{Ok this is for all of those who just skipped straight to the 7th chpt. I
actually replaced chpt 6 with a REAL chapter. So um.....you might want to go
back and read it if you already haven't. /ps. I ended up just taking Angry
Blood Sister's advice, she's right thus the continuation of the fic!/
HEY I just figured out I'm a indecisive procrastinator! Not cool Now enjoy
the fic.}
When The World Stops Turning
Chapter 7
After hours of what seemed like an interrogation more than a meeting Trowa's sister, Catherine, finally left. Duo felt like he was some spy being questioned for information the whole time and all questions were how he felt about Trowa; there were even threats being made on his life that if he ever hurt Trowa in any way shape or form she'd kill him. Catherine was kinda scary, but other then that she seemed like a pretty nice, extremely protective sibling, almost made him wish he had a protective brother or sister like her, almost.
"Hey Trowa, do you know how lucky you are?" asked Duo as he ran his right hand up and down Trowa's back.
"Very" up until this point there has been no real obstacle keeping them apart.
"Oh, before I forget again, I got a note or letter of some sort from Heero he............."
"Where is it? What did it say?"
"You're not jealous are you?"
"It's not me, I'm just curious as to what it is that person wants with someone he hurt."
"Well either way here read." Duo handed Trowa the note and watched his face.
Dear Duo
I want to apologize for doing what I did and I hope that you can find it in your heart to forgive me for doing what I did and take some time to consider being with me again. I know you're with Trowa, but I think that we can make things work if we just give it a chance. Please think about it. Love Heero
"I don't trust him."
"That's because you know he wants to work things out now."
"I bet he even consulted a dictionary for all the apologetic words, but Duo..................."
"Don't worry I'm not the kind of person to jump back and forth like that. Besides I want to talk to Heero about Cal and see where that relationship goes because it seems that Cal really likes Heero and wants to be more than just fuck buddies."
"You barely realized that?"
"I'm not very perceptive Trowa."
"Sadly I recently realized that."
"You're cruel."
"No just truthful" there was a knock on the door, both Duo and Trowa looked at it for a second.
"No bodies (bodies?) in at the moment leave a message after the tone.........BEEP." said Duo as he grabbed the blanket on his bed and covered his head.
"Duo that's not nice, can I come in please? I've got a friend I want you to meet."
"Who's the friend?" asked Trowa as he pulled the blanket off of Duo who started to tug on what little of cloth he had left in his hand.
"Oh, hey Trowa............I wanted to introduce Duo to Relena that 's all."
"Well, can you wait a sec while I settle a score?" said Duo still trying to get the blanket back from Trowa who looked like he wasn't trying very hard to hold the blanket captive.
"Umm...............?" was all they heard from behind the door. Meanwhile in the room Trowa managed to twist the blanket in a rope like fashion and was wrapping it around Duo's wrists.
"Trowa this isn't funny at all." Trowa just smiled and Duo rolled his eyes.
"Um............I'm sorry I had no idea I would be interrupting" said Quatre with a smile on his face, the girl next to him had a smile just as bright on her face and waved at the couple on the bed.
"Hello my name is Relena Darlian it's nice to meet you." Said Relena as she extended her hand in order to shake Duo's. It took him a second to finally take the twisted blanket off his writs.
"Um...... Hi I'm Duo" said Duo smiling and shaking her hand in the process.
"Well he's actually much more attractive than I'd thought he'd be from your description." Whispered Relena to Quatre who just smiled in return.
"I had no idea you were coming back yet, I thought you were going to be in England for two years?" stated Trowa subconsciously wrapping an arm around Duo's waist and pulling him closer to his chest.
"I was, but then I missed everyone so much, which reminds me have you seen Heero I haven't gotten the chance to speak to him since I left?" suddenly the room seemed to become tense.
"Uh.........no haven't seem him once all day." Said Duo as he got up and walked to the bathroom. As soon as the door was shut Relena asked a question that had arose in her mind.
"What was that about? I've never seen someone so blatantly angered by a simple question before in my life, besides Kiley." Quatre looked at Trowa for a brief second then Trowa spoke.
"Heero sort of used Duo, but now he kind of wants him back." Said Trowa staring at the bathroom door while fingering the blanket beneath him slowly tracing the patterns.
