Silence...
Why is it all so quiet?
...........................................Why are you gone?
Why did you do this to me?
..............................I thought you loved me...
... I thought...
.... I thought...
................................. I thought you would never leave me.................
.......you promised...........
.................................you would stay with me forever..............
-----'----,-- (@ RUSSIAN BLUE @)--,----'-----
Finale, Part 1
-- Cold one coming on --
Rain kept falling down for an unknown reason because there where no clouds in the sky. But it was okay. The rain melted his tears away and it made the pain easier to deal with. Patience. Everyone he'd know had told him to have patience and time would erase everything. Really? Doubt so. He felt so empty inside.
The sound still penetrated his ears.
The blood...
... the smell of gun powder...
... Gaiev's eyes....
His last words...
"I love you, Ryo"
.... Love... yeah....
Nothing last forever, as the song says...
Driving home gets longer every day
I found new things to do along the way
A bar room ain't no place to run and hide
From the memories of a love that said good-bye
He gave a deep sigh and left the bouquet of flowers on top of the grave that read "Dee Laytener" then turned to face the other one, where he'd dropped another similar bouquet a couple of minutes ago. "Gaiev Borisnikayta" it said... or he thought it did, he wasn't sure as the letter where written in Russian and he knew closer to nothing about it. He would like to imagine that the epitaph read something like "Loved brother, good friend" or "He was loved"... but somehow his mind kept reading "blew his brains out in front of me after making love", a very mean thing to think, even if it was true. He looked up, keeping his eyes open in hopes that the rain could erase his memory by entering his cornea. No such luck.
Lucky people who have everything in their lives. What do you have Ryo? Nothing. I have nothing. I have no one to go home to. The two people I ever loved are dead. My son and my daughter-in-law have their own child now... I have nothing. I am left alone. Why do they leave?
Do you make them leave, God? Are you jealous that you have no one who loves you so much up in heaven and that's why you want them by your side? You took Dee away, shamelessly – you took him away without warning, just like that. A snap of the old godly-like fingers and it was done. And Gaiev; how come you didn't let Gaiev know that I was there for him? Why couldn't you make him see another exit? You just drove him to a path no one could predict, no one could set good. You drove him to insanity, drove him to believe that there was no other way out of it, that he was worthless, that I wouldn't miss him. Honestly, you must be laughing in your little couch, you sick freak...
So equal. Even the graves are identical. Cold. Stone. Engraved. Holding together pieces of life, of love. My life. My love. How much can a box hold?
I am making no sense.
I wonder if it was me who was dead... if I was the one deep down that piece of dirt...
... would anybody miss me?
... would Dee have carried on without me?
... would Gaiev met Dee?
... would I be happier?
... would the pain still exist?
God! Would the pain still exist?!
Gaiev!! Gaiev!! You shit!! You promised! You promised you would stay with me forever! You promised that you would love me and that we would be together! That everything would be alright! Well, it's not! It's not alright! We are not together! You DIED!! You shot yourself in our home, in our bed!! You shot yourself so that my eyes could see!! YOU FUCK!!
I HATE YOU!!
I HATE YOU!!
.... God.... I love you...
... why couldn't you see that?... why couldn't I see that?.... why must it be too late for everything?... why can't the rain take me away?... why can't the rain take away everything... everything we did?... everything we said?... everything we touched?... all those nights we made love?... all those promises we made?...
.... Why did you made me fall in love with you?? Why did you made me dependant of your existence if you where going to go away afterward?? Why did you made me see through your eyes if you where going to close them forever?? ......
(Nothing lasts forever...even cold November rain...)
Home. An empty house can't be called a home, can it? And it was right here where you took this piece of metal and end it all... can I do the same?
A gun....
Is it so simple? Is it really that simple?
Look!! It is!! I can just take this gun and point it at my head and pull the trigger!! It's really simple!! The pain will go away in a flash!! No more tears!! No more pain!! No more emptiness!! It can all go away just like that!!
Look at me God!!
I SAID LOOK AT ME!!
See? It's really simple!! Take the gun, shoot the bullet and another one of your creations leaves this earth!! So simple!! I can play God and end my misery!! I can play God too!! Why should I stay behind? Why should I be the one who stays to feel the hole inside my soul!? Why should I not join those I loved?! Dee! Gaiev! You just wait for me and see!!
................ Why? ................
Look... the door....
Bikky!
Makes you wanna start thinking about drinking!
If I don't find a way to ease my mind
And leave all this behind
I'm gonna go crazy!
Without you, baby!
"Ryo?"
Ryo turned around. He didn't noticed that he'd walked in to the house and he'd left the door unlocked. Carol stood in the doorway, holding her child in her arms, crying softly as Bikky had taken him by the arm and was looking at him with anguish eyes, "Ryo, please... put down the gun... please? Don't do this Ryo..."
His son was crying. Ryo threw himself over Bikky's shoulders, crying loudly. The gun hit the floor with a soft thump as Ryo's grip became lose.
"Oh God! Why?!" he sobbed over and over as Bikky held him tightly, trying to soothe him as best he could. His eyes found those of Carol's, who closed the door behind her and had now kneeled next to them, the baby still sleeping in the carrier Bikky had dragged when they walked in. she threw her arms around them both, her own cries being silenced by Ryo's sobbin.
Outside, it had stopped raining all together and the moon was starting to shine brighter than it ever had.
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Disclaimer: Fake belongs to Sanami Matoh and her people. Other characters included in this fic belong to Yuvia. The song here is called "Cold one Coming on" and it's sung by Montgomery Gentry.
