Two days passed, as the dream of my father and mother still haunted along with me. Allyson was worried about me, but I told her I was fine. Memories flooded my mind, and tears found their way to my cheeks. It felt like the hardest days of my lives.
On the first day, I sat inside, staring out in window behind my bed, watching the flowers grow. The big, unforgettable colours flooded my eyes. The sorrow of losing my life was lumped close in my throat, trying to make its way out. Each sob I took, it felt as thought I was choking. I gasped for air. Allyson came in the room at nightfall, watching me struggle for breath, and coaxed me, and rubbed my back till I could finally keep my breathing at a regular pace. I feel asleep in her arms.
One the second day, I awoke late, yet, with no clocks or notion of time, I was not sure how late it really was. I smelt egg and bacon, yet, without anything in my stomach from the day before, the smell made me feel sick, and I held my stomach and groaned.
I was surprised to feel such awful feelings in heaven. Yet, I was glad, for it made me feel alive. I always hoped heaven would be pain free and easy, but now I was glad that it was not.
I slept the remainder of the afternoon, for my head felt as if it was to explode. When I awoke, the stars where out, shinning like never before.
I got up and walked out of my room, holding a teddy bear that I had found in my arms when I awoke that morning. I opened the back door, and walked down the steps. I heard someone breathing. I stopped and looked around. There was Allyson, gazing up at the stars, lying delicately on a blanket. Her eyes where reflecting the beauty of the luminosity above her, as she turned and looked at me.
"Come lay with me." Her eyes danced and her smile brightened my heart, finally making me feel less nauseous.
I sat next to her, feeling the warmth of the evening. I felt her hands on my hips and I slid down to lay my head next to hers. I had never felt as safe as I did at that minute.
"Miss Allyson, why are the stars shinning so brightly?"
"There not stars, Ilana," her voice was milky and sweet, "They're planets, and universes."
I looked up, watching the colours fill the deep sky. As I watched carefully, each one had a different size, and where moving.
"See?" Allyson pointed above, to a red planet, "That's Saturn."
I nodded and smiled.
We sat, talking, for countless hours. I had never felt so alive. Allyson explained so much to me, I felt filled with knowledge once again. Heaven seemed so much more interesting then earth.
I finally brought up the question I had tried to find the answer for myself, "What one's earth?"
Allyson pointed straight ahead of us. I sighed.
Earth was a small, blue, green sphere, circling softly in the sky above us. Light patched of white, clouds, hovered gently above areas. A small, rock shaped object circulated around it. The moon.
"Do you miss it?" I asked Allyson.
It took her a while to answer. Her blonde hair caught the light of the sparking object above us, and her smile was let loose, leaving a stern frown in replacement.
"I'm not sure, to say the truth." She sighed, her eyes never leaving Earth, "I miss the feeling of someone who loves you. I miss the feeling of wind on your face, and the feeling of losing. The smell of my mother's sweet apple pies and the laughter of my sisters. There are a lot of things I miss, Ilana, on Earth. Yet, I know there is no turning back, and once again living the way I used to. That feeling has sat with me so much; I'm used to the feeling. Now I don't know what it would feel without it. "
I felt as thought I knew exactly what she was saying, yet I had no clue. I let her finish.
"Heaven's not that bad, once you get used to the life you must live with now. The life you will live with for eternity."
Sniffling, I buried my head in her soft chest, and hugged her tight. I felt as thought she was mother.
"I don't want to loose anyone, ever again." I whispered, my eyes filled with water.
"You won't." She promised, kissing my forehead.
"I don't want to loose you." I told her.
"Nor I, you." A smile tugged at the corners of her red lips, "And I promise, I will always be there for you. Forever."
"Forever." I muttered back.
Allyson sighed and closed her eyes. She soon began to sing, her voice lighter then air, and her words sweeter then honey. I feel into a light sleep, listening to her words.