Disclaimers: I don't own any of the characters.
A/N: Thank you guys for the reviews you've been making; the more I get, the more I am inspired because I know there are readers that is awaiting the next chapter of my story. This story I guess will only consist of ten chapters, but if I decide I could make it longer. I already have another story planned to post after or in the middle of this story. I'm so sorry if it took a long time to post this chapter, but I promise the next chapter will be much faster and longer.
Warning: Drama, but I don't think you'd need tissues. It's your choice if you wish to bring some. Aoshi's POV and Kaoru's will be alternated, but it will mostly be Kaoru's.
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Simple Truth
Chapter Three: Sorrow
(Aoshi)
Should I continue or leave us as is?
I hate to be the one to break her heart, but I wish not to hurt her more than I already have. Can life be crueler? Every time I see her, she tries to hide the pain she feels with a smile, but I could see through it.
I stay she'll be damned forever with all the sorrow I give to her. I can't stand it. Everything's my fault, but she is everything to me. How can I loose something that brings light in my darkened heart? I am at lost; I can't comprehend the things going inside my confused mind.
She'll understand, surely she will.
She seems to be enjoying the new restaurant, just bossing people around. I laugh at the memory of the first time she ever cooked for me, all the food she cooked were burned or undercooked but, nevertheless, she tried her best. It was our first kiss, that night.
I have decided.... I will continue on with my original plan.
I took out the folder that was on my office desk. I remembered the day Kaoru left to meet her sister; I forgot the folder on the nightstand, but was relieved when I found it unopened with Kaoru laid down on the bed asleep. It's been two-weeks already, and I still haven't decided; tonight I will tell Kaoru, I don't want to lead her to more misery. I want her to smile as bright as the sun. I took all of that away.
Knock, knock
"Come in."
"Sir Aoshi, here are the files that you wanted me to get, from the courthouse" said me assistant, and he handed me the folder. He left the room.
I looked over the papers, so she'd get practically half of everything. Money, the houses, and some business we joined together and .... child custody, something we don't have to get into. I closed the folder and placed it on top of the other folder. I headed out of the building, being the president I had a lot of pressure, and this problem will add more.
I have decided I will go on.
(Kaoru)
I am very jovial today, everything seems to go according to plan; Aoshi is changing. Today, he called and he told me he's coming home early. I had this weird feeling after the phone call, that it's not what I expected, but I just shrugged it off. Tonight I would tell him of my plans; I know he'd be just as excited as I am, with my idea.
I hear a knock on the door. I applied the finishing touched of my make-up; I prepared dinner tonight. I ran downstairs from the bathroom; when I opened the door I saw Aoshi, looking gloom. I knew something was up; I was scared to know it. He entered and I leaned over to give him a kiss on the cheeks, he walked pass me and told me to follow him. He was holding the same folder I found by the nightstand two weeks ago, with another folder.
I was led inside the living room, and when I entered Aoshi was already sitting; I sat on the chair across from him. This was not good news, we never had a serious talk; this would be the first.
"Aoshi what is it, is something wrong?" I asked him, even though I knew what the answer was. I needed to know.
"All your questions will be answered," and he handed me the folder that I found by the lamp.
I was hesitant to look; I dread what the answers were. Somehow, it wasn't right; it felt so wrong to look at something. I don't want to find out. Please keep it a secret. Make this night, our anniversary, not our last. Doesn't he remember? Oh God, not now, and not ever.
(Aoshi)
"What's this?" she asked me. The question I hoped she'd never ask.
Please don't make her cry. She's a bit cautious on whether to open the folder.
I looked at her, but not in the eye; I fear of what might come out of her eyes.
She opened the folder; she didn't say anything, no expression, only tears. Inside the folder is the cure or the beginning of her pain. In it will hold, maybe, my biggest mistake.
(Kaoru)
A divorce paper.
I couldn't speak or even look at him, and ask why. Why does life hate me so much? What have I done to deserve this?
"I..I, oh please no..." It was all I could say. I tried to understand it all, but nothing made sense. I looked at Aoshi, his eyes weren't the ocean anymore, and I was drowning. He looked so fearful, so scared. "Why?" I asked.
"I think it's the best."
Best for whom, I wanted to ask him?
"But...don't you love me anymore?"
I couldn't hear his answer, or he just didn't answer at all. I was crying so much that I couldn't even hear myself think. This is all a dream; the chant I keep telling myself even though I knew it wasn't. I mellowed down, enough to hear him say:
"Don't worry you'll get enough money to start a new life, a better one more likely."
I stood up and came up to him, and suddenly slapped him in his face. I've have a great amount of anger deep in me, that I just lessened with that one slap. He deserved it, more than anyone.
