Russian Blue
Author's notes: Nice and listening to Norah Jones. It's just a rainy night, I felt like slidding down and having a glass of wine and listening to Miss Jones while writing this. Cool, hum? I wish I was outside... and it was still raining, not freezing like it is. Snow coming soon! Yey snow!
Disclaimer: Fake! Belongs to Sanami Matoh and her people. The song is called "The Last Dance" (El Ultimo Baile) by Hombres G.
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"So, how are things?"
Dana had just dropped by to check on Ryo and Gaiev. It'd been a while since she'd heard from either, so she guessed things had to be going on smoothly and with no other problems, yet the day before when she saw Ryo at the precinct she had this nagging feeling that the chestnut blond wanted to talk to someone and that someone just HAD to be her. Ryo sighed as he sat down. He didn't know exactly why Dana had come all the way over just to bring over a bag of apples, but now as she just finished throwing the question at him he knew just what she was doing there: she was being a good friend.
"Fine," he sighed softly. They where inside the bedroom as Ryo wanted to show her the entire place and somehow the tour always ended in the bedroom. They had poured a couple of glasses of wine that Dana had brought over (along with the apples, yes) and where now talking as they sat on the bed; well, Ryo was mostly sitting while as Dana was mostly just spreading herself all over the smooth covers in a very lazily fashion. She was more or less like a kitten (Ryo thought and laughed at the image of Dana wearing kitty ears and kitty tail).
"Oh tsk, tsk, Ryo! I've know you for how long? Com'on. You're not okay and you know it. Spill... Where's Gaiev?"
"He's at work. He works at this art storage place, he likes it very much. I think he works in restoring paintings and such..."
"Wow! I never knew he had such talents!"
"Neither did I, but apparently he does. He even went to this fancy-shamcy art school in Moscow and stuff. But he got the job, he's very happy."
"But you're not, right?" Ryo giggled softly and dragged his head down. Dana scootched over, trying to find his face, "Am I right?"
"You're so perceptive," Ryo admitted, "Where you always this good?"
"Helps if you're a girl," she winked, "Now, are you gonna spill or am I going to have to use force to drag it out of you?"
"It's - it's nothing, it's stupid things really," he said slowly, looking into the wine inside the glass as if it would give him a better perspective of things.
"From stupid things bad bigger things have been known to be born, Ryo. Let me guess: you don't like Gaiev's new job?"
"No, it's not that. I mean, I'm happy that he's happy with this new employment even if it does take him almost all day and he leaves at eight in the morning and comes home at six or sometimes seven in the afternoon and then I leave at nine... We barely have time for "us" time, you know? And it is a bit hard, but we both know it's worth it because we're building up from it, you know, a home? A security? A bond? Stuff like that..."
"Yet, there's a BUT, right?"
Ryo sighed deeply, "It's just that... sometimes... sometimes I wonder if he loves me..." Dana blinked surprised and Ryo rushed to keep speaking, "I mean, (sigh!) I know he does, I KNOW he does... but... sometimes I wonder what's he thinking about when we... you know..."
"Shag?"
"Wh-Dana!"
"Oh, please Ryo, stop pretending to be so innocent and shy, we both you better than that!" she laughed making Ryo giggle, "But seriously, you think he's thinking of something else while you do *do* it?"
"No, not something - someone."
"You think he thinks of someone else?" she frowned looking puzzled. Ryo moaned depressed, "Ryo, baby, what's going on?"
"Everything!" he shouted out, then regained his sences, "I mean, God! It's hard, Dana. I though it wouldn't be because I love him - and I really do - and all, but... turns out it ain't that easy. I can't help but to think he's... thinking about someone else, about someone he might have done before, maybe fucked better or something..."
"Ryo!" she said in mocking alarm, "Such profanity!"
"Sorry... But that's how I feel... I know it sound stupid, hell! I know it IS stupid! He loves me, Dana, I know he does. And I love him. Isn't this weird? To have all these... thoughts of things that scour inside my puny little brain? It just sickens me, that's all..."
"What sickens you more, Ryo? The thought of him doing that - or the fact that you're not around him for a long period of time, hence don't know what exactly is he doing?"
"I don't know. Both. Maybe."
