A/N: No, I do not own any of the mediator series, Meg Cabot does... BUT ONLY BECAUSE SHE THOUGHT OF IT FIRST!!! J/K

OK, here's the story... lemme know what u think!

P.S. This takes place a little after 'Haunted'

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~~Suze's POV~~

Jesse's gone.

We kissed in the graveyard that one time, and basically told me he loved me, and I haven't seen or heard from him since.

It's been 2 weeks, 5 hours and 47 minutes.

~~Jesse's POV~~

Oh, Susannah,

I love you so much... I hope you care enough to forgive me, and accept this.

I've always known what was holding me back, but I wanted to see what happened in the future.

I'm very glad I did, because I found love. With you, of course. Querida, this is for the best, I'm undeserving of you.

I'm dead, and you're alive, and beautiful, and you're the most perfect thing I've ever laid eyes on.

I'm sure you'll find someone else.

All My Love,

Jesse DeSilva

P.S. Don't cry for me. I love you, but I don't want to hold you back from the living.

I materialized in Susannah's room after writing the letter, to find her asleep. She's so beautiful. Her beautiful head of chestnut hair contrasting with her pillow... Her beautiful, full lips that feel so good against mine... Her perfect, clear, emerald green eyes... That are looking right at me! Nombre de Dios! Mierda!

I quickly hid the letter.

"Hello Susannah, how are you?"

"Jesse, WHERE HAVE YOU BEEN?"

Her voice was filled with pain and love. For me. I can't leave her... But, I can't stop her from living either.

"I've been around..." I said, sitting on her bed, around her waist. I absent-mindedly stroked her hand...

"Where is 'around', Jesse? Where do you go all the time? Do you do it just to torment me? I love you!"

"I lo... Susannah."

"What, Jesse?" her eyes were filling up with tears...

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A/N: What do u think? It's my first Mediator fic, so be nice! It's just the beginning, I already have the basic plot, I just want to see what you think of this. If u like it, lemme know. I need... oh, lets say.. 4 reviews to write again, okay? Can you do that for me? Thanks!

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