"I see," said Relena looking pensive for a brief second then spoke once more. "I need to see Heero. Tell Duo I said it was nice meeting him and that I hope we get a chance to get better acquainted later on." Then she left in search of Heero.
Duo slowly walked the long corridor on the boys wing of the school trying to gather his thoughts. He first wanted to talk to Cal, sure there was a bit of hostility between them but he was a little on the hopeful side of getting past it all. He needed to approach Cal in a manner less like himself maybe? No, but what was he going to ask him? He already knew Cal liked, no, loved Heero beyond anything obviously, but Heero didn't? Maybe he should just go talk to Heero first?
After a few minutes of walking he found himself outside again. He decided that fresh air might help him think better. Off in the distance he could hear murmuring, since there seemed to be no one else around he just figured that maybe these people wanted to have a private conversation and he was just about to just up and go when he heard his name. That's when he opted for listening.
".......can't believe you would do something like that! What happed to the Heero I use to know in Junior high? What happened to all your moral ethics? And again Duo! That poor innocent boy, I know I barely met him but still I feel really bad for what you did to him."
"Duo is anything but innocent!"
"Hey!" ducking quickly behind the bush in front of him Duo covered his mouth and prayed for them not to notice it was him who just shouted. Parting the bush leaves in front of him he slowly peered at the pair just a little far off turning back to their conversation/argument.
"Anyways, have you even taken into consideration how Cal feels?" asked Relena pushing back a stray strand of hair from her face as she let her gaze wonder towards the school windows.
"No, why the hell would I? I don't see any need to." Stated Heero turning his head to get a look at what Relena was staring at.
"Damn it Heero because he loves you, he's always loved you!" for a second her eyes were wide, as if she hadn't meant to say that. Heero had a similar one only he conveyed the emotion of complete surprise.
"He what?" asked Heero with a confused look on his face.
"Shit, yes Heero he loves you he always had, since he met you!"
"But that can't be right we're friends."
"No, that is not how you perceive it. Honestly Heero don't tell me you never caught on to that?"
"Well I knew he liked me, but............"
"I really shouldn't have said anything at all." She said in an almost regretful tone.
"I need to go," Said Heero as he took off "I have a report due tomorrow." He finished before he was out of ear shot.
For a few seconds Relena stood there in the Garden quietly before she said shit and then left.
Duo was just about to get up from his crouched position behind the bush when a hand was placed on his shoulder causing him to jump then tumble to the ground in shock.
"Sorry...............didn't mean to scare you." For a moment Duo thought he was seeing things, but then realized he wasn't.
"Um........hey Calmerinin, what're doing here in the garden, scaring people?"
"Heero and I were supposed to meet each other here, but he took off when I saw him in the hallway. He said he had a paper to do, but the strange thing is we both have the same classes and none of them asked us to do a report. I think he's trying to avoid me."
"Why would he do that?" asked Duo as he sat up and looked at Cal's painful state.
"Like you don't know, I saw you listening to them and their conversation. Hell I was listening."
"Wait why did you apologize to me?"
"One: for yelling at you earlier, Two: for being an ass to you constantly, and Three: scaring you right now."
"Oh, I see. Cal?" Cal looked like he was about to cry.
"I don't think he likes me back."
Later on in the day
"I swear it's not as bad as it looks honestly."
"Really?"
"Look he's having problems and he can't go back to his room because his roommate is the source of his anxiety. I brought him back here and then he fell asleep, so I thought this was a good opportunity to take a shower to relax. That brings us to here the present moment..............which is now technically considered the past."
"Duo this is like fraternizing with the enemy, this is foreign affairs and we have no business in them! Get him out now! Please!"
"Trowa have a heart will you?" there was a knock at the door and both boys became quite for a moment, then Duo went to answer it.
"Who is it?" questioned Duo.
"Kiley!" both Duo and Trowa looked at each other then Duo opened the door.
"Sorry, were we being loud?"
"Unintentionally I'm sure, but yes. And I thought it would do good to tell you that half the student body can hear your argument."
"That can't be good."
"Well thanks Kiley, bye." Said Trowa as he shut the door only to hear a knock on it again. Quickly he opened the door saw who it was then closed it just as quickly.
