A/N- I don't know why I like this story but I do. So I am continuing even though it is done. Harper will show up shortly I promise, next chapter, I have a plan.
This is AU because I know nothing of Beka's past so I am making it up as I write (I missed the episode with Rafe in it soo…)
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You know you want to be a painter
But his got you working 9 to 5 at Mcydees (FYI McDonalds)
He says you got to be more realistic
"Don't you know that dreams are only dreams?"
He says he knows what's best for you
But he doesn't know you at all
He says, he says, he says all kinds of things now
He says he'll be there when you fall
But…
Daddy's girl- normals
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"Take me with you Rafe, please, don't leave me here with him."
"I can't, I'm 18 now I can legally leave, but if I take you with me then we are runaways. In four years I'll come for you. I'm not going to leave you alone forever in this hell hole."
"Why can't you wait till we can leave together?" I tried to hold the tears back but they started rolling down my face.
"Bek, I am going to be earning money so we can get our own ship. If I stay it will just get worst. He's going to throw me out soon if I'm not careful. It's better I leave on my own terms."
"I'm never going to see you again."
"Yes you will"
"No, no people say that, but people lie. Everyone one says they'll take me away but they never do. I'm still here Rafe. I'm still with him. I can't get away." I was starting to gasp for air I had been crying so hard. Tears and fluid from my nose flowed down my face. I couldn't think.
Rafe was leaving, he never coming back. Not for me. Countless crew hands had promise to come and take me away. My mom would send a vid card every other year. They always said the same thing; 'love you, miss you, I'm saving up money to come and take you away, till then be strong, love mom'.
I hadn't seen since the day she disappeared. I only knew my mom from the card she sent when she thought of it. They didn't even come on my birthday. They always said happy birthday but it wasn't my birthday when I got it. It would be months before or after. Rafe would always say be grateful 'she didn't even think to send him something.'
Again I was crying as I was left by another family member. Atleast Rafe had the heart to say goodbye. He didn't slip off while I was sleeping. Maybe the way mom left was better. I didn't have to look into her face and know what she was saying was all lies. That she didn't want to live with me anymore. Everyone said it was my dad but why didn't they take me with them. I was the problem, Dad was a flash fried manic and I was a nuisance. A problem child no one wanted to be with.
Rafe reached out his arms to give me a hug but I stepped back, shaking my head. "Bek, come on chief, you know I would never leave you. What would I do without my captain, boss, pilot, and little con-artist?" Through the tears I smiled when listed off my nicknames. He never called me Rebecca or even Beka. It was our own special thing. "That's my little sis. Come on give me a hug and I will come back to see you soon." I planted my face into his chest leaving my tears and snot all over his clothes.
"I'm all over you."
"That's ok, I promise, I'll be back. I'm not going to leave you."
"Promise"
"Look at me Boss, I promise, I will come back and take you away the moment you turn 18 and I will come and visit you every chance I get until that day"
"Okay" I sniffed and wiped off my face. "You're going to keep that promise"
"Have I ever broken a promise I made to you little one?"
"No"
"Well I am not about to start" With that he wrapped me up into a big bear hug and squeezed me so tight I couldn't breathe. I hugged him back, trying to drawn life from him as he did the same with me. I buried my face into his chest and started crying again.
"I don't want to lose you"
"Chief I am coming back" With that he pulled me off of him and turned to the airlock. "I have to go before he wakes up captain, your in charge now, just don't let him know it boss." I sniffed fighting back a tear. He walked out the airlock and on to the planet. I wiped away the tears and shouted to the ship.
"Open comms to the station. This is the Erka Maru requesting permission to launch."
"Permission granted, I hope you have enjoyed you stay at the Gardens and will come visit us again shortly. Docking clamps will be released in 5, 4, 3, 2" I broke into a run and hoped into the slipstream chair. I got my hands into the controls as I felt the clamps release. I piloted into orbit as I fled the planet. Tears rolled down as I left my brother behind me forever. I knew that Rafe had made me the one promise he would never keep. He wasn't the first or the last.
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"Oh honey I promise I am never going to do that again."
"Bull shit Dad, you don't care, you've never cared."
"This is different Beka I am clean now; I am going to say clean."
"You have never stayed clean since she left, yeah mom, your precise Krishna. She left you, but she also left me alone with you. A drunk, flash fried father who can't get out of bed long enough to help his sixteen year old daughter run his ship. But you wouldn't know that. Didn't you even realized that you son left you? Left because he couldn't stand you."
"Beka I love you, I will never do that again."
"I don't believe you. Been burned by you and your flash too often."
"It's gone off the ship."
"And the next place we dock you will find some more. I don't believe you Dad"
"Baby I'm so sorry." Dad walked forward to hug me but I took a step back and shook my head. I wasn't going to believe him, wasn't going to believe the lies. "Oh my little girl what I have done to you."
"You abandoned me more than ten years ago. You left me alone to raise myself with Rafe. We learned how to do everything on our own. You want me to believe that because you ran out of flash a month ago that everything will be better. It's happen before dad and the next planet we come to you will get more and be back to yourself. I'm sorry Dad I am not your little girl who trusts everything daddy says anymore."
"We land in ten minutes. Why don't you go buy supplies and met with the dealer, I'm going to stay in my room. I need to think."
I walked out of the room and taking all the money in the ship with me. He was going to go and get some flash or liquor. Anything to dull the pain he lived with as he put it. I lived without her. I lived with him and I stayed away from the drugs. I ran the ship. I met with the suppliers. I was my own person.
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I walked back into the Maru after shopping "Dad, where you at?" I wandered into the mess and dropped the food on the table. There was a vid disk sitting on the table. I picked it up and put it into the player. Dad's face flashed up on the screen.
"Rocket, I'm sorry. Your right, I can't stay clean. I'm going to fall back into the flash. I wanted to stay clean to be there for you. But you don't need me anymore. I'm sorry Rocket. I can't do it more. I transferred the Maru to Rafe, it will then co-transfer to you and him when you are 18 and transfer to you completely on you 21st birthday. Just pull your old name trick. I love you Rocket, remember that."
"Dad!" I screamed running down the hallway to his room. All of his stuff was gone. There was a pile of thrones on the bed and a note saying 'it was all sold to the shop down the road if there is something you wanted, I didn't want to be a bother. I done that too much to you'
"Daddy, no, Daddy…" I fell to the floor crying repeating Dad over and over again.
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So beautiful and young, and so alive
So need in of someone, someone to talk to them
Because theirs are fragile lives
What crimes have you committed?
Demanding such penance
Could wait for 5 more minutes
And a cry for help
This room is so peaceful and it so quiet
And I hate the silent
Center Aisle -Caedmons Call
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It would be a day before I got off the floor and two days before I could go to the morgue and claim his body. He gotten into a bar fight with a Neitzchien, had to look like an 'accident' for the ship to transfer to Rafe. There was no investigation and I left two days later to bury my dad in space. I pushed his body out an air lock as I stood in an EVA suit. He had left me alone. I was all alone
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Dear God I'm all alone now
But I don't want to be alone… anymore
Daddy's Little Girl –The Normals
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"Beka I promise you, I would never lie to you"
"I believe you Bobby"
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A/N- What do you think?