Okay shinigamiphoenix, as requested here is another update. Lol, I hope you like this one! It's a general fic, lots of people; I'm going to need to actually put more into this than I thought. And I have half an hour before my lecture. Wish me luck! Oh yeah, the song, I wrote it! Mine mine mine! If you want to hear it, send me a tape and I'll record it for you!

If Only I had....

-Pyro-

If only I had been there,

Her eyes opened,

She looked around,

I was gone,

She must have thought I didn't care,

I do,

If only I could have been there,

This guy in black came in,

Said he wanted to talk to me,

So I went with him,

He offered me a way to save her life,

Said if I agreed,

She would never be hurt again,

How could a loving boyfriend refuse?

So I said yes,

I didn't want to see her hurt,

I knew she was hurting on the inside as well,

She hates being weak.

So I agreed to the terms,

Then I asked him his name,

Sebastian Shaw,

He's the one who did this to her.

Ball of flame in my hand before he knew what was going on,

And he laughed,

He wasn't afraid,

Told me she'd be dead before he hit the floor.

What could I do?

Shoulders dropped,

I nodded,

And signed my life away,

Biggest mistake I ever made.

I lost her,

When I thought I was protecting her,

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Thunder roars, the angel closes her eyes

and nothing in the world will be the same.

Thunder roars the sweet angel flies;

there is nothing to take away this pain.

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-Remy-

Dat fool,

Dat idiotic fool,

What was he thinking?

Not even Remy dumb enough to do dat.

And Remy done some stupid things,

Like Belle for example.

But nothing dis stupid,

Not joining da Hell-Fire club,

John walked in shoulders slumped,

Man in black behind him,

Chal gasped,

Remy charged a card,

And John held up both hands,

Signalling dat it was alright.

Shaw smiled like a shark,

Explained dat John had sacrificed himself for Chal,

Connard,[1]

Fil's de la putain,[2]

Merde.[3]

Dat ain't no sacrifice,

It's a death sentence for her,

She can't love no homme in Hell-Fire,

But it can't be undone,

And she knows dat,

And now John knows dat too,

She told him,

Told him to get out of her sight,

Couldn't look him in da eye,

Tears running down her cheeks,

And him standing der defending what he'd done,

For the best,

He said,

She waved him away,

Told him to go,

Remy not sure who was more hurt.

But John,

He left,

Went with Sebastian,

Look like dat evil baiseur de mere,[4]

Look like he won.

And he knows it too

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See the sky when it calls

watch the world as it falls

crashing and burning

tumbling and turning

now is the time

to say goodbye

just take my hand

And fly...

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-Chal-

Broken,

That's all I am,

Not saved,

Not protected,

Just broken,

How did this happen?

Why did this happen?

How could he do this?

"John?"

When he walked in with Sebastian,

I was ready to fight for him,

To die for him,

Then it turns out he's joined Hell-Fire,

I can't forgive him for that,

Even if he was trying to save me,

I won't ever forgive him,

I can't,

Sebastian knows he's won,

Knows he's broken my heart,

Taken everything I ever loved from me,

And now he's taken John.

John let it happen,

And I don't know why.

I can't live with this,

I won't live with this.

I've had it,

I'm going.

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Thunder roars, the world begins to fall

as the destruction takes its toll.

Thunder roars death starts to call

and hope is swallowed into a big black hole

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-Hank-

I should have done something.

Of course I knew she was upset,

It's quite possible that I could have stopped her,

In fact,

It's much more likely that I could have stopped her,

But knowing Dr Tear,

Not much stops her.

I've taken bullets out of her,

Reset bones,

Stopped legacy from destroying her,

Who would have thought that a little prick with that needle,

Would have done this much damage?

Rogue is crying,

Her make-up running,

Snuggled in Remy's arms,

Remy looks horrible,

His eyes blood shot,

Muttering,

Charles is helping me of course,

Trying to find her mind,

Before she slips into oblivion.

So much trouble from one little needle.

Though through history little things like this,

Caused disasters.

Troy fell because of a little wooden horse.

Agent orange greatly affected the war in Vietnam.

Mutants though small in number,

Cause mass problems for base line humans,

And the X gene is tiny and insignificant,

Yet it affects so many people.

The drug she used was lethal,

The dosage was lethal,

Still she lives,

Hanging on the edge,

Remy muttered something about slapping her when she wakes up.

That's if she wakes up.

So sad,

That one so young Lost all hope in the world.

