The Reason
By Rin-chan
Disclaimer- I don't own any thing... if I did, I wouldn't be writing a fic, I'd be making it into an episode. Or any of the songs I am using for titles.
Chapter One- Crazy for This Girl; Feelings Surface
'She left me. Her, of all things. But she doesn't matter anyway, right?' I thought to myself. The past few days had been rough. First, the look on my ward's face after... that... and second, when I awoke one morning to find only her lingering scent.
Jaken tries to make everything seem alright, like it's no big deal, but whenever he's alone he remembers her. Her smile, her laugh, the scent of her flowers, her innocence, her strength, her love. Where did that come from? Love. It's what she said to me... then...
/Flashback/
Now 16-years-old, I gazed upon my beautiful ward. In the past 10 years, she has blossomed into a lovely young woman. I smiled, inhaling her intoxicating scent. She was running about in a field of wildflowers, like she did as a child. Suddenly, she turned towards me, golden eyes shining, perfect lips smiling. With a bundle of flowers in her small hands, she walked over to me.
"Yes, Rin," I said coolly. Any indication of my feelings for her would let my enemies know my only weakness.
"Sesshoumaru-sama, I... I just wanted to... tell you... I," my Rin said, fidgeting with her flower stems. I nodded, encouraging her to continue. This conversation was intriguing me; obviously it was something important.
"Sesshoumaru-samaIloveyou," she blurted before regaining composure. My puzzled look urged her to translate her jumble of words. Rin inhaled deeply before again speaking, "Sesshoumaru-sama, I love you... I have loved you since I first saw you. I wanted to know if you felt the same..."
I was surprised at this sudden revealing of feelings. However, Jaken was nearby. Glaring at him, I responded with the only word that popped into my head. The wrong word, yes, but the one I knew would keep my secret safe. "No," I replied. My Rin's golden eyes glazed over before allowing the tears to fall. Her fragile body convulsed with sadness and the overwhelming fact that her love was unreturned.
Uncomfortable, I stood up and began to walk off, telling her to follow Jaken and I back to the castle. Silently, she obeyed, alerting Jaken. My Rin was always bubbly, never quiet. My gut turned over and over. I knew what I did was wrong, I knew I was deeply hurt, I knew that she felt like she was dying. But my selfish outlook took over this time, and I regretted it.
The rest of that day was spent in my room, contemplating why I felt so hurt when she was only a pitiful human. Why I cared so deeply for her when all she did was pick flowers. Why I would willingly die for her if I knew she would live. Nothing made sense anymore. My senses were turned off as I slept, my emotions overriding them. It's no wonder that she escaped my grasp so easily.
Rin had packed all her belongings and left my castle. To where, I don't think she ever knows. Anywhere but here.
/End Flashback/
Looking at my hands, I realized I had grabbed my sword, Tensaiga. Maybe Father knew I would meet Rin. Maybe she was supposed to change me, like she did. Maybe she's the reason for everything. I shook away my thoughts, grabbing my other sword and armor.
Flying down the stairs, I picked up Jaken and awoke Ah-Un. No words were spoken. We all knew what we were supposed to do. Find Rin. As I stepped outside, I noticed her scent still lingered. I smiled. She wanted me to find her.
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How's that for a first chapter? lol Alrighty now!! COMMENT PLEASE!! Ideas accepted. I'll try to incorporate them into the plot, if I receive any that is... Rin-chan ^_^
Disclaimer- I don't own any thing... if I did, I wouldn't be writing a fic, I'd be making it into an episode. Or any of the songs I am using for titles.
Chapter One- Crazy for This Girl; Feelings Surface
'She left me. Her, of all things. But she doesn't matter anyway, right?' I thought to myself. The past few days had been rough. First, the look on my ward's face after... that... and second, when I awoke one morning to find only her lingering scent.
Jaken tries to make everything seem alright, like it's no big deal, but whenever he's alone he remembers her. Her smile, her laugh, the scent of her flowers, her innocence, her strength, her love. Where did that come from? Love. It's what she said to me... then...
/Flashback/
Now 16-years-old, I gazed upon my beautiful ward. In the past 10 years, she has blossomed into a lovely young woman. I smiled, inhaling her intoxicating scent. She was running about in a field of wildflowers, like she did as a child. Suddenly, she turned towards me, golden eyes shining, perfect lips smiling. With a bundle of flowers in her small hands, she walked over to me.
"Yes, Rin," I said coolly. Any indication of my feelings for her would let my enemies know my only weakness.
"Sesshoumaru-sama, I... I just wanted to... tell you... I," my Rin said, fidgeting with her flower stems. I nodded, encouraging her to continue. This conversation was intriguing me; obviously it was something important.
"Sesshoumaru-samaIloveyou," she blurted before regaining composure. My puzzled look urged her to translate her jumble of words. Rin inhaled deeply before again speaking, "Sesshoumaru-sama, I love you... I have loved you since I first saw you. I wanted to know if you felt the same..."
I was surprised at this sudden revealing of feelings. However, Jaken was nearby. Glaring at him, I responded with the only word that popped into my head. The wrong word, yes, but the one I knew would keep my secret safe. "No," I replied. My Rin's golden eyes glazed over before allowing the tears to fall. Her fragile body convulsed with sadness and the overwhelming fact that her love was unreturned.
Uncomfortable, I stood up and began to walk off, telling her to follow Jaken and I back to the castle. Silently, she obeyed, alerting Jaken. My Rin was always bubbly, never quiet. My gut turned over and over. I knew what I did was wrong, I knew I was deeply hurt, I knew that she felt like she was dying. But my selfish outlook took over this time, and I regretted it.
The rest of that day was spent in my room, contemplating why I felt so hurt when she was only a pitiful human. Why I cared so deeply for her when all she did was pick flowers. Why I would willingly die for her if I knew she would live. Nothing made sense anymore. My senses were turned off as I slept, my emotions overriding them. It's no wonder that she escaped my grasp so easily.
Rin had packed all her belongings and left my castle. To where, I don't think she ever knows. Anywhere but here.
/End Flashback/
Looking at my hands, I realized I had grabbed my sword, Tensaiga. Maybe Father knew I would meet Rin. Maybe she was supposed to change me, like she did. Maybe she's the reason for everything. I shook away my thoughts, grabbing my other sword and armor.
Flying down the stairs, I picked up Jaken and awoke Ah-Un. No words were spoken. We all knew what we were supposed to do. Find Rin. As I stepped outside, I noticed her scent still lingered. I smiled. She wanted me to find her.
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How's that for a first chapter? lol Alrighty now!! COMMENT PLEASE!! Ideas accepted. I'll try to incorporate them into the plot, if I receive any that is... Rin-chan ^_^