A/N- thanks to everyone who reviewed. You guy are the ones who give me the
ideas of where to go, I don't know why "lol" inspires me but it does.
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Girl you know she acts so tough tough tough
till you turn off the lights, turn off the lights,
you know girl she acts so rough rough rough
till you turn off the lights, turn off the lights
-Nell Furturado
(I am not sure on that so don't flame me if I got it wrong, tell me I will change it)
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"Harper I'm fine, now go back to your room and sleep. It can not be good for you to sit in that chair every night."
"But Boss…"
"Harper I will sit outside your door and make sure you obey me." I lifted up my shirt showing what was left of the knife wound. "Look completely healed, not even much of a scar.
"Cause that was the reason I have been sleeping in here the last weeks. Or do you want to play another round of pretend."
"Pretend is a good game and we both play it well."
"Boss…"
"Harper, I don't talk, you don't talk. We just sit by each other bed at night and chase away the boggy men. It works well but it's my turn. You don't need to keep up your vigil."
"Fine Boss, I'll see you in the morning." With that he stormed out of the room. Why did a simple conversation feel like such a fight?
"Beka?" I turned to see Trance standing in the door.
"What's up Trance?"
"I just was wondering if you and Harper are ok."
"We're fine Trance; he just won't do things that are for his own good."
"I just hate to see such good friends fight." Friend? Harper was not my friend, he was my crew. But I didn't sit by a crew member's bed at night. No crew member would ever sit by my bed at night. Tim, Nick, they were crew members. Harper was more; did that make him my friend? I had a hard time making friends growing up. Living on a ship crew members were my only company, they came and went. I had never thought of Harper as a friend. But somehow Harper had gone from a mudfoot to close friend. I didn't even see it happening.
"It happens Trance, we'll get over it."
"Ok Beka, you should get to bed."
"Is that your medical opinion?"
"No it's the advice of a friend." I must have given her a strange look because she stumbled over her next sentence. "I hoped that I have become your friend in the short time I have been here."
"Yeah you have been great Trance; I just don't make friends that quickly."
"That's fine as long as you need me I will be here." I just smiled and she turned and left my small room. I found myself walking into the small bathroom attached to my room and wiping tears out of my eyes. Friends, what a new idea for a simple cargo hauler's daughter.
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There is a truth even you fear-X-files (comment made to Mulder)
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"Harper, Harper you in there?" I yelled walking into engineering. Harper was still sick but he insisted that he had to repair the slipstream so we could head out. We had been orbiting the station for weeks. Harper never liked staying anywhere for long, I don't know if he learned it from earth or me. Together the two of us always were off somewhere new every few days. We both had ghosts where running from. It helped to be busy and on the go. They stayed further behind you that way. "Harper! Come oh Harper where you at?" I yelled again. Harper was normally quick to respond. I wonder for a moment if Harper was still mad at me about our fight last night. I hoped down from the walkway and looked around. "Harper, come on out Kid!" It was then that I turned around and saw him passed out on the decks.
Again visions of my father passed through my head. I shook them out of my head. "TRANCE" I yelled towards the direction of the main room. I ran over to the still form of my engineer and friend. "Trance I need you in engineering now, it's Harper." I slid my legs under Harper so he was lying with his head in my lap. It was almost a year ago we were in this same position. I remember how I believed he had to have been on drugs. Now I knew the truth, Harper had worked himself till he dropped, again. "Come on Harper, I need you to wake-up. Come on kid open your eyes."
Harper let out a groan. I let out a sigh of relief. "Going to be a slight delay on those repairs boss."
"He's up and cracking jokes. Good to see you awake." Trance came into engineering and stood beside me and Harper. "Come on let's get you back to bed."
"You know the longer you chain me to my bed the longer we are stuck here."
"Yeah but the longer you are sick the longer I have to put up with you passing out all over my ship. I thought we got over this Shay."
