A Moment of Weakness
Electra sat at the dressing table deciding weather or not to wear her hair up, as Sirius paced up and down the room behind her getting even more impatient with her because he wanted to get going. He stopped behind her and sat on the edge of the stole and wrapped his arms around her, she smiled at him which he saw through the mirror.
"So what's wrong?" Sirius asked her. "I know it's more then what to do with your hair because it's fine the way it is now."
"It's nothing really Sirius." Electra told him.
"Is it that git Snape?" Sirius asked letting go of her and standing up suddenly, Electra turned round and smiled at him.
"Sirius relax it isn't him, I'm fine...really." Electra told him holding his hand; she pulled him to her and kissed him.
"Maybe we should in, what do you say?" Sirius asked her as he pulled away briefly; she nodded in agreement; so he wrapped his arms around her picking her up and carrying her to the bed.
Next morning they both went down to breakfast, Sirius sat next to Remus yawning a lot as Severus glared at him but of course he was too tired to know what he was doing.
"Where were the two of you last night?" Remus asked.
"We decided to stay in together." Sirius said smiling and wrapping his arms around Electra and kissing her deeply.
This was too much for Severus he pushed his chair back and stormed out of the hall which no one paid any attention to part from Electra, he had avoided her ever since she had been to his office; she wished that he didn't but she knew that he hated to see them together and now she was rubbing it in his face.
"I don't need to know about what you get up to and I don't need to see you kissing my sister at breakfast." Remus told him.
"Hey maybe we should set you up with someone." Sirius suggested suddenly.
"Oh, I've already arranged something for Easter." Electra said making them both look at her. "Me and you and Remus and a friend, it'll be great."
"Wait a minute, how long have you been planning this for?" Remus asked her.
"Not that long, a month or so." Electra said off handled. "Don't worry I would have told you, well when we were walking into the pub perhaps."
Sirius was beside himself; he slapped Remus on the back and wrapped his arm around his shoulder.
"She's great isn't she?" Sirius told him. "Well I know that you already know that, we all do...well I'm looking forward to this even if you're not Moony."
"Oh you'll have a great time just wait." Electra told him smiling. "It's going to be great."
It was coming up to the Easter holidays, Electra had sorted Remus' blind date out it was all set for the Saturday evening. She just had a couple of thing's to do during the day first in the library.
She was in the back of the library; none of the students were up yet just how she had wanted it to be so that she had the whole library to herself so she could get her work done without any distractions, well that was what you she thought.
Electra was sat at the table facing the wall with a large window over head and the whole table covered with books, when someone walked up behind her and tapped her on the shoulder; she jumped up so fast and pulled out her wand as she turned round.
"I'm sorry I didn't mean to startle you." Severus said.
"Oh, right." Electra said lowering her wand and sitting back down, as Severus stayed standing looking over the books she had. "Were you looking for me?"
"Of course not...though I am surprised to see you here I surprised that your not up in your room with Black." Severus said, which made Electra smile at him.
"I had work to do; he's to much of a distractions." Electra told him. "And...erm I'm sorry about the other day."
"Why?" Severus asked. "The two of you are married after all you can do what ever you like to one another can't you?"
"Severus." Electra said, she stood up pushing her chair back slightly. "Why are you really here?"
Severus looked at her and then looked around them, at the tables at the bookshelves and then back at Electra.
"You this is it." Severus told her.
"What's it?" Electra asked confused by his statement.
"This is really where I realised that I liked you." Severus told her, Electra moved slightly away from him but he didn't try to come any nearer to her. "Did you ever see me as anything but a greasy haired kid your brother and boyfriend and friends bullied?"
"What? Of course I did." Electra told him. "I never approved what they did to you, I hated what they did to you, but I couldn't stop them...I...I don't know...I don't know what you want from me."
"Don't you, don't you really?" Severus said as he stepped forward but she didn't back away from him, as he touched her face softly. "You know that I could never have anyone like you, it's always people like Black and his friends who end up with the beautiful and intelligent girls, they don't me a second glance; even you, you never really saw me for me."
She looked up into his eyes they didn't seem as empty and cruel as normal, but warm and full of want, why hadn't she seen it before it had always been there but she had never seen it until now until she was so close to him; his eyes were so over powering but she still looked into them willed herself to looked at him and not turn away from him.
He lent forward and kissed her lips softly closing his eyes before he lead back up and opened them again, he looked into Electra's face; her eyes were also closed but also seemed as though she was waiting for more. But when he took his hand away from her face she opened her eyes and watched him walk away. But he didn't get more then three foot away before he turned round and took her into his arms and kissed her like he had never kissed anyone before as though his whole life depended upon kissing her, as though this was his only chance to be ever able to kiss her.