DanielBlair_5@hotmail.com
Why is it all so quiet?
...........................................Why are you gone?
Why did you do this to me?
..............................I thought you loved me...
... I thought...
.... I thought...
................................. I thought you would never leave me.................
.......you promised...........
.................................you would stay with me forever..............
-----'----,-- (@ RUSSIAN BLUE @)--,----'-----
Finale, Part 1
-- Cold one coming on --
Rain kept falling down for an unknown reason because there where no clouds in the sky. But it was okay. The rain melted his tears away and it made the pain easier to deal with. Patience. Everyone he'd know had told him to have patience and time would erase everything. Really? Doubt so. He felt so empty inside.
The sound still penetrated his ears.
The blood...
... the smell of gun powder...
... Gaiev's eyes....
His last words...
"I love you, Ryo"
.... Love... yeah....
Nothing last forever, as the song says...
Driving home gets longer every day
I found new things to do along the way
A bar room ain't no place to run and hide
From the memories of a love that said good-bye
He gave a deep sigh and left the bouquet of flowers on top of the grave that read "Dee Laytener" then turned to face the other one, where he'd dropped another similar bouquet a couple of minutes ago. "Gaiev Borisnikayta" it said... or he thought it did, he wasn't sure as the letter where written in Russian and he knew closer to nothing about it. He would like to imagine that the epitaph read something like "Loved brother, good friend" or "He was loved"... but somehow his mind kept reading "blew his brains out in front of me after making love", a very mean thing to think, even if it was true. He looked up, keeping his eyes open in hopes that the rain could erase his memory by entering his cornea. No such luck.
Lucky people who have everything in their lives. What do you have Ryo? Nothing. I have nothing. I have no one to go home to. The two people I ever loved are dead. My son and my daughter-in-law have their own child now... I have nothing. I am left alone. Why do they leave?
Do you make them leave, God? Are you jealous that you have no one who loves you so much up in heaven and that's why you want them by your side? You took Dee away, shamelessly – you took him away without warning, just like that. A snap of the old godly-like fingers and it was done. And Gaiev; how come you didn't let Gaiev know that I was there for him? Why couldn't you make him see another exit? You just drove him to a path no one could predict, no one could set good. You drove him to insanity, drove him to believe that there was no other way out of it, that he was worthless, that I wouldn't miss him. Honestly, you must be laughing in your little couch, you sick freak...
So equal. Even the graves are identical. Cold. Stone. Engraved. Holding together pieces of life, of love. My life. My love. How much can a box hold?
I am making no sense.
I wonder if it was me who was dead... if I was the one deep down that piece of dirt...
... would anybody miss me?
... would Dee have carried on without me?
... would Gaiev met Dee?
... would I be happier?
... would the pain still exist?
God! Would the pain still exist?!
Gaiev!! Gaiev!! You shit!! You promised! You promised you would stay with me forever! You promised that you would love me and that we would be together! That everything would be alright! Well, it's not! It's not alright! We are not together! You DIED!! You shot yourself in our home, in our bed!! You shot yourself so that my eyes could see!! YOU FUCK!!
I HATE YOU!!
I HATE YOU!!
.... God.... I love you...
... why couldn't you see that?... why couldn't I see that?.... why must it be too late for everything?... why can't the rain take me away?... why can't the rain take away everything... everything we did?... everything we said?... everything we touched?... all those nights we made love?... all those promises we made?...
.... Why did you made me fall in love with you?? Why did you made me dependant of your existence if you where going to go away afterward?? Why did you made me see through your eyes if you where going to close them forever?? ......
(Nothing lasts forever...even cold November rain...)
Home. An empty house can't be called a home, can it? And it was right here where you took this piece of metal and end it all... can I do the same?
A gun....
Is it so simple? Is it really that simple?
Look!! It is!! I can just take this gun and point it at my head and pull the trigger!! It's really simple!! The pain will go away in a flash!! No more tears!! No more pain!! No more emptiness!! It can all go away just like that!!
Look at me God!!
I SAID LOOK AT ME!!
See? It's really simple!! Take the gun, shoot the bullet and another one of your creations leaves this earth!! So simple!! I can play God and end my misery!! I can play God too!! Why should I stay behind? Why should I be the one who stays to feel the hole inside my soul!? Why should I not join those I loved?! Dee! Gaiev! You just wait for me and see!!
................ Why? ................
Look... the door....
Bikky!
Makes you wanna start thinking about drinking!
If I don't find a way to ease my mind
And leave all this behind
I'm gonna go crazy!
Without you, baby!
"Ryo?"
Ryo turned around. He didn't noticed that he'd walked in to the house and he'd left the door unlocked. Carol stood in the doorway, holding her child in her arms, crying softly as Bikky had taken him by the arm and was looking at him with anguish eyes, "Ryo, please... put down the gun... please? Don't do this Ryo..."
His son was crying. Ryo threw himself over Bikky's shoulders, crying loudly. The gun hit the floor with a soft thump as Ryo's grip became lose.
"Oh God! Why?!" he sobbed over and over as Bikky held him tightly, trying to soothe him as best he could. His eyes found those of Carol's, who closed the door behind her and had now kneeled next to them, the baby still sleeping in the carrier Bikky had dragged when they walked in. she threw her arms around them both, her own cries being silenced by Ryo's sobbin.
Outside, it had stopped raining all together and the moon was starting to shine brighter than it ever had.
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Disclaimer: Fake belongs to Sanami Matoh and her people. Other characters included in this fic belong to Yuvia. The song here is called "Cold one Coming on" and it's sung by Montgomery Gentry.
DanielBlair_5@hotmail.com