"Harper"
"Whatever kid." I was met with a glare as Trance and I hauled Harper back to his room. Trance then proceeded to lock me out while she cared for Harper. What was the point of being captain if no one listens to you? I leaned on the wall next to Harper's door
and waited Trances exit.
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"He'll be fine Beka."
"Yeah but you don't know him like I do. He is always getting sick and he doesn't recover like normal people."
"He'll be fine Beka, trust me."
"Trust you I just met you."
"Have I given you a reason not to trust me?"
"It's not that Trance."
"Then what is it Beka?"
"If I knew I would tell you, now will you let me in to see him?"
"He's sleeping now, but that seems to be when he needs you the most." I gave her a half smile as I entered the room. Harper looked so small curled up on the mattress. His eyes moved back and forth under his eyelids, already dreaming. I sat down beside his bed preparing myself for a long night. I ran my hand through Harper's hair. It was already soaked in sweat from his fever or nightmares. His small frame was burning up with fever.
"I wish I could chase away those demons that you face every night kid. But I can't even fight my own demons how do I fight the demons of someone else?" Tears started to roll down my face. "Guess we will just have to keep fighting." Harper stirred finally waking from his dream, he sat straight up and looked around the room, and he saw me and smiled. "My turn now, go back to sleep." I said to my friend.
"Aye, Aye captain." He curled back up into a bed and was fast asleep in a few moments. It was the fake sleep either, Harper was normally a light sleeper but when he got sick he would fall into deep slumbers. At those times I could crash the Maru into a planet and he would keep sleeping.
"Night Kid, sleep tight, I'll be here for you." Just like you were there for me, I finished in my head. Maybe that was how you fought demons, not alone, but with a friend, because even the strongest person was too weak to face a demon, even an inner demon, on their own.
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"I have it wrong. I don't want to protect you from the world. I want to show you the world."-Buffy (I think you can guess the show)
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-sorry it's been so long b/t posts, I think I have been getting too much sleep but don't worry I have to close at work for the next three days (oh yeah I got a summer job) so another post will be coming soon.
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Girl you know she acts so tough tough tough
till you turn off the lights, turn off the lights,
you know girl she acts so rough rough rough
till you turn off the lights, turn off the lights
-Nell Furturado
(I am not sure on that so don't flame me if I got it wrong, tell me I will change it)
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"Harper I'm fine, now go back to your room and sleep. It can not be good for you to sit in that chair every night."
"But Boss…"
"Harper I will sit outside your door and make sure you obey me." I lifted up my shirt showing what was left of the knife wound. "Look completely healed, not even much of a scar.
"Cause that was the reason I have been sleeping in here the last weeks. Or do you want to play another round of pretend."
"Pretend is a good game and we both play it well."
"Boss…"
"Harper, I don't talk, you don't talk. We just sit by each other bed at night and chase away the boggy men. It works well but it's my turn. You don't need to keep up your vigil."
"Fine Boss, I'll see you in the morning." With that he stormed out of the room. Why did a simple conversation feel like such a fight?
"Beka?" I turned to see Trance standing in the door.
"What's up Trance?"
"I just was wondering if you and Harper are ok."
"We're fine Trance; he just won't do things that are for his own good."
"I just hate to see such good friends fight." Friend? Harper was not my friend, he was my crew. But I didn't sit by a crew member's bed at night. No crew member would ever sit by my bed at night. Tim, Nick, they were crew members. Harper was more; did that make him my friend? I had a hard time making friends growing up. Living on a ship crew members were my only company, they came and went. I had never thought of Harper as a friend. But somehow Harper had gone from a mudfoot to close friend. I didn't even see it happening.
"It happens Trance, we'll get over it."
"Ok Beka, you should get to bed."
"Is that your medical opinion?"
"No it's the advice of a friend." I must have given her a strange look because she stumbled over her next sentence. "I hoped that I have become your friend in the short time I have been here."
"Yeah you have been great Trance; I just don't make friends that quickly."