Electra pushed him back off of her, she looked at him for a moment, looked into those eyes of his as he stepped forward and wrapped his arms around her and she fellow into him and rested her head onto his shoulder and he held her tightly. He lifted her head softly and kissed her; she touched his face and kissed him back.
She stumbled backwards into the table, he picked her up and rested her on the table; breaking away from her lips he brushed all of the books off of the table and started to undo the buttons to his robes. Electra pulled him closer and kissed him as she helped him to unfasten his robes and hers.
***
Severus lay on top of Electra, he rolled over and pulled her onto him, he smiled up at her and she smiled down at him as he wrapped his arms around her.
"Electra...I...I love you." Severus whispered and kissed her again.
She looked at him, the words hitting her in the face; what had she done?
"I'm...I'm sorry." Electra said getting up suddenly and grabbing the first thing she came to which was his robe and wrapped it around her, but he stood up in front of her naked she turned away but he turned her back round to face him.
"What, do I degust you that much?" Severus demanded holding her tightly, she closed her eyes she couldn't look at him, it wasn't him it was what she had done. "Well then?"
"Severus...I'm..." Electra tried to say but he pushed her away from him, she almost dropped his robes; he just stood there watching her as she quickly picked her clothes up and dressed and gave him his robe without looking him in the face and then ran out of the library, she looked back when she reached the door but of course she couldn't see him now.
Electra ran up the corridor, once she had gone up two floors she stopped and sank to the floor and cried what had she done, why had she done it? What was she supposed to do now go up and see Sirius and pretend that nothing at all had happened and go out with them all tonight and pretend that nothing at all had happened; she couldn't do that; and what if Remus caught on? He had that werewolf sense thingy, he had picked up on the first time her and Sirius had done it, god how was she going to get through tonight?
She stood up slowly and wiped her face, and walked as calmly as she could back up to her room; there were a few students up now. She tried to avoid looking at them as though they could tell if they looked at her what she had just done.
***
God Electra had no idea how she had gotten through the day, but she wasn't going to get through the night as easily; she had already had a couple of showers and was now having another. She jumped as she felt arms wrap around her.
"Hey, it's just me." Sirius whispered. "I thought that we might share a shower for once, what do you say?"
Electra smiled at him as he lent in and kissed her; god what was she doing?
They walked into The Three Broomsticks together arm in arm, with Remus in front, they looked around trying to pick out who Electra had brought for him but they couldn't see anyone.
"Go and get the drinks in you two, and then come and join us." Electra told them both as she pushed them towards the bar and went over to Tonks.
She sat down next to her and smiled at her, as she took in her appearance.
"Tonks will you change into your normal self." Electra told her.
"Oh right sorry." Tonks said changing back. "I just didn't want him coming over." She pointed over to the table in the back corner; Electra looked over trying not to be seen. She couldn't believe it, it was Severus and it looked as though he was getting himself slowly drank.
"How long as he been in here?" Electra asked as she turned back round.
"Don't know, he was here before I arrived." Tonks told her.
"Here're the drinks." Sirius said brightly. "Oh hey Tonks."
"What?" Remus said staring at her as she smiled at him.
"Hey Remus, Sirius." Tonks said smiling at them both as they sat down on either side of her.
Electra looked over at Severus again; he threw an empty glass on the floor and ordered another. Both Sirius and Remus looked over at him, and then back at one another.
"God what's wrong with him, he doesn't normally drink does he?" Remus said.
"He's been here since before I arrived." Tonks told him.
"Who cares?" Sirius said off handled, but he couldn't help look over again when he heard another glass shatter.
"Tonks can I have a word?" Electra said suddenly standing up, they all looked at her.
"Ok you're not in school now, you don't have to go off to the toilets to talk now." Sirius told her, she only smiled at him slightly as Tonks stood up and followed her over.
Ad they past Severus table he got up and grabbed her by the wrist pulling her towards him, both Remus and Sirius jumped to their feet.
"I would have given you everything you have always wanted." Severus told her, and then let go of her and fell back into his seat.
Electra looked at him and then quickly grabbed hold of Tonks and pulled her away, they went into the back into the toilets to talk.
"God he's a mess isn't he?" Tonks said as she closed the door.
"Oh god Tonks, what the hell have I done?" Electra said as she sank to the ground, Tonks looked at her as she started to cry holding herself.
