Fake Smile
Disclaimer: Yaa, yaa I don't own gravitation just shove it copyright dudes
Part 1:
No one knows me, they just do not understand...my life is not all sugar and candy. Being a pop star is hard and causes me a lot of stress. I only reverse the way I feel. When I am sad I smile, I do not wish to make those around me feel sad or hurt, but these things are to hard. I wonder If I am being fake, by not showing my true personality am I being two-faced. I hurt but I hide it so no one knows. There are many people in my life but no matter who they are, they do not know who I am, they do not know the real Ryuichi.
As I said I have many people in my life, but no matter how many there are I am always truly alone. My heart aches for a true loved one. I am like a hopeless child to all of them. Shuichi says I am his god. But he really doesn't understand. I care for him alot but I would switch lives with him any day to have someone who cares for me so much.
Tatsuha idolizes me but he too thinks of me as cute little Ryuichi. That's not who I am. I have a friendship with him, yet I can not be his submissive. I am a 31-year-old man and Tatsuha is only 16, he's not any older than Shuichi so does he really understand love? Or is it just some fantasy to be with me? K-San has also been my manager for a while but I truly know nothing about him. He took me to America and I had alot of fun, but he seemed like a temporary companion.
Yuki, I know even less about him but I do realize he hurts Shuichi alot, yet Shu always gives him more love. I wish I had someone to hold me at nights.
Tohma has Mika and Suguru, Shuichi has Yuki, and Hiro has Ayeka. But who does Ryuichi have behind this fake smile. No one. I want not to bee looked upon as a child yet I have a habitual tendency to do so. I don't know why it hurts so bad to be alone. I felt even worse when Shuichi thought I hated him; it made me feel as if I hated myself. I was jealous and wanted the spotlight thats why I was angry, That's why I told him to beat it. I was wrong. And here I am...where am I now. Still alone, behind my fake smiles.
A/N: Tell me if you liked it, I will also kindly accept flames, just let me know how ya' feel. If you like it enough there will be a second chapter and so on. So mabey I can say To Be Continued. Owari
Disclaimer: Yaa, yaa I don't own gravitation just shove it copyright dudes
Part 1:
No one knows me, they just do not understand...my life is not all sugar and candy. Being a pop star is hard and causes me a lot of stress. I only reverse the way I feel. When I am sad I smile, I do not wish to make those around me feel sad or hurt, but these things are to hard. I wonder If I am being fake, by not showing my true personality am I being two-faced. I hurt but I hide it so no one knows. There are many people in my life but no matter who they are, they do not know who I am, they do not know the real Ryuichi.
As I said I have many people in my life, but no matter how many there are I am always truly alone. My heart aches for a true loved one. I am like a hopeless child to all of them. Shuichi says I am his god. But he really doesn't understand. I care for him alot but I would switch lives with him any day to have someone who cares for me so much.
Tatsuha idolizes me but he too thinks of me as cute little Ryuichi. That's not who I am. I have a friendship with him, yet I can not be his submissive. I am a 31-year-old man and Tatsuha is only 16, he's not any older than Shuichi so does he really understand love? Or is it just some fantasy to be with me? K-San has also been my manager for a while but I truly know nothing about him. He took me to America and I had alot of fun, but he seemed like a temporary companion.
Yuki, I know even less about him but I do realize he hurts Shuichi alot, yet Shu always gives him more love. I wish I had someone to hold me at nights.
Tohma has Mika and Suguru, Shuichi has Yuki, and Hiro has Ayeka. But who does Ryuichi have behind this fake smile. No one. I want not to bee looked upon as a child yet I have a habitual tendency to do so. I don't know why it hurts so bad to be alone. I felt even worse when Shuichi thought I hated him; it made me feel as if I hated myself. I was jealous and wanted the spotlight thats why I was angry, That's why I told him to beat it. I was wrong. And here I am...where am I now. Still alone, behind my fake smiles.
A/N: Tell me if you liked it, I will also kindly accept flames, just let me know how ya' feel. If you like it enough there will be a second chapter and so on. So mabey I can say To Be Continued. Owari