The Reason
By Rin-chan
Disclaimer: Ditto
A/N: I lost all my music!!!! NOOOOOOOO!!!!! Lol I'm going to go insane... lol Oh well, at least I'm updating! Thanks to everyone for commenting. blows kisses
Chapter 6: Iris
I opened my golden eyes to see a fox demon dressed in white scurry about my futon. After a moment or two, I realized I was in my own room, filled with flowers (more than usual) and empty chairs. Obviously, people had been in to see me. I turned my now aching head back to it's original position and stared at the ceiling. The fox demon returned.
"Oh! You're awake, Rin-chan! Lemme go get Kagome!" the kitsune shouted with glee before sprinting out of the room. I've seen him before... and Kagome? Isn't that Inu-Yasha's wife? I smiled internally. Sesshoumaru brought the best healer around, in both time periods. Then, in came Kagome, clad in a futuristic doctor outfit and this strange metal snake dangling around her neck. The fox demon pushed in a small cart of what I guessed to be medication.
"Hello, sweetie! How was your rest?" Kagome said with her voice honeyed. I smiled the best I could, realizing my swollen face hurt. It was then I remembered everything... Kouga... the whole shebang.
Kagome must have seen my contorted face for she told me I was going to be alright. I nodded. Promptly, she squeezed the bag that was hanging above the table, clear juice going into my arm. On the other side was another tube going into my arm but one that she later called a drip. I was so broken and beaten I needed to be numbed.
The kitsune pranced over to the side of my futon. Sleepily, I gazed up at him, eyes glazing. He smiled and shouted, "Do you remember me? Shippo?" The name registered. I remembered him as a small fox demon pup about my height. He had grown into a tall teen, about my age. I managed another smile.
"Where's Sesshoumaru-sama?" I asked, voice cracking. I had dreamt he was sitting beside me, stroking my hair, watching me, never leaving. However, I awoke to his absence.
"Oh! That guy? He's outside keeping Inu-Yasha and Miroku out of trouble. Want me to go get him?" Shippo asked, tail wagging. I nodded, watching as he quickly left the room.
I gazed at my brother and that perverted monk. They were, arguing; again. Over what, I didn't know but it was most likely over who was more perverted, but we all know it's obvious. Miroku'd better stay away from my Rin.
Yes, I regret leaving her; however, I do need my rest. I stayed up, night and day, for a week while she was in a comatose state. In the moments I actually did sleep, I dreamt about her, about what happened to her, and about our future lives. I pushed away the thoughts of her pain and focused on our future. Yes, we have a wonderful future. I smiled.
"gasp Sess-Sesshoumaru? Onii-sama, did you just, SMILE?" Inu-Yasha blurted, disturbing my much needed silence. My smile quickly returned to it's normal glare. Miroku gazed at me a moment, and then grinned.
"Thinking of Rin-chan, aren't you?" the monk stated calmly, walking over to me.
"She is no longer a child, monk, you must address her as Rin-sama," I barked, not allowing anyone to defile my Rin's name as such. My irritating half-brother opened that hanyou mouth of his and spoke, laughing.
"Well, that proves it, you moron! You are hopelessly in love with her!" he shouted. I flushed for a moment, afraid everyone in the castle heard, however I regained composure. Everyone would know soon indeed. I nodded in my brother's direction, my glare telling him to keep his mouth shut for once. He grinned, happy he figured out my secret.
"I know how you feel right now, Sesshoumaru, I feel the same way about Kagome. It's a very complicated emotion, isn't it? One moment it hurts like hell, the next you're utterly confused, the next you realize what it truly means. It happens in an instant and before you know it, you're swept off your feet. If you try to deny it, they'll hurt you," Inu- Yasha said, serious for once. He rubbed his head where Kagome had attacked him before for saying she was annoying. Hmm... maybe my brother has some integrity after all.
Miroku thwacked him on the head with his staff. "I was going to say that about Sango, you horrible demon!" he shouted. Within an instant, Inu- Yasha was up and after the laughing, fleeing monk, acting like a maniac.
