Title: Life's a Bitch
Chapter Three: They never said.
The next morning Lily woke up at 5:30 in the morning, she got ready and woke Fettie up. "Come on Fettie. You have to get up, we have to train. The next match is in two days and we haven't practiced for 2 months. Get up right now!"
Fettie groaned, "Damn Lily. You don't have to be so loud, I'm up." Lily rolled her eyes and pulled Fettie out of bed because she was about to fall back onto the bed. "AHHH! Ok, fine I'll really go get ready." Lily smirked.
When Fettie was ready, they pulled Fettie's bed away from the wall and she placed her palm on wall where there was a little star only visible enough for her to see. The star glowed a deep midnight blue, and then the part where the bed covered slid opened.
Inside looked like a basement. Their was a punching bag, swords, pillows, long sticks, a boom box and tons of CD's on the top, a pole like in ballet classes, and lots of boxes that contained a lot more weapons. This was Fettie's training room.
Lily has one behind her bed too, but they decided to use Fettie's today. Except that Lily's contained different weapons. They didn't want to have the same weapons in each room so that they have a variety. They made this room. Fettie found a spell in one of her father's books. No one knows about this. They wanted this so they could train because their room was too small and they had two other roommates.
"OK, which CD do you want to listen while training today?" Lily inquired. Fettie just shrugged and went over to one of the boxes and took out two mats. Lily shook her head and just put in Simple Plan's CD. Lily and Fettie warmed up
After that they went over to the little closet they had and took out a suit. They put it on, went over to the wall that hung all the swords they had. Lily and Fettie each grabbed a sword went over to the center of the room. They bowed to each other and did their beginning stance. "One." {Lily}
"Two." {Fettie}
"THREE!" {Both}
They began to sword fight.
After they were finished with their match, Lily looked t her watch and gasped. "Fettie, we have one hour before classes start. We have to go run our eight laps now, and then come back take a shower, and head to breakfast. Let's go now." Lily exclaimed.
Fettie rolled her eyes, "We have an hour to do that. It takes up about thirty-five minutes to do our laps, and then we have twenty-five minutes to get ready. Plus, you and I already have our backpacks. All we have to do is take a shower. We well make it. Breathe."
"Whatever. Let's just go and run our laps."
Lily and Fettie put their stuff back and headed to the Quidditch field.
~*~*~ Great Hall
When Lily and Fettie finished their training, they quickly took a shower, got dressed and left for the Great Hall. As soon as they reached the doors of the Great Hall, James stormed out. Lily and Fettie shrugged. "It's probably something with McGonagall." Lily stated.
They walked in and saw Sirius, Remus, and Peter crowed around a letter. Lily and Fettie rapidly ran over to see what it was about. Lily snatched the letter out of Sirius's hand, "Hey."
"Shut up Sirius" Fettie snapped. Lily skimmed over the letter, dropped it when she reached a point where she just couldn't take anymore and ran out of the Great Hall, tears wanting to stream out of her eyes, but she held it in. Fettie picked up the letter and whispered it quietly to the other three Marauders.
"'Dear Mr. Potter,
We are sorry to inform you that your parents have been assassinated by he-whom-must-not-be-named. We are deeply sorry for your lost. However your little sister, Christiana, was not home when he-whom-must-not-be-named attacked. She was luckily at her friend's house.
We suggest that you go and see her as soon as possible for she is at her friend's house crying. They have generously accepted Christiana into their home.
We are truly sorry for your lost.'"
Department of Mysteries,
Angelina Jones
"Oh god, James. I feel so sorry for him." Fettie said. "Well, he never actually loved his parents to death. I mean he loved them yes, but they were never home with him in the summer. They were always on business trips, or at the Ministry working, or just elsewhere. It was like they never wanted to be with him. He was usually at my house or we were with Remus, or you." Sirius explained.
"I'm just happy that Chrissie is alright, or else James would've killed himself. He loves her; he would do anything for her. Every where he went he would take her. He never swore in her face, and if we did he would scold us then tell her to never say it. He never told her to shut up, come to think of it, he never actually yelled at her before. He would just say it with a stern face, but still he would say it gently." Remus informed.