"Don't do that! Who was it?" yelled Duo.
"Nobody!" yelled Trowa then noticed the look on Duo's face then caved in, but was still yelling "Just Relena!"
"Err.........Trowa!" yelled Duo as he opened the door to find Relena still standing at the door, but with a shocked look on her face.
"Oh my, did I come at a bad time?" asked Relena in a bewildered tone.
"No, it's okay Trowa's just jumping to conclusions and wants Cal to leave."
"Cal's here?" asked Relena walking into the room next to the bed Cal was laying on.
"Why were you looking for him?"
"Well I wanted to talk to him about Heero, but since he's sleeping I guess I'll leave him be."
"If you wont make him leave I'll drag him to his room."
"Trowa I understand how you feel but Cal needs to be around people who care. He's got no one to talk to." Said Duo attempting a sad puppy dog face.
"Heero" stated Trowa.
"He can't go to Heero, Heero's why he's this way at the moment." Said Duo with a stubborn look on his face.
"Fine" sighed Trowa.
"Do you two have to be so loud?" came Cal's voice from the bed.
"Oh hey your awake, cool. Relena wants to talk to you." Said Trowa.
"About what?" asked Cal lifting an eyebrow in her direction.
"Heero" stated Relena.
"Ummm sure whatever, Duo?" said Cal looking at the floor as he tried his shoe laces.
"What?" asked Duo.
"Do......can you come to?" asked Cal looking at Trowa.
"Sure no problem there was a few things I wanted to clear up and ask you anyways. Don't worry Trowa I'll be back soon ok?" said Duo looking directly at Trowa as the other two left the room.
"Ok" said Trowa in a soft but compelling voice.
As the three of them left Duo's room they became quite in the short distance to Heero and Cal's room. Cal opened the door and let them in, Duo noticed that the room didn't look that much different than it did before besides the fact that there was another bed in it. Cal sat on his bed and Relena grabbed the chair that was nearest to her while Duo merely stood.
"So?" implored Cal.
"I'm sorry, I told Heero something I should have left to you." Said Relena looking unusually guilty.
"It's ok , if you hadn't told him he might have never known. And you Du........" Duo had accidentally knocked over Heero's English book and reading a paper that had fallen out of it. "What are you doing?"
"Uh just reading something Heero wrote that seems quite interesting actually."
"Duo it's wrong to read other peoples things." Stated Relena as she got up and stood next to Duo so that she could read it as well. Cal stood and walked over to the pair by Heero's chest. And began reading the folded paper.
I missed spending time with him, listening to the sound of his voice. I guess in a way he reminded me of my first. He was so full of life and held so much worth in me. And when he had to move away it sort of took its toll on me. In the beginning we wrote each other everyday, than weekly, then letters were sent monthly, which ended abruptly with nothing, I still wrote though. Even now I still write, but I think he moved on from me ,like Duo has, but if I hadn't hurt Duo the way I had we'd probably still be together. Love was a feeling I was never use to before. I so rarely felt it that the mere thought of it seemed foreign to me. God what's wrong with me?
Now on to the issue of Cal, I mean seriously I knew to an extent that he liked me, but I never knew that he loved me?! But I guess it should have been obvious, what with the way he so willingly spread his legs for me.......... wait that was a bit harsh, I just mean that he was willing to bend so easily to my every need that I took it as he was as needy as I was. I had made the mistake, that he had the same views on sex that I did. One: it felt good, Two: it made you forget things you didn't want to remember, and Three: the experience in itself was amazing. The last one is actually just a different version of reason one.
I bet if I were to compare Duo and Cal to each other I'd still want Duo, but he would never want me back. And the problem with Cal is that I just can't see Cal in a romantic sense at all. To me, he has always been a friend who had the same interests as me. It turns out his interests was me. And I would date Cal, but I don't want him to feel as if I'm settling for him, I honestly don't know what to do. I remember my mom telling me once that when your brain can no longer do the thinking, let your heart choose, but she never got the chance to tell me what to do when your heart could not decide.
Mom I miss you (((((((
Duo stared at the paper then looked at Relena who barely finished reading it.
