GREEN
EYES
Chapter 55- Or Does It?
"I can't believe he tried to commit suicide..." Jamie muttered, let her voice drift off.
"I'm so sorry Jamie, I shouldn't have let him out of my sight, I should have had him talk to Dumbledore or something. This is all my fault..." Lily sighed. She had been harboring this guilt for so long, but it didn't fell good to let it out.
"No it's not Lily, it's Remus's fault. I....I...." Jamie stammered, falling short.
"You?" prompted Lily.
"I don't know what to do about our relationship." Jamie said the words as quickly as she could, as if that would make them less real. "It scares me that I made him go completely insane like that, it makes me want to break it off..."
"Crystal! Hey Crystal! Wait up!" exclaimed a frantic Evie, running to catch up with her twin. Crystal turned around right as Evie ran into her, knocking them both to the ground.
"Sorry," said Evie, standing up and wiping off her robes.
"Yeah me too," Crystal said, exasperated. "What do you want?"
"Nothing, can't a gril just talk to her sister every once in awhile? I feel like I never see you anymore," said Evie.
"I know. It's weird being in two different houses. At Beauxbatons I got to see you every day, and now....we don't even have classes together," Crystal said. Evie began to reply, but was once again knocked to the floor when someone absentmindedly ran into her.
"Oh my God, I'm so sorry," he said as he gave her a hand up from the floor. Evie was now able to see his face, which had been bathed in shadows, and her heart skipped a beat as she took in his stunning features and sandy blonde hair.
"You're Evie, right?" he asked as she got to her feet.
"Yeah, how do you...." she started, and then realized that she was still holding his hand. She let it got quickly and blushed.
"You're a friend of Lily's. I met you when I went to her house last summer," he quickly explained.
"Oh right, is it Romulus?" Evie asked.
"Remus," he replied. "Well, I guess I'll see you around."
"Yeah, see ya," Evie said as she waved good-bye. Crystal looked at her, giving her a very dirty look.
"He has a girlfriend you know," she said.
"He was flirting almost as much as I was," Evie replied.
"Yeah," Crystal said, staring back at Remus's retreating figure. "I know."
Jamie had barely walked through the common room door when Remus ran to her and kissed her passionately on the lips.
"I love you," he said, wrapping his arm around her shoulders and guiding her to the couch in the common room.
"I...it's nice to see you," said Jamie. Remus frowed, but tighted his grip on her shoulder. Jamie glanced over at the couch. Lily, James and Sirius were already sitting down, there was only room for one more. Jamie attempted to make her way to the easy chair next to the couch, but before she was able to Remus pulled her onto his lap.
"You're comfortable, right?" Remus asked. Jamie just nodded, wishing that she had her own seat.
"Alright, so do you guys realize that we only have a few months of sixth year left?" asked Sirius. "Then it's off, back home, to laze around all summer and...Lily, are you okay?"
James looked over at his girlfriend, who's eyes were tearing up.
"Yeah, I'm fine, it's just....well, it's my first summer without my parents, it's going to be hard on me," she said.
"But you'll get to spend it with me," said James, taking Lily's hand. "And my parents are taking us on some sort of surprise vacation, you'll have fun I promise."
"Okay, that sounds-" but Jamie didn't get to hear the rest, because at that moment Remus pulled her in for another kiss.
"Remus!" she tried to say, but he was holding her so close that she was practically suffocating. "Remus!" she yelled again as he stopped to breathe in.
"Come on, let's go to my room," he said, pulling her along with him. Protesting was getting her nowhere, so she let him lead her into his room.
"I've been waiting for this for a long time," he said, inches away from her face, before pulling her in for another kiss. She gave in for awhile, hoping that maybe he would get over whatever weird mood he was in. But it wasn't long before he began to pull off her shirt.
"REMUS!" she shouted. He took no notice as he started to unbuckle her pants. Frantic now, she bit down, hard, on his tongue.
"Ouch, what the hell was that for?" he asked, finally pulling away from her.
"Remus, we need to talk right now," Jamie said, snatching her clothes out of his hands.
"About what? One second you want to have sex, and now you're changing your mind?" said Remus.
"No, you want to have sex. I want to talk, and I want you to hear me out. First of all, what is up with this? You've never pushed me this hard before, and now you expect something that you know I'm not ready to give you. It's sudden and abrupt and it scares me. Why do you think that we need to have sex right now?" asked Jamie. Remus looked down at the floor.
"I flirted with a girl today, and I felt bad because I knew that you could do the same thing so I thought that if we did it then-" Remus started.
"Then you would have control over me?" Jamie said, not giving him a chance to respond before grabbing the nearest book and throwing it at him. "Do you understand what I've just gone through? I was held hostage in a place where I was raped and almost murdered, so the last thing I want is to be forced into having sex right now."