She didn't know what to do, she didn't know everything, she didn't really know that much part from that she had been kidnapped; she looked down at her friend. She bent down and put her arms around her, but it didn't seem to help; she stood up and went back out and straight over to Remus and Sirius.
"Hey where's Electra?" Sirius asked her.
"Well...erm...she's in the toilets...Sirius I just don't know." Tonks said.
Sirius didn't need details he was on his feet in a flash and rushed across the room and into the toilets, he slowly opened the doors and saw her there on the floor crying he didn't know why, he didn't care as he walked over to her and sank down to the ground beside her and wrapped his arms around her bringing her safe into his arms; but even that didn't seem to help as it normally did, it just seemed to make her worst.
"Electra pleased...I can't help you if you don't tell me what's wrong." Sirius told her, but she still didn't answer him.
He somehow managed to get her to her feet and use the fire to get back to the school leaving Tonks and Remus alone together, he sat her down on the sofa and then sat down on the opposite chair.
"Personally I could of thought of a better way then to leave them together." Sirius said trying to get a smile out of her but it didn't work. "Electra please, come on...tell me what's wrong...is it Snape...something he said when he stopped you?"
Electra looked up at him, tears still falling down her face.
"I'm...I'm...sorry..." Electra said. "I...can't believe that I did it...I'm...sorry Sirius...I...and him...I'm sorry."
Sirius got up and came over to sit next to her, he tried to wrap his arms around her but she wouldn't let him near her.
"Electra, it's alright it wasn't your fault." Sirius told her.
"But...but it was...I slept with him...I had sex with him." Electra said as she turned away from him crying, but Sirius moved over and wrapped his arms around her this time not letting her go.
"It wasn't your fault, it was what he gave you...we've been over this before...stop blaming yourself." Sirius told her. "I'll talk to him in the morning to leave you alone."
"NO...no please don't." Electra said suddenly turning around to face him.
Sirius nodded, but he was still going to talk with him.
(A/N: what do you think? Hoped you liked that, was it what you were expecting? Well I know that you were kind of expecting Sweet Lory Black, but there's still more come its going to get better.
I think I out did myself tonight, two chapter's in two hours; not bad really, well hopefully I'll be able to get on the internet to upload it for you.
Oh thanks for all the reviews again so far, like I said, haven't been getting emails so I don't know if anyone's reviews or not but I'll say thanks because I do normally get one or two.)
Electra sat at the dressing table deciding weather or not to wear her hair up, as Sirius paced up and down the room behind her getting even more impatient with her because he wanted to get going. He stopped behind her and sat on the edge of the stole and wrapped his arms around her, she smiled at him which he saw through the mirror.
"So what's wrong?" Sirius asked her. "I know it's more then what to do with your hair because it's fine the way it is now."
"It's nothing really Sirius." Electra told him.
"Is it that git Snape?" Sirius asked letting go of her and standing up suddenly, Electra turned round and smiled at him.
"Sirius relax it isn't him, I'm fine...really." Electra told him holding his hand; she pulled him to her and kissed him.
"Maybe we should in, what do you say?" Sirius asked her as he pulled away briefly; she nodded in agreement; so he wrapped his arms around her picking her up and carrying her to the bed.
Next morning they both went down to breakfast, Sirius sat next to Remus yawning a lot as Severus glared at him but of course he was too tired to know what he was doing.
"Where were the two of you last night?" Remus asked.
"We decided to stay in together." Sirius said smiling and wrapping his arms around Electra and kissing her deeply.
This was too much for Severus he pushed his chair back and stormed out of the hall which no one paid any attention to part from Electra, he had avoided her ever since she had been to his office; she wished that he didn't but she knew that he hated to see them together and now she was rubbing it in his face.
"I don't need to know about what you get up to and I don't need to see you kissing my sister at breakfast." Remus told him.
"Hey maybe we should set you up with someone." Sirius suggested suddenly.
"Oh, I've already arranged something for Easter." Electra said making them both look at her. "Me and you and Remus and a friend, it'll be great."
"Wait a minute, how long have you been planning this for?" Remus asked her.
"Not that long, a month or so." Electra said off handled. "Don't worry I would have told you, well when we were walking into the pub perhaps."
Sirius was beside himself; he slapped Remus on the back and wrapped his arm around his shoulder.
"She's great isn't she?" Sirius told him. "Well I know that you already know that, we all do...well I'm looking forward to this even if you're not Moony."
"Oh you'll have a great time just wait." Electra told him smiling. "It's going to be great."
It was coming up to the Easter holidays, Electra had sorted Remus' blind date out it was all set for the Saturday evening. She just had a couple of thing's to do during the day first in the library.
