kiss whoever they want," said Lauren. Sirius had been looking down at the scarlet bedspread, not wanting to see the pain in Lauren's eyes. He looked up at her again, and then decided to leave all his nerves behind him and get over it.
"Lauren, we both know that I have been totally afraid of commitment since the whole Lily thing. But you know what, it's been too long for me to keep focusing on that, I just need to get over it and see the good things that are right in front of me. And you know what, that's you," said Sirius. Lauren didn't smile, but her expression was hopeful. She let Sirius continue. "So I guess what I'm saying is that I want a commitment. So will you be my girlfriend?" Lauren grinned and threw her arms around his neck.
"Oh I will, of course I will!" she exclaimed, pulling him close.
"I think you're cutting off the circulation to my brain," he said with a laugh. Lauren pulled away.
"What brain?" she asked, but before he could answer she had kissed him softy on the lips and he had forgotten what he was going to say.
***
Lily walked up to James from behind him. He didn't notice her until she tapped him on the shoulder. He tried to give her a hug, but she pushed him away from her.
"James, we need to talk," said Lily. James didn't protest, he just moved over to make room for Lily to sit down next to him. Instead, she sat on an armchair across from the sofa.
"I'm sorry Lily, I didn't mean to do any of it I swear. I mean one minute she was standing there and she got pushed over and-" he started to explain, but Lily cut him off.
"No, I don't need your excuses James. I'm sure you didn't mean for any of this to happen, but the fact of the matter is that it did happen, and I'm not sure that I can forgive you," said Lily. James knew her tone, it was the don't mess with me I don't want to deal with you right now tone. That wasn't typically a good thing.
"I'm sorry Lily. None of this is ever going to happen again-" Lily once again cut James off.
"I know none of it is going to happen again. In fact, I'm going to make sure of that. It's over James. I don't want to see you again," said Lily calmly. There was an akward moment in which neither James nor Lily could say anything, and then James sighed.
"I guess this is good-bye then," said James. Lily resolved that she wouldn't cry in front of James, she wouldn't let him see her cry.
"I guess so," she said. Then she sat up abruptly and left the room before the tears started again.
A/N- I thought that the last two chapters were going to turn out better, but I guess I can work with them. I'm gonna be working on this story a lot since it's almost christmas break, so check for updates. Until then, please review!
Disclaimer- I don't own Harry Potter. Harry Potter doesn't even own himself. It all belongs to J.K. Rowling. She owns everything.
Chapter 33- Three Strikes You're Out
"What the hell was that?" asked Sirius, turning Lily around forcefully as she exited the common room. He was not in the 'comfort best friend' mood anymore. Now he was just mad.
"It was stupid, that's what it was!" exclaimed Lily, tears still streaming down her face. Sirius still didn't understand what was going on.
"I got the stupid part. I just want to know why," yelled Sirius.
"I turned around and I saw....I saw..." started Lily, not wanted to say the words because she didn't want to believe that it had happened.
"You saw what, come on Lily spit it out I don't have all day!" said Sirius, his tone angry.
"I saw James and Jeanine kissing," said Lily, sinking down to the floor. She curled up, pulling her knees to her chest, and then started sobbing. Sirius suddenly felt bad for being so mean to her.
"I'm sorry Lily, I didn't mean to yell at you. But really that was stupid," he said as she sat down next to her. She laughed.
"I've always been glad that you're the brutally honest one. Really, it was stupid, I know, but the first thing I thought was 'two can play at that game.' I wasn't thinking," she explained.
"I could tell that you weren't thinking. But really you and James need to talk. I can't just sit out here trying to help you, you need to help yourself out a little bit, ok?" he asked. Lily looked up at him and he could see the hurt in her eyes.
"Can't I just sit out here with you for a little while?" she asked. Sirius gave her a quick kiss on the forehead and pulled her into a friendly hug.
"I guess you can stay out here for awhile, but you need to talk to him tonight," he said.
"I will," said Lily. "I will."
***
"Oh my God. Oh my God," said James, his head in his hand. "Oh my God."
"James, I'm sorry. I'm really sorry really I am," said Jeanine. James looked up at her, trying to figure out if he should hate her or accept her appology. He decided on the latter, since the former wasn't really going to help anyone.
"I understand Jeanine, you tripped. I just screwed up majorly. This is all my fault. I just can't believe this has happened," he said. He was blinking back tears; big, strong, tough James Potter was too strong to cry.
"Thank you for understanding. But this is my fault too. I mean, I come here thinking that I will just appologize to Lily and clear things up and I end up blurting out that you tried to kiss me that night. It's going to make it so hard for you to make up and it's all my fault," she said. James didn't know if she deserved an added guilt trip for what she had done, but he figured since she had screwed so much up that would be okay.
"Lily and I got back together this morning. I don't think that's going to last long," he explained in a monotone. Jeanine looked horror-stricken.
"Oh my God I feel so horrible," she said, giving him a hug. He pushed her away.
"Maybe it would be better if you didn't touch me," said James. Jeanine started to cry.