They heard a sound coming from the livingroom and immediately stood up. Gaiev had just walked in to the house and found himself in the need to hold on to the sofa, "Oh, sorry," he said softly when he saw Dana, "I didn't know we 'ad visitors. 'i Dana."
"Hi Gaiev, good to see you!" she waved, but Gaiev seemed strange somehow. He walked towards them and shook Dana's hand, "Are you okay?" she asked.
Gaiev shook his head slowly, "I felt bad and asked my supervisor to let me go 'ome early and probably not show up tomorrow. My 'ead really 'urts an' I think I might 'ave a fever..."
"You do feel warm," Ryo said feeling Gaiev's forehead and looking worried, "Com'on, I'll help you get in to bed..."
"It's alright. I can manage. Don't be a bad 'ost, Ryo and tend to the guests. I'll just go to bed. Good to see you again Dana."
"Get better!" Dana kissed him in the cheek as Gaiev walked by towards the bedroom. Once the door was shut, Dana looked worried, "He looks bad... Poor thing! I bet it's the flu - there's a spread, you know?"
"And I have to leave him..."
"No you don't. I'll talk to Berkeley and tell him to give you a week. You need to sort this thing out Ryo; talk to Gaiev, seek help. You both seem to be needing it..."
"We _both_?" Ryo smirked confused.
"Yes. You're not the only one carrying demons around, Ryo - his might be tougher than he lets show," Dana said as she placed the glass down on the coffee table, took her purse and coat, "Seek help, okay?"
"Ok... thank you for listening" Ryo kissed her cheek. He showed her to the door and then carried himself over to the bedroom, where Gaiev had already gone down under the covers. He crawled up and leaned over his lover's ear, "Gaiev?"
"Yeah?" he replied a bit groggy. His cheeks where flushed red.
"I'll go to the store and get some medicine, okay? I'll be back in a little while..."
"Yeah..." Gaiev drifted.
As he walked over to the near-by pharmacy, Ryo couldn't help but to wonder if prehaps Gaiev had listened to the entire conversation. It was heard to hear when someone came in from inside the bedroom, and it seemed (to him) that Gaiev tried to make noise and get noticed. Nevertheless, his poor puppy was sick and he intended to nurture him back to health. When he came back home, there was one message on the answering machine.
Beep!
"Hi! Hummm... Sorry to call you at home, Gaiev. I just wanted to be clear on the date? It's Monday the 15th, at 8. Be sharp, okay? And bring all your best stuff, okay kid? See you there!"
Ryo stood there in silence and somewhat in shock. A man had called his lover. A stranger! Another guy had his boyfriend's home number, had just called HIS lover _reminding_ him about a _date_??!
He erased the message. No. This was not him. This was just his mind playing nasty tricks on him again. Must control yourself. Must control. He's sick. He couldn't possibly be doing this, com'on Ryo...
He walked inside the room, fresh water and sponge, medicine for the fever and flu symtoms. He sat next to Gaiev, who opened his eyes groggily and smiled, "Hey!" he mumbled, "I heard the phone. Someone called?"
"No. Didn't even left a message."
"Oh," he sounded a bit dissappointed and Ryo picked up that in a flash. He pushed it aside as he placed the wet sponge over his lover's forehead, "Don't you 'ave to work soon?" Gaiev said, sounding more like a claim than a reminder. Ryo shook his head.
"No. I have the week off thanks to Dana," he kissed Gaiev's hand, "I'm here to make you feel better, ok? I'll take care of you."
"Bu' what if you get sick? I'm contagious!"
"Then, you'll take care of me once you're feeling better," Ryo smiled, playing with Gaiev's hair. Gaiev snuggled closer to Ryo. It made him feel better just feeling him close.
"Thank you," he mumbled.
"Sshhh... sleep..."
"I love you..."
"... sleep, my love... sleep..."
"Do you love me?"
"You know I do"
"Then say it: tell me you love me..."
"I love you with all my heart," he kissed his hand. Gaiev smiled.
El último baile para besarte otra vez [The last dance to kiss you again]
El último abrazo y te prometo que me iré [The last hug and I promise you I'll leave]
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Note: Not totally drunk, yet I am sleepy. Good wine! Good music! Bad Ryo! Bad Ryo!