"Come on you guys, let's go back to the common room and wait for them." {Fettie}
"What about eating? {Sirius}
"Padfoot, James is really down in the dumps right now." {Remus}
"Huh? Prongs isn't in the dumpster. Is he?" {Sirius}
Remus and Fettie rolled their eyes and said, "He's just really upset right now." Sirius's eyes lit up, "Well, why didn't you tell me? I have to go and comfort him now." Remus and Fettie started to laugh; count on Sirius to lighten in the moment up. "Come on you brainless wonder." Fettie said as she pushed Sirius.
~*Lily and James*~
Lily skimmed the letter, dropped the letter when she reached the point where she just could read anymore and ran out of the Great Hall. Lily's first thought of where James could be was in the Astronomy Tower. Lily dashed past the students and teachers in the hall, sometimes stepping on their foot.
Lily rapidly ran up the stairs to the Astronomy Tower and dashed through the door. She looked around wildly; she spotted in a little corner of the room a figure with really messy mob of hair. Lily sighed in relief.
Lily walked over to him knowing it was James. "James, are you ok?" Lily asked softly. James didn't respond. Lily sat down next to him and hugged him. "I'm so sorry James." He blinked, and then wrapped his arms around her.
She held on to him, whispering comforting words. When they broke apart James just stared into the sky and said, "It's not your fault what happened to them. It's not anyone's fault but theirs."
"James, don't say-" Lily was cut off.
"Yes it is. They were never there for me when I needed them, never there for me, never tucked me in bed at night, never said I love you to me. Not once did they say that. Come to think of it no one had ever said that to me. They never hugged me, or kissed me. Probably when I was young yeah, but not when I was older.
It was like I was a mistake to them. Like I should have never been born, I wish I wasn't. I wish that just once, just once they would see me for who I am. Not just as a prankster in school, always getting into trouble but yet getting good grades. They never saw me for who I am."
Lily was on the edge of tears, "James, I'm really sorry that no one ever tucked you in at night, no one there for you, no one hugged you, or kissed you. But there is one thing I want to say to you, and I've wanted to say it for a long time, I love you."
James turned to Lily, "You're just saying that because I told you that no one ever said it to me."
"No James, I really do. You may not have known this, but I've loved you for a long time. I know a lot about you. I know that you love Quidditch, that you want to be a Quidditch player when you grow up. I know that you're not a player, that your favorite color is silver and green. I know that you love your sister. I know a whole lot of things you don't think I know about you. I love a lot of things about you, and I would like to get to know you."
James stared at Lily, "How do you know all those things about me?"
"Because I've liked you for a long time." Lily blushed.
James smiled. "I liked you for a long time too."
"But, you can't tell anyone."
"Why?"
"Because, you just can't."
"Because I can't?"
"Yes! I wasn't even supposed to tell you."
"Why not, is it because of your adoptive parents?"
Lily gasped, "How do you know about that?"
"I just do. I can't tell you, let's just put this behind us ok?"
Lily was about to argue but thought that since he said 'put this behind us' that he meant that he wouldn't tell anyone and that he'll just forget about it. Lily nodded.
"Let's go back to the common room. I bet everyone's worried about you." Lily whispered.
James looked at her confused, but agreed.
They walked back in silence.
~! Dorms !~
Later that night Lily tried to go to bed but kept twisted and turning. She knew that she wasn't going to be able to sleep tonight because of what had happened with James.
Lily sighed and got out of bed. "Maybe a nice cup of hot chocolate would put me to bed." Lily whispered to herself.
She put on her robe and slipped into her slippers. She silently crept out of the dorm and went down to the kitchens. She ordered her cup of hot chocolate to go and headed back to the common room to sit and think.
Did I do the right thing about not telling James that I was adopted? Lily thought. Yeah of course I did. But how did he already know. Maybe he doesn't, but then again he questioned me if it was about my adoptive parents. In mid thought Lily heard something. She put down her cup of chocolate and lay down on the floor.
The person turned on the light, "Lily? I know you're here." The person whispered. "James?" Lily inquired as she got up.
"Yeah it's me. What are you doing on the floor?"
"Oh, uh well I thought that you were someone else. I didn't want to get caught."
"Oh."
"Yeah-"
"Lily, I want to thank you for everything that you've done for me."
"Huh?"
