Abby walked out to the Admit desk, still in a daze. How could this be? How could she be back where she was almost, what was it, two, three years ago now when she found out that Carter liked her. That was even before they kissed. That was before the time when they were locked in the hospital together. Before they ever.... well, it was before a lot of things.
How could this be though? She actually pinched herself to make sure she wasn't dreaming. No she wasn't. She remembered getting up that morning, her alarm going off. This was real. For the first time in the past three months she was tempted to go smoke. She had done everything to quit, and she had finally found something that worked. But she knew that if she did smoke, she would be back where she started. So she grabbed a patients chart.
A little old lady in curtain one. Complaining of back pain and neck pain. Easy enough she thought.
"Hi Mrs. Loyard, my name is Dr. Lockhart," she felt so great saying that. Even though it has been over three weeks since she first did. It still made her feel a sense of pride.
"Oh, aren't you the pretty one." Mrs. Loyard replied.
"Thank you," Abby smiled, she never thought she was the great looking, but it was always nice to hear it. "So can you tell me what is wrong, Mrs. Loyard?
"I have been having constant pain in my lower back and neck recently." ----------
The rest of the night passed pretty much the same way. A few traumas came in , it was a unusually slow night. Abby considered herself lucky. Thins had been going smoothly, no one had died yet. At least not under her care. There was one guy who kept bothering her though. He was a usual druggie looking for pain meds. He kept complaining of leg pain. She found any excuse to avoid him.
Abby was surprised when she looked at the clock and realized it was almost ten. She only had about an 15 minutes left. Things had gone so fast. Which was surprising, normally night shifts can drag on forever. She realized that Carter was most likely coming in at ten. She hadn't really thought about what he said, or what she even felt. She had manaeged to keep busy so she wouldn't have to dwell on the subject. Maybe if I see him I'll know what I feel.
Abby had no idea why she was so confused. She had spent the last year almost missing him. Watching him when he came back with Kem. Wondering if he had never left, she would be int he same place as Kem. Pregnant with Carter's child. Maybe they would even be married. It was times like those that she found herself the saddest. She didn't have to deal with her family right now. She couldn't be happier about that. Maggie was finally setting a good example for Eric, hey were both on their meds. Things had been going smoothlyt. She was back in med school, she graduated, she was a doctor. She couldn't be happier. Well, no. That was a lie. If she had Carter then she couldn't be happier.
It had been torture waiting for him to return. The origionally why she went back to med school. So when he came back he could see how much she had changed. But then he came ack with Kem, and she was pregnant. She had spent the next two weeks in shock. She managed to keep a good face though, but inside she was breaking, and she cried herself to sleep every night.
Some how she managed to accept it. To keep going. She never stopped loving him. That was true. She never stopped caring. So then why was she so confused, why wasn't she over joyed at the letter he had written her. She didn't know. Maybe if she saw him she would know how she truely felt.
Suddenly from behind her, a hand grabbed over her mouth and pulled her back against a body. He was holding her tight to him. He reeked of urine and liquor. He was whispering in her ear.
"If you scream, if you make any sudden movements. I will stab you."
Thats when she felt a sharp point scalple sticking into the ribs, not piercing the skin, just there, as a warning. She knew the voice too. She had heard him yeling enough to kknow the voice. It was the druggie from earlier. The one who wanted the pain meds. Complaining about his leg. He was slowly dragging him with her, forcing her to walk. They wen't up the stairs in the ER. Abby was wondering why no one noticed. Why no one was doing anything. He dragged her up the stairs and along a long corridor to a fire escape. The one that over looked the ambulance bay. He pushed the door open and was standing there. Abby was pressed against the metal bars that seperated her from the cement 80 feet below. She knew if he dropped her. She could easily break her back, or worse die.
It was whispering to her again. "Look beneath you, what do you see?
"Umm..... I see, an ambulance, and some people walking, I see Dr. Lewis, I see..... ummm, I see....... Carter!
Abby saw him slowly walking into the ambulance bay. Thats when it all came rushing back. Everything. She loved him. Maybe more now than she ever had before. She had to tell him. She had to tell him she felt the same way.
"Well get a good look. This is the last thing you will ever see.
He slowly lifted her up, and placed her over the bar on the fire escape. She was dangling there. He was holding her just under her armpits. Abby let out a small scream. She was about to die. She knew it. He was going to drop her. She was going to die and Carter would never know how she felt. She knew things had gone to smoothly that day, something had to go wrong. And it was.
Susan and Carter had been talking below. Then looked up at the fire escape when they heard the scream.
"Oh my God." Susan couldn't believe what she was seeing. There was Abby, being dangled over the fire escape.
"Say goodbye," he whispered in Abby's ear.
And with that he dropped her. Abby couldn't tell what happened at first. Things were going so slowly. She saw the ambluance drive out of the bay, she saw Chen walking out of the ER. She saw Carter, he was running towards her. The suddenly she realized she was falling,
slowly she was falling.
down,
down..................
