Disclaimer: Neon genesis Evangelion is not mine... wish it was though... Anyway... this is my first published story in English... It's random and really emotive, the result of listening to melancholic music while reading Rei & Kaworu pairings all day... hope ya like it ppl...
Nara Starr
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I'm confused... I hate being confused... I feel hopeless and aggravated... human feelings...
Something happened... but I can't remember... why can't I remember!?
Why am I still alive? Why?
I read and re-read my I.D... my information, my history... me...
Rei Ayanami...
First child...
14 years...
Designed pilot of Eva, prototype 00...
Me... this is me...
I always thought nothing could make me forget this... because it is my past, my present and my future...
I thought nothing would make me change my mind... that I would always be sure of myself and what I an commanded to do...
But he did...
...
Kaworu Nagisa...Fifth child...
14 years...
Replacement pilot of Eva, type 02...
and also...
the last angel...
Tabris...
...
...Why?
Why him?
Why, of all the people that surround me and walk about me...
Why him?
He said we where the same...
But I know that is not true...
Or... do I?
I don't understand...
WHY DON'T I UNDERSTAND???
...
I'm scared...
Scared of what I feel inside...
Not my emotions...it's not that...
I'm scared...for him...
Because I know what he is...
Because I know what I feel...
Because I know what he is going to do...
And I can't stop him...
Why? why? why?
...
I...I don't want him to go...
I don't want to be alone again...
He...he is my doubt...
My dream...
My wish...
My angel...
Kaworu...
My Kaworu...
And I can't stop wondering...
If he feel's the same for me...
If he shares my sadness...
If he...if he...
If he will miss me, as much as I will...
How can he...with his crimson eyes and his silver hair...
Affect me so much in so little time?
I...don't know...
...
I wish I could stop you from doing what you have to do...
But I can't...
But...I don't want to see you go...
So...there is only one thing I can do...
Go with you...
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I'm sorry...Shinji...
Asuka...
Misato...
Commander...
But this is my wish...
I really hope it comes true...
...
Please Kaworu...please wait for me...I'm coming with you...
I'm coming home...
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Nara: It's so random...
Kaworu: Publish it...
Nara: Why?
Kaworu: (grin) Why not?
Nara: Dunno... should I wait for the others to read it???
Kaworu: Mmmmm... not a good idea...
Nara: Yes... ur right... did you like it?
Kaworu: It's very you... when your acting normal... I liked it very much...
Nara: (smile) Thanks!!!
Please review... I know it is weird... it is missing graphical images and it is mostly emotional... but I still want to know if it sucks...
Dedicated to Daniel... my very own angel...