"Yeah, you were always there for me. When my fish died in first year, when I had couldn't ask Mandy out in second, when I got dumped by Mandy in third, when I got school suspension for ten days in forth, when I had no one to turn to when Remus and Sirius was mad at me in fifth, and now you're here for me when my parents just died in my sixth year."
"No problem. Anytime."
They remained in silence for a while then James spoke, "Do you want to tell me about your parents? It feels better if you would tell someone other than Fettie."
Lily shrugged, "I don't want to bore you with my stupid life story."
"No one's life is stupid. Everyone was born for a reason. Maybe you haven't found out yet, but everyone is. Just because life's a bitch, doesn't mean that you can't change that."
Lily looked at James and smiled. "I don't know James, maybe I will, but not tonight. I'm really tired."
"You will tell me."
"I don't-"
"You will tell me."
"James I-"
"You will tell me."
Lily gave in and said, "I will tell you, when the times comes or when I feel up to telling you."
"I win."
"Whatever you want James, whatever you want."
"Wait one minute, I'll be right back, I have to get something."
Lily looked at him with a confused expression, but nodded.
Two minutes later James came down with two towels.
Lily was about to say something, but James bet her to it. "It's a mirror; it's like those muggle talkie walkies -walkie talkies? - Yeah those. All you have to do is look into it; say my name and mine will start to vibrate. When I feel it I will look at it and see your face and then we will be able to talk."
James unwrapped the towel and a silver framed mirror came out of it. He gave the mirror to Lily. "So if you want to tell me about it, you can contact me. Sirius and I use these when we aren't in the same room. You can tell me about your story even if it is at midnight or in the early hours in the morning. I don't care, just the fact that you tell me will be good."
Lily shook her head but smiled. "Alright James, I have to go to bed. We have classes tomorrow."
"Okie dokie."
Lily got up and headed to the girls dorm. "Good night."
"'Night."
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I know this chapter is really cheesy but hey Rome wasn't built in the day. I think. Well anyways still tell me what you think.
Oh and thanks to the person who corrected me, Evans not Evens. Thanks, I had a feeling that I was spelling it wrong. I'm really lazy to go back and look for who told me but you know who you are. I'll post it on the next chapter. Peace out!
~AtwistedAngel13~
Chapter Three: They never said.
The next morning Lily woke up at 5:30 in the morning, she got ready and woke Fettie up. "Come on Fettie. You have to get up, we have to train. The next match is in two days and we haven't practiced for 2 months. Get up right now!"
Fettie groaned, "Damn Lily. You don't have to be so loud, I'm up." Lily rolled her eyes and pulled Fettie out of bed because she was about to fall back onto the bed. "AHHH! Ok, fine I'll really go get ready." Lily smirked.
When Fettie was ready, they pulled Fettie's bed away from the wall and she placed her palm on wall where there was a little star only visible enough for her to see. The star glowed a deep midnight blue, and then the part where the bed covered slid opened.
Inside looked like a basement. Their was a punching bag, swords, pillows, long sticks, a boom box and tons of CD's on the top, a pole like in ballet classes, and lots of boxes that contained a lot more weapons. This was Fettie's training room.
Lily has one behind her bed too, but they decided to use Fettie's today. Except that Lily's contained different weapons. They didn't want to have the same weapons in each room so that they have a variety. They made this room. Fettie found a spell in one of her father's books. No one knows about this. They wanted this so they could train because their room was too small and they had two other roommates.
"OK, which CD do you want to listen while training today?" Lily inquired. Fettie just shrugged and went over to one of the boxes and took out two mats. Lily shook her head and just put in Simple Plan's CD. Lily and Fettie warmed up
After that they went over to the little closet they had and took out a suit. They put it on, went over to the wall that hung all the swords they had. Lily and Fettie each grabbed a sword went over to the center of the room. They bowed to each other and did their beginning stance. "One." {Lily}
"Two." {Fettie}
"THREE!" {Both}
They began to sword fight.
After they were finished with their match, Lily looked t her watch and gasped. "Fettie, we have one hour before classes start. We have to go run our eight laps now, and then come back take a shower, and head to breakfast. Let's go now." Lily exclaimed.
Fettie rolled her eyes, "We have an hour to do that. It takes up about thirty-five minutes to do our laps, and then we have twenty-five minutes to get ready. Plus, you and I already have our backpacks. All we have to do is take a shower. We well make it. Breathe."