Scratch what I said about integrity.
I smelled the kitsune's presence and turned my head. Shippo stood, bowing to me.
"Rin-ch—err... Rin-sama requests your presence..." Shippo stated, looking up at me and smiling as he finished. 'Rin's... awake?' I thought. Realizing I was gaping, I immediately regained composure and followed the kitsune inside.
Shippo walked into the room, closely followed by my Sesshoumaru. I cracked a smile. He saved me, didn't he? I owe him my life how many times over, now? It doesn't matter anymore. I'm here with him. Obviously, in his strange little heart, he does care.
Looking to Kagome, Sesshoumaru gave her the 'leave us alone or I'll kill you' look. After checking the bags hanging above me, Kagome left and dragged Shippo with her. I smiled. They'll always be my friends.
Sesshoumaru calmly sat down in a chair beside my futon. Or, at least he appeared calm. To the trained eye, he was in a cold sweat.
"Kagome has turned out to be a wonderful healer, hasn't she? In her time, I believe they refer to her as Doctor Higurashi. I believe the name carries some status for her..." Sesshoumaru said, growing more uncomfortable by the minute. A thought suddenly rose to my mouth.
"You found me, didn't you," I blurted. After an awkward moment of silence, he responded softly.
"Yes, Rin, yes I did. I had almost finished off Kouga when I smelled your blood. I immediately found myself following your scent and ended at that cave," he replied, knowing I wanted the whole story, "He... hurt you... didn't he? I can smell him on you."
I gasped, remembering those frightening 20 minutes. He must've sensed my fear for he grasped my hand softly, as he did when I was a child. I calmed down a bit.
"Yes, he did. He and his men had too much sake. They all beat me after Kouga raped me."
More silence.
"Don't kill him, Sesshoumaru-sama. I don't want you to kill because of me! I already know you killed off all his men and his cousin's clan, but please, if he's still alive, leave him be."
"Are you insane??? That demon raped you for the gods sake! He deserves to die!" Sesshoumaru almost shouted. I knew he was frustrated and confused. Why wouldn't I want him to die? The truth was I didn't, and I knew I wouldn't be able to do anything about it anyway. Sesshoumaru, however, would be merciless. And besides, living alone would be a worse punishment than death.
"He has no family, Sesshoumaru-sama! No people! Wouldn't that be worse? An existence without love?" I stated, practically in tears. "No, I don't want Kouga dead. I've felt like that before!"
"Yes, but I almost lost you! A world without you would be worse than everyone and everything being dead because without you there is no life!" Sesshoumaru shouted, grabbing my shoulders. His words shot through me. Did that mean....
"I love you, Rin. I don't want anything to ever happen to you."
For a moment, I just gazed at him, marveling at the wonderful words that just poured out of his mouth. He... loved me. My heart skipped a beat at the sound of that phrase, realizing I knew it all along.
Looking up into his loving, waiting eyes, I let the tears flow down my cheeks. Feeling none of my previous pain, I flung my arms around his neck, pulling him closer to me. He kneeled down beside the futon just seconds before my lips made contact with his mouth. It was a long, lovely, passionate first kiss for it was filled with the essence of true love.
"Sesshoumaru-sama, I've always loved you!"
My lord's eyes gleamed with happiness, a true smile gracing his lips. He brushed my tears away and gently set me back down against my futon. I hadn't even realized I sat up. Lips grazed my own once again as he stood up.
"Rin, you need your rest. Sleep well, my love."
I gazed lovingly at his retreating form, sad he was leaving and still ecstatic from the previous moment.
Shortly after, I was graced with the sweetest sleep, for once content with my life. I knew I should focus all of my energy towards becoming better. Who knew? I might become Sesshoumaru's mate.
However, unbeknowest to either of us, in a few weeks, both his fate as well as my own would be played out; for real.
R&R!!! This took me a while to write! Instant Messenger is such a distraction... and those cursed phones... I'm sorry if it was too sappy however I needed to get the really sappy part over with. Aim to please!!