"I forgot that his mother had passed away." Said Relena as she refolded the paper and placed it back in Heero's English book. Cal looked at them both for a second and spoke.
"I remember Heero's mother, she was a very nice woman, and actually the only other mother I can compare her to is mine and well she was nicer than my mother could have ever been in her entire existence." Duo looked at both Cal and Relena for a second then decided to ask Cal a question.
"Cal your mother, what was she like?" thought he wasn't quire sure Cal would answer him he hoped that Cal held enough confidence in both he and Relena.
"My mom........why?" for a second Duo could swear he heard fear in Cal's voice.
"Well I was just wondering......"
"Well don't wonder damnit, it's none of your fucking business!" both Duo and Relena jerked back. Cal's eyes seemed to widen as he realized what he did. "I'm sorry it's just a touchy subject with me."
"No, I shouldn't have asked" said Duo standing up.
"No it was a legitimate question. I shouldn't have lashed out like that."
"Um......Cal you wouldn't mind telling us about it right now would you?" asked Relena "I swear we wont think badly of the situation or you I promise."
Cal looked at Duo as if to make sure Duo's feeling reflected the same as Relena's. Then he walked over to his bed and sat down and then laid flat on his back hands covering his eyes then smoothed them over his head. After consoling himself mentally he took a deep breath and started to speak.
"My mother, she's a very beautiful woman, but that's about it. Nobody knows how she really is. In public, whenever we went out together, as a "family" she would smile that false smile of hers and speak in a tone more foreign than friendly, at least to me that is. At home she was, is a completely different person. She hits me yells at me.........she does thing that parents........mothers ........shouldn't do to their kids, to me. I hate going home, so I try to stay at Heero's house as often and long as possible." Cal's eyes were red and he kept wiping at his eyes to try to and keep the tears from falling.
"Does Heero know?" asked Duo walking over to Cal and sat right next to him on the bed.
"Yeah, that's why during the summer Hero basically lets me live at this home. His mother was such a loving and caring person, she so willing had accepted me into her home and heart. I really wish my mom was more like Heero's mother had been when she was alive. Sometimes my mother comes over to his house drunk and tries to take me back home with ere. Usually hero ends up calling the police and I end up cr..........crying for most of the night."
"What about your father?" asked Relena with a worried look on her face.
"He treats me just as bad as Mom does."
"Cal? When you said your mother did things she shouldn't do , what did you mean by that?" asked Relena piecing together what she knew would be his answer, but wanting only to confirm it before she spoke of the matter more freely.
"The most logical term I can think of is sexual abuse."
"Wait, no ones ever done anything about it?"
"Everyone is too afraid to because father is such an influential man in our town."
"I don't see why though, I mean come on it's wrong no matter who's doing it."
"I'd say you were right, but the fact that there is no evidence to prove what she had done to me doesn't help. Nobody believed Heero, that or they just didn't want to be on the end of any law suits for stating a "lie". Everyone thought my mother was some kind fucking god damn saint, I hater her and my father both and I hope that they die a horrible painful death!"
The door opened and all three of them turned their heads towards the door to see who it was. Heero stood at the doorway and stared at the three of them for a moment. He let his eyes wonder around the room for a second then walked in shutting the door behind him. Cal, Duo, and Relena watched as Heero placed a bag in the closet and then walked over to his drawer and opened it taking out a red T-shirt, a pair of Khaki pants, and black shoes. The three continued to watch as Heero walked into the bathroom then turned their heads back to each other as soon as Heero shut the door.
Both Duo and Relena stood up and looked at Cal.
"Right now I think what you need to do is just talk to Heero and just straight out tell him how you feel."
"I would, but damnit Duo! He still loves you, love, do you hear me LOVE!"
"Ok, ok, how about when he gets out of the shower you, me, and Heero just all sit down together and.............talk." Duo glanced at the bathroom for a brief second then placed his gaze back on Cal. "What do ya say?"
"Thanks........" Relena placed a hand on Cal's shoulder as if loaning him some of her strength/ courage, then left wishing both luck as she closed the door.
"Do you think there's anyway to convince her that we talked to him?" asked Duo, but all he got from Cal was a simple shrug of the shoulders. So after five minutes of waiting the bathroom door opened.
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Well I'm most sincerely sorry for like being me and not updating in like forever!