"Fine. I guess I might as well leave you alone," she said, and then ran out of the common room. James sunk down onto the couch and then realized the predicament he was in. He had alienated himself from all the people he loved; Lily would break up with him, Sirius was disgusted with him, Remus and Peter probably were too, and he had been an ass to Jeanine. He really was screwed.
***
Lily looked up as Jeanine burst out of the common room. Sirius gave her the look that said now is not the time to start a fight but right now she was too hurt and mad to care.
"Who the hell do you think you are bitch?" she asked. Jeanine turned and looked over at the Lily, whose disgruntled scarlet curls were in her face.
"For your information, I came here to appoligize to you for being so mean," Jeanine explained matter-of-factly. Lily laughed.
"Well you sure did a good job!" she explained sarcastically.
"What you think I came here to kiss him or something?" asked Jeanine.
"I thought it was the other way around," replied Lily. Jeanine looked sick, but was still able to argue back.
"Wait, I don't think you saw the look on Lauren's face when you kissed her boyfriend right in front of her afterwords," said Jeanine. Lily grew pale.
"She's not my girlfriend," explained Sirius, speaking for the first time all day.
"Well the way you were making out by the forbidden forest the other day it sure seemed like it," said Jeanine. Sirius blushed.
"I need to talk to her," he said. Lily nodded.
"And I need to talk to James," said Lily.
"And when you decide not to hate me, I'd like to talk to you," said Jeanine. Then all three of them got up and went their seperate ways.
***
Lauren was sitting on her bed, calmly going through her notes for History of Magic, when the door opened. She looked over and saw Sirius walk in, running a hand through his black hair and wearing an innocent expression.
"I don't really want to hear what you have to say," said Lauren, her voice completly void of expression.
"But I really want to say it, and it would be easier if you would listen," replied Sirius.
"Fine, just make it quick," said Lauren, putting her notebook down. Sirius sat down beside her and almost put his arm around her before deciding not to.
"I swear I didn't mean for any of that to happen. I didn't even know what was going on, all of a sudden Lily kissed me. Both Lily and I know that was stupid. But to get down to the point, I'm sorry and I don't want you to be mad at me," he explained. Lauren looked long and deep into his eyes, and Sirius saw something that he hadn't seen there before. Pain, hurt, he had seen that but this was something different. It was listlesness, hopelessness, and regret that he was seeing in her eyes.
"What am I working for Sirius? What am I fixing? A relationship? We don't have one of those. You and I are just friends that act like more than friends when the oppurtunity arises. I thought we had something, but maybe I was wrong. I have no right to be mad, single people can kiss whoever they want," said Lauren. Sirius had been looking down at the scarlet bedspread, not wanting to see the pain in Lauren's eyes. He looked up at her again, and then decided to leave all his nerves behind him and get over it.
"Lauren, we both know that I have been totally afraid of commitment since the whole Lily thing. But you know what, it's been too long for me to keep focusing on that, I just need to get over it and see the good things that are right in front of me. And you know what, that's you," said Sirius. Lauren didn't smile, but her expression was hopeful. She let Sirius continue. "So I guess what I'm saying is that I want a commitment. So will you be my girlfriend?" Lauren grinned and threw her arms around his neck.
"Oh I will, of course I will!" she exclaimed, pulling him close.
"I think you're cutting off the circulation to my brain," he said with a laugh. Lauren pulled away.
"What brain?" she asked, but before he could answer she had kissed him softy on the lips and he had forgotten what he was going to say.
***
Lily walked up to James from behind him. He didn't notice her until she tapped him on the shoulder. He tried to give her a hug, but she pushed him away from her.
"James, we need to talk," said Lily. James didn't protest, he just moved over to make room for Lily to sit down next to him. Instead, she sat on an armchair across from the sofa.
"I'm sorry Lily, I didn't mean to do any of it I swear. I mean one minute she was standing there and she got pushed over and-" he started to explain, but Lily cut him off.
"No, I don't need your excuses James. I'm sure you didn't mean for any of this to happen, but the fact of the matter is that it did happen, and I'm not sure that I can forgive you," said Lily. James knew her tone, it was the don't mess with me I don't want to deal with you right now tone. That wasn't typically a good thing.
"I'm sorry Lily. None of this is ever going to happen again-" Lily once again cut James off.
"I know none of it is going to happen again. In fact, I'm going to make sure of that. It's over James. I don't want to see you again," said Lily calmly. There was an akward moment in which neither James nor Lily could say anything, and then James sighed.
"I guess this is good-bye then," said James. Lily resolved that she wouldn't cry in front of James, she wouldn't let him see her cry.
"I guess so," she said. Then she sat up abruptly and left the room before the tears started again.
A/N- I thought that the last two chapters were going to turn out better, but I guess I can work with them. I'm gonna be working on this story a lot since it's almost christmas break, so check for updates. Until then, please review!
Disclaimer- I don't own Harry Potter. Harry Potter doesn't even own himself. It all belongs to J.K. Rowling. She owns everything.