How could this be though? She actually pinched herself to make sure she wasn't dreaming. No she wasn't. She remembered getting up that morning, her alarm going off. This was real. For the first time in the past three months she was tempted to go smoke. She had done everything to quit, and she had finally found something that worked. But she knew that if she did smoke, she would be back where she started. So she grabbed a patients chart.
A little old lady in curtain one. Complaining of back pain and neck pain. Easy enough she thought.
"Hi Mrs. Loyard, my name is Dr. Lockhart," she felt so great saying that. Even though it has been over three weeks since she first did. It still made her feel a sense of pride.
"Oh, aren't you the pretty one." Mrs. Loyard replied.
"Thank you," Abby smiled, she never thought she was the great looking, but it was always nice to hear it. "So can you tell me what is wrong, Mrs. Loyard?
"I have been having constant pain in my lower back and neck recently." ----------
The rest of the night passed pretty much the same way. A few traumas came in , it was a unusually slow night. Abby considered herself lucky. Thins had been going smoothly, no one had died yet. At least not under her care. There was one guy who kept bothering her though. He was a usual druggie looking for pain meds. He kept complaining of leg pain. She found any excuse to avoid him.
Abby was surprised when she looked at the clock and realized it was almost ten. She only had about an 15 minutes left. Things had gone so fast. Which was surprising, normally night shifts can drag on forever. She realized that Carter was most likely coming in at ten. She hadn't really thought about what he said, or what she even felt. She had manaeged to keep busy so she wouldn't have to dwell on the subject. Maybe if I see him I'll know what I feel.
Abby had no idea why she was so confused. She had spent the last year almost missing him. Watching him when he came back with Kem. Wondering if he had never left, she would be int he same place as Kem. Pregnant with Carter's child. Maybe they would even be married. It was times like those that she found herself the saddest. She didn't have to deal with her family right now. She couldn't be happier about that. Maggie was finally setting a good example for Eric, hey were both on their meds. Things had been going smoothlyt. She was back in med school, she graduated, she was a doctor. She couldn't be happier. Well, no. That was a lie. If she had Carter then she couldn't be happier.
It had been torture waiting for him to return. The origionally why she went back to med school. So when he came back he could see how much she had changed. But then he came ack with Kem, and she was pregnant. She had spent the next two weeks in shock. She managed to keep a good face though, but inside she was breaking, and she cried herself to sleep every night.
Some how she managed to accept it. To keep going. She never stopped loving him. That was true. She never stopped caring. So then why was she so confused, why wasn't she over joyed at the letter he had written her. She didn't know. Maybe if she saw him she would know how she truely felt.
Suddenly from behind her, a hand grabbed over her mouth and pulled her back against a body. He was holding her tight to him. He reeked of urine and liquor. He was whispering in her ear.
"If you scream, if you make any sudden movements. I will stab you."
Thats when she felt a sharp point scalple sticking into the ribs, not piercing the skin, just there, as a warning. She knew the voice too. She had heard him yeling enough to kknow the voice. It was the druggie from earlier. The one who wanted the pain meds. Complaining about his leg. He was slowly dragging him with her, forcing her to walk. They wen't up the stairs in the ER. Abby was wondering why no one noticed. Why no one was doing anything. He dragged her up the stairs and along a long corridor to a fire escape. The one that over looked the ambulance bay. He pushed the door open and was standing there. Abby was pressed against the metal bars that seperated her from the cement 80 feet below. She knew if he dropped her. She could easily break her back, or worse die.
It was whispering to her again. "Look beneath you, what do you see?
"Umm..... I see, an ambulance, and some people walking, I see Dr. Lewis, I see..... ummm, I see....... Carter!
Abby saw him slowly walking into the ambulance bay. Thats when it all came rushing back. Everything. She loved him. Maybe more now than she ever had before. She had to tell him. She had to tell him she felt the same way.
"Well get a good look. This is the last thing you will ever see.
He slowly lifted her up, and placed her over the bar on the fire escape. She was dangling there. He was holding her just under her armpits. Abby let out a small scream. She was about to die. She knew it. He was going to drop her. She was going to die and Carter would never know how she felt. She knew things had gone to smoothly that day, something had to go wrong. And it was.
Susan and Carter had been talking below. Then looked up at the fire escape when they heard the scream.
"Oh my God." Susan couldn't believe what she was seeing. There was Abby, being dangled over the fire escape.
"Say goodbye," he whispered in Abby's ear.
And with that he dropped her. Abby couldn't tell what happened at first. Things were going so slowly. She saw the ambluance drive out of the bay, she saw Chen walking out of the ER. She saw Carter, he was running towards her. The suddenly she realized she was falling,
slowly she was falling.
down,
down..................