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The next day the doctors let Jamie go home. A part of her didn't want to, she didn't want Landon to feel weird around her and with everything that's happening, she doesn't know how to act around him. She still can't go ten minutes without thinking of her horrible ordeal, she doesn't want Landon to worry but it's just to hard to get over it and move on.

Landon went to the hospital to go home with Jamie, he didn't want her to be alone, they both caught a cab out side. On the way home they were both silent. Either one of them knew what to say to each other and after last night Landon didn't want to say something that would make her cry.

" Well here we are." Landon said as he unlocked and opened the front door.

" Thanks." Jamie said as she walked into the living room.

" Do you want me to get you anything?" Landon asked as he shoved his hands in his jean pockets.

" No, I'm ok." Jamie said with a slight smile as she sat on the sofa.

" Jen called, she said she'll cover your shift till you're ready to go back." Landon explained as he sat on the chair in the living room corner not far from the sofa.

" I'm gonna go tonight." Jamie said, she had nothing else to do and she needed something to take her mind off of the rape. She also believed that maybe if she went back, it'll help ease her mind, that or help her lose her mind.

" Are you sure? It's not like you have to go back." Landon said, he didn't want her to go back to the same place she was raped. The thought of something happening again terrified him.

" Landon, I'll be okay. I need to go back to work, you don't have to worry about me." Jamie explained, she saw the look in his eyes. He has always been protective of her and she knew this must be hard on him as well.

" I can't stop you from going back to work, but that doesn't mean I won't worry about you." Landon said from the heart as he stared into her eyes.

" I know." Jamie said as she looked toward the ground. When they're eyes met all it did was remind her of how soon he would be gone and she won't have that safe feeling his eyes provided her.

" Are you alright?"

" Yeah, I was just thinking, you're gonna be gone soon. I don't wanna make you feel bad, but I hate this." Jamie said as she looked up from the ground and into his eyes, his we're filled with pain just like hers.

" I know, so do I." Landon said. He looked at this sad little girl before him he knew she had to be feeling more pain then him, all he wanted to do was pull her in a tight hug and never let go.

" Do you remember what happened last year?" Jamie asked as she continued to look into his eyes. There was something about the way they were looking at each other and the way she felt that reminded her of a time last year were things almost changed their friendship.

"Of course I remember." Landon said as he wondered why she would bring that up now of all times.

" Do you ever wonder what would have happened if we didn't stop?" Jamie hesitantly asked as she crossed her hands over her lap.

" Sometimes." Landon honesty said.

" So do I." Jamie said with a small smile as she felt her cheeks go hot from her blushing.

Last year, Landon and Jamie were home on a Saturday night, talking about how crazy people get about dating and sex. One thing lead to another and Landon kissed her, just to see what the fuss was about.

It got pretty far, but they both agreed that wasn't the best thing for their friendship.

Jamie stood from her seat on the sofa and said" I'm gonna go lay down." before she left to her room.

" Why did she bring that up?" Landon asked himself as he stood from the chair and made his way to the sofa.

Jamie couldn't sleep, every time she did, she replayed that night in her nightmares.

For some reason, that night last year is on her mind, she doesn't know why.

~ Flashback~

Landon walked into Jamie's room and said" Whatcha up to?" as he sat on the edge of her bed, as she laid down on her back.

" Laying down, what does it look like? This is what I do every Saturday night." Jamie joked as she looked up from her pillow and at Landon.

" Yup, we're not normal, we don't have dates and go out." Landon sarcastically said.

" I don't know what the big deal is." Jamie said as she sat up and put her legs under her.

" Yeah, why would you want to go out and have fun and maybe kiss someone or find someone that likes you for you." Landon said knowing the way he said that it came off very serious which it was. He had to stop lying to himself that he doesn't want a normal life with love and happiness.

" Is that what you want?" Jamie asked as she turned her head and examined his face for answers.

" I don't know… maybe. You've never thought of it?" Landon asked as he turned his head and met her eyes.

Jamie thought for a second before she decided to tell him this " I use to think when we were smaller that we would end up together. I would read these stories of prince charming and white knights and the only person that would fit that image is you but that was along time ago, it's stupid now." she explained as she stared down at her hands.