Please don't hate me...........
And thank you all for reading, sadly I don't know when I'll be able to update next. But I'll try just as long as I know people are reading this.
Sev-chan out!
When The World Stops Turning
Chapter 7
After hours of what seemed like an interrogation more than a meeting Trowa's sister, Catherine, finally left. Duo felt like he was some spy being questioned for information the whole time and all questions were how he felt about Trowa; there were even threats being made on his life that if he ever hurt Trowa in any way shape or form she'd kill him. Catherine was kinda scary, but other then that she seemed like a pretty nice, extremely protective sibling, almost made him wish he had a protective brother or sister like her, almost.
"Hey Trowa, do you know how lucky you are?" asked Duo as he ran his right hand up and down Trowa's back.
"Very" up until this point there has been no real obstacle keeping them apart.
"Oh, before I forget again, I got a note or letter of some sort from Heero he............."
"Where is it? What did it say?"
"You're not jealous are you?"
"It's not me, I'm just curious as to what it is that person wants with someone he hurt."
"Well either way here read." Duo handed Trowa the note and watched his face.
Dear Duo
I want to apologize for doing what I did and I hope that you can find it in your heart to forgive me for doing what I did and take some time to consider being with me again. I know you're with Trowa, but I think that we can make things work if we just give it a chance. Please think about it. Love Heero
"I don't trust him."
"That's because you know he wants to work things out now."
"I bet he even consulted a dictionary for all the apologetic words, but Duo..................."
"Don't worry I'm not the kind of person to jump back and forth like that. Besides I want to talk to Heero about Cal and see where that relationship goes because it seems that Cal really likes Heero and wants to be more than just fuck buddies."
"You barely realized that?"
"I'm not very perceptive Trowa."
"Sadly I recently realized that."
"You're cruel."
"No just truthful" there was a knock on the door, both Duo and Trowa looked at it for a second.
"No bodies (bodies?) in at the moment leave a message after the tone.........BEEP." said Duo as he grabbed the blanket on his bed and covered his head.
"Duo that's not nice, can I come in please? I've got a friend I want you to meet."
"Who's the friend?" asked Trowa as he pulled the blanket off of Duo who started to tug on what little of cloth he had left in his hand.
"Oh, hey Trowa............I wanted to introduce Duo to Relena that 's all."
"Well, can you wait a sec while I settle a score?" said Duo still trying to get the blanket back from Trowa who looked like he wasn't trying very hard to hold the blanket captive.
"Umm...............?" was all they heard from behind the door. Meanwhile in the room Trowa managed to twist the blanket in a rope like fashion and was wrapping it around Duo's wrists.
"Trowa this isn't funny at all." Trowa just smiled and Duo rolled his eyes.
"Um............I'm sorry I had no idea I would be interrupting" said Quatre with a smile on his face, the girl next to him had a smile just as bright on her face and waved at the couple on the bed.
"Hello my name is Relena Darlian it's nice to meet you." Said Relena as she extended her hand in order to shake Duo's. It took him a second to finally take the twisted blanket off his writs.
"Um...... Hi I'm Duo" said Duo smiling and shaking her hand in the process.
"Well he's actually much more attractive than I'd thought he'd be from your description." Whispered Relena to Quatre who just smiled in return.
"I had no idea you were coming back yet, I thought you were going to be in England for two years?" stated Trowa subconsciously wrapping an arm around Duo's waist and pulling him closer to his chest.
"I was, but then I missed everyone so much, which reminds me have you seen Heero I haven't gotten the chance to speak to him since I left?" suddenly the room seemed to become tense.
"Uh.........no haven't seem him once all day." Said Duo as he got up and walked to the bathroom. As soon as the door was shut Relena asked a question that had arose in her mind.
"What was that about? I've never seen someone so blatantly angered by a simple question before in my life, besides Kiley." Quatre looked at Trowa for a brief second then Trowa spoke.
"Heero sort of used Duo, but now he kind of wants him back." Said Trowa staring at the bathroom door while fingering the blanket beneath him slowly tracing the patterns.
"I see," said Relena looking pensive for a brief second then spoke once more. "I need to see Heero. Tell Duo I said it was nice meeting him and that I hope we get a chance to get better acquainted later on." Then she left in search of Heero.