Hmmmmmmm... I feel lucky today! (does a little jug)
DanielBlair_5@hotmail.com
Author's notes: Nice and listening to Norah Jones. It's just a rainy night, I felt like slidding down and having a glass of wine and listening to Miss Jones while writing this. Cool, hum? I wish I was outside... and it was still raining, not freezing like it is. Snow coming soon! Yey snow!
Disclaimer: Fake! Belongs to Sanami Matoh and her people. The song is called "The Last Dance" (El Ultimo Baile) by Hombres G.
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"So, how are things?"
Dana had just dropped by to check on Ryo and Gaiev. It'd been a while since she'd heard from either, so she guessed things had to be going on smoothly and with no other problems, yet the day before when she saw Ryo at the precinct she had this nagging feeling that the chestnut blond wanted to talk to someone and that someone just HAD to be her. Ryo sighed as he sat down. He didn't know exactly why Dana had come all the way over just to bring over a bag of apples, but now as she just finished throwing the question at him he knew just what she was doing there: she was being a good friend.
"Fine," he sighed softly. They where inside the bedroom as Ryo wanted to show her the entire place and somehow the tour always ended in the bedroom. They had poured a couple of glasses of wine that Dana had brought over (along with the apples, yes) and where now talking as they sat on the bed; well, Ryo was mostly sitting while as Dana was mostly just spreading herself all over the smooth covers in a very lazily fashion. She was more or less like a kitten (Ryo thought and laughed at the image of Dana wearing kitty ears and kitty tail).
"Oh tsk, tsk, Ryo! I've know you for how long? Com'on. You're not okay and you know it. Spill... Where's Gaiev?"
"He's at work. He works at this art storage place, he likes it very much. I think he works in restoring paintings and such..."
"Wow! I never knew he had such talents!"
"Neither did I, but apparently he does. He even went to this fancy-shamcy art school in Moscow and stuff. But he got the job, he's very happy."
"But you're not, right?" Ryo giggled softly and dragged his head down. Dana scootched over, trying to find his face, "Am I right?"
"You're so perceptive," Ryo admitted, "Where you always this good?"
"Helps if you're a girl," she winked, "Now, are you gonna spill or am I going to have to use force to drag it out of you?"
"It's - it's nothing, it's stupid things really," he said slowly, looking into the wine inside the glass as if it would give him a better perspective of things.
"From stupid things bad bigger things have been known to be born, Ryo. Let me guess: you don't like Gaiev's new job?"
"No, it's not that. I mean, I'm happy that he's happy with this new employment even if it does take him almost all day and he leaves at eight in the morning and comes home at six or sometimes seven in the afternoon and then I leave at nine... We barely have time for "us" time, you know? And it is a bit hard, but we both know it's worth it because we're building up from it, you know, a home? A security? A bond? Stuff like that..."
"Yet, there's a BUT, right?"
Ryo sighed deeply, "It's just that... sometimes... sometimes I wonder if he loves me..." Dana blinked surprised and Ryo rushed to keep speaking, "I mean, (sigh!) I know he does, I KNOW he does... but... sometimes I wonder what's he thinking about when we... you know..."
"Shag?"
"Wh-Dana!"
"Oh, please Ryo, stop pretending to be so innocent and shy, we both you better than that!" she laughed making Ryo giggle, "But seriously, you think he's thinking of something else while you do *do* it?"
"No, not something - someone."
"You think he thinks of someone else?" she frowned looking puzzled. Ryo moaned depressed, "Ryo, baby, what's going on?"
"Everything!" he shouted out, then regained his sences, "I mean, God! It's hard, Dana. I though it wouldn't be because I love him - and I really do - and all, but... turns out it ain't that easy. I can't help but to think he's... thinking about someone else, about someone he might have done before, maybe fucked better or something..."
"Ryo!" she said in mocking alarm, "Such profanity!"
"Sorry... But that's how I feel... I know it sound stupid, hell! I know it IS stupid! He loves me, Dana, I know he does. And I love him. Isn't this weird? To have all these... thoughts of things that scour inside my puny little brain? It just sickens me, that's all..."
"What sickens you more, Ryo? The thought of him doing that - or the fact that you're not around him for a long period of time, hence don't know what exactly is he doing?"
"I don't know. Both. Maybe."