"Whatever. Let's just go and run our laps."
Lily and Fettie put their stuff back and headed to the Quidditch field.
~*~*~ Great Hall
When Lily and Fettie finished their training, they quickly took a shower, got dressed and left for the Great Hall. As soon as they reached the doors of the Great Hall, James stormed out. Lily and Fettie shrugged. "It's probably something with McGonagall." Lily stated.
They walked in and saw Sirius, Remus, and Peter crowed around a letter. Lily and Fettie rapidly ran over to see what it was about. Lily snatched the letter out of Sirius's hand, "Hey."
"Shut up Sirius" Fettie snapped. Lily skimmed over the letter, dropped it when she reached a point where she just couldn't take anymore and ran out of the Great Hall, tears wanting to stream out of her eyes, but she held it in. Fettie picked up the letter and whispered it quietly to the other three Marauders.
"'Dear Mr. Potter,
We are sorry to inform you that your parents have been assassinated by he-whom-must-not-be-named. We are deeply sorry for your lost. However your little sister, Christiana, was not home when he-whom-must-not-be-named attacked. She was luckily at her friend's house.
We suggest that you go and see her as soon as possible for she is at her friend's house crying. They have generously accepted Christiana into their home.
We are truly sorry for your lost.'"
Department of Mysteries,
Angelina Jones
"Oh god, James. I feel so sorry for him." Fettie said. "Well, he never actually loved his parents to death. I mean he loved them yes, but they were never home with him in the summer. They were always on business trips, or at the Ministry working, or just elsewhere. It was like they never wanted to be with him. He was usually at my house or we were with Remus, or you." Sirius explained.
"I'm just happy that Chrissie is alright, or else James would've killed himself. He loves her; he would do anything for her. Every where he went he would take her. He never swore in her face, and if we did he would scold us then tell her to never say it. He never told her to shut up, come to think of it, he never actually yelled at her before. He would just say it with a stern face, but still he would say it gently." Remus informed.
"Come on you guys, let's go back to the common room and wait for them." {Fettie}
"What about eating? {Sirius}
"Padfoot, James is really down in the dumps right now." {Remus}
"Huh? Prongs isn't in the dumpster. Is he?" {Sirius}
Remus and Fettie rolled their eyes and said, "He's just really upset right now." Sirius's eyes lit up, "Well, why didn't you tell me? I have to go and comfort him now." Remus and Fettie started to laugh; count on Sirius to lighten in the moment up. "Come on you brainless wonder." Fettie said as she pushed Sirius.
~*Lily and James*~
Lily skimmed the letter, dropped the letter when she reached the point where she just could read anymore and ran out of the Great Hall. Lily's first thought of where James could be was in the Astronomy Tower. Lily dashed past the students and teachers in the hall, sometimes stepping on their foot.
Lily rapidly ran up the stairs to the Astronomy Tower and dashed through the door. She looked around wildly; she spotted in a little corner of the room a figure with really messy mob of hair. Lily sighed in relief.
Lily walked over to him knowing it was James. "James, are you ok?" Lily asked softly. James didn't respond. Lily sat down next to him and hugged him. "I'm so sorry James." He blinked, and then wrapped his arms around her.
She held on to him, whispering comforting words. When they broke apart James just stared into the sky and said, "It's not your fault what happened to them. It's not anyone's fault but theirs."
"James, don't say-" Lily was cut off.
"Yes it is. They were never there for me when I needed them, never there for me, never tucked me in bed at night, never said I love you to me. Not once did they say that. Come to think of it no one had ever said that to me. They never hugged me, or kissed me. Probably when I was young yeah, but not when I was older.
It was like I was a mistake to them. Like I should have never been born, I wish I wasn't. I wish that just once, just once they would see me for who I am. Not just as a prankster in school, always getting into trouble but yet getting good grades. They never saw me for who I am."
Lily was on the edge of tears, "James, I'm really sorry that no one ever tucked you in at night, no one there for you, no one hugged you, or kissed you. But there is one thing I want to say to you, and I've wanted to say it for a long time, I love you."
James turned to Lily, "You're just saying that because I told you that no one ever said it to me."