"Don't turn this isn't a pity party for yourself," Remus said.
"You hypocritical asshole! You think that I'm trying to ellicit your sympathy? You're the one who tried to kill yourself after I left!" Jamie exclaimed, finally letting all of her anger out. She was tired of being controled by men.
"I only did it for you," said Remus.
"What, is that supposed to prove your love for me? So instead of flowers, boys try to kill themselves? Wow, that's so damn romantic," said Jamie.
"Look, I-" started Remus, but Jamie cut him off.
"No, you look. We both need some time to get over what has happened to us," said Jamie.
"Yeah, you're right. But we'll have each other for help," said Remus.
"We won't help, so far all we've done is hurt each other. We need time apart. Consider us over."
Peter crept towards the forbidden forest, not aware of the huge man that was now almost directly behind him. For the past half hour he had miraculously and unknowly evaded capture, keeping Hagrid just short of finding him. But his luck ran short when he snapped a small twig that had found its way onto the path.
"Who's there?" Hagrid boomed. He muttered something, and a faint light burst from the end of the pink umbrella he had been carrying with him.
"I...I..." Peter said, scared without his new friends around to protect him.
"Pettigrew, is that you? What are you doin' here? Are Potter and Black out here with you?" Hagrid asked.
"No, they, um, they're..." Peter stammered.
"Don' try to make excuses for 'em," Hagrid bellowed. "Where are they?"
"They're not here," Peter explained quickly. "See, I-I thought that since they're the ones that everyone thinks of as so brave....well, I felt left out so I decided to do something brave too. I heard that Snape had been sneaking into the forbidden forest, so tonight I decided to go after him, alone. I figured that if I caught him then I would win points for Gryffindor, and then maybe more people would like me. But I got lost, and now I don't know where I am and...."
"Oh, it's okay Peter. I'll take ye back to the castle and we jus' won' mention this to Dumbledore. But don' go thinkin' that you can do something stupid like this again," Hagrid said, obviously feeling sorry for poor little Peter.
Snape, who had been not far from the incident, watched as the faint light dissolved into nothing.
"That snitch," he said. "He's going to pay."
Remus couldn't stand being in his dorm room anymore. A few minutes after Jamie left, he left the dorm and ran from the common room to the Maurader's meeting room. Right before he got to the entrance, he ran into someone and fell to the ground.
"We have to stop meeting like this," she said, stretching out her hand to help him up. Remus looked into her deep, flirtacious eyes. It was Evie.
"Hey, I...Uh..." he stammered. Before he could get anything else out, she planted a kiss on his lips.
"I want you," she said, pulling him tight and kissing him intensely.
"I know a place where we can be alone..." he replied, and then opened the door to the Maurader's room. He checked around to see if anyone was watching, then closed it behind him.
A/N- Well, that's it for now. I sure hope this chappy hasn't offended anyone, but this was the only thing I could think of Remus irrationally doing and it does move the story on quite nicely. Once again this is late, I know. I hope you liked it though.
Since I can't wait for the third movie (I'm seeing it at midnight), I've made a Harry Potter blogskin. If you guys want to use it (for free, of course) on your blog, you can look at it Sorry, that was kind of a shameless plug, but I'm really proud of this one!
Disclaimer- I own nothing.
Chapter 55- Or Does It?
"Hey Jamie!" Lily exclaimed as she
entered the hospital wing carrying a bowl of chicken noodle soup and a
bottle of butter beer. Jamie sat up in bed and smiled at her friend.
Her hair, which had once been so long, had been cut in a short pixie
style because it was so matted, and her body was marked with bruises,
but she smiled the same old smile she always had.
"Hi Lils," Jamie replied. "What did you bring me?"
"Some food, the charms homework that you'll be needing, a few magazines and some muggle cards so you can bring solitaire," said Lily, taking a seat at the edge of Jamie's bed.
"Wow, thanks!" exclaimed Jamie, grabbing the magazine and flipping through it.
"No problem," said Lily. "I'm just surprised I could get the food in here, whenever I've tried to bring some in before Madame Pomfrey gets angry and tells me to take it back."
Jamie stared down at the light brown soup, paying close attention to the steam that was slowly rising from the bowl. She knew exactly why Madame Pomfrey had let Lily bring it...
"I'm sure she's just being lenient with me because tomorrow morning I get to move back into the common room," Jamie lied, raising the spoon to her mouth and taking the smallest sip of broth.
"That's wonderful!" exclaimed Lily. "It's going to be so great having you back, I've been so bored without you. We can stay up and talk about boys and school and life just like old times...oh and do you know what we should do? Let's sneak into Hogsmeade next week, we'll have the guys buy us butterbeer and then we can walk around and admire the bliss of springtime, it would be so much fun!"