"That's fine as long as you need me I will be here." I just smiled and she turned and left my small room. I found myself walking into the small bathroom attached to my room and wiping tears out of my eyes. Friends, what a new idea for a simple cargo hauler's daughter.
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There is a truth even you fear-X-files (comment made to Mulder)
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"Harper, Harper you in there?" I yelled walking into engineering. Harper was still sick but he insisted that he had to repair the slipstream so we could head out. We had been orbiting the station for weeks. Harper never liked staying anywhere for long, I don't know if he learned it from earth or me. Together the two of us always were off somewhere new every few days. We both had ghosts where running from. It helped to be busy and on the go. They stayed further behind you that way. "Harper! Come oh Harper where you at?" I yelled again. Harper was normally quick to respond. I wonder for a moment if Harper was still mad at me about our fight last night. I hoped down from the walkway and looked around. "Harper, come on out Kid!" It was then that I turned around and saw him passed out on the decks.
Again visions of my father passed through my head. I shook them out of my head. "TRANCE" I yelled towards the direction of the main room. I ran over to the still form of my engineer and friend. "Trance I need you in engineering now, it's Harper." I slid my legs under Harper so he was lying with his head in my lap. It was almost a year ago we were in this same position. I remember how I believed he had to have been on drugs. Now I knew the truth, Harper had worked himself till he dropped, again. "Come on Harper, I need you to wake-up. Come on kid open your eyes."
Harper let out a groan. I let out a sigh of relief. "Going to be a slight delay on those repairs boss."
"He's up and cracking jokes. Good to see you awake." Trance came into engineering and stood beside me and Harper. "Come on let's get you back to bed."
"You know the longer you chain me to my bed the longer we are stuck here."
"Yeah but the longer you are sick the longer I have to put up with you passing out all over my ship. I thought we got over this Shay."
"Harper"
"Whatever kid." I was met with a glare as Trance and I hauled Harper back to his room. Trance then proceeded to lock me out while she cared for Harper. What was the point of being captain if no one listens to you? I leaned on the wall next to Harper's door
and waited Trances exit.
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"He'll be fine Beka."
"Yeah but you don't know him like I do. He is always getting sick and he doesn't recover like normal people."
"He'll be fine Beka, trust me."
"Trust you I just met you."
"Have I given you a reason not to trust me?"
"It's not that Trance."
"Then what is it Beka?"
"If I knew I would tell you, now will you let me in to see him?"
"He's sleeping now, but that seems to be when he needs you the most." I gave her a half smile as I entered the room. Harper looked so small curled up on the mattress. His eyes moved back and forth under his eyelids, already dreaming. I sat down beside his bed preparing myself for a long night. I ran my hand through Harper's hair. It was already soaked in sweat from his fever or nightmares. His small frame was burning up with fever.
"I wish I could chase away those demons that you face every night kid. But I can't even fight my own demons how do I fight the demons of someone else?" Tears started to roll down my face. "Guess we will just have to keep fighting." Harper stirred finally waking from his dream, he sat straight up and looked around the room, and he saw me and smiled. "My turn now, go back to sleep." I said to my friend.
"Aye, Aye captain." He curled back up into a bed and was fast asleep in a few moments. It was the fake sleep either, Harper was normally a light sleeper but when he got sick he would fall into deep slumbers. At those times I could crash the Maru into a planet and he would keep sleeping.
"Night Kid, sleep tight, I'll be here for you." Just like you were there for me, I finished in my head. Maybe that was how you fought demons, not alone, but with a friend, because even the strongest person was too weak to face a demon, even an inner demon, on their own.
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"I have it wrong. I don't want to protect you from the world. I want to show you the world."-Buffy (I think you can guess the show)
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-sorry it's been so long b/t posts, I think I have been getting too much sleep but don't worry I have to close at work for the next three days (oh yeah I got a summer job) so another post will be coming soon.