They heard a sound coming from the livingroom and immediately stood up. Gaiev had just walked in to the house and found himself in the need to hold on to the sofa, "Oh, sorry," he said softly when he saw Dana, "I didn't know we 'ad visitors. 'i Dana."
"Hi Gaiev, good to see you!" she waved, but Gaiev seemed strange somehow. He walked towards them and shook Dana's hand, "Are you okay?" she asked.
Gaiev shook his head slowly, "I felt bad and asked my supervisor to let me go 'ome early and probably not show up tomorrow. My 'ead really 'urts an' I think I might 'ave a fever..."
"You do feel warm," Ryo said feeling Gaiev's forehead and looking worried, "Com'on, I'll help you get in to bed..."
"It's alright. I can manage. Don't be a bad 'ost, Ryo and tend to the guests. I'll just go to bed. Good to see you again Dana."
"Get better!" Dana kissed him in the cheek as Gaiev walked by towards the bedroom. Once the door was shut, Dana looked worried, "He looks bad... Poor thing! I bet it's the flu - there's a spread, you know?"
"And I have to leave him..."
"No you don't. I'll talk to Berkeley and tell him to give you a week. You need to sort this thing out Ryo; talk to Gaiev, seek help. You both seem to be needing it..."
"We _both_?" Ryo smirked confused.
"Yes. You're not the only one carrying demons around, Ryo - his might be tougher than he lets show," Dana said as she placed the glass down on the coffee table, took her purse and coat, "Seek help, okay?"
"Ok... thank you for listening" Ryo kissed her cheek. He showed her to the door and then carried himself over to the bedroom, where Gaiev had already gone down under the covers. He crawled up and leaned over his lover's ear, "Gaiev?"
"Yeah?" he replied a bit groggy. His cheeks where flushed red.
"I'll go to the store and get some medicine, okay? I'll be back in a little while..."
"Yeah..." Gaiev drifted.
As he walked over to the near-by pharmacy, Ryo couldn't help but to wonder if prehaps Gaiev had listened to the entire conversation. It was heard to hear when someone came in from inside the bedroom, and it seemed (to him) that Gaiev tried to make noise and get noticed. Nevertheless, his poor puppy was sick and he intended to nurture him back to health. When he came back home, there was one message on the answering machine.
Beep!
"Hi! Hummm... Sorry to call you at home, Gaiev. I just wanted to be clear on the date? It's Monday the 15th, at 8. Be sharp, okay? And bring all your best stuff, okay kid? See you there!"
Ryo stood there in silence and somewhat in shock. A man had called his lover. A stranger! Another guy had his boyfriend's home number, had just called HIS lover _reminding_ him about a _date_??!
He erased the message. No. This was not him. This was just his mind playing nasty tricks on him again. Must control yourself. Must control. He's sick. He couldn't possibly be doing this, com'on Ryo...
He walked inside the room, fresh water and sponge, medicine for the fever and flu symtoms. He sat next to Gaiev, who opened his eyes groggily and smiled, "Hey!" he mumbled, "I heard the phone. Someone called?"
"No. Didn't even left a message."
"Oh," he sounded a bit dissappointed and Ryo picked up that in a flash. He pushed it aside as he placed the wet sponge over his lover's forehead, "Don't you 'ave to work soon?" Gaiev said, sounding more like a claim than a reminder. Ryo shook his head.
"No. I have the week off thanks to Dana," he kissed Gaiev's hand, "I'm here to make you feel better, ok? I'll take care of you."
"Bu' what if you get sick? I'm contagious!"
"Then, you'll take care of me once you're feeling better," Ryo smiled, playing with Gaiev's hair. Gaiev snuggled closer to Ryo. It made him feel better just feeling him close.
"Thank you," he mumbled.
"Sshhh... sleep..."
"I love you..."
"... sleep, my love... sleep..."
"Do you love me?"
"You know I do"
"Then say it: tell me you love me..."
"I love you with all my heart," he kissed his hand. Gaiev smiled.
El último baile para besarte otra vez [The last dance to kiss you again]
El último abrazo y te prometo que me iré [The last hug and I promise you I'll leave]
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Note: Not totally drunk, yet I am sleepy. Good wine! Good music! Bad Ryo! Bad Ryo!
Hmmmmmmm... I feel lucky today! (does a little jug)
DanielBlair_5@hotmail.com