Jamie stole a glance at Remus's empty bed, not at all worrying about him anymore. Since he had woken up he had become rapidly better, and after a pretty smooth trasnformation he had been allowed to go back to the common room. However, she couldn't help wondering what would happen if she left again. It was something else that was eating up at her, like a snake that was slowly suffocating her from the inside.
"Hi Lils," Jamie replied. "What did you bring me?"
"Some food, the charms homework that you'll be needing, a few magazines and some muggle cards so you can bring solitaire," said Lily, taking a seat at the edge of Jamie's bed.
"Wow, thanks!" exclaimed Jamie, grabbing the magazine and flipping through it.
"No problem," said Lily. "I'm just surprised I could get the food in here, whenever I've tried to bring some in before Madame Pomfrey gets angry and tells me to take it back."
Jamie stared down at the light brown soup, paying close attention to the steam that was slowly rising from the bowl. She knew exactly why Madame Pomfrey had let Lily bring it...
"I'm sure she's just being lenient with me because tomorrow morning I get to move back into the common room," Jamie lied, raising the spoon to her mouth and taking the smallest sip of broth.
"That's wonderful!" exclaimed Lily. "It's going to be so great having you back, I've been so bored without you. We can stay up and talk about boys and school and life just like old times...oh and do you know what we should do? Let's sneak into Hogsmeade next week, we'll have the guys buy us butterbeer and then we can walk around and admire the bliss of springtime, it would be so much fun!"
Jamie stole a glance at Remus's empty bed, not at all worrying about him anymore. Since he had woken up he had become rapidly better, and after a pretty smooth trasnformation he had been allowed to go back to the common room. However, she couldn't help wondering what would happen if she left again. It was something else that was eating up at her, like a snake that was slowly suffocating her from the inside.
"I can't believe he tried to commit suicide..." Jamie muttered, let her voice drift off.
"I'm so sorry Jamie, I shouldn't have let him out of my sight, I should have had him talk to Dumbledore or something. This is all my fault..." Lily sighed. She had been harboring this guilt for so long, but it didn't fell good to let it out.
"No it's not Lily, it's Remus's fault. I....I...." Jamie stammered, falling short.
"You?" prompted Lily.
"I don't know what to do about our relationship." Jamie said the words as quickly as she could, as if that would make them less real. "It scares me that I made him go completely insane like that, it makes me want to break it off..."
"Crystal! Hey Crystal! Wait up!" exclaimed a frantic Evie, running to catch up with her twin. Crystal turned around right as Evie ran into her, knocking them both to the ground.
"Sorry," said Evie, standing up and wiping off her robes.
"Yeah me too," Crystal said, exasperated. "What do you want?"
"Nothing, can't a gril just talk to her sister every once in awhile? I feel like I never see you anymore," said Evie.
"I know. It's weird being in two different houses. At Beauxbatons I got to see you every day, and now....we don't even have classes together," Crystal said. Evie began to reply, but was once again knocked to the floor when someone absentmindedly ran into her.
"Oh my God, I'm so sorry," he said as he gave her a hand up from the floor. Evie was now able to see his face, which had been bathed in shadows, and her heart skipped a beat as she took in his stunning features and sandy blonde hair.
"You're Evie, right?" he asked as she got to her feet.
"Yeah, how do you...." she started, and then realized that she was still holding his hand. She let it got quickly and blushed.
"You're a friend of Lily's. I met you when I went to her house last summer," he quickly explained.
"Oh right, is it Romulus?" Evie asked.
"Remus," he replied. "Well, I guess I'll see you around."
"Yeah, see ya," Evie said as she waved good-bye. Crystal looked at her, giving her a very dirty look.
"He has a girlfriend you know," she said.
"He was flirting almost as much as I was," Evie replied.
"Yeah," Crystal said, staring back at Remus's retreating figure. "I know."
Jamie had barely walked through the common room door when Remus ran to her and kissed her passionately on the lips.
"I love you," he said, wrapping his arm around her shoulders and guiding her to the couch in the common room.
"I...it's nice to see you," said Jamie. Remus frowed, but tighted his grip on her shoulder. Jamie glanced over at the couch. Lily, James and Sirius were already sitting down, there was only room for one more. Jamie attempted to make her way to the easy chair next to the couch, but before she was able to Remus pulled her onto his lap.
"You're comfortable, right?" Remus asked. Jamie just nodded, wishing that she had her own seat.
"Alright, so do you guys realize that we only have a few months of sixth year left?" asked Sirius. "Then it's off, back home, to laze around all summer and...Lily, are you okay?"
James looked over at his girlfriend, who's eyes were tearing up.
"Yeah, I'm fine, it's just....well, it's my first summer without my parents, it's going to be hard on me," she said.
"But you'll get to spend it with me," said James, taking Lily's hand. "And my parents are taking us on some sort of surprise vacation, you'll have fun I promise."