She was in the back of the library; none of the students were up yet just how she had wanted it to be so that she had the whole library to herself so she could get her work done without any distractions, well that was what you she thought.
Electra was sat at the table facing the wall with a large window over head and the whole table covered with books, when someone walked up behind her and tapped her on the shoulder; she jumped up so fast and pulled out her wand as she turned round.
"I'm sorry I didn't mean to startle you." Severus said.
"Oh, right." Electra said lowering her wand and sitting back down, as Severus stayed standing looking over the books she had. "Were you looking for me?"
"Of course not...though I am surprised to see you here I surprised that your not up in your room with Black." Severus said, which made Electra smile at him.
"I had work to do; he's to much of a distractions." Electra told him. "And...erm I'm sorry about the other day."
"Why?" Severus asked. "The two of you are married after all you can do what ever you like to one another can't you?"
"Severus." Electra said, she stood up pushing her chair back slightly. "Why are you really here?"
Severus looked at her and then looked around them, at the tables at the bookshelves and then back at Electra.
"You this is it." Severus told her.
"What's it?" Electra asked confused by his statement.
"This is really where I realised that I liked you." Severus told her, Electra moved slightly away from him but he didn't try to come any nearer to her. "Did you ever see me as anything but a greasy haired kid your brother and boyfriend and friends bullied?"
"What? Of course I did." Electra told him. "I never approved what they did to you, I hated what they did to you, but I couldn't stop them...I...I don't know...I don't know what you want from me."
"Don't you, don't you really?" Severus said as he stepped forward but she didn't back away from him, as he touched her face softly. "You know that I could never have anyone like you, it's always people like Black and his friends who end up with the beautiful and intelligent girls, they don't me a second glance; even you, you never really saw me for me."
She looked up into his eyes they didn't seem as empty and cruel as normal, but warm and full of want, why hadn't she seen it before it had always been there but she had never seen it until now until she was so close to him; his eyes were so over powering but she still looked into them willed herself to looked at him and not turn away from him.
He lent forward and kissed her lips softly closing his eyes before he lead back up and opened them again, he looked into Electra's face; her eyes were also closed but also seemed as though she was waiting for more. But when he took his hand away from her face she opened her eyes and watched him walk away. But he didn't get more then three foot away before he turned round and took her into his arms and kissed her like he had never kissed anyone before as though his whole life depended upon kissing her, as though this was his only chance to be ever able to kiss her.
Electra pushed him back off of her, she looked at him for a moment, looked into those eyes of his as he stepped forward and wrapped his arms around her and she fellow into him and rested her head onto his shoulder and he held her tightly. He lifted her head softly and kissed her; she touched his face and kissed him back.
She stumbled backwards into the table, he picked her up and rested her on the table; breaking away from her lips he brushed all of the books off of the table and started to undo the buttons to his robes. Electra pulled him closer and kissed him as she helped him to unfasten his robes and hers.
***
Severus lay on top of Electra, he rolled over and pulled her onto him, he smiled up at her and she smiled down at him as he wrapped his arms around her.
"Electra...I...I love you." Severus whispered and kissed her again.
She looked at him, the words hitting her in the face; what had she done?
"I'm...I'm sorry." Electra said getting up suddenly and grabbing the first thing she came to which was his robe and wrapped it around her, but he stood up in front of her naked she turned away but he turned her back round to face him.
"What, do I degust you that much?" Severus demanded holding her tightly, she closed her eyes she couldn't look at him, it wasn't him it was what she had done. "Well then?"
"Severus...I'm..." Electra tried to say but he pushed her away from him, she almost dropped his robes; he just stood there watching her as she quickly picked her clothes up and dressed and gave him his robe without looking him in the face and then ran out of the library, she looked back when she reached the door but of course she couldn't see him now.
Electra ran up the corridor, once she had gone up two floors she stopped and sank to the floor and cried what had she done, why had she done it? What was she supposed to do now go up and see Sirius and pretend that nothing at all had happened and go out with them all tonight and pretend that nothing at all had happened; she couldn't do that; and what if Remus caught on? He had that werewolf sense thingy, he had picked up on the first time her and Sirius had done it, god how was she going to get through tonight?
She stood up slowly and wiped her face, and walked as calmly as she could back up to her room; there were a few students up now. She tried to avoid looking at them as though they could tell if they looked at her what she had just done.
***
God Electra had no idea how she had gotten through the day, but she wasn't going to get through the night as easily; she had already had a couple of showers and was now having another. She jumped as she felt arms wrap around her.