Duo slowly walked the long corridor on the boys wing of the school trying to gather his thoughts. He first wanted to talk to Cal, sure there was a bit of hostility between them but he was a little on the hopeful side of getting past it all. He needed to approach Cal in a manner less like himself maybe? No, but what was he going to ask him? He already knew Cal liked, no, loved Heero beyond anything obviously, but Heero didn't? Maybe he should just go talk to Heero first?
After a few minutes of walking he found himself outside again. He decided that fresh air might help him think better. Off in the distance he could hear murmuring, since there seemed to be no one else around he just figured that maybe these people wanted to have a private conversation and he was just about to just up and go when he heard his name. That's when he opted for listening.
".......can't believe you would do something like that! What happed to the Heero I use to know in Junior high? What happened to all your moral ethics? And again Duo! That poor innocent boy, I know I barely met him but still I feel really bad for what you did to him."
"Duo is anything but innocent!"
"Hey!" ducking quickly behind the bush in front of him Duo covered his mouth and prayed for them not to notice it was him who just shouted. Parting the bush leaves in front of him he slowly peered at the pair just a little far off turning back to their conversation/argument.
"Anyways, have you even taken into consideration how Cal feels?" asked Relena pushing back a stray strand of hair from her face as she let her gaze wonder towards the school windows.
"No, why the hell would I? I don't see any need to." Stated Heero turning his head to get a look at what Relena was staring at.
"Damn it Heero because he loves you, he's always loved you!" for a second her eyes were wide, as if she hadn't meant to say that. Heero had a similar one only he conveyed the emotion of complete surprise.
"He what?" asked Heero with a confused look on his face.
"Shit, yes Heero he loves you he always had, since he met you!"
"But that can't be right we're friends."
"No, that is not how you perceive it. Honestly Heero don't tell me you never caught on to that?"
"Well I knew he liked me, but............"
"I really shouldn't have said anything at all." She said in an almost regretful tone.
"I need to go," Said Heero as he took off "I have a report due tomorrow." He finished before he was out of ear shot.
For a few seconds Relena stood there in the Garden quietly before she said shit and then left.
Duo was just about to get up from his crouched position behind the bush when a hand was placed on his shoulder causing him to jump then tumble to the ground in shock.
"Sorry...............didn't mean to scare you." For a moment Duo thought he was seeing things, but then realized he wasn't.
"Um........hey Calmerinin, what're doing here in the garden, scaring people?"
"Heero and I were supposed to meet each other here, but he took off when I saw him in the hallway. He said he had a paper to do, but the strange thing is we both have the same classes and none of them asked us to do a report. I think he's trying to avoid me."
"Why would he do that?" asked Duo as he sat up and looked at Cal's painful state.
"Like you don't know, I saw you listening to them and their conversation. Hell I was listening."
"Wait why did you apologize to me?"
"One: for yelling at you earlier, Two: for being an ass to you constantly, and Three: scaring you right now."
"Oh, I see. Cal?" Cal looked like he was about to cry.
"I don't think he likes me back."
Later on in the day
"I swear it's not as bad as it looks honestly."
"Really?"
"Look he's having problems and he can't go back to his room because his roommate is the source of his anxiety. I brought him back here and then he fell asleep, so I thought this was a good opportunity to take a shower to relax. That brings us to here the present moment..............which is now technically considered the past."
"Duo this is like fraternizing with the enemy, this is foreign affairs and we have no business in them! Get him out now! Please!"
"Trowa have a heart will you?" there was a knock at the door and both boys became quite for a moment, then Duo went to answer it.
"Who is it?" questioned Duo.
"Kiley!" both Duo and Trowa looked at each other then Duo opened the door.
"Sorry, were we being loud?"
"Unintentionally I'm sure, but yes. And I thought it would do good to tell you that half the student body can hear your argument."
"That can't be good."
"Well thanks Kiley, bye." Said Trowa as he shut the door only to hear a knock on it again. Quickly he opened the door saw who it was then closed it just as quickly.
"Don't do that! Who was it?" yelled Duo.
"Nobody!" yelled Trowa then noticed the look on Duo's face then caved in, but was still yelling "Just Relena!"