"No James, I really do. You may not have known this, but I've loved you for a long time. I know a lot about you. I know that you love Quidditch, that you want to be a Quidditch player when you grow up. I know that you're not a player, that your favorite color is silver and green. I know that you love your sister. I know a whole lot of things you don't think I know about you. I love a lot of things about you, and I would like to get to know you."
James stared at Lily, "How do you know all those things about me?"
"Because I've liked you for a long time." Lily blushed.
James smiled. "I liked you for a long time too."
"But, you can't tell anyone."
"Why?"
"Because, you just can't."
"Because I can't?"
"Yes! I wasn't even supposed to tell you."
"Why not, is it because of your adoptive parents?"
Lily gasped, "How do you know about that?"
"I just do. I can't tell you, let's just put this behind us ok?"
Lily was about to argue but thought that since he said 'put this behind us' that he meant that he wouldn't tell anyone and that he'll just forget about it. Lily nodded.
"Let's go back to the common room. I bet everyone's worried about you." Lily whispered.
James looked at her confused, but agreed.
They walked back in silence.
~! Dorms !~
Later that night Lily tried to go to bed but kept twisted and turning. She knew that she wasn't going to be able to sleep tonight because of what had happened with James.
Lily sighed and got out of bed. "Maybe a nice cup of hot chocolate would put me to bed." Lily whispered to herself.
She put on her robe and slipped into her slippers. She silently crept out of the dorm and went down to the kitchens. She ordered her cup of hot chocolate to go and headed back to the common room to sit and think.
Did I do the right thing about not telling James that I was adopted? Lily thought. Yeah of course I did. But how did he already know. Maybe he doesn't, but then again he questioned me if it was about my adoptive parents. In mid thought Lily heard something. She put down her cup of chocolate and lay down on the floor.
The person turned on the light, "Lily? I know you're here." The person whispered. "James?" Lily inquired as she got up.
"Yeah it's me. What are you doing on the floor?"
"Oh, uh well I thought that you were someone else. I didn't want to get caught."
"Oh."
"Yeah-"
"Lily, I want to thank you for everything that you've done for me."
"Huh?"
"Yeah, you were always there for me. When my fish died in first year, when I had couldn't ask Mandy out in second, when I got dumped by Mandy in third, when I got school suspension for ten days in forth, when I had no one to turn to when Remus and Sirius was mad at me in fifth, and now you're here for me when my parents just died in my sixth year."
"No problem. Anytime."
They remained in silence for a while then James spoke, "Do you want to tell me about your parents? It feels better if you would tell someone other than Fettie."
Lily shrugged, "I don't want to bore you with my stupid life story."
"No one's life is stupid. Everyone was born for a reason. Maybe you haven't found out yet, but everyone is. Just because life's a bitch, doesn't mean that you can't change that."
Lily looked at James and smiled. "I don't know James, maybe I will, but not tonight. I'm really tired."
"You will tell me."
"I don't-"
"You will tell me."
"James I-"
"You will tell me."
Lily gave in and said, "I will tell you, when the times comes or when I feel up to telling you."
"I win."
"Whatever you want James, whatever you want."
"Wait one minute, I'll be right back, I have to get something."
Lily looked at him with a confused expression, but nodded.
Two minutes later James came down with two towels.
Lily was about to say something, but James bet her to it. "It's a mirror; it's like those muggle talkie walkies -walkie talkies? - Yeah those. All you have to do is look into it; say my name and mine will start to vibrate. When I feel it I will look at it and see your face and then we will be able to talk."
James unwrapped the towel and a silver framed mirror came out of it. He gave the mirror to Lily. "So if you want to tell me about it, you can contact me. Sirius and I use these when we aren't in the same room. You can tell me about your story even if it is at midnight or in the early hours in the morning. I don't care, just the fact that you tell me will be good."
Lily shook her head but smiled. "Alright James, I have to go to bed. We have classes tomorrow."
"Okie dokie."
Lily got up and headed to the girls dorm. "Good night."
"'Night."
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I know this chapter is really cheesy but hey Rome wasn't built in the day. I think. Well anyways still tell me what you think.
Oh and thanks to the person who corrected me, Evans not Evens. Thanks, I had a feeling that I was spelling it wrong. I'm really lazy to go back and look for who told me but you know who you are. I'll post it on the next chapter. Peace out!
~AtwistedAngel13~