"How could you do this?" I asked him. "I loved you with all my life; gave you everything I am. Is this not enough? Am I not enough, or do you need someone else to fulfill you?" I spat at him.
"You'll understand soon, you'll see."
"No! I'll never understand; I deserve more than this shit you give to me."
"Kaoru will you please stop and listen to me."
"No you listen to me! I've done all I could to change you back, back to who you really were; the Aoshi I fell in love with, not this Aoshi."
You forgot everything already, I wanted to tell him. But, I realized there's no more changing of mind. This time, I will give in. I am too tired to even listen. "If this is what you want, then I guess all I could do is oblige." I finally gave in; I'm content to know that he's happy without me. I suppose I really was the thorn in his life.
I walked pass him, and headed towards the stairs; I'm going to pack the things I could bring, and just come back for the rest next time.
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I changed my clothes, to a pair of jeans and a plain white shirt. Aoshi was just sitting on a sofa with a glass of rum on his hand. I wiped all my tears away when I reached the bottom, he looked up and stood. I went up to him, and I took out the gift I was to give him this night; I handed him the gift and he looked at me curiously. I headed towards the door, and looked all around and stopped when I saw Aoshi looking at me.
"Happy anniversary." I announced and opened the door and stepped out. There were tears on my eyes as I closed the door and the door in my heart.
I got into my car; I didn't know where to go; I had no one except...Megumi!
I drove to her hotel, and I asked the clerk on the front desk which room she was on and he gave me the number, 522. I used the elevator, while inside I tried wiping away my tears; I didn't want Megumi to find out I was crying. I saw her room quickly and I knocked on it; she opened the door. She was wearing her robe, with a surprise look on her face when she saw me. I lunged myself to her and started to sob on her shoulder; I couldn't help it, it was all too much.
"Kaoru, what's wrong."
"Oh Megumi, I don't know what to do, I'm so confused." I admitted to her. She led me inside her room. "I'm so sorry for waking you up; you were the only one I could turn to."
"What happened? Tell me." She insisted.
"Aosh..Aoshi, he wants a divorce and I don't want to. I love him so much." I sobbed.
"Calm down I'm here, you're not alone. Shh, rest now tomorrow we'll talk." I lay down on the other bed. She got a two bed bedroom when it was only her staying in the hotel. Tonight I rest; tomorrow I will dwell on my problem. Megumi got into her bed, and resumed to sleeping. Aware of her sleeping form, I then submit to the feeling of peace, even though clouds of torment are over my head.
The next morning, both of us were quiet, not knowing which one to speak first. I couldn't stand the silence anymore, so I spoke up.
"We're getting divorce." The words that I hated to admit to me, is now being said to my sister who I never really liked. Ironic isn't it?
"Well... is, no. Have you two talked about it, I mean you're agreeing to it?"
"Do you think I have a choice? All I could do now is wait for a court hearing, and watch my life pass me by."
"Kaoru, I don't mean to impose but, you have to fight for what you want. I'm not just gonna stand here and watch your life be ruined," she said.
I have to admit she is right; I have already decided though, I am willing to give up everything if it means making him happy.
"I can't let myself live, knowing I made Aoshi this unhappy by keeping a marriage that wouldn't work anymore," I told her. I spoke my mind too soon.
"Kaoru, you have to fight; if you don't I will," she proclaimed.
I just stared at her, dumbfounded. This is the first time I've seen Megumi defend me, well not really the first. This is no time to reminisce about the past.
"Do you want to talk about it?" she asked.
I shook my head, but I wanted too.
"I will, but you promise you won't do anything?" Megumi nodded her head. This comes the hard part, explaining, possibly, revealing the whole truth about me.
"It was our anniversary yesterday, and that's when he decided to drop the bomb. I suppose he didn't remember, like his birthday. I ... I tried really hard but, he had already built a wall around him; I couldn't enter it. Before, we weren't like this; we always would tell each other everything, until the baby. I told myself that I would fight for this love we had, but now it doesn't make sense to me anymore
"I guess that's how he felt; cold and alone. Megumi please just let him be. If it makes him happier to be separated, then so be it."
"Fine, but where're you going to stay, because I'm not staying here for long; I'll be going back to Italy," Megumi informed me.
"I'll find a place, somewhere far from here."
"I'll help you look for a place while I'm still here. I don't want you just wondering around, looking for a place to stay the night at."
We had an agreement, and it was fine with both of us. Weeks after today, I never would have thought I'd need Megumi more than ever. I depend on her.