"Err.........Trowa!" yelled Duo as he opened the door to find Relena still standing at the door, but with a shocked look on her face.
"Oh my, did I come at a bad time?" asked Relena in a bewildered tone.
"No, it's okay Trowa's just jumping to conclusions and wants Cal to leave."
"Cal's here?" asked Relena walking into the room next to the bed Cal was laying on.
"Why were you looking for him?"
"Well I wanted to talk to him about Heero, but since he's sleeping I guess I'll leave him be."
"If you wont make him leave I'll drag him to his room."
"Trowa I understand how you feel but Cal needs to be around people who care. He's got no one to talk to." Said Duo attempting a sad puppy dog face.
"Heero" stated Trowa.
"He can't go to Heero, Heero's why he's this way at the moment." Said Duo with a stubborn look on his face.
"Fine" sighed Trowa.
"Do you two have to be so loud?" came Cal's voice from the bed.
"Oh hey your awake, cool. Relena wants to talk to you." Said Trowa.
"About what?" asked Cal lifting an eyebrow in her direction.
"Heero" stated Relena.
"Ummm sure whatever, Duo?" said Cal looking at the floor as he tried his shoe laces.
"What?" asked Duo.
"Do......can you come to?" asked Cal looking at Trowa.
"Sure no problem there was a few things I wanted to clear up and ask you anyways. Don't worry Trowa I'll be back soon ok?" said Duo looking directly at Trowa as the other two left the room.
"Ok" said Trowa in a soft but compelling voice.
As the three of them left Duo's room they became quite in the short distance to Heero and Cal's room. Cal opened the door and let them in, Duo noticed that the room didn't look that much different than it did before besides the fact that there was another bed in it. Cal sat on his bed and Relena grabbed the chair that was nearest to her while Duo merely stood.
"So?" implored Cal.
"I'm sorry, I told Heero something I should have left to you." Said Relena looking unusually guilty.
"It's ok , if you hadn't told him he might have never known. And you Du........" Duo had accidentally knocked over Heero's English book and reading a paper that had fallen out of it. "What are you doing?"
"Uh just reading something Heero wrote that seems quite interesting actually."
"Duo it's wrong to read other peoples things." Stated Relena as she got up and stood next to Duo so that she could read it as well. Cal stood and walked over to the pair by Heero's chest. And began reading the folded paper.
I missed spending time with him, listening to the sound of his voice. I guess in a way he reminded me of my first. He was so full of life and held so much worth in me. And when he had to move away it sort of took its toll on me. In the beginning we wrote each other everyday, than weekly, then letters were sent monthly, which ended abruptly with nothing, I still wrote though. Even now I still write, but I think he moved on from me ,like Duo has, but if I hadn't hurt Duo the way I had we'd probably still be together. Love was a feeling I was never use to before. I so rarely felt it that the mere thought of it seemed foreign to me. God what's wrong with me?
Now on to the issue of Cal, I mean seriously I knew to an extent that he liked me, but I never knew that he loved me?! But I guess it should have been obvious, what with the way he so willingly spread his legs for me.......... wait that was a bit harsh, I just mean that he was willing to bend so easily to my every need that I took it as he was as needy as I was. I had made the mistake, that he had the same views on sex that I did. One: it felt good, Two: it made you forget things you didn't want to remember, and Three: the experience in itself was amazing. The last one is actually just a different version of reason one.
I bet if I were to compare Duo and Cal to each other I'd still want Duo, but he would never want me back. And the problem with Cal is that I just can't see Cal in a romantic sense at all. To me, he has always been a friend who had the same interests as me. It turns out his interests was me. And I would date Cal, but I don't want him to feel as if I'm settling for him, I honestly don't know what to do. I remember my mom telling me once that when your brain can no longer do the thinking, let your heart choose, but she never got the chance to tell me what to do when your heart could not decide.
Mom I miss you (((((((
Duo stared at the paper then looked at Relena who barely finished reading it.
"I forgot that his mother had passed away." Said Relena as she refolded the paper and placed it back in Heero's English book. Cal looked at them both for a second and spoke.