"Hey, it's just me." Sirius whispered. "I thought that we might share a shower for once, what do you say?"
Electra smiled at him as he lent in and kissed her; god what was she doing?
They walked into The Three Broomsticks together arm in arm, with Remus in front, they looked around trying to pick out who Electra had brought for him but they couldn't see anyone.
"Go and get the drinks in you two, and then come and join us." Electra told them both as she pushed them towards the bar and went over to Tonks.
She sat down next to her and smiled at her, as she took in her appearance.
"Tonks will you change into your normal self." Electra told her.
"Oh right sorry." Tonks said changing back. "I just didn't want him coming over." She pointed over to the table in the back corner; Electra looked over trying not to be seen. She couldn't believe it, it was Severus and it looked as though he was getting himself slowly drank.
"How long as he been in here?" Electra asked as she turned back round.
"Don't know, he was here before I arrived." Tonks told her.
"Here're the drinks." Sirius said brightly. "Oh hey Tonks."
"What?" Remus said staring at her as she smiled at him.
"Hey Remus, Sirius." Tonks said smiling at them both as they sat down on either side of her.
Electra looked over at Severus again; he threw an empty glass on the floor and ordered another. Both Sirius and Remus looked over at him, and then back at one another.
"God what's wrong with him, he doesn't normally drink does he?" Remus said.
"He's been here since before I arrived." Tonks told him.
"Who cares?" Sirius said off handled, but he couldn't help look over again when he heard another glass shatter.
"Tonks can I have a word?" Electra said suddenly standing up, they all looked at her.
"Ok you're not in school now, you don't have to go off to the toilets to talk now." Sirius told her, she only smiled at him slightly as Tonks stood up and followed her over.
Ad they past Severus table he got up and grabbed her by the wrist pulling her towards him, both Remus and Sirius jumped to their feet.
"I would have given you everything you have always wanted." Severus told her, and then let go of her and fell back into his seat.
Electra looked at him and then quickly grabbed hold of Tonks and pulled her away, they went into the back into the toilets to talk.
"God he's a mess isn't he?" Tonks said as she closed the door.
"Oh god Tonks, what the hell have I done?" Electra said as she sank to the ground, Tonks looked at her as she started to cry holding herself.
She didn't know what to do, she didn't know everything, she didn't really know that much part from that she had been kidnapped; she looked down at her friend. She bent down and put her arms around her, but it didn't seem to help; she stood up and went back out and straight over to Remus and Sirius.
"Hey where's Electra?" Sirius asked her.
"Well...erm...she's in the toilets...Sirius I just don't know." Tonks said.
Sirius didn't need details he was on his feet in a flash and rushed across the room and into the toilets, he slowly opened the doors and saw her there on the floor crying he didn't know why, he didn't care as he walked over to her and sank down to the ground beside her and wrapped his arms around her bringing her safe into his arms; but even that didn't seem to help as it normally did, it just seemed to make her worst.
"Electra pleased...I can't help you if you don't tell me what's wrong." Sirius told her, but she still didn't answer him.
He somehow managed to get her to her feet and use the fire to get back to the school leaving Tonks and Remus alone together, he sat her down on the sofa and then sat down on the opposite chair.
"Personally I could of thought of a better way then to leave them together." Sirius said trying to get a smile out of her but it didn't work. "Electra please, come on...tell me what's wrong...is it Snape...something he said when he stopped you?"
Electra looked up at him, tears still falling down her face.
"I'm...I'm...sorry..." Electra said. "I...can't believe that I did it...I'm...sorry Sirius...I...and him...I'm sorry."
Sirius got up and came over to sit next to her, he tried to wrap his arms around her but she wouldn't let him near her.
"Electra, it's alright it wasn't your fault." Sirius told her.
"But...but it was...I slept with him...I had sex with him." Electra said as she turned away from him crying, but Sirius moved over and wrapped his arms around her this time not letting her go.
"It wasn't your fault, it was what he gave you...we've been over this before...stop blaming yourself." Sirius told her. "I'll talk to him in the morning to leave you alone."
"NO...no please don't." Electra said suddenly turning around to face him.
Sirius nodded, but he was still going to talk with him.
(A/N: what do you think? Hoped you liked that, was it what you were expecting? Well I know that you were kind of expecting Sweet Lory Black, but there's still more come its going to get better.
I think I out did myself tonight, two chapter's in two hours; not bad really, well hopefully I'll be able to get on the internet to upload it for you.
Oh thanks for all the reviews again so far, like I said, haven't been getting emails so I don't know if anyone's reviews or not but I'll say thanks because I do normally get one or two.)