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See the sky when it calls

watch the world as it falls

crashing and burning

tumbling and turning

now is the time

to say goodbye

just take my hand

and fly.

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-Charles-

Children don't need this,

They should grow and learn,

Not feel so desperate they kill themselves.

The mind of a tortured child,

Is not the ideal place for a telepath.

Deep within the swirling mess of pain,

We can do more damage than good.

A young girl is huddled,

A child of six or seven,

Dressed in white,

The inner child,

Most would say.

But what I learnt from Hank,

This young lady never had a childhood.

Still, I have to try.

Chasing the child down a stairwell,

Spiralling downwards,

It goes on seemingly forever,

Down,

Down,

Down,

She stops and sits upon a step,

This young lost soul,

I sit beside her,

She cries,

Not because of Pyro,

Not because she had been beaten,

Or hurt,

But because she is all alone,

In a dark world,

Where nothing is bright for her,

The child feels as if nothing will ever be bright again.

What can I say?

She has so much to offer,

There is so much she has left to do

Grow and learn,

Live, love, understand.

Death is an end.

There is no second chance in this world.

Sob's slow,

Bright blue eyes look deep inside me.

She is searching for hope,

Looking for what she has lost,

I want to give her so much,

We all do,

But she needs to come back to us,

I've lost children before,

I wont let this one go.

So much doubt within her young mind.

Pain, suffering,

To her, life is a lonely path,

She doesn't want to walk it alone,

And she won't have to.

I offer her my hand,

She takes it.

Smiles,

Such a beautiful smile,

Innocent and pure,

Untouched by death, pain and loss.

A smile that I will never see on her face,

Not in the real world,

Not outside of her shattered mind,

And I will always grieve the loss.

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Who killed my love today?

Who went and took it away?

Who threw it too the wind

won't you let me in?

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-Chal-

Stupid idea,

That's me all over,

Remy's hell pissed at me.

So is Rogue,

And everyone else.

I don't care,

They can think what they like,

Try and understand me,

My complex inner workings,

Or whatever Hank said,

When they wake tomorrow,

All they will find is a note,

Letting them know I'm OK,

But I can't take the looks in their eyes,

Pity is one thing I'll never swallow

I can't,

That's all people ever feel for me,

Pity, sorrow,

And I hate it when people hurt for me,

They say things like,

'I'm so sorry you had to go through that.'

When they really wonder why I'm still fighting.

I've fought my whole life,

For me,

John is now a casualty of war,

With him goes another part of my heart,

Soon I will be just a shell,

I need to stop loving,

And start living,

Sebastian knows he hold the upper hand,

At least he thinks he does,

What ever his plans for John are,

I will find out,

I will stop them,

And I will reclaim my heart.

Don't misunderstand me,

I don't want John back,

He knew the consequences for joining Hell-Fire,

I told him those a long time ago.

Trying to keep me safe or not,

It was inexcusable.

Hank won't let me die,

So fighting is my only option.

I'll fight,

Even if there is nothing to fight for,

Life isn't enough,

Love isn't enough,

I'm enough.

I'll fight for me,

No matter who I hurt in the process.

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Thunder roars, the angel survives,

wings in tatters on the floor,

thunder roars, the sun begins to rise

showing the world that there is more.

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-Hank, Remy, Charles, Logan, John (each do one line as a cycled, collective though)-

This morning,

Very early,

I watched her leave.

She climbed out of the window and ran.

Disappeared into the rising sun,

Didn't look back.

Even after all this time,

I think we've lost her,

Despite all the friendships,

The love,

The trust,

The long nights playing cards by the fire,

She's gone,

Taken her flight on angel wings,

Left us all here alone.

With her went the hope,

With her went the dreams,

With her went the smiles,

With her went the screams.

The world has finally swallowed her,

Made her come undone,

That's why I watched her run away,

Towards the rising sun.

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That's the end, but don't cry. You haven't heard the last of me! I'm working on a new story as you read! Lol, oh yeah for the last part, if you can't figure out who is who, just follow the names at the start, i.e. Hank speaks the first line, Remy the second, and so on, till John the fifth line and then back to Hank. Make more sense? I hope so. Tell me what you thought of this fic, please. Give me feed back, the next story will not be in this style it will be normal! oh yeah this is what Remy says in his little rant!

[1] Connard : Bastard

[2] Fil's De Le Putain : Son of a bitch

[3] Merde: as if you didn't know this word, Shit

[4] Baiseur de mere : Mother fucker

Ciao my CHickies, I will post again soonish!

Angyl-Devyl, A