"I remember Heero's mother, she was a very nice woman, and actually the only other mother I can compare her to is mine and well she was nicer than my mother could have ever been in her entire existence." Duo looked at both Cal and Relena for a second then decided to ask Cal a question.
"Cal your mother, what was she like?" thought he wasn't quire sure Cal would answer him he hoped that Cal held enough confidence in both he and Relena.
"My mom........why?" for a second Duo could swear he heard fear in Cal's voice.
"Well I was just wondering......"
"Well don't wonder damnit, it's none of your fucking business!" both Duo and Relena jerked back. Cal's eyes seemed to widen as he realized what he did. "I'm sorry it's just a touchy subject with me."
"No, I shouldn't have asked" said Duo standing up.
"No it was a legitimate question. I shouldn't have lashed out like that."
"Um......Cal you wouldn't mind telling us about it right now would you?" asked Relena "I swear we wont think badly of the situation or you I promise."
Cal looked at Duo as if to make sure Duo's feeling reflected the same as Relena's. Then he walked over to his bed and sat down and then laid flat on his back hands covering his eyes then smoothed them over his head. After consoling himself mentally he took a deep breath and started to speak.
"My mother, she's a very beautiful woman, but that's about it. Nobody knows how she really is. In public, whenever we went out together, as a "family" she would smile that false smile of hers and speak in a tone more foreign than friendly, at least to me that is. At home she was, is a completely different person. She hits me yells at me.........she does thing that parents........mothers ........shouldn't do to their kids, to me. I hate going home, so I try to stay at Heero's house as often and long as possible." Cal's eyes were red and he kept wiping at his eyes to try to and keep the tears from falling.
"Does Heero know?" asked Duo walking over to Cal and sat right next to him on the bed.
"Yeah, that's why during the summer Hero basically lets me live at this home. His mother was such a loving and caring person, she so willing had accepted me into her home and heart. I really wish my mom was more like Heero's mother had been when she was alive. Sometimes my mother comes over to his house drunk and tries to take me back home with ere. Usually hero ends up calling the police and I end up cr..........crying for most of the night."
"What about your father?" asked Relena with a worried look on her face.
"He treats me just as bad as Mom does."
"Cal? When you said your mother did things she shouldn't do , what did you mean by that?" asked Relena piecing together what she knew would be his answer, but wanting only to confirm it before she spoke of the matter more freely.
"The most logical term I can think of is sexual abuse."
"Wait, no ones ever done anything about it?"
"Everyone is too afraid to because father is such an influential man in our town."
"I don't see why though, I mean come on it's wrong no matter who's doing it."
"I'd say you were right, but the fact that there is no evidence to prove what she had done to me doesn't help. Nobody believed Heero, that or they just didn't want to be on the end of any law suits for stating a "lie". Everyone thought my mother was some kind fucking god damn saint, I hater her and my father both and I hope that they die a horrible painful death!"
The door opened and all three of them turned their heads towards the door to see who it was. Heero stood at the doorway and stared at the three of them for a moment. He let his eyes wonder around the room for a second then walked in shutting the door behind him. Cal, Duo, and Relena watched as Heero placed a bag in the closet and then walked over to his drawer and opened it taking out a red T-shirt, a pair of Khaki pants, and black shoes. The three continued to watch as Heero walked into the bathroom then turned their heads back to each other as soon as Heero shut the door.
Both Duo and Relena stood up and looked at Cal.
"Right now I think what you need to do is just talk to Heero and just straight out tell him how you feel."
"I would, but damnit Duo! He still loves you, love, do you hear me LOVE!"
"Ok, ok, how about when he gets out of the shower you, me, and Heero just all sit down together and.............talk." Duo glanced at the bathroom for a brief second then placed his gaze back on Cal. "What do ya say?"
"Thanks........" Relena placed a hand on Cal's shoulder as if loaning him some of her strength/ courage, then left wishing both luck as she closed the door.
"Do you think there's anyway to convince her that we talked to him?" asked Duo, but all he got from Cal was a simple shrug of the shoulders. So after five minutes of waiting the bathroom door opened.
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Well I'm most sincerely sorry for like being me and not updating in like forever!
Please don't hate me...........
And thank you all for reading, sadly I don't know when I'll be able to update next. But I'll try just as long as I know people are reading this.
Sev-chan out!