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A/N: Sorry for the short chapter. I posted this story while I'm still in Japan, using my cousin's laptop. The next chapter will be posted when I come back, which would be during early January. But if I get inspired by your reviews, then I'll update faster and have longer chapters. Thank you again for reading this story. ~Fateful~
A/N: Thank you guys for the reviews you've been making; the more I get, the more I am inspired because I know there are readers that is awaiting the next chapter of my story. This story I guess will only consist of ten chapters, but if I decide I could make it longer. I already have another story planned to post after or in the middle of this story. I'm so sorry if it took a long time to post this chapter, but I promise the next chapter will be much faster and longer.
Warning: Drama, but I don't think you'd need tissues. It's your choice if you wish to bring some. Aoshi's POV and Kaoru's will be alternated, but it will mostly be Kaoru's.
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Simple Truth
Chapter Three: Sorrow
(Aoshi)
Should I continue or leave us as is?
I hate to be the one to break her heart, but I wish not to hurt her more than I already have. Can life be crueler? Every time I see her, she tries to hide the pain she feels with a smile, but I could see through it.
I stay she'll be damned forever with all the sorrow I give to her. I can't stand it. Everything's my fault, but she is everything to me. How can I loose something that brings light in my darkened heart? I am at lost; I can't comprehend the things going inside my confused mind.
She'll understand, surely she will.
She seems to be enjoying the new restaurant, just bossing people around. I laugh at the memory of the first time she ever cooked for me, all the food she cooked were burned or undercooked but, nevertheless, she tried her best. It was our first kiss, that night.
I have decided.... I will continue on with my original plan.
I took out the folder that was on my office desk. I remembered the day Kaoru left to meet her sister; I forgot the folder on the nightstand, but was relieved when I found it unopened with Kaoru laid down on the bed asleep. It's been two-weeks already, and I still haven't decided; tonight I will tell Kaoru, I don't want to lead her to more misery. I want her to smile as bright as the sun. I took all of that away.
Knock, knock
"Come in."
"Sir Aoshi, here are the files that you wanted me to get, from the courthouse" said me assistant, and he handed me the folder. He left the room.
I looked over the papers, so she'd get practically half of everything. Money, the houses, and some business we joined together and .... child custody, something we don't have to get into. I closed the folder and placed it on top of the other folder. I headed out of the building, being the president I had a lot of pressure, and this problem will add more.
I have decided I will go on.
(Kaoru)
I am very jovial today, everything seems to go according to plan; Aoshi is changing. Today, he called and he told me he's coming home early. I had this weird feeling after the phone call, that it's not what I expected, but I just shrugged it off. Tonight I would tell him of my plans; I know he'd be just as excited as I am, with my idea.
I hear a knock on the door. I applied the finishing touched of my make-up; I prepared dinner tonight. I ran downstairs from the bathroom; when I opened the door I saw Aoshi, looking gloom. I knew something was up; I was scared to know it. He entered and I leaned over to give him a kiss on the cheeks, he walked pass me and told me to follow him. He was holding the same folder I found by the nightstand two weeks ago, with another folder.
I was led inside the living room, and when I entered Aoshi was already sitting; I sat on the chair across from him. This was not good news, we never had a serious talk; this would be the first.
"Aoshi what is it, is something wrong?" I asked him, even though I knew what the answer was. I needed to know.
"All your questions will be answered," and he handed me the folder that I found by the lamp.
I was hesitant to look; I dread what the answers were. Somehow, it wasn't right; it felt so wrong to look at something. I don't want to find out. Please keep it a secret. Make this night, our anniversary, not our last. Doesn't he remember? Oh God, not now, and not ever.
(Aoshi)
"What's this?" she asked me. The question I hoped she'd never ask.
Please don't make her cry. She's a bit cautious on whether to open the folder.
I looked at her, but not in the eye; I fear of what might come out of her eyes.
She opened the folder; she didn't say anything, no expression, only tears. Inside the folder is the cure or the beginning of her pain. In it will hold, maybe, my biggest mistake.
(Kaoru)
A divorce paper.
I couldn't speak or even look at him, and ask why. Why does life hate me so much? What have I done to deserve this?
"I..I, oh please no..." It was all I could say. I tried to understand it all, but nothing made sense. I looked at Aoshi, his eyes weren't the ocean anymore, and I was drowning. He looked so fearful, so scared. "Why?" I asked.
"I think it's the best."
Best for whom, I wanted to ask him?
"But...don't you love me anymore?"
I couldn't hear his answer, or he just didn't answer at all. I was crying so much that I couldn't even hear myself think. This is all a dream; the chant I keep telling myself even though I knew it wasn't. I mellowed down, enough to hear him say:
"Don't worry you'll get enough money to start a new life, a better one more likely."
I stood up and came up to him, and suddenly slapped him in his face. I've have a great amount of anger deep in me, that I just lessened with that one slap. He deserved it, more than anyone.