" It's not stupid to want to be happy." Landon said causing her to look back up into his eyes.

Everything changed so fast, from joking to very serious and intense. Their eyes were on each other, hearts began to race, the intense feeling of want and desire over took their bodies and mind.

" Maybe we should see what the big fuss is about." Landon suggested as he looked down at her lips.

" Yeah… like an experiment." Jamie said as they lean into each other.

" Yeah, an experiment." Landon whispered as his lips brushed against hers before they finally kissed.

He placed his hand on her waist, she placed hers on the side of his face.

Jamie leaned back with --her lips still on his-- till her back was against her pillows

She moaned slightly when she felt his hand slid under her top. She liked how he touched her, how his hand roamed her skin.

After a couple of minutes she pulled his shirt over his head. His mouth moved her hers to her neck, then down to the straps of her spaghetti strap tank top and bra, he slid the strap down her shoulders and began to kiss along her bare skin.

They stared into each others eyes before he kissed her again, as they kiss he pulled her back up so that now they're both sitting up.

" Landon." Jamie said after a minute as she realized what was happening and what could happen next.

" Yeah?" Landon asked in a breathless voice.

" Maybe we should stop." Jamie said with their foreheads touching, Landon understood why as he looked into her eyes.

~ End~

" It was only suppose to be a kiss." Landon said after remembering the same thing as Jamie. " I wanted her so bad, maybe I still do." Landon said to himself as Jamie came down stares.

" What are you thinking about so hard?" Jamie asked as she grabbed her jacket.

" You're going to work now?" Landon asked, avoiding her question.

" Yeah. I'll see you later." Jamie said as she left. She didn't know what else to say.

" I wish she'd listen to me and not go to work." Landon said after making sure she was gone.

Today is his day off, he went up to his room and grabbed his pad. Landon writes a lot of poems and played them on his guitar. After he grabbed his pad, he laid down stomach first on his bed and begins to write.

~ Poem~

More then she needs me

Her eyes, you see the pain.

Her mouth, you taste the sorrow.

The girl that walked into my life, so long ago.

Now I'm walking out of hers.

Nothing's how it use to be,

It's all a disaster.

She thinks I want to hurt her,

But all I do is love her.

I wasn't there for her when she needed me.

And now I won't be there when she needs me again.

I never meant for it to happen like this.

It hurts so much to leave.

It hurts so much to say goodbye.

So many emotions, sad ,anger, pain and hurt.

I cause so many for her, does she know I feel it to?

Does she know how much I love her?

Maybe it's for the best.

Maybe it's what needs to happen.

Those are lies I tell myself,

To make it okay.

But the truth is,

I need her more then she needs me.

" Oh my god! What are you doing here!?" Jen asked when she saw Jamie walk into the bar.

" I needed to do something to keep my mind busy." Jamie explained as best she could.

" How are you doing?" Jen asked with a worried face. Landon had told her what happened late last night when Jen called.

" I'm doing okay. I'm gonna go let Mike know I'm here." Jamie said as she started to walk toward the back room.

" Ok." Jen said as she watched Jamie leave.

" I didn't expect to see you here today." Mike said as Jamie walked into his office.

" Yeah, I needed to get out the house. I'm back to work like normal." Jamie explained as she crossed her arms over her chest as she stood in front of his disk.

" I'm glad, I didn't want to rush you but I need someone for tonight, Jen has to go." Mike explained as he continued to look at the papers on his disk.

" Don't worry, I'll cover for her." Jamie said as she turned to leave.

" Thanks strawberry." Mike said, causing her to freeze. " Is something wrong?" He asked seeing how fast she stopped. He was so wrapped in his work he didn't realize what he had said.

" No, it's nothing." Jamie quickly said as she walked out the office and closed the door behind her. She walked a little down the hall way before the actual bar and leaned against the wall with her heart beating against her chest as she came to the realization of what just happened " It was him, oh my god. It was him, he did this to me."

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AN: I hope you guys liked this chapter, review and let me know what you thought and be funny, was it long enough? LOL The next chapter should be up soon because I'm working on it: )

More then she needs me written by Isabelle.