"Okay, that sounds-" but Jamie didn't get to hear the rest, because at that moment Remus pulled her in for another kiss.
"Remus!" she tried to say, but he was holding her so close that she was practically suffocating. "Remus!" she yelled again as he stopped to breathe in.
"Come on, let's go to my room," he said, pulling her along with him. Protesting was getting her nowhere, so she let him lead her into his room.
"I've been waiting for this for a long time," he said, inches away from her face, before pulling her in for another kiss. She gave in for awhile, hoping that maybe he would get over whatever weird mood he was in. But it wasn't long before he began to pull off her shirt.
"REMUS!" she shouted. He took no notice as he started to unbuckle her pants. Frantic now, she bit down, hard, on his tongue.
"Ouch, what the hell was that for?" he asked, finally pulling away from her.
"Remus, we need to talk right now," Jamie said, snatching her clothes out of his hands.
"About what? One second you want to have sex, and now you're changing your mind?" said Remus.
"No, you want to have sex. I want to talk, and I want you to hear me out. First of all, what is up with this? You've never pushed me this hard before, and now you expect something that you know I'm not ready to give you. It's sudden and abrupt and it scares me. Why do you think that we need to have sex right now?" asked Jamie. Remus looked down at the floor.
"I flirted with a girl today, and I felt bad because I knew that you could do the same thing so I thought that if we did it then-" Remus started.
"Then you would have control over me?" Jamie said, not giving him a chance to respond before grabbing the nearest book and throwing it at him. "Do you understand what I've just gone through? I was held hostage in a place where I was raped and almost murdered, so the last thing I want is to be forced into having sex right now."
"Don't turn this isn't a pity party for yourself," Remus said.
"You hypocritical asshole! You think that I'm trying to ellicit your sympathy? You're the one who tried to kill yourself after I left!" Jamie exclaimed, finally letting all of her anger out. She was tired of being controled by men.
"I only did it for you," said Remus.
"What, is that supposed to prove your love for me? So instead of flowers, boys try to kill themselves? Wow, that's so damn romantic," said Jamie.
"Look, I-" started Remus, but Jamie cut him off.
"No, you look. We both need some time to get over what has happened to us," said Jamie.
"Yeah, you're right. But we'll have each other for help," said Remus.
"We won't help, so far all we've done is hurt each other. We need time apart. Consider us over."
Peter crept towards the forbidden forest, not aware of the huge man that was now almost directly behind him. For the past half hour he had miraculously and unknowly evaded capture, keeping Hagrid just short of finding him. But his luck ran short when he snapped a small twig that had found its way onto the path.
"Who's there?" Hagrid boomed. He muttered something, and a faint light burst from the end of the pink umbrella he had been carrying with him.
"I...I..." Peter said, scared without his new friends around to protect him.
"Pettigrew, is that you? What are you doin' here? Are Potter and Black out here with you?" Hagrid asked.
"No, they, um, they're..." Peter stammered.
"Don' try to make excuses for 'em," Hagrid bellowed. "Where are they?"
"They're not here," Peter explained quickly. "See, I-I thought that since they're the ones that everyone thinks of as so brave....well, I felt left out so I decided to do something brave too. I heard that Snape had been sneaking into the forbidden forest, so tonight I decided to go after him, alone. I figured that if I caught him then I would win points for Gryffindor, and then maybe more people would like me. But I got lost, and now I don't know where I am and...."
"Oh, it's okay Peter. I'll take ye back to the castle and we jus' won' mention this to Dumbledore. But don' go thinkin' that you can do something stupid like this again," Hagrid said, obviously feeling sorry for poor little Peter.
Snape, who had been not far from the incident, watched as the faint light dissolved into nothing.
"That snitch," he said. "He's going to pay."
Remus couldn't stand being in his dorm room anymore. A few minutes after Jamie left, he left the dorm and ran from the common room to the Maurader's meeting room. Right before he got to the entrance, he ran into someone and fell to the ground.
"We have to stop meeting like this," she said, stretching out her hand to help him up. Remus looked into her deep, flirtacious eyes. It was Evie.
"Hey, I...Uh..." he stammered. Before he could get anything else out, she planted a kiss on his lips.
"I want you," she said, pulling him tight and kissing him intensely.
"I know a place where we can be alone..." he replied, and then opened the door to the Maurader's room. He checked around to see if anyone was watching, then closed it behind him.
A/N- Well, that's it for now. I sure hope this chappy hasn't offended anyone, but this was the only thing I could think of Remus irrationally doing and it does move the story on quite nicely. Once again this is late, I know. I hope you liked it though.
Since I can't wait for the third movie (I'm seeing it at midnight), I've made a Harry Potter blogskin. If you guys want to use it (for free, of course) on your blog, you can look at it Sorry, that was kind of a shameless plug, but I'm really proud of this one!
Disclaimer- I own nothing.