"How could you do this?" I asked him. "I loved you with all my life; gave you everything I am. Is this not enough? Am I not enough, or do you need someone else to fulfill you?" I spat at him.
"You'll understand soon, you'll see."
"No! I'll never understand; I deserve more than this shit you give to me."
"Kaoru will you please stop and listen to me."
"No you listen to me! I've done all I could to change you back, back to who you really were; the Aoshi I fell in love with, not this Aoshi."
You forgot everything already, I wanted to tell him. But, I realized there's no more changing of mind. This time, I will give in. I am too tired to even listen. "If this is what you want, then I guess all I could do is oblige." I finally gave in; I'm content to know that he's happy without me. I suppose I really was the thorn in his life.
I walked pass him, and headed towards the stairs; I'm going to pack the things I could bring, and just come back for the rest next time.
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I changed my clothes, to a pair of jeans and a plain white shirt. Aoshi was just sitting on a sofa with a glass of rum on his hand. I wiped all my tears away when I reached the bottom, he looked up and stood. I went up to him, and I took out the gift I was to give him this night; I handed him the gift and he looked at me curiously. I headed towards the door, and looked all around and stopped when I saw Aoshi looking at me.
"Happy anniversary." I announced and opened the door and stepped out. There were tears on my eyes as I closed the door and the door in my heart.
I got into my car; I didn't know where to go; I had no one except...Megumi!
I drove to her hotel, and I asked the clerk on the front desk which room she was on and he gave me the number, 522. I used the elevator, while inside I tried wiping away my tears; I didn't want Megumi to find out I was crying. I saw her room quickly and I knocked on it; she opened the door. She was wearing her robe, with a surprise look on her face when she saw me. I lunged myself to her and started to sob on her shoulder; I couldn't help it, it was all too much.
"Kaoru, what's wrong."
"Oh Megumi, I don't know what to do, I'm so confused." I admitted to her. She led me inside her room. "I'm so sorry for waking you up; you were the only one I could turn to."
"What happened? Tell me." She insisted.
"Aosh..Aoshi, he wants a divorce and I don't want to. I love him so much." I sobbed.
"Calm down I'm here, you're not alone. Shh, rest now tomorrow we'll talk." I lay down on the other bed. She got a two bed bedroom when it was only her staying in the hotel. Tonight I rest; tomorrow I will dwell on my problem. Megumi got into her bed, and resumed to sleeping. Aware of her sleeping form, I then submit to the feeling of peace, even though clouds of torment are over my head.
The next morning, both of us were quiet, not knowing which one to speak first. I couldn't stand the silence anymore, so I spoke up.
"We're getting divorce." The words that I hated to admit to me, is now being said to my sister who I never really liked. Ironic isn't it?
"Well... is, no. Have you two talked about it, I mean you're agreeing to it?"
"Do you think I have a choice? All I could do now is wait for a court hearing, and watch my life pass me by."
"Kaoru, I don't mean to impose but, you have to fight for what you want. I'm not just gonna stand here and watch your life be ruined," she said.
I have to admit she is right; I have already decided though, I am willing to give up everything if it means making him happy.
"I can't let myself live, knowing I made Aoshi this unhappy by keeping a marriage that wouldn't work anymore," I told her. I spoke my mind too soon.
"Kaoru, you have to fight; if you don't I will," she proclaimed.
I just stared at her, dumbfounded. This is the first time I've seen Megumi defend me, well not really the first. This is no time to reminisce about the past.
"Do you want to talk about it?" she asked.
I shook my head, but I wanted too.
"I will, but you promise you won't do anything?" Megumi nodded her head. This comes the hard part, explaining, possibly, revealing the whole truth about me.
"It was our anniversary yesterday, and that's when he decided to drop the bomb. I suppose he didn't remember, like his birthday. I ... I tried really hard but, he had already built a wall around him; I couldn't enter it. Before, we weren't like this; we always would tell each other everything, until the baby. I told myself that I would fight for this love we had, but now it doesn't make sense to me anymore
"I guess that's how he felt; cold and alone. Megumi please just let him be. If it makes him happier to be separated, then so be it."
"Fine, but where're you going to stay, because I'm not staying here for long; I'll be going back to Italy," Megumi informed me.
"I'll find a place, somewhere far from here."
"I'll help you look for a place while I'm still here. I don't want you just wondering around, looking for a place to stay the night at."
We had an agreement, and it was fine with both of us. Weeks after today, I never would have thought I'd need Megumi more than ever. I depend on her.
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A/N: Sorry for the short chapter. I posted this story while I'm still in Japan, using my cousin's laptop. The next chapter will be posted when I come back, which would be during early January. But if I get inspired by your reviews, then I'll update faster and have longer chapters. Thank you again for reading this story. ~Fateful~